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NO LONGER ON THIS SITE....BYE BYE... |
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Update: I am having a bit of a break from this site as getting a bit disheartened with it all at present to be honest, so sorry to those I normally chat to on here but I just dont feel like coming on here. Will update soon. |
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I AM NOT SEEKING MALE SUBMISSIVES so if you are male the only way you will have anything to do with me, aside from platonic friendship on collarme (nowhere else), is as part of a couple or if you are a convincing transvestite, other than that you must be female or transgendered to be considered for more than collarme messages...This is my personal choice as I prefer women to men at the best of times but especially when I am not looking for anything more than FRIENDSHIP WITH LIKEMINDED PEOPLE AS I HAVE FOUND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND HER NAME IS JEMMA (JEMMAPETSISSY). She is transgendered not male and we met and had a relationship before we discovered bdsm!!! |
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Well Jemma now has 3 days off so hopefully we should get the chance to have some fun!! We have a trip out planned on Thursday night/Friday morning so that Jemma can go out fully dressed without the risk of anyone she knows seeing her.
We will take a drive over to the town centre where I live and take a short walk before going back to Jemma's house. It should be a worthwhile activity as it will get Jemma outdoors again, dressed fully.
Will write an update on that and anything else that happens. Should be getting the waist clincher this Friday too, so lots to look forward to!! :) |
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Just had a message from yet another idiot...who actually said she scams money out of people...and I asked me if I was making enough money out of this site and did I want to make more...Oh my god...talk about missing the fucking point...*sighs*
and another one...this one was a cut and paste special...not even attempted to read my profile...*YAWN*
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I tried making my profile more specific but still got messages from idiots as well as my very few friends on here so no point as only ends up scaring off any decent people that might exist on this site *sighs* |
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*sighs* the longer I spend on here the more disillusioned I am becoming with this site. Nobody reads anybodys profiles, nobody bothers to write decent messages...
I am starting to think this site is just for pro dominants to advertise their services, for daydreamers who cant function in normal society and people who get off on starting arguments...
Profile after profile of rudeness...pointless on a site like this where nobody reads the profiles or are just looking for an excuse to start a fight.
When I first joined naive old me thought that putting a nice friendly profile up was the way to attract friends...BOY WAS I WRONG!!!.
Now I have been reduced to putting down such stringent requirements for people that message me that there's virtually no point in being on here because the non profile readers are not going to notice and still keep sending me crap and the decent ones are going to be put off, thinking I am some kind of arsehole...
"well why are you here?!" I hear you cry...because some part of me still believes in human decency...laughable after coming on here...and because bdsm sites are in painfully limited supply...
Thats what makes is so sad for those genuine lifestyle people who want to make likeminded friends and build a bdsm community in their area...
Might have to resort to joining a pay site like alt.com, if thats the only way I am going to meet likeminded people.
I didnt want to spew this kind of bitter diatribe but I am feeling very sad and frustrated tonight because of this site...if it wasnt for my partner, Jemma chatting to me I dont knowe how I would cope with the stupidity of it all...PLEASE PEOPLE PROVE ME WRONG!!! |
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Just thought I would add another little update here as I had a fabulous night with Jemma last night! Not only did she get dressed up and looked just lovely, which is enjoyable enough in itself but I had the opportunity to use my new strap on an let's just say it was a total success and we both enjoyed it very much. All the worries I had amounted to nothing as it went smoothly, although I will have to find a more comfortable position than the one I used last night!! Was a great deal of fun!! I hope to be trying it again very soon :) |
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Well, I had another lovely day and night with Jemma yesterday!! She tried on her new stuff and looked just lovely!! The new hip and bottom shaping pants are really doing the trick and giving the illusion of a female posterior as well as giving her the confidence to try clothes she likes, such as leggings without feeling disappointed with how they look.
Think she was quite impressed with the look last night when we tried her wet look leggings on her again and at how much better she looks now she has that extra padding!
The next step now is to buy her waist clincher. We have found the perfect one, right length to cover what we need it to but short enough to sit comfortably under the bustline. Hopefully buying it on Friday so will update this when I get it!!
Have realised also just how much Jemma changes when she is dressed as a girl!! She is totally different and I think because she's more relaxed that she is also a lot happier too, which is lovely to see :) |
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Do any other dommes get sick of receiving messages from so called female submissives who address them as "master"? I dont know about you but the last time I looked I was female!!!
Not exactly the best way to approch a potential domme...questioning their femininity in the first message. One would think that is quite the oppposite of the female supremacy ideal!!!
Funniest one I have just seen and I wont give her name...a lesbian female submissive who has written 'hi master' in her journal...make of that what you will!! |
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Had another good day with Jemma, out shopping...although the poor lass was knackered from lack of sleep...damn night shifts!!!
Got her some lovely new stuff in the sales today though, a purple, sparkly batwing jumper, gold high heel strappy sandals, a leopard print clutch bag with a diamante buckle and 3 pairs of sexy knix with pretty lace and bows on!!! Cant wait to dress her up and see the new stuff on her!! My sexxi lass is going to look so femme and girly!! Just like I want her to!!!
Miss my lovely lass when she's at work but she has 2 days off (Thursday and Friday) so lots of time for fun!! |
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Had a wonderful day with Jemma today!! Her new hip and bottom shaper arrived today and it works so well!!! Really makes a difference to her shape and makes her much more feminine shaped!! It was well worth the money and will be well used as she can wear it all the time now under her clothes!! A definite step forward.
We are looking for a waist clincher next and we have found a lovely back lacing underbust one that will do her lovely! Cant wait to get it and lace her into it, restrictive enough to pull her waist in and give her a nice hourglass shape! As I wanted...and when combined with her new shapewear should give a very effective female shape, especially if we can find some extra pads for the shaper to make her hips and bottom a little larger!!
She also got dressed up and looked just lovely, even though I do say so myself!! Very pretty outfit, little black pleated skirt and lace tights...very feminine!!
Things moving in the right direction!! Will update when I have news :) |
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Well, had a nice suprise come in the post yesterday!! Got my new strap on and I am really pleased with it, although havent actually tried it on Jemma yet!! It fits really snugly and can see it being well used in the near future!! I was so looking forward to getting it and let's just say I havent been disappointed!!
Also sent off for Jemma's new hip/bottom shaping pants today. Hope they come soon as they will allow Jemma to have a lot more confidence in her shape when she dresses and they look much more comfortable and easier to use than our current arrangement!!
Will keep this updated!!
Good sites to visit that we have bought things from and not been disappointed: www.westwardbound.com www.auntie-annie.co.uk www.sextoys.co.uk and www.thebreastformstore.com
DO NOT use Transformation www.transformation.co.uk as they are rip off merchants and sell inferior merchandise....they certainly do not live up to their claim of turning men into beautiful women!!!
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I must just mention something I have found quite amazing and amusing on this site, the amount of profiles with 'fake' lists in the journals.
At first I thought it was a good idea and thought how nice those people were for looking out for people...then I realised that the same profiles were reporting the same people, ie one person would say oh so and so's a fake, then you'd look on their profile and see the other persons name...really people if we cant put this sort of petty minded squabbling and back biting at the door how can we ever expect to make progress?! If we are constantly arguing amongst ourselves?!
The gay community had the same problem, particularly amonst the lesbian community, who had butches and femmes on opposing sides...each refusing to back down...the butches all saying they wanted femme ladies but at the same time refusing to believe they were really gay and the femmes all saying that they were the truly enlightened 'feminists' and that the butches were just purpetrating the stereotype and holding the 'gay movement' back!! They came to an uneasy standoff and learned, albeit slowly to work together!! Now they are accepted (for that read tolerated) so why cant the bdsm community?
We need to stick together and present a more united front, otherwise we will never be tolerated in society!!! I'm not on about rubbing it in the faces of vanilla folks, far from it, as most of us have a balance between the two worlds, but rather to be allowed to live as we want, without prejudice and to have rules to protect us, as the gay community does!! In this day and age why is okay to be gay but not to be kinky? Think on that people, think on it!!
By the way I admit that there is a huge problem with scam artists on this site but surely if the genuine ones stick together and ignore the fakers they will get sick of it and leave?! THEY'RE ONLY LOOKING FOR ATTENTION PEOPLE!!! |
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Had a lovely night last night talking to Jemma on Yahoo! It's amazing how close our likes, fantasies and desires are and just how much fun can be had from discussing them!! We have this special bond of love, respect and trust that is the only way a long term d/s relationship can work.
If you have none of these you are only fooling yourself. Another key element is balance, much as we'd like to believe that it is possible to live an entirely d/s existance, it isn't!, mainly due to most of us having 'vanilla' responsibilities but also, I think, down to human nature!
I know I couldn't be 'Miss' 365 days of the year...everybody needs a hug sometimes and as Jemma is my partner as well in 'normal' life, this is especially important to achieve!
But we seem to be managing very well!! Seems this is the way we were meant to be all along and it just feels right!!  |
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Open letter to COLLARME users
(Especially single male submissives)
A little friendly advice for those thinking of messaging me!! I don't want to be nasty, never have, but it seems to be the only way to be on this site!!
Don't start off all friendly, pretending that's all you want then start begging me to have you as a submissive!!
Number one desperation doesn't impress me and number two...it says in my profile text what I want and number three, if you're going to bother messaging me, make an effort with the message, ie more than two words and not a cut and paste!!! Laziness definitely doesn't impress me and it is disrespectful to say the least!! Not exactly going to win me over if you cant be bothered in the messages!!
Please READ PROFILE TEXT BEFORE you contact me...otherwise you will be WASTING YOUR TIME and MORE IMPORTANTLY MINE!!!!
I am not looking for male submissives...I will never be looking for male submissives!!
Thank you |
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Seasons Beatings to you all and Happy New Spankings next year!!! Luv ya perverts!!! xmwahx
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Can't wait for Monday!!! Sending off for our new strap on!!! Will be lovely to be able to make love to Jemma as it should be done!!! Make things feel much more natural and right!!! Hopefully make her feel more submissive and like the girl she should be!! One more step towards the life we should be leading and Jemma living as a girl!! **big grin** |
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Why oh why does my favourites list on this site keep taking people off it of its own accord? I like to list those I talk to regularly so I remember to send them messages...what with me being shortchanged in the memory department...but cm seems to feel the need to decide who I should be talking to lol!! So I think I will give up using that feature!! |
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Well that's Christmas out the way without any major disasters!!! lol!! Only New Year to go then us kinksters can get the family out the way and get back to being ourselves!! One thing that most people hate about Christmas is that it gets in the way of their kinky fun!!
Thinking of some new pics for the new year...start off 2010 as we mean to go on!!
Hope 2010 is a good year for everyone but, especially those that are seeking that someone special!!
PS: For those that have been asking, Stockton - On - Tees is near Middlesbrough, Cleveland...which is the Newcastle area of the country...only a bit further down!!
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IF YOU CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO READ MY PROFILE TEXT ALL THE WAY THROUGH THEN DO NOT BE BOTHERED TO SEND ME A MESSAGE, PARTICULARLY IF IT IS A CUT AND PASTE THAT YOU HAVE SENT TO EVERY OTHER FEMALE ON THIS SITE BECAUSE YOU WILL BE DEEPLY DISAPPOINTED!!!!
PS: LOOKING AT PICS DOES NOT EQUAL READING MY PROFILE!!
PPS: DON'T SEND A CHAT REQUEST IF YOU HAVE NEVER SPOKEN TO ME, NUMBER ONE IT DOESN'T WORK ON HERE AND NUMBER TWO IT'S ONLY POLITE TO ASK FIRST!
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Well no major disasters with the dinner, in fact, even though I say so myself, it turned out rather well!!!I enjoyed it at any rate and think my stepson did too...
Nice to have Jemma home for the night, missed her today. It was weird her not being here on Christmas Day!!! Having an early night tonight as she got an early start tomorrow, working day shift again  ...lol!!!
PS: drinking Stella and eating Quality Street..now I know it's Christmas...lol!!! |
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Wishing all Collarme users a very Merry Christmas!!! Have a good one!! Luv Suzi xxx |
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Oh. My. God. I am cooking the xmas dinner this year!!! (Fire Brigade on standby...lol!) Jemma at work on day shifts for xmas...eve, day and boxing day so just be me and my step son. Will be smaller meal, so easier to do (luckily) but have a feeling that my newly optomistic spirit about xmas is about to evaporate sharpish...lol!! Doing the xmas food shop tomorrow...worst luck...town will be packed with people panicking cos xmas on Friday!!! Bah humbug...lol...least soon be over!!! |
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Have been having a lovely time with my girl,just being ourselves together and having lots of together time, chatting about nice stuff!! It's always so nice to be with my favourite girl and feel whole again!!
Been planning to get Jemma some new feminisation stuff today, which is always good!!! Looking forward to getting new stuff which will help her look more like a girl. Much as I enjoy the dressing up side of things, the feminisation is always exciting to move forward with and now that Jemma is dressing more often I really feel that we could get somewhere with it!!
Next year is going to be a better year, I can feel it!!
Update: Just received the sissy girl socks we sent away for on Friday...what a lovely suprise!!! Such fast and efficient service, especially considering it's xmas!!! This looks to be a very good site for sissywear (www.auntie-annie.co.uk) |
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Had another sucess with Jemma. She went out fully dressed on the night time and we drove to the next town to go to the bank and she got out of the car and walked to the cash point and back! What a brave girl she is!!
I also did some training with her indoors, she served as a maid, wearing just her underwear and completed her tasks quickly and thoroughly, without incident.
On the minus side, she did get a spanking for an earlier transgression, but learnt from it hopefully so for the good!!
I bought her a lovely pink sissy dress from our local alternative clothing store but sadly it didn't fit so I am going to have to take it back and get a refund. On the plus side, with the money we have from that I can send off for one from a website I found for sissy girl clothes. A lovely little satin party frock, I am so looking forward to seeing her in it!! We are going to wait until after xmas now though as it will come through Royal Mail and judging by the horrendous delays due to xmas post, we wouldn't get it til New Year anyway, so might as well wait and be sure it will arrive.
I did, however, send off for some lovely sissy girl ankle socks!! Lovely little white ones with lots of white lace round the ankles and a big pink bow!! Looking forward to getting them, hopefully soon, as they have been posted today :-)
Will update when I have news regarding dress/socks!! |
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Jemma's got two whole days off!!! YAY!!! Lotsa time for fun...he he he...ooooh I am looking forward to it!!!!!!!!!!!! Will keep this updated with juicy details..........****grins**** |
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Another good day...with Jemma dressed in pretty underwear and another good spanking session with the promise of more time to train and more fun tomorrow!!! Now I know why I love being her domme!!! |
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He he he...thoroughly enjoyed today!!! Got to give Jemma a good spanking!!! Unfortnately not bare bottomed but still enjoyed it as part of her ongoing training as my sissy pet.
She has been dressed today, which I was pleased about and she is even wearing underwear under her uniform at work tonight!! What a good little sissy girl I have created!!!! |
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Okay little update...been meaning to write in here for a while...Jemma has been dressed as much as possible and I am getting lots of lovely pix of her dressed how she should be!!! I got her two pairs of new tights not so long back, one purple, one blue lace patterned so she's happy!!! lol doesn't take much to make my girl happy... |
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Yes it's another new profile...lol!! Decided a few changes needed to be made so made them!! Hope all the people I normally chat to have found me again!!! Will update this soon with Jemma's latest progress etc...x |
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