You know, over time, I figured I would lose my interest in seeing what it's like to play with a female sub. However, I have not. And no, I haven't been seriously on the hunt. I expect I will find someone when the time and situation are optimal. I'm open. :)

I'm repeat posting a previous journal entry.

Interested in a female sub. Someone local. Size, height, age--unimportant. Experience level, unimportant. I like newbies as much as I like experienced subs. :)

Be willing to engage in strapon play, pussy and tit torture. Also, masochists preferred. I like to dish out the pain.

I've been a sub, so I know what it's like. :)

I'm a woman, and while I understand the need for women to be assertive on these sites and not be taken in by the myriad of losers out there, I have to say something. Ladies, if the first thing you put in your profile is basically a bitch session about all the fakes and losers, guess what? No one is going to want to read your profile all the way through, the way you insist they must if they want to get any response from you. Negative attracts negative. Stop being bitches and be nice human beings and you'll find nice human beings in return. I know from experience.

Interested in a female sub. Someone local. Size, height, age--unimportant. Experience level, unimportant. I like newbies as much as I like experienced subs. :)

Be willing to engage in strapon play, pussy and tit torture. Also, masochists preferred. I like to dish out the pain.

I've been a sub, so I know what it's like. :)

So, why is it that men automatically assume that Dommes will become subs if they meet the "right" Dom? If you believe that, you can go suck an egg, guys! Or better yet, you can suck my dick! I love being a Domme, and nothing you say or do will change that, you egotistical pricks!

----End of Rant---

I recently read the profile of a female sub on this website, and saw, yet again, a man who refused to let his sub have dominant friends online. Guys, if you are that insecure, what makes you think you are cut out to dominate someone, anyway? If you have the love and respect of both yourself and your better half, there's nothing for you to fear.

I'm glad I'm a domme and firmly believe that an insecure sub is an unhealthy one. This lifestyle is not for the weak. It is for the strong. Having been a sub, I know what that kind of insecurity is like, and now as a domme, I've felt moments of insecurity. But, if I had to live my life that way, or if my sub lived that way, it would wear us down.

I want to shout, "Grow up!" at these "doms" who feel they have to control someone down to the very people their sub meets and converses with. Get a life! Who has time for that much micromanagement, and why are you lacking trust in your partner? 

--end of rant. :)

Here pussy, pussy, pussy....

It's been a while since I've posted anything here. I am definitely looking for a female sub, but only for play. I am not bi, but I'm curious about torturing female parts instead of only male. I think I wouldn't have to beat a female sub as hard to get some satisfying results. Guys wear my arm out, lol.

I've been considering the possibility of playing with a female sub. I'm curious how the play would be different from a male sub....

I've uploaded some photos of my darling, sweet sub. We had a lovely weekend, tried a lot of new things. :)

I had such a wonderful evening with my sweet, sweet pet. he inspires me to grow. Thank you.

I think I hit my drop. It's not the first time it's happened, but the combination of things in my life has made it a bit more unpleasant than usual. I find myself wondering, how do I know I'm not broken? How do I know that part of me that I should be able to freely give to someone else isn't irrevocably in pieces, or encased in cement, untouchable and unreachable? At what point can I put the past in the past, accept what I learned, and give up the painful bits? I try not to hate that part of me, since hate will only keep me attached to it, but why is it still there? How does it still find me? I sit here, in the dark, feeling it wrapped around me, like a sheet of wool, making me separate, distant from my emotions--well, the ones I want, the ones I need. Instead, I find myself closed in here with the things I thought gone, finished, released.

Sometimes, writing about it helps....

Not tonight.

Thank you, car thieves, for teaching me this lesson in forgiveness, acceptance, and patience. Thank you for teaching me how important time is with my family by denying me access to them during the holidays. Thank you for helping me to overcome my desire to have any money saved at all, by forcing me to spend it to buy another car when you so spitefully wrecked mine. And, finally, thank you for teaching me how to overcome my nature that wishes you had been injured in that wreck, even though I'm certain you weren't.

Beef stew and pumpkin bread pudding....gifts for friends. Wish you were mine? ;)

After two days (my days off) remodeling the kitchen at work, I want nothing more than to sleep in this morning. *sigh* Unfortunately, our customers need coffee and breakfast--and so do I.

Good morning, world!! Today is another chance, another opportunity to make myself a better person and have a positive impact on the world. Am I up to the challenge? Anyone else?

With no one around, I find myself subsisting on diet cola and a variety of crackers....

I eat so much better when I have someone to cook for.

Here subbie, subbie, subbie..... Here subbie.....

So cold this morning. I wanted nothing more than to stay under the blankets, cat purring on the pillow next to my head. Where, oh where is my personal heater? ;)

Back on the hunt for a play partner. Local and in person, only. Don't expect it to happen overnight--I don't work that way. If you are unreliable, don't even consider asking me about what I'm looking for, you have already disqualified yourself.

If you expect to catch my attention with, "hello", as the only thing in your message, you are sadly mistaken. Take a couple of minutes to show you are genuinely interested or don't bother sending a message in the first place. Talk about using minimal brain cells.

 Long night, finally getting going for the day, lol. Too bad there's no subbie to make my coffee and get a spanking. ;)

Looking forward to Monday. I might get to play....a serious ass beating is coming someone's way....gives me goosebumps thinking about it.

Missing my friend, missing my domestic sub, and very much under the weather.  :(  Double shifts tomorrow are not looking fun at all....

This morning, all I want to do is get back under the blanket and go back to sleep. How much better would it be with a personal heater (read "male sub") under the blanket with me? Hehehehe

I feel the sadist coming out....She wants to play....

Sorry if I've been bitchy to anyone when it was unwarranted. It's been a rough couple of weeks and going to stay rough for at least one more. If, however, I've been bitchy to you because you were a jerk, then I'm not particularly sorry. ;)

I just did a search for female dominants to see what male subs encounter here on CM. Wow. Most of the profiles only had a photo and location information, no substance, and quite a few had fake photos or photos that were not of themselves. While I understand discretion, that seems a bit much. My photos are actually of me, and I've taken the time to put something about myself out there for others to read. What a crappy selection of dommes to choose from. Sorry, guys.

Why in the world would someone respond to an impersonal profile? The same can be said of the men. I don't want to respond to a profile that says nothing about who you are. If you won't take the time to do that, why in the world would you take the time to interact with me properly?

As I'm facing a day of double shifts, I think how lovely it would be to come home to a clean apartment, dinner, and a sexy sub, perhaps nude, perhaps wearing a maid outfit, perhaps just an apron over his clothes, who would give me the foot massage I know I will desperately need after 14 hours standing in a kitchen, then on to dinner, and a long cuddle as we drift off to sleep. In the morning, we could wake up together and have a little fun as a way to start the day....

It's a wonderful fantasy. :)

I'm tired today and really wondering why I spend so much effort looking for the right person. If you look, people say you find them when you stop. When you stop looking, people ask how you'll find the right person if you aren't looking. I wonder if finding the right person isn't just a coincidence, if maybe it's really an accident, finding that person with whom you can happily spend your life.

There needs to be an option where a dominant can say they are looking for, not just a male sub, but a domestic male sub. I just recently lost mine to a job out of state. :(

Bored and itching to give some spankin's.

Spending the day thinking about the direction I want my life to go, and working on myself. I haven't done nearly enough of that.