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While I was in the lifestyle some time ago, I realize that I really know nothing about what it is like to serve any more. I do know, I love the feeling I get when someone has control over me. I do know, I want it to become my way of life. I also know, I might need some help getting there. I remember the intimacy I had with my owners and how I felt most at home when I would be in their service. I hope to one day feel that freedom again. I am single and have been without a relationship for some time now. My past mistakes have led to reservations and I am comfortable enough in myself to live without rather than suffer through. Don't get me wrong, I miss the subtleties and comfort of a good dominant woman. I miss the ever present notion of ownership and love that always lives in the back of my mind when owned. When I kneel at the feet of and give myself entirely too the right woman, I can reach heaven on earth. It is in that heaven that I find complete comfort in satisfying the needs of my owner. At least that is how I remember heaven.

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2/25/2016 6:49:05 PM

I want someone to love and cherish. To have the complete relationship with.

I want to be able to come home from work to a companion and yet know what to do to make her life easier. I want to know at all times she has final say.

I am a lifestyle submissive who has not had a lot of opportunity to serve in the last five years. The time that I have had has been bliss. I did things while serving like home repairs, cleaning a basement, serving coffee and even start to learn how to cook. When I had the chance I did it all because there is such a wonderful sense of comfort in being of service. A sense of loving that exceeds all else when I am in a submissive mindset.

I have been able to share a bed with someone I began to feel deeply for and for the first time in years I could feel the warmth of another human soul as she pulled me in close.

There were moments in which we were able to laugh and there were even moments where I shed some tears. There were certainly moments where I felt pride that I could have such a beautiful, strong and intelligent woman in my life.

There are different levels in love that I seem to experience in this lifestyle. There is the physical and emotional love of another human being, which comes out with the touch of my partner as she holds me tight before she falls asleep. There was the kiss of passion which could leave me breathless or kiss of caring which comforted me. There was a gaze from across the room could melt my heart. There was the pureness of heart as we held each other while watching a movie.

There is the subtle and powerful love that comes from the decision to serve in a D/s relationship. The love I feel as I know I am performing a task that will make her life easier. The love that I feel when I smile and say “yes Ma’am” before I do something that is different or uncomfortable to please her. The love I feel as I am kneeling at her feet just because I am hers.

Then there is the exciting and powerful love that expelled from the absolute control that is given and taken when experiencing the more extreme aspects of this lifestyle. Being bound and helpless at the hands of someone you trust yet know can take you to your limits and even test your resolve. To stand firm as her flogger, whip or paddle connect with me like a neurotransmitter exciting my minds synapses at levels unachievable in any other place in my life. This connection that is formed in this part of the lifestyle surpasses any other to achieve the deepest form of intimacy. It has been many years in which I have felt this intimacy. I truly miss it. I miss the opportunity to serve at this most loving level with someone I truly care about.  

I am a lifestyle submissive who has unfortunately not been able to achieve all of these levels of love in many years but that is what I am searching for. Is there really any lifestyle Domme’s out there? 


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MiztressAutumn
 
 Mistress, Age:  47
 Detroit, Michigan
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