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Hello Everyone! i am a slave, owned and operated by my Master, Michel. He is known on this site as PaceMaster. Please feel free to check out His profile as well. :) i have been a slave for many years and take my place with pride and honor. i believe that as a slave, it is ones responsibility to serve their One with pride, dignity, respect at all times. A slave always shows common courtesy to others no matter who they are or what their background is. It is a part of who one is. As my Master's slave, i have no rights, liberties, or freedoms except those that He allows me. This, however does not mean that i am a doormat, or not allowed to think for myself, or that i am not allowed to have or express my opinions. Master allows me all of this as long as it is done in a respectful and considerate manner. i have many years of experience and a lot of knowledge of this lifestyle. i have lived within it for over 30 years of my life. i know my place within it very well. Master and i live it 24/7/365..it is our life..it is who we are. We do not play at it, or fantasize about it, or just do it on the weekends or at events or clubs. This is our life....it is a part of all we do..no matter who we are with or where we are. It is real life, 24/7. i am always on...it is my belief that as my Master's slave, that Master gets what Master wants...no matter what. It is done without question or hesitation, always. i trust my Master with my life...i never have to worry about safety because it is safety first and foremost with Master. He would never ask me to do something that would put me in danger.
i moved from Ohio in March to be with my Master here in Ontario. It is an honor and a priviledge to serve Him. He is kind, caring, considerate, and very much a gentleman in all that He is and does. Be assured, that does not mean that He is not Dominate in any way, shape or form. He is skilled as a Master in all areas of this lifestyle and takes great pride in all He does. He is strict, He can be stern, He prefers to macro-manage not micro-manage but will do so if He feels the need too. He is not an "in-your-face" type of Dominate, yet He demands your submission in His own rightful way. He is not in anyway domineering....for this is not domination in anyway, shape or form.

We are both involved in the lifestyle community, attending munches and The Fetphoto Event each month where we also act as Dungeon Monitors to oversee the play that goes on to make sure it is safe. We know many others in the lifestyle and they know us. We are safe, sane, and consensual in all we do. Master and i are secure in our relationship with each other and are currently looking for other friends who are part of this lifestyle as well as looking for me a sister to start and develop our "poly" family. The way we look at a poly family may be different from how others view it. Even though i would be the alpha slave in the family, i would still have my chores and responsibilities within the family as would those that join us. Master would be the main focus of the family and He in turn would provide each of the "sister submissives/slaves" with what we need. We would each be given time with Master and He in turn would fill our needs and desires within the lifestyle so that we all feel our submission. As alpha, i would be responsible for helping all others adjust to their new surroundings and help them learn the routines within the family and How Master likes things done. There will be no room for jealousy or petty insecurities, these things only lead to problems within the family. i know my place with my Master is safe and secure and our foundation is secure and steady. i am loving, caring, supportive, truthful and honest in all i do. Anyone brought into this family must be this way as well.


It is our belief that the "sister submissives/slaves" must get along ultimately for the relationship to work. Therefore, it is the submissives who must communicate and learn about each other to see if they are compatible with each other in all areas of life that determine if they can get along and make the relationship worth starting. This is the core of it all..once the sisters start chatting and becoming friends, then Master will become more involved in the beginning stages and working out the plans for us to be together as a family. Master and i also have a mission and goal in life to help others that are in bad relationships within the lifestyle get out of that relationship and have a safe place to go and stay until they get back on their feet or find another Dominate that suits their needs better. So many out there get into the "sub-rush" of wanting to do it all and do it now, not realizing the danger they might be placing themselves in. This is also another useful reason for a poly family as the new submissive can learn in a safe and sane environment and feel their submission while also being able to continue their search for One who may better suit their needs. It is a way to stay grounded. Feel free to contact either myself or my Master and ask any questions that you may have. We are always looking to build friendships and expect to start out as friends before moving on to other aspects of a relationship. Communication is the first step in any relationship and getting to know each other is vital to the success of any BDSM relationship. Establishing trust, faith, a level of caring and concern, and respect is paramount.

Please feel free to contact either myself or my Master (PaceMaster) and get to know us. All questions will be answered...we are real, we are honest, and we have nothing to hide. We look forward to hearing from you and will answer all who write us.

Yours in the lifestyle,
your sister in submission,
Master Michel's slave,
elle

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2/16/2010 8:30:25 AM
Part of my life is consumed by helping others in many ways.  It is a big part of the life i have with Master and is something we strive to do as part of our relationship goals.

The problem i seem to have in helping others is that i give so much of myself that when those i am helping don't ever seem to get "it" it hurts me so much.  As the old saying goes, "you can lead a horse to water, but you cannot make it drink", but that doesn't mean that i don't feel the pain when they get hurt or keep doing the same things to themselves that they wanted help dealing with when they sought me out. 

I have learned that there is only so much i can do for others, if they don't truly want to help themselves.  I can pick them up, dust them off, and try to help them heal the wounds (mental, physical and emotional) that are left behind, but if they don't want to make the necessary changes in their own lives to keep themselves safe, then nothing i say or do will change that.

The problem is, it hurts to see those who are struggling and searching for that special someone, continue to get hurt time and time again.  There comes a time when i have to save myself because i get so emotionally involved.  Master is the lucky one, because He can just distance Himself from those that He chats with and Mentors.  He keeps a distance between Himself and others so that their issues don't drag Him down.  Boy, how i wish i could figure out how He does it! *S*

Until then, i will continue to give my all, show my support, give guidance, share my knowledge and experience, and do my part to help those that continue to struggle to find their way.  We have a great community full of knowledge, support and care.

Don't be afraid to seek out those who are true to themselves and others.

Remember--Never settle for less than you deserve, your future depends on you to make the best choices you can make and it is never a good thing to settle for what happens to come along! 

2/15/2010 1:09:09 PM
I honestly  believe that each relationship a person develops helps me grow and teaches me to be a better person.  It doesn't matter if the relationship is good, bad, ugly or any parts of these qualities, for in the end, it made me see my strengths, weaknesses, positive and negative points and helped me continue on my journey to find the relationship that was right for me.

Sometimes it seems that others spend so much time wanting to place the blame for a failed relationship on the other person or persons involved, when in fact, it takes all parties working together to keep the relationship strong and growing.  If everyone involved isn't headed in the same direction or fulfilling every need, want or desire, then maybe it is time to sit down and talk about it. 

With each attempt, I learn more about who I am, the changes that have been made that makes me who I am and how I still have much to learn to continue on my journey to be my Master's woman as well as His slave.  The role has changed and taken it's toll on me in the process.  I have lost my identity.....but at the same time, I am learning so much.

I know how to be a great slave, to serve properly, to behave properly when at events and parties, to take care of Master as He wishes to be taken care of.  What I am learning, is how to be a woman, to be the woman He wishes me to be, not to be the perfectionist that I have always felt I needed to be.  This has caused a lot of frustration and anger at times, because I get trapped between the two and can't figure out which way to turn.  It is then, that I turn to Master for guidance and let Him help me get out of the gap between the two.

Being a submissive or slave doesn't mean being perfect.  It does mean that we strive to be the best we can be for Our One...not everyone.  Each Master or Dominant has their Own expectations and desires for what His or Her submissive or slave must be.  The only person who's opinion should matter to me is my Master's for I belong to Him heart, mind, body and soul.

While this is a constant struggle for me, I am learning more and more, that only Master matters and the outside world matters less and less.

Each day is a new day filled with new things to learn, and more opportunities to grow into the person I want to be.



4/2/2008 5:56:21 AM
Why does it seem like sometimes we put our best foot forward only to end up falling on our face?  As a slave and a human, i tend to be perfectionistic.  i really want others to be happy and i set out to make people happy every day in all i do.  i want my Master to be happy, i want the tenants that live in our building to be happy, i want the management happy, i want our friends happy, i want family happy, and i want to be happy.  The problem with this scenario is that some people just aren't happy nor will they ever be happy.  Why?  Only they know for sure.  i know the struggle for me is how to deal with unhappy people...i listen to them to try to figure out the problem, fix what i am responsible for fixing, give advice when appropriate to do so, give words of encouragement and just do what ever i can to help.  What i am learning in all of this is sometimes, i can't fix it.  The more i do, the more some people want from me.  i am unhappy when someone else is unhappy.  i am not satisfied if all i wanted done isn't accomplished, yet, i say very little when enough isn't done for me.  i get frustrated over things and in doing so, i set myself up so that people see my flaws.  i have been told that slaves are virtuous people, we hide our emotions, our feelings, we are always sweet, considerate, kind, etc., etc., etc.,the list could go on here.  The truth is that we as consensual slaves are human.  We are not perfect, we have flaws, we have feelings, we have emotions.  Sometimes it is hard to keep those emotions in check.  i always try to be respectful, considerate, kind, caring, and true to my slave self, but lately, i wonder if i am lacking in ability to be a slave.  Sometimes i spout off, i say what i think, i find myself not always agreeing just for the sake of doing so.  Is it wrong to do these things?  i know it doesn't make me happy because i feel i am not being the perfect slave to my Master or for my Master, but the truth is, sometimes it needs to be this way.  Just as i have always gotten through rough times as i go through this journey called life, i am sure i will get through this rough patch.  It is a time of reflection, a time to seek out the truth and to be true to oneself.  It doesn't mean that i am not a slave, it just means that i may not be the ideal slave.  None the less, Master is happy...and if Master is happy with me, then i must find the strength and desire to be happy with myself.  The journey continues......the quest is perfection....perfection that may be unattainable....but it is something to set my sights on.

3/27/2008 10:22:42 AM
Life is a constant journey of learning, caring, loving, hating, beginnings, ends, giving, taking, sharing, struggling, and self-discoveries that starts the day we are conceived and ends the day we die.  Every breath we take in between gives us a chance to connect with others that may or may not be like us or even care if we exist.  i try very hard to take time to listen to what others have to say, even if i don't agree with what it seems they are trying to get across.  i take what is said, process it, respond if i have something constructive or beneficial to say, keep what fits me and discard the rest.  i try hard to stay out of the"war of words" especially when i disagree with something being said.  What i am finding is that with every sister submissive that comes into O/our lives (O/our being Master and i), more is learned about what it is we are searching for.  Each wrong pairing leads to more discoveries, more revelations, more understanding of what we really want and hope to achieve from becoming a poly family.  Is it wrong to want someone who fits in, that gets along with both Master and His slave, that the slaves become sisters in caring for our One?  Finding the right one can be a stressful time.  It is stressful especially when it goes from meeting online and getting along to becoming real..in person, face to face.  For many, being online is a chance to live out fantasies...to pretend, to "play" at being a submissive or slave...no harm comes from it, it is relatively safe, you only do what the person on the other side of the screen asks you to do--or do you?  No one but you can answer that question.  When it becomes real...face to face, there is no place to hide...the spanking, the teasing, the play is now real...when that time comes, will you be ready?  Hopefully B/both the Master and the slave have done their homework, they have the knowledge and the experience to make it work and it is a natural fit.  If not, people get hurt, they get scared, they turn and run.  Some never to return to this wonderful lifestyle.  It is those that get hurt badly, that say this community is full of monsters and we do horrible things.  It is all in knowing those you play with and those You trust to care for you.  This is the part that takes time to develop.  A Master must fully know a submissive or slave before He plays with them, just as the slave or submissive should know the Dominant they wish to play with.  Keeping people safe is a priority.  Safe, sane and consensual is more than just a few words spoken...it is the rule or rules by which this slave and the Master that owns her live.  Not only have W/we committed O/ourselves to helping those in the lifestyle achieve their hopes and dreams as submissives and slaves, it is also to help those same submissives and slaves achieve all they can in the vanilla world as well. 
   A lost journey has renewed itself, has been given another chance to blossom.  The scared little kitten that left has returned to start again.  To give sisterhood another try.  This time, she is without her collar, but is being given protection, and training to find her way.  This second chance will not be taken lightly by any involved.  From here we move forward, one day at a time...learning, sharing, loving, and caring for each other. 

3/17/2008 8:14:58 AM
Today is a precious gift!  Today, March 17, 2008 is a major milestone.  Today is the day that i came to be with my Master on that Wonderful, Special Friday two years ago.  Two years ago, i was welcomed with open arms to a new life, a new country, a new home.  In the course of these 2 small and trial filled years, we have grown to become one.  One in flesh, one is spirit, one in our committment to each other.  Master and i are so much alike that we answer the same question with the same answer instintively.  W/we are a perfect match, a perfect compliment to each other.  He is so unlike any Master i have known before, yet, He is focused on helping me become the best slave, woman, human, i can be.  Where He leads, i follow knowing i am safe, secure, loved and cared for as no other can make me feel.  i go where He leads knowing that He is sane and that He does not put me in harms way, but gives me the strength and courage to succeed in what endeavor i am faced with.  He is my world, my life, my reason for living, my strength, my pillar, my love, my husband, and my Master.  In short, He is my everything!
For 2 years, i have gone to points unknown, i have become a part of our lifestyle community, i have gotten to know many, respect those that deserve my respect, seen many come and go, and made many friends along the way.  i have learned to enjoy public play, the odd and unique variety of implements used to bring out the masochist in me, all of which i have found delightful in their own unique way.  To All of Those Dominates that have shared these unique implements, i thank You yet again!  i thank A/all who have become my friends since my arrival here, those that have shared stories, ideas, knowledge, insight, words of wisdom, and guidance both in the life and out.  It has all been appreciated, thought  through and processed and even applied when appropriate.
To those that have came into our family and left for whatever reasons, thank you for the chance to learn, the chance to teach, and for helping us to more closely define what works and what doesn't.  May you find what it is you are looking for and may you have the knowledge to know what you aren't.  With each attempt, we get closer to what we are seeking and with each departure, we are able to still be friends.  That is important, too :)!
To A/all out there still looking, be true to Y/yourself first, know Y/yourself first, then put into action the plan to find that perfect match that Y/you seek to complete Y/you.  In time, it will happen.  It all starts with open, honest communication, learning about the person first, the expectations, the wants, the needs and the desires of what is wanted and needed from the relationship.  Then as Y/you grow closer, it develops into meeting, trusting, exploring and growing together.  Given the opportunity and the time needed to develop a long and lasting relationship, Y/you will find the O/one to complete Y/you and make Y/you whole.
Master and i will continue to search for my sister, and we know in time, we will find her.  W/we are always seeking friends, willing offer words of encouragement and knowledge, and share our connections with the community with those wishing to become involved.  Don't be afraid to stop in and say hi! 

3/15/2008 5:31:57 PM
Again Master and i have opened O/our hearts and O/our home in order to help another, only to have someone judge to harshly and question how Master and i live O/our lives within the lifestyle.  As i have stated here over and over, it is how W/we live, it is O/our life, a perfect meld of vanilla and BDSM that works for U/us. 
So many players in this lifestyle that look at only the play and the number of orgasms they get as the only requirement of slavery to service a Master or Mistress.  They fail to understand that in living this life 24/7, the bedroom "stuff" is only a small part of the experience.  It is serving, it is protocol, it is being accessible, it is about What Master Wants, Master Gets...no matter what that Want or Need is or when it occurs.  It is about giving up total control to another and allowing that Person to mold you as they see fit, to shape you, to help you become a better all around person.  So many fail to understand the connection outside the bedroom, to know or understand that there is actually more than a scene and sex involved. 
i have been told that i am not slave enough by someone that is only a player.  i am slave enough for my Master who Owns me and is extremely happy with who and what i am and how i serve Him.  i have been told that i am a "model" slave for others to learn from and gain knowledge and insight from by more than One esteemed Master and Mistress who knows Master and has for many years.  i take pride in my service to my Master and always do my best for Him, to Honor Him.  If my human-ness bothers people, then i must say that i am sorry, but it is my Master who allows me to be human, to show emotion, to have an opinion, to call things the way i see them.  It is my Master who allows me to be a human first, His woman second, and His slave third.  For this, i am extremely grateful to Him.

1/24/2008 8:47:21 AM
Master has collared a sister for me. she will be called lauchlen. she is a wonderful fit for our family. W/we are lucky to have her. The interesting thing is that when she was uncollared, others would "scene" with her, but never considered owning her, yet now, most of those around us are surprised by the collaring and now realise what they were missing out on. Funny how these things happen. When someone is always available and ready to be used at a moments notice at an event, munch or party, W/we always assune that they are not collared to someone for a reason, yet when they become collared, many in the community regret the fact that they never took the time to look closer at the person and learn more about what it was they really wanted in this lifestyle. Sister lauchlen and i are two peas in a pod, very very similar, so much alike that it is scarry even for Master who knows me so well, and who is learning even more about this dear one who joins us. Sister lauchlen is one who will help me in all areas of life as Master helps us both in our journey as well. O/our situation is unique with many facets and turns that many would find hard to understand or accept, but we make it all work wonderfully for everyone involved. Even though she is not a full time addition to our family, she fulfills a need, a want, a desire for Master and His slave, as well as her own. Welcome home lil sis.

10/29/2007 12:03:41 PM
Sensation play is wonderful...amazing the different types of sensations one instrument can make.  Master is a Sensual Sadist to the utmost degree.  He has a hard time giving me the masochistic fix i need and in His travels, has found One or Two special Dominate Friends to help Him with this aspect of our relationship.  i also enjoy the drumming effects of a cane, a crop, a feather, a flogger, etc.  As a slave, i crave the stingy, cutting edge, type of toys, but i am also finding that thuddy is a nice difference and actually helps me process the sting to an even higher level than with just sting alone.  i enjoy percussion especially on my upper back and shoulders, but i enjoy so much and am willing to try most anything.  The nastier it seems to those around me, the better i seem to like it...giggles.  i am learning that there are spots on my body that send chills up and down my spine that i never knew existed, and the way Master works them, also helps in my ability to process the delightful pain factor that i so desire.  i love being sensual and sexual and all the other aspects of this life.  i am ready willing and able to live life to the fullest and enjoy all the delights that are out there for me to try.  Safety first is the motto of my Master...if it isn't safe, He will not allow me to try it.  That is why i trust my Master above and beyond all---He will never allow anything to happen to me.   

10/27/2007 2:16:33 PM
i as a slave find that many people fail to realize that slaves are indeed human.  They are not perfect, although, many slaves that i know tend to be people pleasers and perfectionistic in nature or by nature, we fall short of being perfect because of the fact that we are human.  We have feeling, we have faults, but we will always do our best to be what our Owners want us to be.  i always do my best to put my Master first, to put O/our family first, to do the right thing in all instances be they lifestyle related or vanilla.  i respect all who deserve respect and yet always show common courtesy to everyone no matter what the situation.  The last few weeks have proven to be a bit much for me and a real lesson in patience, persistance, and learning to realize when i have done all i can to please someone and yet know that it isn't enough nor is it in my power to make others happy in some instances.  Does that make me a bad slave or person?  No it doesn't.   As a slave, my Master has the power and control, He deals with all things that affect our family.  It is important to know that there are always others with more power to control situations and waiting on them do take action or give you authority to do things can take more time than it would seem from the outside as necessary.  We can always make immediate decisions until we know all the pro's and con's to a situation (as best we can).  Take time to relax, to enjoy, to realize that sometimes we are only a small fish in a big pond.  Realize that as a human, you can only do so much to make others happy.  If you can keep 80 percent or more of the people around you happy, then you should be happy with what you are doing.  Yes, there is always room for improvement, but thinking that we can always make everyone around us happy is a mistake sure to make ourselves unhappy. As Master tells me, a happy slave makes a happy Master.  If slave is unhappy, then Master will be unhappy and as a slave, i know it is wrong to have an unhappy Master.  As a slave, my happiness does matter to both me and Master...when i am unhappy, hurting, sad, etc, Master wants to know so we can analyze it and make it better.  i am always learning about myself, my position, my life, and Master.  Learning and growing are good.

10/24/2007 7:14:47 AM
Velcro collars---a term coined for those in the lifestyle that are constantly being collared and uncollared on a whim.

i have seen a rash of this happening lately.  Many at the events that we attend are going through this in their lives.  To me, a collar is a bond of ownership, of slavery, not something to be taken lightly or removed at a moments notice.  Once a collar goes on, it should not ever be removed.  It is more binding than a marriage/wedding ring.  One should not accept a collar unless it is a permanent one.  Yes, there are collars of consideration, collars of protection, collars of training, etc., but a true permanent collar of ownership is something not to be taken lightly or entered into without much preparation or thought.  i always have a collar on my neck---be it a public collar, a ceremonial collar, an event collar, a play collar, or an everyday collar--Master places one on then removes the other depending on the situation and what is acceptable, but i am never without something to remind me of who i belong to and what i am.  MASTER MICHEL's slave.  Not that i need reminded, i know my place, i know what i am and who i am without it, but if i don't have that collar on my neck, i am lost.  i also wear a chain around my waist as a symbolic reminder of the one that is around my neck.  It is worn in public, at work, under dresses, slacks, skirts, etc, at all times, for all situations and all circumstances.  A collar is not just a piece of jewelry, it stands for what you are, who you belong too, that you are owned for the long haul.  It is not supposed to be temporary, easily removed and thrown away so that you can move on to someone else.  The next time you are approached about wearing a collar, ask yourself if it is something permanent, something worth accepting, or if it is just for show at events, etc.  Is it real?  If it is and you are sure you are ready to accept all that the collar signifies, then accept it with all the wonder and joy it is meant to represent in your life.  If it isn't, then don't allow it to be placed around your neck....you want something real and secure in your life.  Are you ready?

10/24/2007 6:59:02 AM
Another wonderful event this past Saturday and one coming up this weekend.  i am delighting in the bruises and lines of 18 well placed swats of the two Hippo-hide canes.  Master and another favorite Dom tag teamed me with the two delightful implements.  The smaller of the two is stingy and evil, the new larger version is thuddy like my beloved Black Thorn Cane.  Both are absolutely delightful to feel on my bottom.  i will be a demo girl at the event this weekend with Master's permisson given to our friend and favorite Dom to use His wonderful and unusual implements of torture on.  i am so looking forward to this as i do so love His lot of unusual and delightful implements.  The challenge now will be not to move (LOL).  He will wish me to move and so i know i shall, but it is against all i have been taught over my years of slavehood.  So move i shall because i know it pleases Him for me to do so.  He is learning my foot language...clenched toes, unclenched toes, scrunched feet, etc so onward and upward with the stroke count.  When all was said and done on Saturday, i still wanted more strokes of the hippo--i started at 6 and am now at 18 and could have easily taken another 8 to 10 more.  The problem being that Master and company could see what i could not. :)  The welts, the redness, and the bruises already starting to creep forth from the redness....so it was decided in my best interest that it was time to stop and save some for another day.  If left up to me, it has been said that i would not know when enough was enough...so, that is where Master shows His control of me and limits my fun.  (Giggles)  As He loves to tell people, His way of punishing me is to take strokes away from me....can you imagine?  LOL.  It is wonderful to interact with friends.  Getting to know new faces and renewing friendships with those that we don't get to see often, and enjoying the friends that have become fixtures in our lives.  Knowing where each belongs within the lifestyle.  That is where happiness is found...in knowing ones place.

10/1/2007 1:19:56 PM
Master and i went to an invitation only party on Saturday night.  It was a much smaller party than Fetphoto and a more intimate setting.  We knew most of those that attended, although, we also met some new people.  It is always a great time making new friends within this delightful lifestyle.  Master and i played, and we were especially happy to have the chance to use the new red surgical tubing flogger and another Dom's Hippo hide cane.  i have the most delightfully marked bottom. :) 
     The hard part of the night for me was that Master was making sure i was moving...something i detest.  For me, movement is something i am not supposed to do, something that embarasses not only me, but Master.  Master says otherwise, and so does this special Dom friend of O/ours.  They Both tell me i am too hard on myself...expect too much...and that they love seeing me move.  Master says that i can expect more of this. i guess this is something i must get used too...something that i will have to work on dealing with.  Maybe it goes back to me feeling "wimpy", even tho i have been told otherwise by many in this lifestyle.  Always room for improvement, always room for limits to be expanded, always giving Master what He wants and when He wants it...just the way He wants it.  i am His pleasure and in the end, He is mine. :)

9/26/2007 6:17:09 AM
FINALLY!  Master and i have found the sisters for me that we have been searching for.  Master has announced two new members for our home.  The first is sister lauchlen a dear devoted submissive we have known for a long time.  i marvel at how much alike we really are and that we tend to be cut from the same cloth.  i was extremely happy that she accepted Master's collar and the offer to serve Him.  i will be happy to have her here.  Knowing that this is not full time service (alas i wish it could be but the vanilla life doesn't make it doable), she is still accepted with open and waiting arms.  The fact that we already know much about each other is an extreme plus. 
     The second sister is quite new to the lifestyle in terms of actual experience, but not in her way of thinking.  Sister darkrose has been accepted into our family also on a part-time basis for now.  She has many positive traits, learns quickly, and is a sponge seeking all the knowledge she can get her hands and mind on and around.  She is a wonderful sister and i do so look forward to having her here with us in our home.
     The choices were not made quickly or out of desperation.  They have been well thought out and made after many long months of chatting and getting to know one another.  Sister lauchlen and i have known each other since right after my arrival to be with Master and even tho the offer had been made before, the timing wasn't right.  Now it is and it will be a beautiful relationship.  Master and i have spent much time chatting with sister darkrose and as time allows, she will be accepted into the fold real time to gain the experience and knowledge of what this life is all about.  Both sisters exude submissiveness from their pores.  One can see it in them, the want, the need, the desire to give up control, to be lead to a freedom like no other.  Master and i welcome them to O/our family.

9/20/2007 6:52:13 AM
i have always been taught that i am to show common courtesy to others within the lifestyle(and out) at all times.  i was also taught that my actions are a direct reflection on my Master, or those that i may accompany in His absence or at His direction.  As a well trained slave, i find it ackward at the lack of respect and common courtesy and the lack of manners in many "bottoms"(ie. subs/slaves) at events, parties, munches, etc.  Don't these same bottoms understand that their every word, action, and move is a reflection on not only them but the Dominate they are with...even if they don't belong to them?  Our every move is noted by someone even if we don't realize it...if we make a mistake, say something that we shouldn't, do something that leaves a bad impression on us, it also leaves a bad impression on those watching(or over hearing) as well as the Dominate we are with. 
     Many times when we have been out, Master has received comments from others (Tops, bottoms, Dominates, submissives, slaves) about things they have seen me do. (Always positive because i strive to make a positive impression on Master...)Many of these comments have been unexpected by us because we never knew others were paying that much attention to us.  We only have one chance to make a good first impression.  Master and i often take others with us to events, parties, munches, etc to help them network with others and to be a part of this lifestyle as they find their way to that One that fulfills them.  The impression you make on others can go a long way in helping or hurting you as you travel the path that leads to your One.  Watch your behavior, choose your words wisely, keep your attitude in check, always remember that we never know who is noticing us when we go to these functions.  The person you are seeking could be watching you from afar just waiting for the right time to approach you.  What kind of reflection are you making on those around you?  What kind of impression are you leaving on others?  Do you like the impression you are giving others?  Ask yourself these questions the next time you go to an event or party.  Check the negative attitude at the door, put on a smile, if you can't say something nice then don't say anything at all (no matter what it is about), think before you speak, we never know who is watching or observing us, hopefully we are leaving a positive impression on them and on our Master, Trainer, Mentor, or others that may take an interest in us.

9/18/2007 11:48:43 AM
What a wonderful time Master and i had Saturday night at a party in TO.  We made new friends, renewed friendships with many "old-timers" and got to enjoy a wonderful night of play.  i thoroughly enjoyed a Dominate Friends new Hippo skin cane.  i have many lovely stripes and bruises on my bottom....badges of honor for a job well done.  i could not wait to get home to look in the mirror Saturday night(more like early Sunday morning...lol) to see the beautiful marks that Master and our Friend had given me.  Why, you may ask?  Simply because i love having marks and showing off my marks to others.  They tell me that Master loves me.  They tell me that i have honored Him and made Him proud of me because i took what He wished to give me with the same pride and honor in which they were given.  The marks on my bottom are more than just lines and bruises...they are the extension of my Master's love and care for me, just as the implements in His hands are and extension of His caress.  i do so enjoy being marked...because it means so much more to me.  The tenderness when i sit, the "uncomfortable" feeling i get from time to time when doing other things, all act as a reminder of who i am, what i am, and that all i do is a reflection on my Master.  It helps keep me focused on pleasing Him, keeping Him happy, giving Him the honor and respect He deserves at all times.  All the while, it keeps me wanting more, asking for more, and knowing that He will always give me what He feels to give me.  He is Master and i am slave...we serve each other...with dignity, respect, and honor.  Thank You Master for allowing me to be Your slave and for caring enough to give me what i need to ensure my place, now and always.

9/14/2007 2:30:57 PM
This weekend brings about another chance to see friends in the lifestyle.  It also gives Master and i the opportunity to introduce others to those we know and respect within the community.  It is also a time for personal growth as we have a new sister submissive that is going to be here to learn, grow, and expand her knowledge and her limits in a safe, sane, and consentual environment.  Master and i open our home to others that really want to gain knowledge, experience, and learn what a M/s, BDSM relationship is all about.  The whole realm of it not just the play, not just sex, but the warmth, care, respect, honor, and committment that it takes to be in this type of life long relationship.  Many don't understand it.  Those that have an online relationship can turn off the computer at the end of the chat and go back to their "real" world.  It is hard to have an online relationship for there is not real way to know that the Master or submissive is really doing what we ask or that they really even care.  It is a sort of sad, emotional, and cruel game that many play with others.  Many get hurt, abused, or trapped by those that only pretend to be something they think they are. 
     After chatting with many submissives and slaves lately, i come to find that many get hurt and try to turn away from this life, yet come to realize that they can't turn away from the real submissive they are deep inside.  Many have been hurt and are afraid to continue to search...many continue to search but don't seem to know when a true person is seeking to befriend them.  It is a shame that so many are afraid to reach out to others, even if it is a sister submissive or slave that is only looking to befriend them and be there for them in their search.  Someone to talk with, share with, and help guide them as they move forward in their journey.  i have spent much time reaching out to others on here only to have them say they are not interested in being in a poly relationship or what Master and i are seeking.  Many say that we are too old for them...or ignore us all together.  Many times, all i wish to do is reach out and be a friend, a sister to others.  i am not asking that you give up your life to join Master and i, just that you take the time to get to know me as a person, a sister and a friend.  i guess for many here, that is simply too much to ask.

8/23/2007 6:43:29 AM
Taking time to get to know people and to communicate are the two biggest problems people seem to have. Knowing who one is chatting with, spending hours really getting to know each other on all facets of life are extremely important to having a safe, sane and real relationship. Many on these sites are looking for sexual encounters which is not what BDSM is all about. Many don't know who they are, what they seek, or even how they fit into this lifestyle. They state they are one thing, yet after reading their profile, you see another role all together. Some are looking for friends, yet when you write them a respectful, honest and real e-mail wanting to learn more about them and become friends, you are blocked, ridiculed, or they disappear from site never to be seen or heard from again. If one little email scares them that much, then why are they here. A person can't or shouldn't put an age on friendship. There is much knowledge to be gained from those with experience and that are older then oneself. In this lifestyle, respect...even common respect, such as Yes Sir/Ma'am, No Sir/Ma'am, Please, Thank You, No Thank You, or i am not interested, should always be given unless the one contacting you is rude or disrespectful. i always try to be respectful of A/all of those that i contact or try to befriend. Yet, the responses, if any, are rude, shocking, and many down right nasty, all because i was trying to be a friend and get to know more about you. i don't understand the reaction when i didn't do anything to deserve it. i don't be little others for being what they are or who they are, i don't disrespect those that don't want to be a friend or want to exchange email, if i don't get a response, i move on. If you don't know what you want, who you are, or what you seek, then why are you here messing with people that do. How can you ever find something if you don't know yourself, don't know what you want from a site like this, and don't have any idea what you are really seeking from being here? When you understand yourself, your feelings, your wants, your needs, and your desires, then you will easily find what it is that you seek and need in life. Until then, learn about you...it makes things a lot easier for everyone in the end.

8/13/2007 11:09:32 AM
Master is working His slave harder.  Working her backside over with the flogger, the crop, the canes, and all the other delightful implements in His arsenal.  Nightly sessions are now upon me...pain turned into delightful pleasure...doing my Master's bidding.  What He wishes i fully give....the dark desires of fruitful servitude.  Master gives me what He feels to give...i question not His motive or desire. i give Him all i am and yet He takes whatever it is He wishes to take from me over and beyond it all.  i am His to do with as He chooses.  This is the life of a lowly and appreciated slave.  

8/2/2007 6:53:18 AM
Well, i think it is safe to say that things are finally looking up. :)  To be quite honest, there are actually some "real" people on here.  They are genuine, honest, trustworthy, people that know what the lifestyle is all about.  Willing to actually get to know U/us and U/us T/them.  Knowing that a relationship, any relationship, takes time to develop on both sides of the computer.  It doesn't happen over night, in one email, or one chat online.  It seems like everyone wants things yesterday.  They have no patience to get to really know people before they expect the world from them.  The only way to be safe is to communicate, spend time, effort and energy in getting to know the whole person and what they are all about.  Sharing life experiences, both vanilla and within our life style.  Being friends first, and seeing where the road leads from there.  Communication is the essence of all that we do in the lifestyle...it has to be in order to obtain the level of trust it takes for a person to turn themself over to another human being.  As a slave, i put my life in the hands of my Master, i know i can trust Him with the responsibility of my life.  If i would not have communicated with Him for so long before i moved here and accepted His collar, i don't think i would be at the level i am with Him now.  We still communicate with each other, we talk about everything and anything, we enjoy life, He is Master, i am slave, it is in that knowing that i honor, respect, and trust Him beyond compare.  Now, we turn our focus to communication with others, helping them grow and learn as we continue to grow and learn together.  If the worst that happens is that we have gained a new friend, then it has been a wonderful journey.  We only go through life once, so enjoy it to the fullest, safely, sanely, and consensually, and have fun in the process.  Life is too short to be too serious all the time, laugh, love, and learn!

7/29/2007 9:42:24 AM
Things are going well here dispite the vanilla things getting in the way.  Master continues to prepare me to take more and more of the different implements in preparation of the upcoming play party season in September. :)  i look forward to trying out all the new implements that many of our Dominant Friends have acquired over the summer and hope that i find a few that i will enjoy as much as Master Kindred's Black Thorn Cane.  Nothing like it in my books...lol.  Master continues to work on fisting me...we are getting closer and closer to having His entire hand inside me...not an easy task...but a rewarding one, considering we are finding out that i squirt with more regularity now and the orgasms are more intense when He allows me to cum for Him.  He takes His pleasure from me, for He tells me i am His pleasure in all i do.  The more He "works" me, the better slave i become.  i still continue to ask for "more Please" and Master continues to give me what He feels He wishes to give.  i accept all He gives with dignity, honor and respect.

7/9/2007 11:01:01 AM
Master and i just returned from visiting friends and family in Ohio. It was time to renew my visitors visa until i can get my permanent residency here in Canada. i love visiting, but am always thrilled to return, knowing i am safe with Master for another short while until we go through this again. As the time nears, my emotions go haywire. Master deals with me as best He can...lovingly, thoughtfully, and yet firm. He doesn't always spare me the rod, whip, or cane, but sometimes uses these implements to improve my thought process. Another form of care and caress...these implements are an extension of His touch, His hands, and His tender,loving caress. Helping me to know that He indeed cares enough to help me keep my thoughts positive, and my emotions from running too wild.
He continues to give me daily helpings of His favorite implements, keeping me in check, working on my tolerance, keeping me in a constant state of wanting, needing, and endless desire. i want nothing more than to please Him in any way He sees fit. i love Him with my heart, my mind, my body and my soul. He is the first thing i think of upon rising and the last thing i think about before sleeping. He is my everything...ALWAYS!

6/19/2007 1:57:39 PM
Master and i just returned from a long weekend in Montreal.  Lots to see and do.  my submissive sister jazzy and her Sir spent the weekend together site seeing and getting to know each other better.  i enjoyed a nice session on Friday night that left me tingly for 2 days and very well and nicely marked.  i am able to take more and more and am doing so for a longer period of time.  Master is working me more regularly as He has decided it keeps me in line mentally making it easier for me to stay in my place.  He is my only concern, i am His pleasure and He takes what He wants from me when ever He wants it and where ever He wants it, anytime, anyplace, anyhow.  It is His choice.  i belong to Him--He owns me--mind, body, soul, and heart.  He leads, i follow in His footsteps.  

6/2/2007 4:04:37 PM
Master is continuing to deepen my slavery and my need for His sadistic side. The training is becoming longer and harder, the marks lasting less and less time :( . i wear the marks as badges of honor and pride in serving my Master well. During this time, we continue to search for the one sister who will serve both our needs as well as serving those of the one who joins us. Many on these sites think they know what our life is all about, yet when it comes time to "put up or shut up", they disappear from sight. They change profiles, call us names, tell us we are not who and what we say we are, yet we continue on. For those that have ventured to meet us, get to know us, spend time with us, they know we are real, we are worthy of your time to get to know us. We never venture beyond your wishes for Master has not collared anyone but me...His lowly slave. i am honored to be His lowly slave, to know my place at His feet, to serve Him, and yes, to want to allow another to share our home, and my Master. We are honest, real, hardworking people that care about the wants, needs, and desires of others. We also care about others safety while they search for the One person they seek. We are here to help you search, to help you learn and to help keep you safe in the journey as you grow in your submission. We have a lot of knowledge that we are more than willing to share with those that will give us the opportunity. Even if we are not what you are seeking, we are always looking for friends in the lifestyle. Nothing wrong with that, we all need people to encourage us and help us find answers to the questions we have. Hopefully in time, others will give us a chance. Maybe you are the one we seek! i look forward to chatting with you soon. Master Michel's painslutslavewench,
elle

4/13/2007 6:24:47 AM
Master and i have been talking about my sister being a switch.  That way, He could leave her in control of me if He has to be out of the house.  i have decided that i like this idea, as i am slave in nature through and through.  She would be submissive to Him, but in control of me when Master allows her to be.  Since i was trained to be used by a Dom/Domme couple from the beginning, it is something i would really like and enjoy.  It would encompass everything i have been through in my life and give me the freedom to serve both members of my family as they saw fit.  i miss serving a woman, but would never think of ever being with just a woman.  i love my Master and He is my world.  We have enough love for many and yet, i know my place is safe and sound within our relationship as His slave, His woman, His lover and His friend.  Adding another to our family is something we both look forward too with great joy and happiness.  It will complete us both.  Are YOU the one we seek to help us complete our family?  If so, PLEASE drop Master or i a note , and let's get to know each other better.  He is PaceMaster here and has a full profile.   Happiness awaits and abounds here. :)
elle

4/10/2007 5:29:35 AM
Wanting a sister!

     Spring is here and Master and i are still searching to find the sister i have always wanted.  We are so looking to start our poly family and begin another part of our wonderful journey.  A poly family is a great thing in many ways.  We have a lot of love to share with the right sub or slave that may be starting her journey and wants to learn while still searching for her One Owner, or gives a sister sub or slave that is experienced a chance to re-enter the life after losing an Owner for some reason, or , just give a sub or slave a chance to find her place within the lifestyle and let her feel her submission in a loving, caring environment.  Each member of the poly family gets time with Master alone, time with her sister alone, and time to her self as well as time together with all members of the family.  We share the chores, we share the responsibility for caring for Master and making sure His every want and need are filled at all times.  We work together as a unit to insure all our happiness. 
    Is my sister out there looking for her place?  i certainly hope so, and if she is reading this, i hope she will take the time to get to know me and Master.  Chat with us, learn about us, and in time who knows.  The worst that can happen is that you gain a friend or two that is willing to listen, to help, and to encourage you as you search for what it is that you are seeking.  We wish you all the best.
Master Michel's slave,
elle

4/3/2007 7:34:26 AM
Well, Spring is here and Master is back into the routine of daily spankings.  One way to "toughen" up His slave after a long winter. :)  Master is putting me through my paces, working on forming me into an acceptable sister for her visit this summer.  Much of our "protocol" is in the knowing between us that He is Master and i am slave.  i take my position seriously and will do all in my power to make Master happy at whatever expense necessary to see that He is indeed happy.  What Master wants, Master gets!  i am obedient to Him, His wants, His needs, His desires.  i receive His care, His acceptance, His love, and the knowledge that i am safe and secure in my place with Him, now and forever.  He completes me, i complete Him.  He is stern, forceful, and demanding only when He feels He needs to be but He is always in control of me, of Himself and of whatever the situation is at the time.  There is no need for a safeword between us, because i trust Him, respect Him, and know Him, and know that He will never allow harm or permanent damage to ever come to me.  A Master who is in charge and control of Himself would never allow harm to come to His property if He ever expects to play with it again.  

3/29/2007 1:48:02 PM

HUMMMMMMMMMM!

     slave loves meeting new people and making friends.  Master allows me the freedom to do so as well as the chance to give my opinions, thoughts, and ideas and all while helping others. 
    i recently chatted with a young lady on here that will really make many of the Dominates on here very happy.  Her idea of submission is to do what she wants and when she wants to do it--yet she dreams of serving someone in real life--but she wishes to stay in control of her own life and serve on a part time basis.  When it pleases her to do so.  She has no ideas on what real submission or slavery is all about.  If i were to go about it the way she sees it, i would be punished severely until i learned it is what Master Wants, When He wants it, How He wants it, Always without question or hesitation.   A submissive or slave does not Top from the bottom or supercede the Tops wants, desires, wishes, or demands at anytime unless it is on the agreed upon list of limits, against the law, or will put you in serious harm or danger.  My safety is always first and foremost in Master's mind and He would never put me at risk unnecessarily.  i just don't understand the way some submissives/slaves think.  Not the way i was trained or taught to behave that is for sure.  No wonder so many have such a hard time finding the O/one they seek. 


3/25/2007 7:01:48 AM
Why do others wish to make friends with others, then when given the chance they run and hide? This happens more and more on here. What is there to be afraid of ? Can't people be friends without strings attached or fear of being lead somewhere they do not want to go? It is not like i am asking people to give up their beliefs, their current situations, their life to conform with my beliefs or desires. All i want is to chat with other sister submissives, help where and if i can, and live my life within this lifestyle the way my Master deems fit for me to live. What is the crime in that? Why do others have to hide or chose to be hidden away? i am honest, trustworthy, real, and very much a slave. i live this life realtime 24/7. i have no ability to turn off the computer screen, webcam, or hang up the phone. i am real, my slavery is real, i live this life. i only wish others were real in this life -- too many players, too many people get hurt trying to find those that are real. Life is too short to deal with people who do not have a clue about who they are or what it is that they seek. Know yourself first, then you will be able to know others and find the O/one right for you. Never settle for less than you deserve.!

3/23/2007 2:04:19 PM
Master and i celebrated our first anniversary of my arrival in Canada.  It has been a wonderful year filled with a lot of trials and tribulations not all of our making.  We celebrated St. Patrick's Day (our anniversary) by going to dinner and then to the well known Fetphoto Event in Toronto.  It was also my first year anniversary of attending this wonderful event and for lusting after the delightful Black Thorn Cane owned by a delightful Master Named Kindred.  On this special night, i was placed on the spanking bench where Master Michel spanked me and flogged me until i was ready for my favorite implement of torture, the Devil's Tail.  i received 13 lashes of this deviously delightful implement followed by 12 delightful strokes of the Black Thorn Cane and several swats of the "carpet beater turned subbie beater" thanks to the thoughtfulness of Master Kindred.  A delightful time was had by all attending and with the wonderful buffet we are treated too each time, is well worth the money.  Master and i act as Dungeon Monitors as well and oversee the safety of those playing and being played with.  Always something new and delightful to see and experience if you are willing. 
While there, we see many friends and make many new ones as each month, there are many new faces to blend in well with the familiar ones.  Everyone is treated well and even those coming alone, never fear being "pounced" on.  If you ever get the opportunity to go, take advantage of it, it is well worth it.

3/9/2007 5:02:31 PM

It sure has been a busy last month. Master and i moved into our new place and Master started a new job with me as His assistant. We are in charge of a 48 unit apartment building and have been getting it back to livable condition. (cleaning up all the dirt and junk left behind by the former superintendents). All is well and life is good. Everyone is wonderful here and we are right near the marina on lake Ontario. So beautiful!
We are finally getting back to normal in our life within a life. Master is back to putting me through my paces and i am so enjoying it. We are looking forward to the day my submissive sister will be living with us and i so badly want a sister submissive to join us. The search has been long and hard. We have talked with several who ended up not being who they stated they were and have no real clue what this life involves. Why do people have to pretend to be something or someone they aren't? In reality, they are only fooling themselves and hurting others and themselves in the end. What ever happened to honesty, truthfulness, trust, and respect? Life goes on and Master and i are happy and satisfied with what we have at the present time. We just keep on keeping on and moving forward and hopefully closer to our goal of finding me a sister one day.


12/15/2006 12:32:33 PM

Just a note to let everyone know that i have updated my profile to make it a bit easier to read and to clarify a few things.


Many had thought that i was gorean in nature and that Master and i lead this type of life. We do not live a Gorean life but i was trained that was early in my life so that was the reasoning behind the wording of the previous profile.


i look forward to making many more friends here and getting to know others. Please feel free to e-mail me and get to know me.


Master Michel's slave,
elle


11/30/2006 10:55:17 AM



Why is it that people on here say they want friends, yet when one sends an invitation to become friends and is interested in learning more about them, they are ignored completely?!!!

How does someone get to know others if a line of communication is not opened? There are many on here that complain about one line e-mails, yet when a sincere, well written and thought out e-mail comes their way, it is ignored or forgotten. i do NOT understand it!

Have true submissives forgotten how to be polite?

It doesn't take respect to be generally polite to all who are polite in return. For me, it is just common courtesy to be polite to all who deserve it and take the time to be "nice".

i feel that many on here need to really look at themselves and figure out if this lifestyle is really for them---after attempting to contact many on here to make friends and reading profiles with so many limits and expecting Dominates and submissives to jump through all sorts of hoops--i can see why so many are still and will forever still be searching for someone. They are seeking the impossible! People need to stop and think about what they are really seeking from this lifestyle and what their place really is within it. Be true to yourself and open, honest, and truthful with not only yourself but with the people you are talking too. Too many are getting hurt, being used and abused by those who are not being honest with themselves. It is time to wake up and smell the coffee!

10/21/2006 10:20:09 AM

Just a note to all submissives and slaves--

When another Dominate or submissive/slave writes to you in a respectful and courteous manner, it is only showing the same courtesy to answer the person taking the time to write you. So many on here complain that people do not take the time to write serious inquiries and now i understand why. It is because so many on here never respond, even if it is only to say that they are not interested or not what they are seeking.

i am seeking not only friends on here...sisters in submission...and newbies that are trying to find their way, but also looking for others that are interested in joining a poly family with my Master and i. Does it hurt anything to take some time to get to know someone and be their friend? Many on here must seem to think so. i haev been in this lifestyle for many years, i have much knowledge and enjoy helping others find their way in this lifestyle. i enjoy answering questions, giving honest and trustworthy advice and watching others grow in their submission. Too bad many are just looking for a quick one night stand...or just sex and using the lifestyle as a guise to hook up with someone else. Many are getting hurt because they are real in this lifestyle...not players or wannabes. Master and i take this life seriously--we live it 24/7 in or out of the vanilla world around us. Too bad many out here will not even give the courtesy of a response to a well thought out and written email by people who are real. Just shows me that those that are claiming to be submissive/slave are not who they are pretending to be. A submissiev or slave is always required to show courtesy to others no matter what. It only takes a minute to reply to those that do not interest you or are not what you seek. The least you can do is take that minute to do the right thing and give the person writing the time to actually read the email and send a quick response thanking them for their time and interest. It is the RIGHT thing to do.


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LEEel
 
 Age: 26
 London, United Kingdom