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Welcome to Metal Mayhem's profile!
We are a 24/7 poly leather family consisting of me (the Master), Mistress Payne and 2 boy slaves. Do not call our arrangement a harem! It's a family! We have been through many bumps and bruises but our bond keeps getting stronger.
My name is M. NIKKI. The M is short for Master but because I do not expect most people to call me by that title, I just put an M in front. I am a dirty old guy with tattoos and piercings and is known to have a little mean streak in me. I do not sit around and drink beer all day long, as much as I'd love to with the rest of my generation, I prefer to stay fit and healthy. I would consider myself to have a good sense of humor but I can only account for my own amusement with myself. Maybe, I just think I am hilarious and everyone around me thinks I am some loser. Either way, works for me.
In my M/s relationships I am a dog trainer/owner, Master, Daddy and Sadist. I identify with ALL of these simultaneously so if you can't keep up, maybe you shouldn't try. I tend to be very strict yet caring. Domineering yet... no, I am not very polar on that aspect. I have passion in everything that I do in life. If I want to paint something, I'd paint a mural, understand? My Dominance is the same way. I do not seek perfection but I do seek ones who are perfect for me so. I am suppose to say something brutal now like, GET ON YOUR KNEES BITCH! Right?
This section is for Mistress Payne to write about herself but she is being lazy. I will quote little one, "She is a mean ol' lady". That's all you need to know. Lol
I do have a hierarchy. My slaves aren't just thrown into some structureless household. Currently I have two male slaves that are used for SERVICE only. They sexually service others OUTSIDE the household. My job is to provide the M/s underlying structure, not the dick. At least, not in their case.
My alpha slave is the french bitch. Yes, he is french. You have no idea how many people ask us that a day. He is a 33 yr old slave/rottweiler/bitch who is used as a certified personal trainer and protector of the household. I use him for all of my rough body play because what I dish out is not meant for a woman. He has been loyal to me for 13 years and has his ownership collar in which he has had SOO long, I just recently had to get him a new and more sturdy one. That's loyalty and dedication for you. >squeeks toy and throws it in the pool<
My beta slave's name is john. I don't have any cool name for him like french bitch has but mainly because he is the stereotypical submissive slim that I hate. If you couldn't tell, he is into degradation and humiliation. His main role here is to be the butler but is currently in culinary arts school to be a household chef. He has been with me for 4 years and recently (February '09) earned his ownership collar. Congratulations john! He has served this household well and I look forward to many years in the future, you creepy little troll's mucus.
We are looking for a little girl slave.
Although I am addicted to this site, I am not here all the time. That was my deceased wife's job but I do try and blog as much as possible to keep everyone updated on my household, as if you cared. We are very easy to get along with so, drop us an email! Someone will respond.
M. NIKKI
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Master is back home from his trip to New York. i am really glad to see him back. i missed that man especially because i was here babysitting ALL the kids and little one. john has been going to his culinary classes in the morning and spending his evenings with his Dominant girlfriend which i think there is going to be a problem between him and i since i told Master that she was becoming a problem because he is always over there instead of being home and taking care of the family. if Master makes john get rid of her, we might end up fighting. that's not going to be good for either of us in the long run. last time i faught with a slave of the household, my ass was sore for a decade not to mention the severe CBT that i recieved. my balls still curl up inside themselves when Master puts on his steel toed leather boots.
little one has been fun. it sucks that she has to go this weekend to some function for her slave training. i had a lot of fun kissing her. she has lucious lips. lucious, there is a word i dont use everyday. she has been cursing a lot lately. i think i washed her mouth out 4 times within the last 2 weeks. i thought that had done the trick but come to find out, she just says the curse words softer and not around me. i wonder why she is cussing so much.
Mistress is doing good. She made me fuck her for hours last night. no complaint here. just doing my Mistress a service and being a good little bitch. She found that if she presses her stilleto heel into my nipple that i let out a yelp. She found that very amusing.
i am very happy you have found some source of pleasure out of my pain Mistress. now... stop it. lol
which leads me to my next topic.. my mouth. i have been getting in serious trouble lately by beind what Mistress calls, an unruley bitch. i got one hell of a hair brush/bath brush spanking over Mistress' knee this morning. she said her goal was to make me cry. i wore her out and she had to cut that game out shortly. i was impressed, she got me to actually squirm and whine and thanks to john, i couldn't put my hands behind my back and cover my ass. john is such a kiss ass. he suggested to Mistress that he hold my hands so she can BEAT ME more effectively. he is soooo going to regret that. just wait when no one is around and i am in control, john. i am going to beat the ever living snot out of you! but, i remember her fierce paddlings now. Ouch dude! i'll remember not to tell my owner that she looks like hell in the morning, again. I am an idiot.
Master heard about the incident. i fear what he may do to me tonight. He said we are going to have a "talk" which means he is going to kick my ass. Splendid. i hope he doesn't lock me up in my cage tonight.
we put the pictures back up. i just didn't want to be the first one. it creeped me a little when someone came to me and said they liked my writings on collarme. 
hope you all are having a better week then I am. i need to go catch some hugs and kisses from little one before my meeting with Master and maybe some after too.
french bitch
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Does... someone hear a buzzing sound? *swats noise away from my ears*
I officially hate tgirls. How fucking annoying. I email someone saying how pretty they are and asked for a face picture to see how SHE does her make up because Mistress Payne has turned me onto the envy of realistic tgirls since she does forced fem. I'd never fuck them but, a guy can look from the side lines.
This chick emailed me back accusing me of manipulating her or some shit. Was crazy. Then she wouldn't stop with the emails. Even when I said go away, she responded!
They may be dudes but they seriously act like chicks. Ugh!
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Noooo more pictures! This weekend alone, 3 people have come up to us saying that they saw us on collarme and we just got an email from someone mentioning a band of one of my boys. So, we can not be so out there anymore.
Sorry!
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Had you not noticed, we have not been online for a little while. This month is a busy one or at least I am keeping it that way with all the emotions flying around.
The little one calls me and tells me about all these Dominants she has in her area that she is interested in and is conflicted in who to pick as though she wants me to help. All I can say is, that's nice, without doing something rash like kidnapping her and keeping her forever for myself. She seems to have given me some more space since I snapped on the phone and told her I didn't want to hear about all the men or women in her life when it wasn't me. She responded saying that she didn't know I was still sensitive. OF COURSE I AM! I didn't want her to go in the first fucking place.
I haven't heard from Mistress Payne. I miss her too. Having both of them back just to give them up again was such an emotional tease. I bet M. Payne is in some drug induced coma somewhere. >sigh<
The boys and I are fine. john seems to be lonely since he works at the house and french bitch works with me. I might get him something nice for easter. Speaking of, I am contemplating going to NY on Sunday. I have family there. I might also intrude on some friends of mine while I am at it.
If I don't blog before Sunday. Happy Easter.
M. NIKKI
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Seems as though I have been doing somewhat of a rebound. I spoke with little one and Mistress Payne today and although I love them both very much they said that everything went too fast. We are going to take a few step backs.
little one espressed an interest in having me help her with a lifestyle resume as means of propositioning other Daddys or Mommys which I would love to do. We didn't work out before because of my lifestyle and hers didn't match up and it seems like we are struggling with the same thing. It sucks when you love someone so much and your lifestyle gets in the way. Happens way too often, for me, and losing little one to this AGAIN is kind of heartbreaking but I understand. She will always be my little one.
Mistress Payne was my first wife. Of course I will always love her but she is looking for a submissive boy and I am not that at all and neither is french bitch. john already has a Mistress and Payne isn't too fond of him. She says he reminds her of someone who would creep in at night and skin you alive. Lol. Why does everyone have that same experience? Good thing he is locked in a cage at night, hu?
french bitch showed an interest in possibly being a Daddy to little one but we will see where that goes. They have always had chemistry.
As it stands, my core household is still here but my two girls are in limbo. I am very confused. My head and heart fucking hurts.
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I am very disappointed today. I set up a two meets one, with a household in my area and the other a Domme who I was interested in meeting with in regards of creating a small private rope night with a few select friends. She was referred to me through a friend of a friend and the couple was from this godforsaken site.
I got stood up TWICE in one day! Then, I come home to an email from another woman who I had considered in the past rejecting my proposal to have dinner with me because she says I am a fake. What the fuck?! I want to have dinner to prove I am real but she doesn't want to have a meeting because she thinks I am fake. Explain this to me, someone!
I need to beat someone up. Sucks for french bitch.
M. NIKKI
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sad times around this house but at the same token, we are very happy to be able to have the support of our new additions. i forgot how much i missed little one. when she use to be with us, the first time around, me and her grew very close so that connection seemed to pick back up where we left off. it is also very nice to have Mistress back. her style of cruelty is as rare as her beauty.
this morning was fairly cold and i got in trouble with her. when getting some orange juice, i had gotten ice out of the refrigerator spout on the door and let a piece of ice fall. i admit i am lazy and i just kicked it away. Mistress came into the kitchen and stepped on the cold puddle in her socks. i do not know how she knew it was me but she came storming into the dungeon where i was drinking my juice and reading the newspaper in my cage, waiting for Master to come home from playing ball with his friends so we could do the family meeting.
she dragged my naked ass outside in the backyard while hitting me over the head with the newspaper yelling "bad dog" at me all the way. before kicking me out, she ripped my reading glasses off my face, scratching the side of my face by my eye with them and left me out there to freeze! Master came home an hour and 1/2 later and just so happened to come into the kitchen where the glass door where i was leaning my back against was and let me in. i was freezing my ass off! come to find out.. Mistress hadn't thought of me since she kicked me out!
this is why i love her. lol
i got to warm up to little one cuddling me on the couch (she is very very very snuggley) while Master ran the family meeting and gave me the outside chores with the anonymous request that i do them naked. wonder who that came from!? i accused Mistress of it and cursed her for it all day until tonight when watching a movie, i thanked her for having me do my chores naked in a bitchy way and she said that LITTLE ONE requested it!
i asked Master if i could spank her but found out i was in line and that Mistress already did. so, noogies are a great discovery. i noogied that little girl till her head was starting to get sore. lol
french bitch
oh and the whole color code thing never bothered me until this post. we have so many people the colors just.. are hard to remember and is a bitch to go back and reread your post and change the color. |
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Not only women get stupid fake emails: hello Master. i am an 18 year old girl from Itally who is in need of being broken, bound and anally fucked.
You'd think they'd spell check Italy.
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Someone on here is named ilovemetalmayhem. It is actually really fucking freaky. Ha. I bet it is that chick ....erm I forgot get name. Oh well.
I unhid our profile. My long ass hiatus didn't last long. The boys were getting restless and this was one of their only approved websites to come on. Lol. I didn't think about that before I hid the profile.
We have been doing ok. Just hanging out, enjoying eachother and to be honest, I never realized how much drama lizzy actually brought to the household. Now that she is gone, it's a lot quieter and less hectic. I do still love her dearly but damn it's very peaceful here.
Last night I spent it with little one. She's so fucking cute and snuggly. It kind of makes me sick how fucking adorable she is. Lol.
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Our profile was updated in a huge way. Please read over it to see how our household has changed. I am going to fucking bed now. I haven't slept yet and I am 2 seconds away from turning into what little one calls "NIKKI Grinch"
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Today is a good day already!
I haven't gone to sleep yet but all I have to say is, "Welcome and good morrow, Kate!"
Yes that was odd to all of you out there but to one person it means something. Lol!!!
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Today is one of those days where I really feel like I want to slaughter something. Having lizzy gone is really hitting me hard considering this is the first day since I got back where I didn't wake up with some whore in my bed. Last night was pretty hard but this morning just flat out sucked. I started drinking at noon. I am feeling a great buzz right about now. Alcoholic behavior I know, fucking analyze the next guy. I have just had it rough. All I needed was my hetero-life-mate, Jack Daniels. He makes me feel good without sucking my cock. Amazing!
One of my co-workers is high off his ass today and I wanted to work a little but he is fucking useless. I went over to his house this morning and stumbled over about 5 sluts who lay sleeping on the floor. Pissed me off that he wouldn't share at least one last night. Ass.
My daughter is pissed at me for all this dramatic bullshit that I was thrown in the middle of. She says I am making her look bad. Swell. To add to it, I come on collarme and these assholes are stillll emailing me. Sure I stirred the pot but it was unintentional. This bastard has me paranoid and these people don't understand how much of a manipulative fuck he is. That little bastard.
So here I am. Drunk, mad, and wanting to fuck something. Not a good place to be. Lol.
On a lighter note: I have been talking to a slave girl in my area. She is very sweet and submissive. I may have to forget lizzy for awhile and tend to the cauterization of my emotional wounds.
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i just got in from another date. this girl i met at the club a few months back before Master and i went on our travels.
unlike the boring disaster i encountered the other night, this chick is hot with an awesome body and loves to suck cock. although i made her gag plenty of times, she was a good girl and swallowed.
she is way too vanilla though. i did the gentleman thing: got all doors, pulled her chair out and ordered for her. i think that she mistakened my kindness for weakness because when we got back to her place and i told her to bent over the bed because i was going to spank her for calling me (real name) all night, she laughed.
so, i spanked her to tears and i think she almost made me leave until i started to eat her pussy. she did the damsel whore thing by saying no no no. i bought her dinner and treated her right.. i am getting the fucking pussy!
i found out that not only did she get her first spanking as an adult and LOVED it but she also said that she'd like to try the "submissive thing".. whatever that means to her.
she'd be a great fuck for in the future but nothing i will pursue. tuck her number in my black sabbath book and move on.
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Master let me go meet a submissive in my area for dinner and some play. she was such a bore! i met her off collarme and even though she didn't have a personality offline at dinner, i thought it could have been because she was nervous. online she is fun, smart and ignorant in all the right places. offline she is bland, not much of a risk taker, and a prude.
she took me back to her place for some play and i ordered her to strip, her response was "so soon"? YES SO SOON NOW STRIP DAMNIT!
she did and i noticed that she had fake tits. i asked her how long ago she had them done and she told me they were real. now, being a slutty man, i have seen my share of tits and those bitches were faker then they come.
i got bored with her games and left. so i was so turned off that i just left.
on my way home she sent me a text message saying that i was boring and insulting. i told her that maybe if she would have talked and acted like a living person, i could have something to work off of and bring up something to converse about.
i hate how people change so much from online presence to offline. it was really a buzz kill.
Master is talking to this cutie who knows french, on this website. she says that she may be available and Master wants us to go have lunch or dinner with her. from all the emails i have read of their conversations, i am hoping that she doesn't change too much. id love to have another french speaker in the household.
french bitch
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Sneaky sneaky. I find it amusing how people fall out of your life and as soon as you feel comfortable and secure with the fact they are gone, they show up again in the weirdest way.
The age player I speak of in my profile has been trying to get this insane person out of her life since she met him. He is just unstable and actually lead her to being unstable as well. They would emotionally tedor-tottered off eachother negatively. She finally broke from him months BUT a few days ago she gets a text from him. What the fuck is wrong with people!? I grabbed her phone and basically said AM-SCRAY KID!
On the other side of the fence, I have been talking to a Domme who is way cool. She seemed to be very sweet, laid back, and cool but then I found out that she is this kid's new Mistress!?!
Who in their right mind would even think to contact her slave's ex's Mentor and think it's okay after she knew all of the bad shit that happened between them?
For fucks sake!
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Wow. Dominant women amaze me. Girls, you think that only men demand slaves online upon first contact to do nasty things and to be owned by them.. call you degrading titles that you did not consent to?
This woman keeps contacting us about john saying that he is hers and she is going to throw him in a cage and molest him until he breaks. This is quite amusing to me so I decided not to block her. The amusing part is not that she is writing us it's johns expression when we tell him that he got an email from his Mistress and to see his running skills in full swing. >laughs<
I decided to finally block her when she said she was going to include john in a snuff film because he has been a very bad boy and deserves to be tortured and killed. A bit much hu? Still, I found it funny but he is begining to get a little paranoid. Ha!
Ah.. Dominant women at their finest. I wonder, is that MizzRose chick still emailing submissive females saying "hi pet"? Or is that couple still emailing out saying "have you ever been whored?". Those are my two favorites on here. They say the same thing and when this profile was lizzy's and under slave female, she got those two at least once every 3 months. Making their rounds. Haha.
Anyway, wanted to share some fun stuff because recently our blog has been quite dramatic and annoying. You all have a great day!
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the other day i was instructed to put up more pictures of john and i to fill the gaps where lizzy was. they are now all approved so check them out.
i am intimidated at the fact that i am now the first picture on the profile which means my face is the slave traffic driver. good luck with that one, right?
i chose the painted face one to somewhat conceal my identity a little although it looks exactly like me, just in face paint. lol *le'sigh* see that, i even sigh in a french manner. *smirk*
today i practically had to pull Master out of bed. i didn't dare mention that his pillow was soaking wet and cold, assuming he was crying last night. i think he really misses lizzy. i wish i could comfort him in some way but the only way i know how to do that is through my obedience and submission. i am going to try and behave to the best of my ability so i am not perceived as being a handful, just until he is out of this funk.
i hope all of you have an awesome Wednesday. we have a busy day ahead of us... i should make Master's breakfast.
the french bitch
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I do not understand why verification that you are a human via cam is so much to ask? Fuck, the boys will cam with you the second you talk to them. Why is your fucking face so precious? Is it made of gold or is it that you look like shit in the middle of the night and you would risk a chance to have a relationship due to your vanity? Come on people?!
Refusing me of a simple request is not the best thing to do. Especially after responding to my yes/no questions with "yeah". It's not like I am going to ask you to strip naked and spread your ass cheeks. Shit! Just want to know you aren't some 80 yr old man named Herbert on the other side.
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today has been dull and it sucks that i have no hot girl to look at and know she submits to me. there is way too much testosterone in this household, we need a babe, that is for sure!
i talked to lizzy today. she told me that when i learn how to speak english to call her back and hung up.
those drugs are going to catch up to her and she will look like joan rivers. such a shame. she was such a nice, sweet, loving and beautiful girl. now she is on a pole. haha.
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so i am to write in here again. seems as though i should just keep a journal because whenever i feel like my journaling days are over, Master throws me back into the blogging lifestyle which is COMPLETELY non-consensual! lol
i am in a really good mood, believe it or not. having lizzy gone after all of this stress she has put us through is relieving. i lover he but she just crossed too many lines with me. drugs, cheating, lying and using your friends and family is just not something i will tolerate. she changed too much.
like i said to Master, lizzy died when she went into her coma and we need to grieve her as she was and forget her how she is.
the french bitch
King4u2serve, what a joke! |
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Congratulations to Nick and his new Mistress. I wish you the best. Just stay the f*ck away from my girl! |
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It has been one hell of a emotionally rocky week. Work is on full blast and my household seems to be falling apart. It's times like these when I do doubt my ability to be a strong Master. So yes, I feel as though I have failed. Amazing concept that even Masters fail too, hu? That is how we know we are human and not gods.
My slave and wife, Lizzy has left the household. After her having undergone severe and strange medical issues, she has come back to us in a very different demeanor and look on life; One that is not healthy for my household nor herself. I can demand her to behave but when it comes down to it, one who is not willing to submit herself to her Master is not one who can be controlled.
That being said, my family has been left in a very tender emotional state. I have asked the boys to journal more. I believe getting your feelings off of your chest is the best way to heal yourself. Please be patient with us.
Our profile will be under construction for a little while until we regroup and get the mourning out of the way.
Thank you!
M. NIKKI
p.s. I told you, don't bring your drama to me because life is dramatic enough. ;) |
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You know, I try to not be bias towards one's experience level in the lifestyle but to be bluntly honest, if they haven't experienced anything they can't handle my household.
I hate saying that because thank god someone took me in and taught me what she knew! Thank god I had that opportunity which I keep trying to give back to some poor new shmuck who is in desperate need of servicing someone..
I emailed a slave boy who I was interested in and we talked..he ends up saying that my lifestyle is too advanced.
Kids, my lifestyle is a lifestyle. It's not some huge spanking party! In fact, I barely spank the boys. I'd rather lock them up in isolation and just not deal with their crap if they aren't going to behave. This isn't some kink-fest household.
So aggravating!
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Life Lessons by M. NIKKI
If a thick friend of yours is upset because someone calls her a "big cute girl", refrain from comforting her by saying "but you are a big cute girl".
That one hurt. |
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The profile is pissing me off!!!! |
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Stress, sluts, my lover Jack Daniels.....
Nuff said.
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T-shirt Idea ripped off from someone:
Poly Pride
If you think I look good.. (front)
You should see my partners! (back)
Yes! Slays me everytime! |
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i am following a conversation between Master, some woman and some slave. they are tied with a girl who is a close friend to the family who is not doing very well at the moment and i have to say, some people have issues dude. (laughs)
a few questions i have:
1. why would killing yourself make someone else miserable?
2. why are anger issues beneficial?
3. if you only knew someone for a month and only met them once, how do you get so attached that you hurt yourself when they are gone?
4. why would someone viewing your profile put you in a murderous rage?
5. what is wrong with people? (laughs)
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About to head to bed and thought I'd check my email considering I was having an email conversation with a lovely slave girl whom I adore. She isn't doing as well as I would have wanted and I actually feel like an ass since I rejected her job opportunity because I thought she was wanting to go in an opposite direction in life, just to find out she was doing that while waiting for me to get my shit together. Ha. Wow. I... am an asshole. Lol.
On top of that, I checked this boys profile to see if any updates had occurred since his recent break with my now obliterated friend and he is collared... to the woman who my broken friend said he would be collared to. I had been reassuring her this whole time on how attached this boy is to her and trying to coach her to get back with him and he has moved on... already... like she said he would do. Not only do I now want to kill this boy for being so stupid but I am awkwardly aware of my friends clairvoyance.
Why do people suck?
Oh well, maybe we can get her a real Daddy and not some submissive slime bag. My question is is why the hell she went with some submissive in the first place. She needs a real man. All submissive men are boys who haven't grown nuts yet. I don't understand her appeal towards them.
M. NIKKI
p.s. no really, I am gone... working. Lol |
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This is it, the begining of a long road for me. I will try and write on here as much as possible or respond to as many emails as I can but for a couple of months, I will be busy.
My girl will be under the care of a great nurse so do not worry about her. She is progressing slowly but surely.
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Man. I have one fucked up little girl on my hands and I am not talking about ellie. I wish I could take all stranded littles.
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Now I am not only busy with work but picking up the pieces of what is left of a dear friend of mine.
When you meet someone online, please be careful. I understand that especially in this lifestyle it can get lonely but you need to ensure your safety above all: emotionally and physically.
If you see someone you are speaking to present red flags starting off talking to you, cut it off right there. Do not get emotionally involved until you know they are safe and trustworthy of holding your heart.
This goes for slaves, subs, switches and Dominants!
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Out of boredom, I came on here to read profiles and laugh at insane people. One fake picture caught my eye so I had to look at the rest of them to try and figure out which submissive porn star is being duplicated this time and I read the more horrifying blog ever.
Come to find out, this "owned slave" isn't even living with this "person" and is already tattooing herself everywhere, calling herself an owned piece of meat and claims that her "Mistress" plans on cutting off her nipples/clit hood AND sewing her ass and pussy shut.
Naturally, I wanted to read more. She says that she met this woman on the 8th of this month. That means that she met someone not even 10 days ago and is doing all of this.
Out of my morbid curiosity, I want to email her just to fuck with her. Of course I wont because I am a gentleman. Instead, I am writing this blog to say, some people need to get a life. Like any of that shit would really happen and if it did, I hope to god they never get caught. That crap gives the leather lifestyle a bad name.
One more thing, if she sews her exits.. how does she release? Through a bag? Lol
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good morning. yes, i said good morning because i just got let out of my cage. this, i am not too happy about. Master left to go do something with his girlfriend over night, left his oldest in charge of taking us out and he decided to take advantage of this time to torture us. i had to pee when i woke up and he made me piss in a cup. fucking ass.
Master just got home and instead of being mad he laughed. great! He said so now I guess you have something to blog about.
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My baby is still in a coma. She will come out one day. I just know it. The doctors don't think so... but I am going to keep hoping. I think all of life's stresses got to her..
Just everyone keep in mind.. this is a 22 yr old girl. Take care of yourselves.. you never know when your life will come to a screeching halt. It seems mine has. I feel as if I am standing numb while life swishes by me... no sound is heard, no voice is spoken, just me and my pain.
That was really emo. I am actually proud of myself for being like that. I didn't think I had it in me.
M. NIKKI
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| Age: 21 |
| Birmingham,
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