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| Right now I am looking for friends to hang out with IRL. I am a silly fun loving person who has a truly submissive side. Just remember that I am not a doormat. I am a big girl who can handle myself in tough situations. And if you strike me the wrong way and get my Irish up, I am very formidable. Before you message me please be aware that I am a BBW and I will not be some skinny little thing for you ever. I am working on losing weight for my own health, but i will not ever put up with somebody putting me down over my weight.
My husband knows that I am on this site, and is fully able to read every message you send. We have an agreement on an open relationship. This does not mean that I will be submitting to every Dom that comes along. Please understand that I need to get to know you before we meet. If your first message is going to ask me to chat on yahoo or skype, please pass me up. Why are you on here if you cannot speak on here for a while? If you want to know something about me don't hesitate to ask, I'm pretty much an open book.
For those still reading thank you for taking the time to do so. I sincerely appreciate you, Doms, subs, and the like. If you need a friend drop me a line, I'm always glad to lend an ear, or a shoulder to cry on...
Above all, Always be blessed,
Mel
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Make that 54 lbs lost! Super excited guys. Thank you ALL for your support and for all of the congratulations I have received!! It is so nice to know that there are people out there rooting for me! |
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Woot!!! 51 lbs lost!!!!! Just did a happy dance and almost broke my neck lol. |
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So apparently I am a guy now since I won't cam with some crazy domme after one CM message.
That is a new one for me. I think I have enough pictures posted to prove that I am not fake and I am a woman. If you need a pic down south to convince you, then you're not worth my time anyways.
I know there are some weirdos here but seriously people some of the ones I have come across need to be medicated. |
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Good news: lost two more lbs
Bad news: I am sitting in aggieville stood up by a Dom. Anybody wants to come keep me company, message me. |
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4 more lbs to 50 lost. Super excited. Thanks again to my friends on here for your continued support!! |
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Wishing I had somebody to go out and drink with. Thinking of heading out to Aggieville. But scared to go by myself. |
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Woohoo!! 42lbs lost since April! Thank you to my friends on here who have helped keep me motivated, and also made me feel beautiful. The feeling is new to me, but I am getting used to it. Y'all have helped me out a lot. Probably more than you even know.
Always be blessed,
Mel |
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..... My dadgum boobs are sore from working out. When I use my recumbent bike, the motion makes my boobs bounce and now they are sore, so I have to find some industrial strength sports bras so they stop doing that... Never would have thought that would be my biggest pain from working out lol
Always be blessed,
Mel |
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Wow lol
So, apparently I have been 22 for the last 3 years on this site, because I did not realize that you have to update your profile every year and change your age. And being as you never see your actual profile, unless you are bored and view yourself, I never noticed that until today.
Sorry for any confusion,
Mel |
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Spending the day at the gym, will reply to any messages as soon as I get home.
Always be blessed,
Mel |
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Let the pain wash over you
The veil of pleasure falls
Tell me everything you want
As you scream aloud my name
The sweat that falls runs down your back
As we're joined the pain fulfills
Your screams the drive me harder
Your moans they make me cum
I love this feel you under me
Your nails along my spine
Pulling me along with you
Up up 'til you explode
Watch you fall asleep again
Once more a hundred times
Fall in love with you again
All over every night
I love you like the breath of life
That can't be taken back
No matter what you do or say
I'm here, you're stuck with that
I tried to write this from the Dom's point of view. Hope you enjoyed it.
As always, Be blessed,
Mel |
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Tonight was a moonless night with dense warm air. There was barely a breeze; just enough to rustle the leaves in the trees as I walked past. Tonight was an evening straight out of a nocturne novel. with every shadow and every corner I passed I expected (wished for lol) a stealthy, gorgeous, tall, dark, and dangerous Vampire to be waiting to pounce.
lol So My walk tonight was a very imaginative one.
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Went for a walk at 0430 this morning
0630 pt is for pussies lol
So walked little over a mile and came back because the dog got tired. And I've lost the 12 lbs I put on during my visit to FL
Yay me! |
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Stranded at the Kansas city airport. My husband broke the truck on the way here. stressed out, stranded 2 hours from home, and going on 25 hours with no sleep. Emotional wreck doesn't even begin to cover how I feel right now. to top it off we're piss poor broke and can't afford to get a rental car or taxi to get me to where he is much less the repair costs for the truck if whatever is wrong's not a super easy fix. This is a serious FML moment |
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I've decided that I don't deserve to be admired by someone else when I am disgusted with myself. My weight is directly related to medical conditions, But I would like to get it under control as much as I can. Although I have been better about working out and taking my medicine, I believe having someone to push me to do better is just the kick in the ass I need to really get my body and, in essence, My life under control. |
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Alright Folks, It's that time again. My yearly rant.
Why do 80% of the "doms" on this site think that in order to be a submissive you must give your will over to men, no matter how long you've known them? I have a brain, I think for myself, I can be stubborn, I can even be obstinate from time to time. I can't think of any person who cannot say those same things about themselves. I am on here to meet likeminded people and friends in the lifestyle; not to hook up with and please every tom, dick, and harry that messages me with a demand.
Just because I have a mind of my own and opinions that matter to me, does not make me any less of a submissive and if that offends you then it's all for the better, saves you the time it takes to message me and me the time to have to delete and ignore you.
So pleasepleasePLEASE for the love of all things real, do not message me expecting anything more than playful friendship. and do not; I repeat DO NOT Try to command me , A complete Stranger, to do anything.
If you wouldn't ask it of a complete stranger on the street then it's probably inappropriate to command of me before getting to know me
Thank you for reading, I apologize for the bad grammar. Also, Sorry for the ranting, Just getting tired of presumptuous, self-proclaimed doms trying to "mark their territory" before it's even theirs to mark
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lovng my new Tattoos! The angel on my right Shoulder has been tied up and her mouth duct taped by the devil on my left shoulder. Do you like them? |
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A very great man died this morning. He was my compass, my atlas, my mechanic, my teacher, my fishing buddy, My banker, and sometimes my atm. He made sure I had a wonderful life and I never wanted for anything. He was not only the best grandfather a girl could ever ask for, But he was the greatest father to me even though he didn't have to be. I loved nothing more than to follow him around "helping him" when he would fix things around the house. I would listen to his stories and it didn't matter how many times I heard them, I always loved to hear them again. He was my Grandaddy and I've always been proud to be his little girl. I love him and miss him so much that it hurts.
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In my last entry I stated very clearly my feelings, But I'd like some feedback. Do you feel that I am wrong in asking for respect from people who message me? As a submissive should I feel the need to answer to every man who attempts to possess me? Is it presumptuous of me to expect to be referred to as a human being instead of as an item by a person I have never peviously spoken to or met? |
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I am a happily married 21 year old woman who feels incredibly defiant when someone whom I have never met or spoken to previously greets me by calling me pet or slave. Get over yourself. I am neither your pet nor your slave. I am a person and if you are going to address me as anything but an equal when we first are introduced then do not address me at all. I do not submit to every penis that calls itself a Dom. I will not ever submit to someone who presumes that I enjoy being called such things before asking me, nor will I entertain any notions that I belong to any person. I may be a submissive, But you must Earn my respect and my trust before I will grant you My submission. Sub does not equal doormat. I will not address you as master or sire if you have not earned that title in my eyes. I am polite and I will call you sir or ma'am. If any of this offends you or makes you think less of me as a submissive then I suggest you move on without sending me a message. If you have a credible argument then feel free to send it along. I love a nice debate. I am a very nice person and I try to be kind to the people who message me and I love to make new friends in the lifestyle, so if you're not so self absorbed that this message bruised your ego, then I'd love to talk to you.
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Well, We made a partial breakthrough last night, I actually got him to talk to me about what it is that he is feeling and I found out that it's his whole mentality right now. He thinks that because I have had better sex with other people and that his dick is not the biggest I've head that I am faking everything and that I will leave him for some guy who's better in bed than him. This all stems from the fact that he's never had sex with anybody else and I have... I've explained to him though that I absolutely love him and no man, Big penis or otherwise, is going to come between us. I've tried to explain to him that although he is not the most experienced man and may not have the most sexual prowess, I love him and I love that he is trying. I could care less if he is a sexual genius or not. He is my husband because I love him and I married him knowing full well his sexual expertise.
He's also having guilt issues that have to do with the Church his Grandmother used to make him attend. He feels like some of the things he's wanting are bad and he felt guilty about going to a store that sells erotic items and such. I'm trying to get him to understand that He has not done anything he should feel guilty about. I'm hoping if I can get him to a good counselor he will really start to understand these things. And maybe he'll finally realize that sexuality is nothing to be embarrassed, Ashamed of, or guilty about, You know?
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Yay! Lost another three pounds this week!
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ok, So I've just realized that I have a huge oral fixation. I had two different dreams last night that I was giving a stranger head. Very vivid dreams. Tried to giv my husband head this afternoon and he couldn't or wouldn't get it up... I'm thinking he's either got the worst case of ED at 22 years old or he's got a honey on the side that looks and does better than me... I'm hoping it's the first, but damn he's only 22 and He didn't have ED before we were married............
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ok, so I'm hoping for some advice on this one. My husband never wants to have sex. He's always "too tired" but all he does at work is play video games and I can never tell what is really going on with him I know I'm fat but I'm working on fixing that for one and I was fat when we got together for two. It never bothered him before that I was fat. I Just don't know anymore. The only possibilities that I keep thinking of are that he's secretly gay, or he's having an affair with one of his officers and I'm secretly the laughing stock of his company, or he just can't stand the sight of me...and any one of these notions makes me cry thinking I'm not good enough for my husband to like to have sex with me...... Like tonight. He fought with me, like physically held me down and wrestled me and pinned me down for half an hour to keep me from touching him, because he was too tired for a ten to fifteen second fuck. I mean come the fuck on. He couldn't have been that tired. and I've been trying to do new positions with him, it's just hurting me and I don't know what do do to make him want to have sex with me anymore.....
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So yay for me, I lost another three pounds. Just figured I'd share this with the General public. I know I'm a fatass and 3 pounds isn't much to celebrate when I weigh 353.4 pounds. But hey I'm happy I'm losing the weight on my own, No help from medicines or surgeries my Doctor is trying to force on me. And Yeah I really don't give a shit if you don't like me cause I'm fat. Get over yourself and don't send me a message if all you're going to do is insult me.
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So, I got my tongue pierced a couple of months ago, I should post some pics of it, it's fun, didn't hurt at all. If you know anywhere I can find a vibrating tongue ring, drop me a line please, I saw one once and haven't been able to find one since I got it pierced.
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the big 20 Finally, But it sucks, I didn't get to even talk to my husband and everyone in my family forgot... I hate my job, taking stupid calls. They scheduled my lunch later now I don't get out for lunch until 8:40pm IF the call ends on time, which means I get no time to talk to my husband who's bedcheck is at 9:00 pm... I spent my whole lunch hour crying my eyes out then went back to taking calls from idiot dsl customers who barely speak english.
I miss my baby... I also found out a little while ago that the father I never met died 2 years ago... Sucks... always wished I could meet him just once, let him see what I've done with my life, let him know I always missed him... whatever. That's the way life goes...
Blessed be your life,
Take care of yourself and your loved ones,
Mel |
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Proud Army Wife. It's still strange for me. I absolutely love my husband. But it's hard with knowing how dangerous his life is everyday..... But I am so proud of him. I wouldn't trade him out for the world... |
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wow... Loads of things going on right now...
first, I'm homeless for a little while... I'm kind of struggling but I finally found a job!!! So all prayers are very welcome.
second..... I'm Married now! I know, Knocked you all for a loop huh? I really Am. Got married this afternoon. it's really strange being married...
Third... Just dealing with all of the problems that come with life... Thanks everybody for bearing with me. It's hard to get internet lately. So I apologize for not replying to anybody... It's hard sometimes I get so many messages I only get enough time to read them and not enough to reply...
I love you all
Blessed Be,
Mel |
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Just a suggestion to those that wish to contact me, think before you hit that little send button, If what you are about to say is something you would get slapped/arrested/ridiculed for in public, please say it to me. I would like to get to know you as a person before You start with the tyrades of "on your knees now" and "show me your tits" oh especially "The title is Sir, and it must call me that at all times" I just love to be called it, and girl. I never want to have a life of my own again.
ok now that that is out of the way, if you send me a message like that thanks, makes it easier to block you. if you have read this and are going to flame me for being too unsub-like thanks, makes it easier to weed out the ones I'd not like to handle. If you have read this and understand why I wrote it and wish to get to know the person behind the monitor, then please send me a message I would love to get to know you as well.
As always
Blessed Be,
Mel
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Sorry I haven't been on the site much, I try to answer all of my messages, but I get inundated sometimes.
I haven't been able to do much lately... But I am still here if you need to talk to me, I will answer your messages when I am given the chance.
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I'm in Pensacola for about a week, so I can't make any plans at home yet. Gotta love celebrating the ruthless deception and takeover of an entire people. |
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english assignment, I thought it'd be nice for my journal
January, 2006
My Utopia
(an essay in poem form)
I got the title for this all wrong.
I'm sorry, but I know it's true...
For my mind to think up a utopia,
a dream of a perfect place,
would be utterly impossible.
You see, to envision a perfect world,
holding on to one necessity.
Retaining a shred of your innocence
is a must if you even have hope.
But all hopes for me have diminished;
and my dreams, they have all lost their shine.
Most children will dream of a world:
gilded edges, glistening gold,
all softened with satin and lace.
"a place where no-one gets sick
and everyone is always happy"
Back when I still clung to hope,
I wished for their innocence to pull me through
maybe if they remain innocent, their hearts stay pure,
then someone will show mercy.
Someone will eventually notice my pain.
Someone will surely see that I'm different,
that something is gravely wrong.
But nobody ever did notice me
as my innocence was stripped away.
No-one was there to dry my tears,
as hope
and shattered dreams
streamed down my face.
all thoughts of fun and future died;
and I was left an empty shell
So to imply that I have hope of utopia,
or thought of purity instead of hate,
Is to insinuate that what happened never was
to erase all of my memories
and install only happy ones.
And I tell you now,
Utopia can only be dreamt of,
by those who still dream.
Can only be thought up,
by those with uncorrupted minds.
Can only become reality,
When those who still live with
their hope and innocence
purify the world
Thanks for reading,
Mel |
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Isn't it totally amazing how being with those we love can heal your heart?
I had been feeling so down and out lately so I decided I would hang out with my brother. He has healed me these past few days, Somehow my brother's witty, albeit raunchy, humor makes my heart fill with laughter. If ever I move away I will have to take him with me. He is the light in my life and I would give up my life for him.
I don't know many who understand feelings like that, but I have met one who does, and above all likes my brother as well! The more I talk to this man the more I fall for him. I know they say if it sounds too good to be true it probably is, but I am tired of being cynical. I think I've found a modern day cassanova.
Plus he's just as goofy as I am. Thank you all for reading this. And thank you Hawk for everything.
As always blessed be,
Mel |
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Picture this in your head.
You're driving down the street, On the phone with the person you're headed to meet. You're excited to be finally meeting them for the first time.
You decide on the place and head there. You get there and call, they're not even two minutes away and should be pulling in the drive any second.
You're a little nervous but decide that you've come all this way, there's no reason to back out now.
You go up and sit on the bench outside the restaraunt, chitchatting with other people outside.
Ten minutes go by, no sign of the person. You try their cell. No Answer.
You decide to wait some more, another twenty minutes and 3 more phone calls, Nothing.
You go back and sit in your car watching the restaraunt doors, wondering if something may have happened for another fifteen minutes.
At what point do you stop and think hey, That jerk made me drive 30 miles and stood me up.
if you're me, not until another 45 minutes go by. All I could think was "God I hope something didn't happen to him. I'll leave him a message on his phone, I hope he wasn't in an accident." I'm back home now, and wondering if I should feel angry about this, Because all I feel right now is self directed humiliation. I mean if I wasn't good enough, he didn't have to ask me to go out there and meet him. Thank you all for reading this.
Still looking for the one true gentleman in this world.....
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There's nothing more refreshing than a long hot shower, the water pounding down to massage the weariness out of your muscles, The soft sensous feel of the soap gliding along your skin. The fresh cool air hitting your skin as you step out to towel yourself off.
That's what a relationship should be like. Warm, refreshing, and sensuous. It should be something that you naver want to leave, a dream you never want to wake from. Why can't I get that from life? Am I meant to settle for second best for the rest of my life? I won't do it. I need a man who will be there to comfort and care for me but who also doesn't mind being cared for in return. Someone cultured and kind, Refined yet fun-loving. Is there a man out there like that anymore?
I believe there is. At least one. Maybe he'll read this someday.
Until then,
Mel |
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well, Some very interesting things have happened lately... My fiance and I are no longer together... I am supposed to be submissive, I can't be the one carryinbg the entire relationship... So I am free and I feel better now that we're apart...
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| Age: 28 |
| Akron Cleveland,
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