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Hi, Im Meagan I am 20yrs old, I am a sub/slave and I take it very serisoly. I Love pain and the out doors. I love to fish, hunt and go mudding in my camo overalls. If you'd like to know anything else just ask. Right now im here just to seek friends, I do have a relationship with a vanilla but thats not the point. If you would like to talk just send me an email.
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8/10/10
Master diss owned me, I cant for the life of me figure out I had to figure it out for myself, on Myspace from his status message, How come people dont take the word Master seriously. It makes me sick to my stomach. |
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8/8/10
Work Sucked, got up at 5am, YUCK! Miss Master, I need his hugs and kisses. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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8/7/10
hey yall, well it was CJ's 1st birthday party today, he is now 1 year old...YAY.My sister rented a bounce house for all the kids, so of corse after all the kids us big kids (my sisters and I) went for a ride in the bounce house with a slide, wo, this was insane, I dont know how kids do it, it was just like a 30min. workout man. I miss my Master a lot right no, I have to get up at 5am tomorrow so im gona hit the hay early, I hate geting up that early! Love you Sir Wish you were here!!! Love you, Kiss Sir!! |
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8/6/10
Miss Master! I need him Now!! Love you Sir!! |
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8/5/10
work Sucked! miss Master Very much!!! Love you Sir!!!!! |
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8/4/10
Miss Master!! Love you Sir!!!! |
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8/3/10
Work was Slow, Miss my Master!!! Love you Sir, I need you here in my arms, warm and safe!!!!!! |
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8/2/10
Hey yall, work sucked!! Miss Master!! Love you Sir I need you here!!! |
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8/1/10
Hey guys, today is my oldest sisters birthday, so we celabrated that, work in the morning...UGH...its money. im so tired i slept intill 12 today, thats not like me. I am tired and have a head ake, probaly gona hit the sack early tonight, I miss my Master So Much its not even funny, all I want is to have him in my arms safe and warm. Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/31/10
Hey yall, Work was hetic and crazy. Im exuasted!! Miss you Sir, Love you SO MUCH!!!!!!!! |
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7/30/10
Hey yall, well today was a long hot one, Heat index today was 150 degreas, WOW, now thats HOT!!! Well I Miss Master a lot today, dont know why, think its cause I need him So!! Love you Sir!!!!!!! Kiss! |
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7/29/10
Well my day started off bad, woke up late, than I shut my hand in my car door. Work was long and horribly boreing. than I cam home finished my laundry and took a nap, up at 5am tomorrow...YAY... NOT!! Miss Master need his kisses ans beatings. Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/28/10
Hey yall, well today kinda feels wasted, I was off, and I gave my dogs a bath and finished making a head pice to wear, it looks awsome!!!! I Love it. Miss Master, I need him in my arms!!! Love you Sir!!!!! |
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7/26/10
Hey yall, well today was long, and i have todo it all over again tomorrow...UGH, thank gooness i have Wed. off YAY. Love you Sir!!! |
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7/25/10
Well my day sucked, couldnt get ahold of Master, now Im having shortness of breath. Yay for me....NOT. Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/24/10
Just got home from work, kinda pissed it was long. All I wana do is curl up in my Masters arms and go to bed. Miss you Sir, Love you Master!!!! |
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7/24/10
Hey guys, well my comp kinda crashed on me last night was freaking out again and wouldnt lwt me do anything. I need a new computer... seriously. Well work today 4-cl. So not looking forward to it. i dont like working nights especally when they have me working early the next day, totaly not right. but what ever its money. talk to you all tonight when i get home, peace. Love you Sir and miss you SOOO very much!!!!!! Kiss! |
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7/23/10
Hey guy, today started off well, suprised my sister at her office with ballons for her birthday. then my sister and I got lost going to a store bc she turned down the wrong road..now im bat dead ass tired, and i have to work tomorrow 4pm-close (YAY)...Im going to bed early im that tired!!! Miss my Master so much! Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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7/22/10
Hey yall, well work sucked, we were slow as hell, it was so boring there was almost nothing todo, the most we had was 6 pizzas witch didnt take that long....UGH and my feet are killing me bc we dont get a break and were not realy allowed to sit down. Other than that im tired as all hell, thank goodness I have tomorrow off..YAY!! Miss Master So much I can hardly stand it!!! Love you Sir!!!!
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7/21/10
Hey guys, well it was a long day at work, my feet are killing me!!!!!! Well I guess its true, my familys genitics SUCKS!! Nothing new realy just worken a lot, so is Master, finaly got to talk to him last night bc hes been working so much, even on the weekends. :( but it will all be worth it when Master is here. Got a new razer its a realy nice one, I used it in the shower tonight, WOW smoth as a babys bottom, let me tell you, It ROCKS! I Miss Master so much....:( Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/20/10
All I want is a hug and to be beeten by my Master, and no one seems to under stand that. I am so sexually frustrated that its not funny. I Miss you Sir SOOOOOO much, and I Love you even more!! Love you Sir!!!!! |
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7/19/10
So it was my day off today, and i did chores...Woo! So much fun. Im geting kinda worried I havent talked to Master in almost 5 days, and I miss him so much, I just hope that I havent done anything wrong to upset him, and if I did I would like to know what it was so I can fix it. Work 9-5 tomorrow so that should be fun, I also close 2 nights this week, I dont like closing i dont like driving home that late. Hopefully soon Master will be in my arms and I will be a very happy Slave!!!! Love you Sir miss you so much!!!!!!!!! |
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7/17/10
Hey guys, long day at work, then my truck over heated on my way home from visting my sister from a buster radiater line, YAY ME, NOT!!! Well at least im off the next two days. So idk what im doen yet. Miss you so much Sir wish you were here in my arms! Love you Sir!! |
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7/16/10
Hey yall, well just got home from work, it was long but im home noe, it could be better if Master were here, oh how I miss him. Work in the morning 9-5 WOO..long day again. but its all good then sunday and monday off. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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7/15/10
hey yall, feeling better today, still have a slight tummy ake but its still an improvment from yesterday. Work 2pm-close YAY...long night, but i get to sleep in so good thing. I am going to get off my little nefews 1st birthday so thats good. Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/14/10
Well still sick, went into work this morning with a 100.6fever (yay...not) by noon they had sent me home. Trying to get better is so hard! Miss Master even more right now since hes not here, Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. Sir i could realy use a hug..Love you Sir |
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7/13/10
Sry that I havent been on yall, but I am unfortuniatly sick, and I started work today, feel worse than yesterday/ Going back to sleep than up at 6am. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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7/11/10
Well I start my new job in the morning. Need to take a shower but have to wait for Sir to give me permission. Kinda had a horrible day, rained and nothing todo, geting a new phone, maby this one works better. I realy need to talk to Master I need a hug im feeling sad. I miss him so much!!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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7/10/10
Well, almost finished cleaning my mom's closet, its kicking my ass, it realy is. Cleaned my room cleaned the house, still have to do the laundry, start my job on Monday 8am sharp. My cat clawed my had because my dogs scared him, poor thing, but my hand realy hurts. I miss my Master so much I realy do!! Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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7/9/10
Hey yall, well today was a long one. It started with my aunt and I cleaning out my mom's closet and WOW was that a lot of work and were still not done. It's a lot of work, after I sweated my ass off in my mom's closet I went for a swim in my new bikini, very exciting, it was wounderful. Than back to work doing dishes, cleaning the house feeding the animals, going to walmart and geting animal food, doing laundry and Im still not finished. Boy am I wooped I could really use a nice cuddle session with Master and me falling asleep in his arms. Now that I would love. I miss him so much!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!! |
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7/8/10
Hey yall I know I havent been on lattly sry about that I havent been feeling quite myself, I made Master very proud of me yesterday, I bought a corset and sent him some pics, of it. He told me how happy I made him and how proud he is of me. Today I went over to my aunts house to help me reforce the gramits on it so I dont pop out of it, lol, So my step-dad took me to cici's pizza for dinner, I now have a tummy ake and a head ake. Master and I had fun last night, I got to cum I was so happy and it felt so good. Went to walmart again today to get some lotion with vit. E in it. I herd that it can help with softing the apperance of scars, im hoping it can help the ones on my legs. I might go to the beach tomorrow, first time wearing my bikini out in public, im nervious. Well im gona probaly gona go take my shower so see you guys tomorrow. Love you Sir, miss you so much!!!!!!!! |
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7/6/10
Well went shoping today. My sister bought me some work pants witch I needed, along the way she also got me some new undaware and some sexy outfits for Master that I know he will like. We also went to OldNavy and Kmart I found a couple of tank tops, they are cute and they were on sale, but everything that my sister bought me I have to pay her back and thats close to $200 bucks, its a lot of money but what I got I needed, so we had fun today, she wants me to watch her dog tomorrow bc hes not feeling good, she is paroynoyed about that dog. So ya thats about all thats happing, I think im gona write somemore. I miss Master so much I hope he can come down soon. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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7/5/10
Hey yall, well went to the walmart today, other than that I cleaned and made dinner. I went to my oldest sisters house yesterday and spent the 4th with her and the baby. He was so misserable yesterday, he had the worst diaper rash ever, he couldnt even sit down in the tub, I felt so bad for the little guy. Master broke his phone and his buddy lent him one of his old ones, thank goodness. He can be clumsy sometimes, but ya goda love him. Miss you Sir so much and I cant wait till your here. I know the first thing we are doing when you get here, we are taking 1.a nice nap followed by a nice long shower together or 2.take a nice long shower and play and then take a nice nap together and then play somemore. Love you Sir, cant wait till your here!!!!!!!! |
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7/4/10
Happy 4th yall. Love you Sir!!!! |
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7/3/10
Well, today was kinda lame, didnt do much. I went down to my sisters house ans shot off a couple fireworks, saved one to set off tomorrow so my baby nefew can see it. Well good news is, is that I got a job at a hotel in the food department, ill be working with my future brother-in-law (YAY....Not) but at least i have a job, bad part is, is that I have to wait 3 weeks cause of my backround check and drug test. Than I get to start training. Well idk what else to do or say so im going. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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7/2/10
Well sry yall, I have been kinda bussy thies couple of days, I got a job YAY!! but Sun. is the 4th and sadly I say that I will be doing nothing but sitting in my room on my bed without my Master. I miss him so much it just hurts so much with him being away, especally on holidays. I need him so much!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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6/30/10
Well today was interesting, my day started at 3:45Am this morning, and it hasnt ended yet. I had to take my mom to the air port, took a horrible nap at my sisters house on her couch wile her dogs were jumping on me and playing ontop of me. Not fun at all. Than I went to my future brother-in-law's place of work because he's trying to get me a job there (crossing my fingers on that one), then I went to this nice little thrift store and found a couple of realy cute neet things. I went over to my Aunts house and helped her organise and clean up her sewing room, A big mess with alot of heavy boxex and 2 dressers that I had to move around. UGH my back is killing me, and Im beat. I know that I will get a good nights sleep tonight, YAY!!! Havent had one of thoes in a long time, I miss Master a lot, its geting closer to the 4th and I hate to be alone on holadays, im going to be by myself, well ill have my step-dad but you know how that goes. If there was some way that Master could be here I think that would make me so happy. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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6/29/10
Life only plays second fiddle to death, because through death life can begin. ML
I went to the park today, to clear my mind, of self dought and pitty only to find myself in a battle within myself, between two sides of myself, one only wants to make my family happy and feel there pride in me and the other is the pride I show in myself everyday by being collared by Master and wearing my collar not because I have to but because I want to, to show the world that I am not what I look like, I may be willing, trustworthy and faithful.
But what no one seems to see is that I am a strong individual that can stand on her own two feet, but knows when to ask for help and accept it and feel grateful for my loved ones, and that showinf fear, not fear but vonerability will not lead to tretchery, but to strenght. I have come to the point in my life, whare I must accept my limitations and try and grow from them and over come them, and to start my life anew with new self goals and awarness that I am Loved and cared for and that no matter what anyone does or says they will not stand in my way of my dreams of a new life, a better life for me, my Master and for my family.
I beleave my Master when he says that I am beautiful and that he will always love me not for what I am but for who I am, and that he will always be beside me to protect me from harm and sorrow. I pledge to myself not to be ashamed for what I have done in my past but to feel gratefull for what i have and will have in my future. I say this, I know it seems like I am redundiant, with pride that I Love you Sir and that I always will!!!!!
Love, your ever gratiful Slave Meagan  |
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6/28/10
Well today was a bust, mom wanted me to try and sell some costume jewlery but the guy only wanted to give me like $25, I said well keep it for that. I went home, and went swimming, it was so hot here today it was nuts. went to the beach with a couple of friends just to hang out, but I left when they wanted to smolke some weed, its just dumb, I meen come on killing precious brain cells just bc its fun, please Ill go and use them on something better. So I left. Can't sleep again....UGH, I hate this crap its been going on a lot lattly. Oh and last night I was in so much pain I was crying, it was all chest pain it hurt soooo bad that 3 different pain pills wouldnt touch it, thats sad.I still have some of it tonight but its nothing like last night. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/27/10
Well the day started off fine, but I hate stupid people I really do!!!! Ok I went up to meet that guy for the babysitting job, and he told me to come up there between 2-6 right, so I did I walk in and he tells me the job has been filled and that people have been comming in all day, I was like WTF man i just drove 45min for nothing. i was so pissed off. Then I helped my mom make dinner, had to go get milk, and when I lay down to watch my favorite show (NCIS) Im hit with extream chest pain!!! So my mom gives me a mussle relaxer and now im sleepy. peace. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/26/10
Well today started off early, I hate geting up early, but good thing is, is that I might have a job or 2. A single dad needs a babysitter for his two boys wile he is at work, and my sisters bf put in a good word for me up in the hotel he works in, so im crossing my fingers! Then I went to walmart tonight to get dog food and soda and came home with my first bikini, and no you can't see only Master is allowed. Well I might not be alone for the 4th Master is trying to come down to be with me since my mom will be on vac. in NY (the country not the city) to vist my Grandma and realax. Sooo hear I am once again sitting on my bed laying next to my cat trying to get sleepy enough to fall asleep. Good Night yall. Love you Sir!!!! Kiss!!!!! |
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6/24/10
Job hunting day 2, still no luck. UGH im geting agravated because I cant find anything. I meen it sucks, I dont have that much money in my bank account and I dont know how much longer my mom can do this by herself.when I had my job I would help her out with the morgage and stuff and I know that things are tight, and im worried that she's having problems and that shes not telling me. it hurts to see my mom strugle. I miss Master so much things are geting rough, and I need help I can feel it. I dont know how I can tell Master but I know that I have to, I dont want to go with out him by my side. Sir I miss, Love and need you. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/23/10
Well today was interesting, I am working on a suprise for Master, but i cant tell you or else he will find out and we can't have that happening. so hush. Other than that my bestfriend tryed to kill herself on alchol and high blood sugar. Her husband left her because he couldnt accept her domaterix side, its sad that even in this day an age when sexualyity is being somewhat of excepting people still dont want to know what goes on behind closed doors. Ugh it kinda makes me mad!!!!!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/22/10
Well, I had to go run errins today, it was boaring and HOT. It was so hot outside today, not even funny. When I got home i went for a swim, it felt nice. Im doing something special for Master tomorrow. It's a surprise for him.........suh I dont want him to know. I have been wanting to do it for a wile. I cant beleave how tired I am tonight. I hope I can get to bed soon, but I want to talk to Master first. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/21/10
Hey yall, well today was dissapointing, didnt find a job, and still looking. This sucks knowing that there are like no jobs where I am at! It just sucks because even when you want a job and theres a position open that dosnt need any experience they still send you that dissapointing email or call that says " we are sorry to inform you but we are moving on to more qualified candatates at this time." It totaly pisses me the F*$K off!!!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/20/10
Well I tryed my hardest not to cry today, but it didnt work. Its just been hard since I dont have my dad anymore. Hollidays hurt, especally Fathers day. I wasnt there for his last Fathers Day, I was in NY at my grandparents house and I made him a worlds best dad pillow. It makes me sad every time I see it. :( I need to talk to Master maby he can calm me down. Love you Sir and I wish you were here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/19/10
Today was interesting and I dont feel like talking about it. Love and Miss you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/18/10
Well today was interesting, I had a very nice wake up call from Master this morning. then did chors, then I got a call from a job and I think I might have a job. Its at a bait shop. I know what your thinking, "why?" but I cant help that I am a good o'l redneck and I love everything to do with fishing, Sry cant help it......its who I am. I Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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6/17/10
Well lets see what did I do today, wellit started off by going job hunting, didnt go well, then I went shoping with my sister, we went to the thrift store. I found out that I can now fit into size 16 jeans!!!!! Ya!!!!!! Im so happy and I cant stand it. Well im horny and realy would like to play with Master, but thats only if he says yes, I hope he does. Love you and Miss you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/16/10
Well started my job hunt today, didnt get much of anywhere, but my soon to be brother-in-law told me that the place that he works at is hireing and that i could use his name as a reference. Hopefully I will get a job, make some money and finaly move out of my moms house!!!!! That I would love, my own place, man. Didnt talk to Master alot today, I miss him so. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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6/15/10
Well, where to start. Well I started my day out by sending my mom and email, that told her a lot of whats going on with my life. Very complicated, dont feel like geting into it right now. Next Im no on the train headed toward Master, his grandma wouldnt let me stay at the house. Next Masters deployment got cancled ( thank God) and him and his family are going to move down here at the end of the month. Now I have to face my worst fear... meeting his mom. Ya!! Love you Sir!!!! |
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6/15/10
Well my mom and I got into an argurment and I think she kicked me out of the house, im not sure tho. I wish my life was not so complicated!!!! Love you Sir!!!! |
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6/14/10
Hey yall, well im not going up to see Master tomorrow, his grandma wouldnt let me stay in the house, but there is some good news, they cancled Masters Deployment so hes not going to Germany, Thank God for something. Some more good news is that his mom and grandma are moving down here with him, So yay Master is moving down to FL but not only am I afraid of him mother now I have to come ot facts that im going to meet her and Masters grandma. Im scared. I think im geting sick woke up this morning with a very bad sore throat, and it hurts to talk, eat, dring, breath and swallow. I really hope im not geting sick because Master is suspose to be comming down soon and I dont want to be sick when he is here, cause that would meen I wouldnt be able to have as much fun with him as I would. But I realy dont feel good, and this Sat. I have to go "clean" a house Master knows he was the one that said it was ok i wouldnt be doing anything but cleaning. I Miss Master So much, I want him here by Sat. so I would feel safer. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/13/10
Master has been so good to me, and I am gratefull for having him every momment, the good and the bad. I need to ask him a very important question, im not sure how to ask him, but I know for me if I dont it will eat away at me untill I do. I told him that I want his brand, we had a long descusion about it and I know that he is my Master and that I will always love him and care for him. I want to know what his heart is thinking, if he could not listen to his brain, not listen to what others are saying and speek straight from his heart, I want to know what it would say, I want to know whats to come, I want to know how far he would go..... I told him that I would follow him half way around the world, to change my life completly, to devote my everything to him, all I want is to show him how much he meens to me. Im giving up so much to be with him, and that I hide my sadness of him leaving so that he dosnt feel any worse than he already does about it. I promised him that I wouldnt cry i'v been trying my best and some how one or two just slip out sometimes, and it hurts me to know that im letting him down, I dont meen to they just fall when I wish he was here to dry my eyes, but I know he cant. Sometimes I wish I could see into the future to know what's going to happen so I wouldnt worrie so much. I know that he dosnt like it when I worrie, but it's my job, I can't not worrie if I dont then something is wrong with me. All I want more than anything is for him to know that when he leaves he will always come back to me, his loving, caring, compasionate, brat and slave. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/13/10
Hey yall, well Masters grandma went into the hospital, she fell. I hope she is ok. I hope im still going up there on Tuesday. I really miss Master and I need to see him so badly especally before he leaves. I really need to see him. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/12/10
Hey yall, well Talked to Master this morning he had to talk to his CO to determine when he is leaving. I havent herd from him since about 1 pm today. Im geting realy worried, I had a break down, well more along the lines of a panic attack. It wasnt fun it lasted for a good 2 1/2 hrs. I realy need a hug and all me and my mom can do is fight. I cant get ahold of Master and I realy need to talk to him. I miss him so much it kills me. I know I wont be geting much sleep tonight unless I here from Master, other than that I will probaly have to take a sleeping pill witch I dont want to have to do.I wish I could get ahold of Master. I weighed myself today I lost 6 more pounds, I dont think its a good loss. I'v been under a lot of stress lattly from my family and I think its from that. I Miss you Sir soooo much!!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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6/11/10
Well I have made me decision, I would rather Master leave in November, I think it would give us enough time so that we could start a life in NC, so I would be able to get use to NC, and be able to get school stratined out and find a job to keep me busy. Now I just have to wait to here what Masters decision is. All I want is to know he is safe and that he will always be with me. I know im going to cry when he leaves, just wish there was some other way, I wish there was a way I could go in his place. Love you Sir!!!!!!!  |
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6/11/10
Master got his orders today, they gave him a choice, he could ither leave in 2 weeks or he could leave right before Thanksgiving. It's such a hard decision, I find myself going back and forth in my head depating on do I want him here now so we can start our life, or do I wait so he can be here for Christmas. Its so hard I havent seen him since Feb. and if I tell him to go now I know I will be unhappy, but yet again if he's not here for Christmas I will be sad to. I dont want him to have to go at all I just want him to stay here in my arms safe. If he leaves now I told him I still want to move up there. I cant stand Florida, my mother is sufacating me. She dosnt want to see em get hurt, and i under stand that but I need to start fresh some place new so I can get my bearings to start my own life. She dont realy understand why im still with Master, she thinks that it is a normal relationship where I can just get up and leave, but its not, I Love Master and I would follow him to the ends of the earth. There are so manny things that I wish I could tell my mom, like why i'm doing what i'm doing, or why I somethings that she disaproves of. But I know that I can't because she wouldn't understand and she would do the same thing that she has done (therpy) I hated that she didnt beleave some of the things that I tell her, its like she dosnt here tham because she didn't want to beleave them. I'v tryed to make her happy my whole life, doing things that I didnt even want to do just because I knwe it would make her happy. When I was little my mom and me wernt really close, my dad was always home. He was the one that took me to school doc. appts. so he bacame my best friend. when he passed away when I was 13, I blamed myself. My mom and me fought a lot, we still do. When she got remarried I was happy for her, I was happy that she had found someone that made her happy, after then I thought to myself now I think it's my turn to find happyness. I had a boyfriend at the time, we were together for 4 years. After I graduated from High School everything kinda went down hill, we argued more and he started to show his true colors, he was abusive. I couldn't forgive him or letalone myself for letting this happen, I never told anyone, I told my best friend who told my mom. when my family found out he had already moved back to PA. I was so ashamed of myself, I went into a down fall I did things I am not proud of and that I wish I could forget. I have nightmers about them. When I mat Master things looked up in my life for the first time in 5 years. I acculally felt happy, a True happness not fake happy a real true happness. When he told me that the Army was sending him to Germany I was devestated, but I promised him that I wouldn't cry. It's so hard not to. Before he told me this, I was having problems, I stoped eating ( I felt no need to ), I couldn't sleep ( I was afraid to ), and I felt something that i hadent felt in a long time ( suedicedal). I know im repressing something, I just dont know what, I have blocked so much of my memorrie that other people have to tell me what happened. I dont like to be alone, or go anywhere by myself. I get panic attacks and i'm on an antidepressant. I wish that I didnt have to take my medication. I feel like they are controling my life, Like if I dont take them I might have a panic attack in the middle of a store, or in a public place. I miss Master so much as it is, I know im going to be distressed while he is gone. I just wish it wasnt over sea's. I Love him so much, If something happened to him, I dont know what i would do. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/10/10
Well, Master went to talk to the EVIL Army guys, and he has been deployed to Germany. I dont know when he is leaving, but I want to go with him, I dont care what I have to do I want to be with him no matter what. How come when you think your ahead and everything is going according to plan or on track, that something always comes along to through you off corse. I know the saying is that no matter how manny times you fall you goda get back up and try your best, but I dont think im asking for much. I am a very loving, caring, faithful, and generious Slave and all I want is to be with my Master no matter what. My mom keeps talking to me like she thinks its all a plan that will never happen, but my mom dosnt know about my life style and what it meens to give up everything to be with your Master. She has a I make. I Love my family very much but I would give up everything just to be with my Master. Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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6/9/10
Well Master just told me today that he has to go talk to the Army tomorrow, they might put him back in service. Im so scared and worried I dont know what id do if he had to go back to Iraqe. I feel so nervious, I dont want him to go, I dont im this close to being with him, and then having him being snached out of my reach again.....I dont know what I would do. I have my train ticket for next Tuesday to go up to NC, and nothing is going to stop me from geting up there or seeing him. I dont care what it takes I am going to be with My Master!!!!! I Love you Sir so very much!!!!!!!!! |
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6/8/10
Well im still in Fl, I should have been in NC by now, but minor delays, i will be up ther on Tes. the 15th im going by train, then Master and I are going to drive down to get my things. I feel so lonly sitting in my room all alone, its hard to sleep knowing that hes not next to me, to be there to protect me, I find myself some nights crying myself to sleep under medication, I dont know whats wrong and it scares me, it realy does. I need to tell Master this, but im afraid, not of him, but of confessing that I feel like this, I want to know whats wrong but the answers that I get make me feel more confused. I need my Masters strong arms around me so I may feel safe once again. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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6/7/10
well I was supost to leave today to North Carolina, but my ride broke down and he dosnt know when he will have his truck fixed, so now Master and I have to figure something out. Im so upset, I meen I miss Master so much and it feels like everytime I get a little bit closer to him something happens to keep me away. I want to be with him so bad, and its not because I miss his cock its because I love him and I miss him, Like truly miss him, I dont know what im gona do if I cant see him with in the next week. I was so agravated, pissed off and sad its so hard not to cry, but i cant Master said im not allowed to, its just so hard to be this far away from Master. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/6/10
Well I move tomorrow to North Carolina to be with Master. I cant wait im so excited, i cant stand it, I cant wait to have him in my arms again and his wip on my ass. Today was my day to say bye to my family, get everything together ready to leave, I have to go to the store in the morning, that pack what I have left, witch is mostly just bathroom stuff. Man I went out to eat last night with my mom and my step-dad, and Man am I sick it must have been something i have ate, but my stomach is turned upside down let me tell you, Dam it still hurts now. Im gona try and go t bed early so I can acculaly get some sleep, I ended up going to sleep last night at 6am, and waking up at about 10am, I just could not sleep and I took some sleeping aids too witch totaly didnt make any sence. Well Im gona go I hope I can write on here tomorrow, but I dont know ill be on the road. Love you all night. Love you MORE SIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/5/10
Hey yall, 2 more days till im with Master again, I cant wait!!!! I ate dinner with my mom and my step-dad tonight just to kinda spend time with them, im supose to go fishing with my brother-in-law but its supose to rain so I dought that we are going. I'v got everything packed so all I have to do know is wait, I went to the dollar store to get some snacks for the trip, went to my favorite hot dog verdor, got a hot dog and a lemonade, I didnt meen to go down memmorie lane...I almost cryed, you see thats where my dad, me and my mom would go on Saturday mornings its special and I will miss it. Cant wait to be up there with you Sir. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!1 |
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6/4/10
Well today was long, Sold my truck for $900, then had to go to walmart to pick up my Rx, now it just comes down to geting everything in order only 3 more days. I cant wait im so excited, I ate dinner with a couple of old friends, it was nice, im gona miss everyone. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/3/10
Well today started off ruff, I made Master mad at me, I didnt meen to, Im just so ancious to be up there that I forget things sometimes. I went up to my school today to get everything in order for me leaving on Monday. I have everything packed, now is the time to spent time with my family and friends. Im going fishing with my brother-in-law on Saturday night, also that day im going out to eat with my mom. I didnt realise how emotional I would get about moving, I know better now. I miss my Master So much it hurts!!!!! I cant wait to have him in my arms again, and to sleep at his feet. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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6/2/10
Hey yall. well I finally finished packing today all that is left is dirty laundry and bathroom stuff. Well im going to take my shower. Talk to yall latter. Love you Sir cant wait to be thare with you!!!!!!!!!! |
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6/1/10
hey yall, well 6 more days till I am with Master again. I needed a hug today very badly. I Miss him so much and I know im making the right decision going up there, I just wish that my family saw it like I did. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!! |
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5/31/10
Hey yall, well I spent the day at the beach with my sister my mom and the baby. He was so cute, he kept eating the sand and got scared by the waves. Home now just ate dinner, im going to be watching the new eppisode of cake boss soon with a nice bowl of ice cream. One week from today and I will be on my way to North Carolina to live with Master. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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5/30/10
Hey yall, yes I missed yesterday but at least i got a good nights sleep. Witch I needed badly. Today we were supose to go swimming and celabrate memmorial day, but it seems to be raining cats and dogs. So now i dont know what im gona do. Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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5/28/10
Hey yall, well the big day is getting closer, not this monday but next monday Im leaving for NC to be with Master. Well I worked for one of my moms friends today tring to make some extra cash b4 I leave and on my way home my mom called me and I then had to go pick up cat food and dog food and now im at square 1 with like 5 bucks to my name. I hate being poor. Well other than that I went for a nice swim in my pool this afternoon and it was fantastic. Sir I cant wait to be by your side. Love you Sir!!! |
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5/27/10
Hey yall well today kinda sucked all I did was go to school and that was BOARING with a side of LAME. well thats all for me tonight. Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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5/26/10
School was lame tonight, only had time to one client witched sucked. Today I called up to the beauty school and they told me that I would be able to transfer but I would have to take a test to determinewhere I am in there cirreculime and then they can determine where I need to be. Well im tired as all hell and dont know why so im going to go to bed, Night yall. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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5/25/10
Hey yall, well today was lame, and long. I need a hug from Master. Stilll have to do some packing its more or less all of my breakable stuff so i need news paper and more boxes. Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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5/24/10
First off I want to say a Big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Master. Today was a mixture of both happy and sad and mad, started off with going to bed at 4am caquse i couldnt get to sleep, so I took something to help me sleep after that kicked in I ended waking back up at 6am, couldnt fall back to sleep. I got up and got right to work packing, got half the room packed, well at least all the big major stuff. I thought that all of my shoes were going to fit in my hope chest, I guessed wrong. Still have at least 5 pairs sitting on my floor and under my bed. (dont even want to look under there) well sitting down hurts, did something to my back (again) and it hurts to anything even lay, but im gona go cause packign never stopes. Love you Sir!!!!!!! The big day is geting so close I cant stand it. Love you Sir!!! |
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5/23/10
Masters birthday is tomorrow, im very sad that I cant be there. Masters ex. has been giving me some problems again, Im moving up soon cant wait to be thare, ancious, nervious and scared. Miss you so much Master!!! Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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5/21/10
Today Sucks I found out that I have absultly no friends in Florida and I cant wait till im out of here so I can just say see ya fuckers and leave. I miss Master So much it kills me today was just a bad day and all I want to do is jump on a plane and be with my Master I cant stand it here, I feel traped and surrounded by stupid immature people that dont know what they are talking about. 2 weeks and I will be leaving, cant wait. Love you Sir!!!!!!! Miss you so MUCH and I wish to God that I was thare!!! (maby he will answer my prars) |
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5/20/10
Well Today sucked, was long and tireing. Just got a text not that long ago that his uncle is in the ER, I wish I was up there so bad so I could be with him and supporting him. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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5/19/10
well today was long, pulled something in my shoulder when helping my sister move. It hurts like hell!!!! My mom gave me a mussle relaxer and, just to note i only took half, I was dead like no joke "KO" to the world my mom couldn't even wake me up, Master texted me and called me and I didnt wake up. I just took the other half and prety soon I will be "KO" again. Had to talk to Master about something serious, kinda sad for me, im not sure ho he is going to react but I think its a good thing. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/18/10
Well Today was Long!!!! Went to school, then had to help my other sister move all her crap to her new house. had to make 2 trips and its 45min 1 way. UGH!!!!! then on my last trip back home I had to stop at wal-mart (lucky me) I took my shower and im wating to talk to Master. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/17/10
hey yall, well today suked, it rained all day. I just dont feel myself, I need a hug form Master. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/16/10
Well Today was an interesting one, it starts off with me helping mom geting ready for our mothers day cook out bc we were all sick last weekend. Then I made Master mad at me, It was my own falt and I deserved it, had to do my sisters mother-in-laws hair (UGH!!) then had to move furnature again. My day is finaly comming to a close maby I will get to sleep in tomorrow, but who knows. Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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5/15/10
Hey yall, well today realy sucked BALLS!!!!! Didnt feel good had to go to school, couldnt get ahold of Master and to top it off I got an email from some girl claming to be Masters Girlfriend. Im sick and tired of people trying to runie our relationship. I love my Master with all my heart and sole and if they want to mess that up well they are going to have mess with the horns cause this slave dont take kindly to intruders. Love you Sir and I hope that you See that. Love you my Master and Sir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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5/14/10
Hey guys, well I was sick again today, I hate being sick!!!! UGH. but, I had a long convosation with my mom about me moving to NC, and im not to sure how she took it. Well now I have to talk to Master and my school. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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5/13/10
Hey guys, its gon be a short one tonight. I'v been sick all day. I dont feel good at all and all I want to do is cuddle with Master. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/12/10
Hey guys, well today was a long one. Took a test in school that I dont even know if I passed it, My client was 3hrs late, had to help my future brother-in-law (hope not!!) move a heavy asss sectional out to the curb and brin a sofa and love seet into the living room. When I thought my day was over my truck stals and wont start so I was sitting in the middle of a highway, I sat there for at least 5min. and no one stoped to ask if I was ok (Lamos) it finaly started and I headed home and had to do laundry, dishes and homework. Still have to take my shower (hopefully). Well tata for now. Love you Sir.!!!!!!!!! |
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5/11/10
Hey yall well today SUCKED!!!!!! My truck broke down again. Im kinda upset. I miss Master so much and im upset because he had some teeth pulled and im sad cause im not thare to take care of him. Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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5/10/10
Hey yall well today started off late, woke up at 12 ish, then did the dishes twice, washed laundry (still in the dryer), cleaned my room, made dinner, went to wall-mart,cleaned the yard and I still have to take my shower and do homework. YAY!!! NOT. its been a long day, Master has to work late tonight and I miss him so much cant wait till im in his big strong arms. Well tata for now..Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/9/10
Hey yall happy mothers day to all. Well my mom was sick all day, I dont feel good and I miss Master. I cant wait to be with him, its so hard for me not to be sad because im not with him, making him happy and servicing him. well gona go to bed soon. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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5/8/10
Hey yall, im tired of stupid oeiole, ya know the ones that will try to prove you wrong untill they decide that they are right even tho they are wrong, or the ones that will eat you ouda house and home and not pitch in for the food bill. Stupid people just eirk me the wrong way, ya know. Well School was a mad house prom for a high school was today so thare was a lot of up-doos (aka: I hate doing them....With a passion!!!!!!!!) now im home helped mamma make dinner, I still dont know what im going to do for her tomorrow, ill figure something out. Miss my Master very much so!!!! Love you Sir cant wait to be with you!!!!!!!!! |
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5/7/10
Hey Yall well today was a boaring ass day, long day at school, then got home and had to go to my sisters cause her baby scrached my brother-in-laws eye and had to go baby sit while they went to the hospital. Im finaly home and im beet. Kinda excited I get to find out when I get to see Master. Love you Sir!!!!!! |
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5/6/10
Hey yall, well today was prety simple, had school then had to help my sister move the last of her things to her new house. Dyed my hair yesterday its a little bright but Master likes it, thats all that matters. Well off for now ta ta. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!! |
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5/5/10
Hey yall, well today was long, only had one client at school and gave my mom a pedicure, then if things with my truck couldnt get any better my rear view mirror fell off today durring lunch, YAY.....NOT! had to get that fixed. Still have to tell mom that I lost my job and that im leaving, dont know how well thats gona go. Well talk to yall latter. Peace, Love you Sir!!!!!! KISS!!!!!!!! |
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5/5/10
hey yall, well Im stupid and not just your every day stupid im a stupid bitch, I didnt go to sccool today and I didnt tell Master till just now and im being punished for it, I gladly accept it because I diserve it for being a stupid bitch. I feel so bad and im not talkign about the pain, I meen from the pain that I caused Master, I am very sorry Sir, I LLive to serve you, Love you Sir!!!! |
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5/5/10
Sry that I didnt post last night everyone, but I have some bad news I lost my job and im realy depressed, but on a brighter note im taking a well needed vacation to NC to be with Master and I will probaly be moving up thare some time soon. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!! |
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5/3/10
Hey yall I hat people so much, I got fired form my job, and I need a vacation and im taking it. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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5/2/10
Hey Yall today was long, still have to do laundry and clean work all day tomorrow, dont wana go but have to. Well I guess im gona go do laundry. Love you Sir miss you sooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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5/1/10
Well lets see wht didnt go wrong today, my break cable went out on my truck as I was driving it, my tie rod is broken, I hurt my back, im tired and I have to do it all over again tomorrow. YAY!!! NOT!! Love you Sir miss you sooooo much!!!!!! |
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4/30/10
Well today was a long one that started at 6:30am this morning and hasnt ended yet. went to school and hed to leave early to help my sister move to her new house, ended up staying thare the rest of the day cleaning and replacing a frot door and a dead bolt and it pissed me off so much that I wanted to throw it down the road. but im gona go lay down. Love you Sir!!!! |
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4/29/10
had an ok day at school learned how to do pedicures, learn how to do manicures tomorrow. Im geting a head ake and I dont know why. Took my dogs to the park today Master would have loved going it was nice to get out. have to clean and stuff like that gona maby take a little nab dont know tho. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!! |
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4/28/10
Had a very bad day, had a bad anxiety attack, had to leave school early and call out from work witch I hate to do. miss my Master. Love you Sir wish you were here to give me a hug. |
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4/27/10
School and work Sucked it was a long as day and all I want to do is curl up in my bed with my Master to hold me and spank me. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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4/26/10
Work sucked. Love you Sir |
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4/25/10
Hey yall, today was a very slow boaring day, didnt get up untill like 2:00pm then helped mom make dinner. Now we have very bad wether with tonadic activity. Miss my Master wish he was here holding me and keeping me safe. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!! |
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4/24/10
Hey yall I know I havent been on lattly, its cause my computer wouldnt let me on the god dam site. I was so angry, but anyways. Iv been bussy doing my finals at school good thing is that I passed and im now a junoir, YAY!!!!!!!! Im so excited and at the same time sad because Master isnt down yet and I miss him SOOOOOOOOOOO I need his hug very badly and to lay at his feet. Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!! |
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4/20/10
Today SUCKED and not in the good way went to school had the worst freken MIGRANE of my life had to call in to work, Sitll have the migrane going to bed. Night yall Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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4/19/10
Today seemed very waisted I had to go to the doc. and that was at 3:30pm and than after that nothing i still have homework yay...NOT maby take a shower sleep than wake up and go to school and work just feels like that passed me by with out me giving any concent that I wanted it to go by with out me. Pfft oh well I have to get cracken on this homework. Love you Sir!!!!! |
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4/18/10
long day today, didnt feel good this morning had to work @4 and it was SLOW!!!!!!! well im tired and im off to bed night yall. Love you Sir!!! |
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4/17/10
OMG was today Long and busy had school this morning and boy was it long, I started working on this ladys hair at 11:30am and i didnt finish untill 5:00pm. I am beat and not in the good way ither, im just glad that master let me take a nap, acculaly he sugested that I take a nap Love you Sir!!!!! and my day isnt over yet my sister is on my ass for no reason I do the god dam dishes all god dam week and she cant do them one night, geese. Well this is it for me tonight peace. Love you Sir!!!!!!! |
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4/16/10
well today was a long ass day, it started at 6:45am and hasnt ended yet. Went to school and worked my ass off, have finals all next week(SCARED!!) and I miss Master so much. I went and spent time with my sister her husband and there baby, we went to dinner and had a nice time, had to stop by work and now one of my co-workers ows me big time. Master is out with his friends having a good time im at home doing homework with my rum and coke concoction and havnt even touched my homework since i got home bc I dont feel motivated. UGH I feel like I wana go out but at the same time I wana stay in, curl up on the couch with Master to a good movie and just fall asleep. I have to go back to the OBGYN on Monday, not looking forward to that, The last time I went I got the worst news any woman could get. I cried all the way home, I still have issuse talkign about it. I just realy need a hug and to be held.....I guess i'm going to bed school in the morning (YAH :/) Night all, Love you Sir!!!!!!!! Kiss!!!! |
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4/15/10
Hey Yall hope everyone is doing ok. Im ok just real busy at school and work, it sucks geting up at 6:30am and geting home from work at 11pm znd not geting to bed untill at least 1am. Master is trying so hard to get down here, and I love him for that, I miss him so much!!!!!!! well im going to sleep school in the morning, Love you Sir!!!!!!!!!!! |
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4/12/10
Well it was a very long day today, went and got my paycheck, it was ok. Then I had to go and get a pair or sneakers and a new bra. But the day isnt over yet. Still have more to do. Had to get my oil changed. Well I think I will take myself a nap. tata for now. Love you Sir!! |
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4/11/10
Hey Yall, hows everyone doing? Im ok very tired today, had to fix my new truck still have to work on it next weekend. Master still isnt here :( he went to the doctors again yesterday and they said everything was healing better than they had expected. but I think im gona get a long good nights sleep in tonight, I need it I just feel so crapy and tired, well ill talk with yall tomorrow, Peace. Love you Sir!!!! |
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4/10/10
Hey yall woa today was long as all hell!!! didnt have time to eat lunch today at school too busy. Then had to race over to Wally world to get my Rx b4 the parmicy closed. Geese that was a close call. Master had more doc. Apts and more xrays and a cat scan. Havent herd anything yet, crosing my fingers. Well Im tired on my first and probaly only Sat. night off. Didnt even get a chance to go out, ppft, well I have tomorrow off hopefully i'll do something worth interest. Oh well Night All. Love you Sir!!!! |
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4/9/10
Hey yall, well im not moving Master wants me to finish school so hes going to try attemp 3 to move down after he gets the a ok from the Doc. that he can lift things. he sould be down here within the next 2 weeks. Well thats all tonight im beet. Love you Sir!!!! |
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4/8/10
Hey Yall well Master got discharged out of the hospital last night, I'm happy for that now is the time for planning the trip up thare, im nervious and scared. But Im doign it for him. Love you Sir!!! |
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4/7/10
Hey yall found out why I couldnt get ahold of Master, he had goten into a bad car wreck. With thise turn of events Master is not moving down here, I am moving up thare to be with him, It is a choice that I have thought long and hard about this decsion, but Master has made the final choice that I will move up thare to be with him. Had school today, it kinda sucked and I called out of work because I needed some time to think and start planing the trip up thare, Master is going to fly down for a week and help me move. I Love him so much that I will do anything for him so that I can be with him. Love you sir!!! |
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4/6/10
Hey guys, having a nervious break down because I cant get ahold of Master. I hope i can talk to him I realy miss him. Miss you Sir!! |
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4/6/10
hey yall, another sad day, cant get ahold of Master dont know whats going on. Had school wich was boring, but im home now did laundry have no interest in eating( I just havn't been feeling myself lattly i have lost my appitte and im just not myself) I wish Master would get here and call me. I Miss Him so much!!!! Love you Sir!! |
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4/5/10
Hey yall. It was a log ass day!!!! Havent herd from master all day (witch worries me) and I worked a double. I am exausted and i have to get up at 6am for school in the morning, UGH!!!! Well off to bed, Love you Sir!!!!!!!! |
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4/4/10
Happy Easter. Well it was of corst a family day, but other than dying easter eggs and cooking It was a emotional day, it started off happy but now I am sad. I miss My Master he sould be on his way down tomorrow (fingers crosed). Love you So much Sir, Miss you!! |
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4/3/10
worked all day, not a very good day, but not bad as well. That is all. |
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4/2/10
Well today was a total bust. I slept in too late and got nothing done, than had to work at 6pm so I guess tomorrow I might get something done b4 work. I still miss My Master SOOOOOOOO dam much, but not to fear I will see him soon enough. Love you Sir!!! :* |
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4/1/10
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY ALL!!! well I was going to go to the beach this morning but i decieded to sleep in, didnt realize that I slept in untill 2:00pm. After I woke up I had to clean my roon, do the dishes, do my laundry, clean my hamsters cage, and go to WALLYWORLD, my absulatly fav place in the world, but other than that it is also my only day off on my spring break, I miss my Master very much so. well I guess I will go finish my laundry, peace. |
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3/31/10
Well I know im a day late but for good reasone, I got home from work at 12:30am this morning!!!! I was like WTF. Since I am the hostess I have to wait till every customer has left, well this group of like 15 decided 15min before closing came in and didnt leave untill an HOUR AND 45MIN AFTER WE HAD ALREADY CLOSED. I was So PISSED OFF I couldnt beleave how rude people can be.!!!!!! UGH It was just a all around BAD, HORIBLE DAY. |
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3/30/10
today sucked, I went to Kmart with my sister for some work shirts and i spent $45 Dollars I couldnt beleave it. I miss my Master so much he is comming down on Monday For good I cant wait to hold him in my arms!!!!! Im gona try to go to bed, I have work in the morning. Peace |
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3/29/10
Work was so busy, and a party of 12 yes i said 12 woudlnt leave intill 45min after we already closed. I was So PISSED I really wanted to say to them im sorry but we closer over an half an hour ago can you please get the fuck out of my restraunt!!!!!GOD I was Pissed then I found out that Master will be here on monday for GOOD thank GOD, but I still miss him jiant bear hugs timm then. Love you Sir!!
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3/28/10
Well I knew stress was bad for you but losing 10pds over it is a little rediclous. Well hpoefully one more week till Master is here. This week is my spring break had a wounderful day planned out wor Master and Me but it will have to wait. Sadly I havent learned my lesson about geting my hopes up, I dont think I will ever learn, Oh well. I Love Master So much I will do anything for him even waiting for him. Love you Sir. |
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3/27/10
so master is't down yet, sigh. Today was an ok day I got a full body massage at school, found out that I can't get one any more cause they give me migraines. that sucks. I have to work tomorrow, that sucks hope master will be laying in my bed when I get home, that would be awsome!!! Night yall |
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3/26/10
Hey everyone, lets see found out that Master went to jail, and lost the job that was down here for him, but is still moving down and might have a nother job. so a bad day turned good. YAY!! |
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3/25/10
Well today was ok i juess, I feel very left out in school among my class mates, it was my b-day on tuesday and I had to remind everyone, it was another girls b-day today and everyone sang her happy b-day and took her out. I just dont feel like I belong. Master as far as I know is still in the process of geting a stupid uhaul from this STUPID company that is pissing me off SO much its not even funny.I have to work Sun. and then a double on Mon. this sucks, and now its storming (I hope I rolled my windows up:( just a bad bad!! pece
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3/24/10
Hey everyone, Today was not realy a good day, School was ok, work was slow, but on my way home I had a mini panic attack. Im so worried about my Master, And I miss him so much its very hard to get out of bed everymorning when he's not next to me...sigh......Well I guess I cant get to sleep so I will be up for probaly another hour (Great) ok tata everyone |
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3/23/10
Today is my birthday, I am offically 20 YAY!!!!!!!! well master is still having uhaul issues so hes not hear yet wich is quite sad!!!!!  But tomorrow I have school, and then work UGH!!!! I miss Master SOOO much and I wish so that he was hear so we could continue my training and celibrate my birthday bdsm style. tata for now |
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3/22/10
well It was an ok day. that is all |
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3/21/10
Hey guys today has been rough, I meen this morning master told me that he wasnt able to get a uhaul and I havent been able to get ahold of him since, and then I had to go to work, and It was a mad house and I was by myself. It just sucked all around today. But thare is a pluss to this long day, I now get to go to sleep. Peace |
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3/21/10
I dont know whats wrong with me today but I dont feel like myself, I do have to work, UGH, but I dont knwo I just dont feel right. |
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3/20/10
have you ever woundered about what your fantises are, not just a small one but really sat down and thought about it.
One of mine is since I am a very nice person I have always wanted to be raped. But I dont want my master to do it I want him to watch secreatly from a distance. Let me set the sceen. I am driving in my truck as I see on the side of the road that someone is broken down, I pull over to help, undenoienced to me as I leen over the engine to see what the problem is the man comes up behind me blind folds, and puts a gag in my mouth. He then picks me up over his sholder and throws me into his truck. As I start to cry and try to yell he hits me on the back of my head and knocks me out. I wake up tied with my hands behind my back and my ancles are tied as well, I hear someone moving, My mouth is still gaged, he moves close and wispers in my ear "Im going to untie your feet and If you can find whare you are going I will let you go", He unties my feet and I am pulled to my feet, I start to walk around, I stumble and cant see anything, I run witch seems for hours, I can hear him laugh at me in the distance. I run into a tree and fall, He wispers in my ear again "Times up". He pulls me to my feet only to push me to the ground again. He slides me over up against a tree, as im lieing on the ground he unties my hands and ties them around the tree. He puts me on my stomach and rips my cloths off, i clentch down onto shirt that is in my mouth, as I hear him undo his belt and drop his pants I hear more foot steps comming, but he is not running, he called friends to join in on the festivities. After He is finished I am untied from the tree and slaped, wipped, and beeten untill I am so week I can not stand, then Him and his friends use my body to the point that I black out. when I awake I am in the pasenger seet of my truck with my master behind the wheel, saying "baby girl how did you like your punishment?" |
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3/20/10
I am sooooo Happy and excited 3days till my 20th birthday and 2 days till master will be in my arms!! I miss Sir. so much I cant wait till he is here!!! School today was lame, we had an up-do contest and the most godest hair style won, mine was superbve, I dont meen to toot my own horn but it was prety darn good for my first up-do. :) |
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3/19/10
Had school today, and man was it long and agravating!!! We were practicing updos, and I got so agravated with my stupit manikin head that I wanted to punch its face in and through it across teh class room!!! But thare is a plus side to this down day, Master will be here in 3 days, YAY!!! |
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3/18/10
Today was something else, I woke up and littlerly couldnt move, dont ask me why cause I dont know, but all I know is that I have the worse Migrane known to man!!!! DAM DOES THIS SUCK, cause i had to stay home from school cause i couldnt stand the light to drive, it was making me so dizzy, and now cause im typing the noise that the keys make hurts sooo much, but I took some madisine so i think im gona take a nap. Night all, peace |
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3/17/10
hey everyone, today was a long one, school was just boaring almost fell asleep durring the letcure ugh. Work was ok, SLOW, but ok. just found out that my Master will be down hear on monday for good, hes moving down and im so excited!!!! I cant wait, cause hes going to be hear for my birthday, im turning 20 yah!!! But even tho I Love you all soooo much I am tired and am going to bed, peace! |
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3/16/10
Hey guys long ass day today, but it was a good day. First day of sophmore class and wow was that interestingly boaring!!!!!!!!!!! Had work right after school and I was thare all by myself, I was scared out of my mind, but it all turned out good. Then this morning Master gave me the best news ever, he's moving down and is supose to be hear by monday!!!! YAH im so happy!!!!! lol and all that jazz im going to bed peace. |
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| Age: 24 |
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