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WE HAD A WILDFIRE DESTROY ALL OUR DREAMS. SOMEHOW?WILL TRY TO PUSH FORWARD, BUT TODAY?SEEMS BLEAK.
The change made to become more is symbolic yet reinforced by physical transformation.

Often, people ask about the meaning of life, it's origins, and what happens to us when we pass on? ?The important thing to understand is our view of time is ?incorrect. ?Time and everything even energy, is eternal, what is?temporary?is the particular?arrangement?that forms life. ?One needs to understand that this arrangement is not accidental or random, it is very?specific. ?The energies of the higher frequencies which are the eternal?components?of all mass effect the arrangement of matter and yet defy detection. ?That is the real you, and the real me... ? ? The thing that achieves no allowance in the world of knowledge of men, is the belief in structure having limits. ?No energy or matter is ever?destroyed?only the arrangement of it changes, modifies or is absorbed into a "stationary" system. ?We men?of?earth believe in charge as an abstract without?understanding?the temporal nature of it, nor do we allow for the particle as a wave. ?One has really no reason to insist that frequencies would reach some terminus, in wavelength or duration, there are levels of?transformation?into other considerations that quickly inhabit the "occult" world of thought. ?I am never forgiven for making this?intellectual?jump, and thus those considering themselves educated would rapidly dismiss the arguments as a?tryst?of some ranting hippie, yet if you knew me well, you would know that one day in my past I was one who would have also dismissed these notions. ?So, perhaps one should bear with the rants, long enough to reconsider knowledge on fundamental levels. ?Parts of these clues fail the westerner in his considerations of the knowable, as he sees a world with?lineal time. ?He sees a solid mass in each particle of an atom and?separate?particles with charge relations. ?None of these views allow for other considerations in matter and life. ?They are part of an inconclusive and incomplete view which barely?corresponds with?occurrences?that exceed the grid. ?So, as an alternative, imagine a?different?point of view, particles made of impossibly small points of eternity, locked into the now, the absolute moment of !NOW! is never realized, but instead all matter and energy is trying to obey a "new" law of physical properties, which is:? ? Temporal?Dynamics Law One: Everything in the whole of existence is in motion, nothing every occupies the same space again. ? Thus the the knowledge of all possibilities can occur. ?This is a mechanism which brought about all creation. ?Nothing simply can never exist, as part of paradox, if, all the world was nothing, then, there would still be one nothing. ?Thus one is making a small leap to the obviousness of seek by saying, all possibilities exist, and God searches for the simple quest, what am I?
Temporal Dynamics Law Two: ?Everything in all of?existence is attempting to be at the center of?!NOW! This is the reason we find gravity so?impossible?to fathom.?Once again, using the wrong model for time, is like trying to see what is wrong with the windshield wipers by looking at the tire tracks. ?The?dualism?of future and past seem obvious, we do not consider now in a fashion which reveals the force with in it. ?Consider now as raindrop landing on a hot greased frying pan, think of it as the funnel or air when you drain the tub. ?Realize it has a scope of activity. ?Know that force is an effect of time. ?There are 3 forces one the future unfolding destiny, one the past revealing the effects of events?occurring, and now ?the pathway to eternity. ? Temporal Dynamics Law Three: "NO MATTER OR ENERGY CAN INHABIT !NOW!."? all structure?arrangements are in?juxtaposition between these 2 factors of time, future and past, the only thing that ever passes into the center of now is our soul. ?The living force comes to, and leaves from our world in the now. ?As we move slowly and forever approaching !NOW! one learns the avenue is infinite, yet beyond the point of nexus there is another side, The Other Side 0f Now. ?This is the source of creation, in that here is the realm of eternity. ?Master holds the stone between His fingers, seemingly peering beyond it, then tosses it to the ground. ?"That is how a stone can be billions of years old." ? Temporal Dynamics Law Four: "INFINITE HARMONIC?POSSIBILITIES?CAN OCCUR WITH A?CORRESPONDING?SCALE OF EVENTS, WITH EACH VECTOR OF SCALE BEING ETERNAL,?INFINITELY?LONG, INFINITELY SHORT." ?Mega galaxies to ethereal neutrons, there is?correspondence. ?Massive scale events move large?quantities of micro particles, extreme?quantitative particle events effect massive scales.???

? The distance and nature of displacement from the center of the moment determines the charge of energy wave forms.?These factors have confounded every great thinker, and it should not cause shame, it is beyond human sight, yet we may see the light coming from the source. ?The great project within the act of magic in the ancient times of this art was the determination of how structures could be rearranged to evoke a new start of the life process within an existing organism. ?All organic life forms have a limited experience with time, the lack of ability to sustain this process is due to not understanding the true nature of time and how matter functions via harmonics of vibrations. ?The spark of life occurs with the nearly perfect alignment of the internal particles within the water involved. ?The harmonics within them are in alignment, as this process?proceeds?in duration the alignment becomes increasing random. ?All we consume as food and drink is also misaligned. ?All tissues are made from molecular structures involving complex ion formation and the associated ligan fields of water?molecules. ?The Van Der Waals force from the?nucleus?of oxygen atoms is a?harmonically strong situation as the geometry of 16 particles?is 4 within 4.


? Water molecules are conflicted to an extreme, while the chemical valance of Oxygen is 2 the electrons inhabit the Hydrogen atoms is ways that leave the fields from the Oxygen atom exposed. ?This fact is the power forming life. ?I stir another spoon of sugar into my coffee,?watching?it?dissolve, knowing that this force is at work as the polar forces in the water break apart the?crystals. ? Many crystals themselves are considered ionic, meaning they are in complex with associated water. ?Sugar and water meet an Iron atom and form a complex ion with it known as?hemoglobin. ?In the fictional accounts of vampires this complex is supposed to sustain life. ?How close to true is that notion? ?It would not be the blood, but rather the water with in the blood that would cause this effect. ?The project is based on a perfect?geometry that is deeply complex, yet we see that time is effected in harmonic?correspondence.? What would happen if one could create water with perfect harmonic alignment like the?coherence?of light from a laser? ?My thinking on this, is that, this was done by those of us once in a distant past, how I could know this is like explaining how I am alive, I do not know except to say I feel it and dream about it. ?Sound in the form of a perfect pitch was produced and refined by the process of experiment. ?As this work progressed the project drew upon the people of the world at that time, to create the Halls of?Amenty. ?In this time we?speculate?how this devise worked, yet no one considered for a moment the physics of such a devise and the possibility of vibrations within a huge pile of stones as massive as the ones used. ?The name of god?contains the perfect pitch of the royal "A". ?This tone evokes a dissonance in the halls, the vibrations cause the stones to react producing an energy within them which is collected and focused upon water vapor. ?The stones themselves containing chemical water of formation. ?The resulting waves bring the water mist droplets into perfect temporal alignment as every molecule become aligned in unison within. the mist collected and rains below into a vat. ?The god king would bathe and drink of this perfect water becoming renewed,?defying?the laws of life. ?So, why would people build huge?structures all over the world piling huge stones? ?Some may simply have been sponed from vague traditions of a rumor that once, in a distant past, men found a way to survive death.... ?I, Mage Amen Ra?lived in those days and worked to make this machine a reality. The great seal depicts an all knowing eye at the apex of the pyramid, this is representative of the other side of now, where eternity is looking into our moment, our little bubble of time, the oddity sizzling along on the bottom of the frying pan of forever. ? ? "NO AMOUNT OF MONEY, OR ANY SUBSTANCE YOU MAY CONSUME, IN ANY MANNER, CAN EFFECT YOUR BEING IN A FASHION TO EVOKE CLARITY OF MIND.? BEING ABLE TO THINK CLEARLY,? LIVE IN PURITY, AND HOLD KNOWLEDGE OF VALUE, IS ONLY ACHIEVED BY WORK? ON THE SELF" ? ? I would like to invite anyone who wishes to come to my room at IMVU and enjoy 3d chat to feel free to do so. ?In public rooms go to the access pass room called EvilTopia.

I am so enjoying the true power one finds from being completely alone.? I have recently felt overwhelmed by how utterly stupid the entire society seems to be, no wonder it is a dark planet.

If I would be quoted for anything as some famous people are, then it would be this line..."The one thing money can never buy and drugs can never give you is a clear mind."?????

In reality I would like to find someone to help me get the studio going, with an interest in pottery, or greenhouse care. Kitty and I are opening a restaurant (BAKERY) and store.? A common interest is worth more than all the fashion or makeup, money or cars, or big homes in the world, it forms a bond that will last.?

I am extremely complex, maybe you would find that you are simply not able to comprehend my path.? I think of the classical composition "The Artist's Life"? and it fills me with the meaning of mystery in the woods, one finds life happens on so many levels the task is to compile one's personalities into oneness of being and purpose.? If one is filled with games, they find them reversed upon them and often see this as a game played by the mirror.? IT IS THEIR OWN GAME IN THE MIRROR!

I think slaves need to read this better, or maybe for the 1st time?? As the whip lands for each blow they need to recite this creed one line per blow until it is complete each time punished.


1) *I will surrender myself to my MASTER and to his love for I am a slave. * My thoughts will be only to love and to serve my MASTER and to make him proud of me, for I am a slave.

2) * I will always respect my MASTER, for I am a slave.

3) * I will always serve and obey my MASTER?S commands fully, for I am a slave.

4) * I will always serve and obey my MASTER?S commands immediately, for I am a slave.

5) * I will always serve and obey my MASTER?S commands silently, except for Yes Sir, for I am a slave.

6) * I will always address my MASTER as Sir or Master or by whatever title he chooses to specify, for I am a slave.

7) * I will never question the reasons behind my MASTER?S commands, for they are none of my concern, for I am a slave.

8) * I will speak only when my MASTER gives me permission to speak, and any Question I may have regarding His commands, or the specifications of my assigned duties are to be private and never in front of people, for I am a slave.

9) * I will always be nude in the presence of my MASTER unless told otherwise, for I am a slave.

10) * I will always wear my MASTER?S collar, unless I am told otherwise, for I am a slave.

11) * I will only wear the clothing that my MASTER permits me to wear, or go naked if HE so requires, for I am a slave.

12) * If I am permitted to work, I shall work only for my MASTER and surrender to HIM all proceeds from my labors, for I am a slave.

13) * I will always stand in the presence of my MASTER, with my head bowed in my hands behind me, but not resting on my ass, for I am a slave.

14) * I will kneel in the presence of my MASTER, when he allows me to, with my head bowed and my hands behind me, but not resting on my ass, for I am a slave.

15) * I will sit only at my MASTER?S feet, unless he tells me otherwise, for I am a slave.

16) * I will at no time presume to sit on a piece of furniture without my MASTER?S express permission, for I am a slave.

17) * I will always keep my body clean and ready for my MASTER?S use and pleasure, for I am a slave.

18) * My bodily functions are to be completely controlled by my MASTER; even the times I may be allowed to go to the bathroom are to be specified by him, for I am a slave.

19) * I will always be available for my MASTER?S use and pleasure, or for the use an pleasure of whomever HE shall command me to serve, for I am a slave.

20) * I will never smoke, drink alcohol, or take drugs without my MASTER?S express permission, for I am a slave.

21) * I will eat only those foods provided by my MASTER, when and where he specifies I may eat them, for I am a slave.

22) * I will never get into my MASTER?S bed unless I have asked permission and that permission has been granted, for I am a slave. I will keep my body free from hair below the eyes, particularly my crotch, ass, and armpits, for I am a slave.

23) * I will never harbor feelings of anger or resentment towards my MASTER, and if such feelings should involuntarily cross my consciousness, I shall immediately confess these feelings to Him and submit to whatever punishment He deems appropriate, for I am a slave.

24) * I will do my best to never be an encumbrance to my MASTER or make Him uncomfortable by my presence, for I am a slave.

25) * I will submit willingly to whatever additional rules my MASTER may wish to impose, either now or at a later date, for I am a slave.

26) * Because my body is now my MASTER?S property, it is no longer my right to protest any use HE chooses to make of it. Rather it is an honor if he chooses to touch me at all, for I am a slave.
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 Master0fMARs

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4/2/2018 8:59:05 PM
A new thought has come about recently, which is that there might be a previously undefined atomic particle in relationship to the Alpha particle which is widely distributed in the universe or at least our solar system. The trivalent gas known as Nitrogen, just might be a building block of atoms.  I have noticed the number 14 from the Nitrogen mass of 7 protons and an equal 7 neutrons actually comes very close in the combination of very common elements like Silicon, Iron, Cerium and Gold. All these elements have a common property of electromagnetic and conductive uses. There is a possibility that sub groupings of clustered neutrons and protons interact around a central supercharged neutron or smaller particle.  Since all atoms are a waveform, these particles would represent orientation of nodes as all are distanced from absolute !NOW!  I will elaborate on this later....

1/7/2018 9:18:38 AM
Consider two massive parts in collision, such as a comet and a planet. Comets are normally constituted of CO2 and Water H2O. In a smaller event the matter undergoes normal kinetic events, but when the mass is greater, the matter collides with itself, the pressure of mass compression is equal to the force of implosion used to set off a chain reaction in nuclear weapons, the result is the same, fusion. Now departing from mainstream science, we look at yields or results for a clue as what occurs. Carbon 12 particles, Oxygen 16 so in CO2 the total is 16+16+12=44 so, at energy levels of a fusion event, we get some form of radiation in this case high energy Alpha particles. We find this also true in drilling for gas. We find helium or depleted Alpha particles. The yield is limestone. Ca2(CO3) likely the extra Oxygen provided by water in the mix. While science will not agree, the evidence is strong, when you consider yields.? Science has tendencies worse than blindness, they are politically related, our lessons are tainted by those who declare they are so.? Yet logically, to a few or perhaps only this one, there is some mechanism materials come to exist.? Since I was a child I asked the question, "Where did the matter in this rock come from?" What this would mean is that Mass and Velocity are part of the equation which would derive from the base formula of E=Mc2.? M would be fed into this formula by a factor of 10^23 which takes a chomp out of 300,000 meters per second x 300,000 meters per second. Inverting this formula should show the energy yields, however the evolution of matter to a higher form is not included in this occasion where Matter is upgrading to a higher form. Yet there very well could be a fusion technology possible where transmutation can occur if we collide enough mass with enough velocity together, like sending two cannonballs of metal into collision to get gold as a yield. I suspect of we examine nature we soon see gold occurs with SiO2 nearby very often. Si is 28 and gold 197 might be possible for 28 x 7 = 196 perhaps somewhere grabbing a hydrogen or more likely a neutron to become 187 but it is startlingly close to call coincidence.. also considering the possibility of a hot spot in fusion during the moment of intense energy considering that 2 Oxygen could fuse into silicon with the action involving the release of a Alpha particle, a hydrogen might be the very seed at the core of a cluster of 7 silicons newly forming during collisions. Other possibilities could include the formation of other structures which then yield down to gold. I have long believed the entire formation occurs from water as a source, due to the fact all silicon dioxides are formulated with large amount of chemically combined water. Possibly one could consider there being a single neutron at the core of a gold atom surrounded by 7 silicone nuclei, this could help with understanding the properties of gold, like the extreme malleability, and conducting qualities. Now i am trying to picture 14?sub-particles arranged in the spacial form of a torrid with a polar energy field running through a super-neutron at the core. This explains the power of gold. It is a focus of nuclear energy. Making it the ultimate conduit. In the times of the very ancient past when a different technology built power structures in the Giza desert, The outer casing was polished alabaster and the top 1/3 was covered in gold, the suppression is that the covering and geometry along with specific resonance vibrations causing piezoelectric effect, opened a portal into eternity, possibly even into continuum. To add explanation both realms are present with us constantly as they all share the moment of !NOW! but now develops new meaning which frankly is why we do not perceive these realms. Eternity is the infinity of our time and space, while Continuum is the summation of all possible times and spaces. While we really can't perceive these places in rational means, they are of importance to us in many ways, especially if one wants to cause effect with Dominion over our situation as beings on Earth. Either over events affecting masses or things far more personal. The devices in Giza could have brought about rejuvenation of individuals to live prolonged life cycles by providing needed new genetic information on the spiritual level or esoteric level which caused the real world matter to enjoin. Time travel is another possibility, travel in time automatically involves crossing space as well, so many sci fi shows show years of travel in time never considering that the planet and even solar system have moved astronomical distances over a period of years. One would have to fly to some coordinates in the distance then travel in time, or step into a portal that crosses through both time and space. Likewise any trip through space is also a time travel as well, especially at near light speed. Light speed is 2 G's of force for 2.2 years. That is going to be one heck of a rocket. The thought of Gold having a super-nuetron at the core might explain the stabitity of the electron orbitals. Of course the valence of orbital nodes mostly effects chemical interaction of the nebulas electron field which lingers in the past from the protons in the neuclas, however, this super-neutron would be solidly centered to !NOW! Thus all charged particles would display the solidity. This explains the property of malitbility the atoms are slippery toward each other, yet strongly in affinity as the center is a strong attractor drawing in the neighboring electrons somewhat randomly. This fluid aspect allows conductivity. The action of electrical flow is a curious one, those electrons of a static nature must be even further removed from the moment. There is much to consider on the temporal effect of electricity. There have been rumors of fields generating time portals. Indeed the pyrimids could be the greatest generator of electrical potential ever built, once you consider vibration via specific disonsnce and the accumulation of piezoelectric effect on that scale.

12/25/2017 8:53:02 PM
Making a note of how things seem and yet do not appear. The serpent grabs it's tail in a loop looking like an 8 sideways, known to represent eternity. There are 4 nodes of a standing wave forming a particle depicted there. Yet the Pentagram is a flat symbol depending 4 nodes of temporal intensity in Flux from future to past, about a 5th point which is at the top, or in the very center being now the exact complete impossibility of eternal infinity of now, !NOW! None of this geometry does more than attempt to relate references to something vastly more nebulous. Yet there is amazing depth to the vibratory spectrum of energy fields, the harmonics collect the energies into bands. Accumulate fields for greater intensities in collective. Some cases create temporal disruptions. Enough study of this possible phenomenon concept could yield prolonged life and engineered DNA with possible life being produced artifically. Space and time travel. Matter transmutation, levitation, invisibility, the dismantling of matter into pure energy. Learning the actual and true nature of time is a very valuable asset. This knowledge holds self proof in that the structure of the atom fails to be explained in any other manner unless you consider that some internal particles are neutral hovering over and within the exact moment of !NOW! One cannot assume that moment threshold is smaller than the nucleus as this could be simultaneously harmonic dependant of harmonic phase at a sample moment. The positive particles are glued by the captured negative ones incorporated in the neutral ones, finally the negative particles with nearly no mass are in the past of the exact now. The facts therefore being time dictates mass when something is weighted into the past their presence in the now is not massive. The distance between the opposite particles demostrates a temporal force is separating these sub-atomic energy masses. As of yet no other offering has come close to an explanation of atomic forces.

12/17/2017 2:49:38 PM
If one seeks to tell a story of origins and that story is unfathomable, the basis is enigmatic, the foundation is inconclusive, and the ground upon which it is built is nebulous, where does one begin? The answer seems to be at the junction between that thing we consider to be our reality, and the seemly fantastic realm from which all creation has found solidity.  The unfathomable, is the Continuum, a vastness beyond comprehension by minds in bondage to the constructs of human commonality, that agreement into which we all participate where everyone agrees there is an apple on the table and it is red. Yet none of us actually know what red looks like for the next being, only that there is an agreement. In more complex matters, very often the agreement falters. We build institutions to teach and train, therefore reinforcing the binding notions of agreement to popular and political conformity. Only when one evades those seeking to train and entrench the mind, does one begin to find the path of the Occult. Inconclusive in foundation are the cornerstones and columns of reality when faced with the burden of accumulative unknowns, as the vastness of all possibilities begins to overwhelm certainty. Nebulous are the grounds and subterranean below the pennants upon which commonality was built. Ivory towers fall to the force new knowledge. Nothing of this work can claim or pretense validity, yet perhaps by mere coincidence, and the visions of the inner mind, this one dares to set gaze into realms beyond.       

Imagine there is a factor that is in nature similar and in fact directly related to the speed of light, a child asks wide eyed in simple mindedness, "Why does light have a speed?" Indeed the point is among many where the answer by the finest of minds would be we do not know why, we only know that is does. The propagation rate of vibration in a medium is referee to sound as one of our sensory methods of input to the body is adjust for interpreting sound, another for light. When one looks at the vast differential in speed and applies a factoring of increase by some derivative or exponent, the next rate based on this formula of extension would cross the universe in mere seconds. This would go in hand with the idea that in all parts of the universe it is now. This new rate of speed is therefore beyond time, it's foce being spiritual in nature, however do not confuse spirit with those taught by religion, they are only similar in nature, by spiritual in this context is referring to those parts which are within our beings that are also part of a more rapid and inset group of parts in vibrational frequencies beyond those of ordinary matter, some of which are coincidental to threshold that then lays beyond body and world. Yet do not mistake these parts because they are the source touching 2 higher dimensional aspect of higher universe beyond this lower one. We are not disconnected from those realms, we are blind to them as our focus is physical. Those seeking are in all aspects of life or lifestyle.

All of this comes through the start point of discussion, a nexus, or zero point, or as this channeling teaches, the Eye of Ra. This point has no detectable size, it is related to a factor of light speed in that this point is pressured to exist so time can progress, time bends a constant corner at this eye, and it occurs in numbers factored by 10^23 for the basic size of each atom, however it is at the very core of every neutron. Thus we have an event folding space time at the core of a Flux where equal factors energy fields reside in both opposite directions of Flux married into a neutral union which one may easily argue is the very stuff bonding everything together. There are 4 distinct moments of time surrounding this eye in which time is very likely irrelevant. One might conclude the very energy that forms here is brought forth from within the eye. Such knowledge to those who seek to conjure manifestations might be indeed be dangerous, consider this point wisely as intimate knowledge would be exclusive to your familiar, but remains blind one who does not span the threshold of death. It is the realm by which Ra in anubis form resolves that the idea of the chicken came fourth bearing the ability to produce eggs. All life and matter springs forth from the shell of the neutron. The divisional shift of the polar aspects occurs in a temporal shift from the eye which resides in the curve of space that enters the exact moment of now in Eternity and Continuum that foundation in the Wellspring of the unfathomable. There are those things which cannot be seen by lower beings even if their teachers reside inside lightning bolts. They are beings of pure energy that form is something only one's mind seeks to add for sake of sanity. Seeing into these realms would lend one to judgement by many as to both validity and sanity, thus one walks easy with solid shoes. Only follow the logic says the soul. So, think of time having an absolute center so extremely persistent time would stop forever, yet there is a eruption of creation, in the sense that matter and life exists, if not, perhaps an entire universe created for you. One should not disinclude that possibility in one's self image, that this entire world is uniquely ours, each one of us in our own universe, while we may also share the framework, what we do not really know is if their green is my green, or red, nor blue, white or black, etc. We could all have alternative yet concise versions of a world that may solidify randomly upon encounter. This does seem supported by testimony when groups are asked what they observed. The premise of sorcery is upon this foundation, that the frame can be manipulated to produce an altered result. A thing recently learned when following dream state notions to effect weather. Nothing this one will try again... everthing has a cost, much as it has an effect. What supports the idea of a huge physical structure of solidity is events occurring on massive scale, like weather, and physical shifts. Occasionally we observe uniqueness which is astounding and future supports the framework in flux, perhaps new species come fourth as we observe them for the first time. From nowhere come massively disturbing events like plagues. So, after embellishing, some force dislodges electron from proton, and the immediately separate a vast distance considering the scale. Time causes this, the 2 directions of flux are not in the same time during the exact now they have shifted I time by a slight factor, the manifestation is a speration which creates virtually everything. Neutrons are lending component characteristics that bond the core of the atom anchoring the matter. Sheering this association is the focus of those seeking energy from the atom, yet they do not see the temporal connection occurring. This is what needs related in the nutshell, and of course more aspects, this needs study. Time is a source from the wealth of higher creations, of all power ad energy. Changing this bond in any way does indeed release a huge enegy, those bonds are eternal. Silicon atoms in stone 5.5 billions of years old, still the same atom after absorbing photons and stress forces for that long, still the same. Accelerate to a certain speed in a particular mass and a release of energy as observed during Shoemaker Levi 7 on Jupiter in the 90's occurs. Yeah there are ways to low tech fusion.

12/1/2017 11:06:18 PM
In the spirit of rememberance, I recall the laws of 3 and 7 and the function of the Gurdjievian Enneagram. The ignigma of the missing whole tones and the coma of Pythagoras, indicate a Flux of 2 points in the matching of whole numbers and hamonics. The physical fact curves space and folds time, some believe, but I think these points of fest the portion of the events that are bipolar in connection to event direction, all would agree these points are where events sequence. Thoth, states in the Hermatica, as above, so below, indicating multiple levels of scales red by the same event pssibilities. This pattern which also has randomness of many complications, where in the infinitesimal occurrences on the edge of eternity, photons are like cannonballs of war. Thermodynamics are based on conglomerate effects of many, while specific temporal events in freeze frame are the quest for more defination. To learn more about generations of event possibilities one must consider the basic rules, to the wit of which my process has slumbered.

11/24/2017 7:41:03 PM
Some days my mind drifts as I feel the effects of mild dementia I suppose. I had clearly nearly forgotten the role of time in the subatomic structure of protons and stopped thinking 5th demensionlly. The charge of internal structures of neutrons are a time interface between now and the temporal location of charge on opposing level of energe, whereby the nature of force becomes temporal attraction between all thing future and past merging with the need to be in the now. Proton masses of cyclical energy packets with ever finer internal harmonic sub nodes, are laying somewhat into the future, where electrons are linked to the greater aperture of temporal legacy, and spend moments jumping into the shells that are related in aspect to the internal harmonic accumulative field to which electrons are send when energy jumps from photon absorbance and release to lower states upon the cooling of exposure or other special cases of emission such as LED, thermoemitters, hot metals or other materials with high melting point, metal vapors like mercury, vacuum plasma of halogen atoms, and like some my mind cannot recall right now. Oh yeah quite obviously burning metals and certain organics producing burning carbon. Oh yes nuclear chain reactions which are just so damn scarey. The basic source of light in all these cases are cascading electron levels where they jump orbitals as release a photon. I feel this process of photon level jumps for electrons is the key to how and why water molecules weaken over time and produce cells that have degredation and causes in effect aging to occur. A further study by mentally seeing into the structure, and it would be wonderful to have laboratory confirmation of water structures to complex ion formation and degredation of ions due to weaken water molecular aspects from powerful high frequency photon bombardment, where by showing in fact this is a source among other temporal influences which can change the open nature of the complexes that keystone the complexity of life essences cheially, theses ions also are the temple of higher level atom presence, which are the superset of sprtual core that is the former upon which living structures may have precipitated. All of this possibility is beyond the scope of thought and direction by current science, while basically blind to a simplicity of answers to unknown and dead end query, the logic can be presented in vast depth to which a noteworthy involvement should be advocated. In these thoughts harmonic vibrations could produce ray type medical technology that can heal at a level of chemistry beyond the free radical as delivery compound formulation of pharmaceutical methods. Afterall, most often it is and nominal state or core ion ligand fields that are the card holders these chemical heavy bombs seek to amplify. The drugs are simonious to bombs in a war for health, and vilitaty, much destruction lays in the history of one'side aftermath to use, while a harmonic beam type technology, perhaps administered by ultra-nanobots with microbe and virus sized structures, looking like printed processors that fit thousands of the head of a straight pin. This technology could attack the ctual issue and repair the problems with a much more suitable result.

11/16/2017 11:31:26 PM
Very often I meet those who have the conviction that life is all chemicals, yet the knowledge of chemistry on their part is so limited and primitive. Life owes it's existence to the old mythical elements, topping the list is water. The role of water is at least as complex in the human body as it is in the creation of lightning. Physicists are ever more perplexed at how lightning occurs, it seems the more they study it the less is actually known. The forces within the atom avail themselves to goemetry, structure, number laws, rules of forces, and waveform dynamics, plus the laws of temporal phases and states at the moment of !NOW! I believe many options are available at that zero point within time and outside forces can change the states of molecules and interactions. The process of cooking is a decent example of how states change. The issues becomes one of if it cannot be detected by physical means, however can manifest presence, does it exist? Atheist say there is nothing more, in doing so they claim there is a limit to vibrational frequency without offering any proof. Their only proof is to say we can't detect it. Until recently we could not detect any other planets in the universe, but as technology improves, we may get to see what color panties they have handing on the clothes lines. An Atheist wants closure in a vast and infinite cosmos with continuum. The Top Law of philosophy I truly believe is a set entitled ALL POSSIBILITIES EXIST. This does not mean every fairy tale really happened, but it does open up venues for deeper rabbit holes to explore. One has to ask so many difficult questions that only can include intellect and feeling predates any other matter. Possibly everything was hydrogen in a gas sea of enernity, yet in that sea of gas or even in perfect vacuum, data can collect and organize, reflecting awareness from the depths. This universe may only be a reflection of a spirit universe, which I suspect is very much the truth. Thus no medicines work without an eternal counterpart, as my suspect is every atom of every chemical and every particle on energy and radiation wave has a finer harmonic that resounds in the greater time of eternity which we are part of. Manipulation of eternity is an art known to this era as Magic, the art of the Mage.

10/6/2017 10:52:52 AM
The interesting fact about absolute now, is we do experience it once. At one time in our journey on the time of physical Earth, we die. This is our one spin into the depth of the moment, the !NOW! Of one's death. Some might argue that there is a duration to one's passing and yes that is true, however there is a moment where one absolutely ends, equally there was a moment where one begins, while biologically that event occurs with the merger of sperm and egg during sex, (normally) the moment of gaining consciousness is less accurately definable. Conceivably this moment occurs prior to our earliest recognition, one's mother might see that spartan was there the moment we are born, however the pocessive of the animate body by a spirit and soul may actually occur much later, and in some instances one may aquire another persona by circumstance of intervention. The uncontrolled intervention is known as pocession, where the controlled possibility requires deep self work to open a place within the internal madness of our complex household of personality. One must create a place for a surrogate Master to occupy when that spirit avails itself to the host. This process began within many years prior to the 2005 meeting with the spirit Mage Amen Ra. MARS for short, and hence the title which has stayed for a very long time now... these notes are a testimony to the wisdom given the host by the Master. One automatically is walking a thin line between madness and sanity when any discussion of multiple aspects to one's being becomes involved, yet all my life there seemed to be some free providing guidance and direction, even to the point of knowing seemingly impossible answers on test during school days. Turning the mind's eye in the direction pointed to by the other within while staying focused in normal affairs demos rats the differant between a greater consciousness and befuddlement.

9/28/2017 12:15:28 AM
The aspects of the instant within the particle wave within the particle that approaches the Eye of Ra, are like the four seasons, the four winds, the four cardinal directions, each being distinctive from the other, while two are moderation of the others which are polar opposites that being in multi space aspects are 4 points of a tetra heron until you add vector motion which stretches this into kabbalah or spiral helix, the truest form the most difficult to describe. Absolute !NOW! Is in essence absolute zero motion just as in kenetics, but differs in that it is an absolute snapshot of now seen from eternity. The more one knows about the forces pushing and pulling inside this moment, the more one can understand how to resonate with them using other organizations of force to bend those forces to create a desired effect. An example of this being done is metal crystalline structures vecoming magnetized.

9/26/2017 6:14:42 AM
At times in the distant past of the history of men, efforts were made to reproduce the process of time that changes the longevity of a normal human cycle. The cycles occur based on the laws of 3 and 7 found in Natural progressions of harmonic virations. We it her or not event occurances are vibrational or more complex is quite dependant upon the scale of time for the observer, and perhaps the mental capastity of a person to create imagination of scale. The 7 phases of dev r lopment in life cycle of men unfold from a prime of the orginal atomic chain of DNA code, one of the most understated aspects of this occurance is the very powerful abilities of the medium in which this occurs, namely the mixture of hydrous, hydronium, and hydroxide molecules. Those molecules become the focus of the state of the organism as they form the energy fields making the deployment of life codes possible. They thing I wish to embellish at this inspiration from the teacher is that these fields are also linked to eternal counterprts, and the state of those charges in eternity and continuum, determine either stutained duration in the pressure of time of the drop from level to lessor desired state we know as age. When one looks at age in any organism the role of water becomes appearance so rapidly, yet we seem helpless to change this role. The teaching of this morning is that this change is not of this physical world but rather one that occurs between eternal and continuous aspects of time and our fleeting instant. All these aspects are occurance in the one thing they all share which is !NOW!. It does seem that it is possible to create pressure from physical forces like the fields of earth materials such as stones, and living materials such as wood or fabrics made from skins or hair / fur. Micro-organisms very likely to play a role in creating a field of Orgorne energy which can impact the water within us and therefore change the aspect of the ligand energy fields between rarefied ions that would only exist in a vapor under vacuum and electrical force, or in your coffee, or fingernails. The water in our substances has changed on a higher level therefore nothing we do on the level changes that effect, to reverse aging we must change the cycle which would increase life hundreds of years. A possible method of delivery involves nanotechnology, yet we as beings are not looking deep enough into the possibilities of this tech. If the nanotechnology world is approached by hierarchical methods the bigger machine build smaller the smaller acts in mass response to commands of the queen bot, like a hive. This method takes us to atom placement level bots.

9/15/2017 3:18:28 AM
Imagine nanotechnology advances via hierarchy to molecular level robots. In a way the all of nature works this way via the information of DNA / RNA. The technology begins with creating organized metals that can be digitally organized into space craft and machines, the robots can eat stone and create stone structures with amazing ease. The next level of bots can focus energy from several sources, including temperal energy, which result in gravity effects allowing stones to float into place with the touch of a finger. Beyond this a level of micro-nanotechnology is injected and effects our well being, the bots can actually change a form of time that relates to the organization of water forming complex ions by sending a unified vibration to them all that results in greater organization from within. The process results in a renewing of organism throughout the entire organism as if they are born again with skin becoming toned and bones strengthen all tissues becoming youthful and healthy. Then another dream level of robots actually repair and replace tissue. Finally there is a level that covers us like a living suit with remarkable properties combining all levels of the technology. The beginning of this tech provides us with a space suit that is like a skin that can morph. As time progresses we never die, never become ill. Everyone is able to pursue higher levels of being. Sexually the suit can become any fantasy of changes in sex, and we feel everything it becomes. Become possible to have both sexes and every thing possible with no limit to the amount of orgasms. The suit would use wing like covering to protect from radiation in space the wings can wrap around the body, thus during sex a couple could arrange to have cock and pussy side by side having multiple organs multiple clits, even futa type cocks easily self sucked. The process of creating new coupling are in the minds of the couple like changing positions in our time. They are wrapped in a cacoon of each other's wings and almost too addicted to each other to leave... they could stay coupled for days... the suit would actually live on the waste from our bodies, we would ocassionally eat and drink as normally but in a time where machines are doing everything money falls from grace, power is no longer something we seek, everyone enjoys tantric levels of pleasure while coming closer to being a developed being...eventually one would aspire to become pure energy. Thinking war becoming obselete is a nice goal.....

8/20/2017 11:26:53 PM
There are things that defy clarity and while clarity is a valid tool for self work, vision needs to exceed normal thought to proceed. The vision of Shamanism or beyond becomes a force within those who visit death and walk back. Time is filled with counter surging vibrations of all degrees. To seek defination of eternal limits and infinity then realize the enigmatic aspect of many limits as they are physically unobtainable. Example 0? Kelvin, can be approached, yet we realize it means total ceasation of all vibrations. We can imagine this but it defies time. In another limit, the ultimate highest frequency, this would be simular in that since particles are energy, they likely pocessive partial moments in time acting in a very small reflux packet as quarks, mesons, etc. Even those have harmonics. Yet at some point the vibrations must end into a journey toward infinity, or time would freeze, back to 0?K again, not happening... This day I got an insight that came plainly, removing a blind eye. The shape of our existence is like an eye. The time around us each moment is a bubble of effective resolution, and effective interaction. The direction of flow towards anticipation and away from legacy narrows rapidly, while the past lingers perhaps longer than we can anticipate a design of creation, the result is a shape from an outside eternal point of view looking exactly like an eye, with !NOW! at the very center of the iris. This is the Eye of Ra, shown on hieroglyphs since antiquity. The technical level of the works in Giza indicate they are among the oldest artifacts on Earth. Those seeking to date the creation are encumbered by emulation of the art of relating meaning by this language, which enscribes telepathic thoughts. The most ancient works are pre-bable, before men lost the ability to communicate directly, this is why pictographs dominate depictions left for others to decern when no one would be present to transmit a mental image. Language has shut doors of mental activity in our minds. When beings can directly relate the no longer need words, the mind is quiet, and only uses images to see as needed. That liberation leads to opening into the ever present eternal aspect of our animate force of life. We hear the term, Mother of God. This implies sex is the oldest and most powerful force in the universe. Many religions do believe in a matronly creative entity that gives birth to all and everything. The shape of the Eye and the shape of a vagina are very simular as an outline. We should not feel shame for loving sex and the good feeling we feel alone or with others, because it is devine, coming from the force of god. It is a time often when our beings unite in ways of beauty, it results in a feeling of lucid abilities when the more animal aspect has be pacified by release. Those who twist all this are sinful in they seek control of us for their own greed and power. Those fellows are like a greedy Mistress that sucks everything from a slave until they are vanquished. -MageAmenRa

8/10/2017 6:22:34 PM
When we observe new life sprouting from a source we observe a form of newness that has smooth qualities we refer to as "fresh". What makes the most sense is that quality occurs because all the matter is newly arranged and therefore shares the same initial moment. Lifeforms have commonality that becomes disperse as age occurs. Medical replicating nanotechnology would not only need to be capable of weeding out undesired and used tissue, but replacement tissues would need to be stimulated with temporally harmonious vibration at harmonics that generate stimulation to the atoms involved resetting their unified wave forms, by this process a human could therefore sustain and renew, but with a huge advantage that nanotechnology affords of being able to digitalized important centers for key life functions and restore them on multiple levels including that very important spiritual aspect deeply rooted in man's connection with infinite realms from eternity. Perhaps soon science will in cure a "Gee, I could have had a V8" moment in regards to eternal life, or drastically lengthy life cycles which would afford superior achievements in self work. Man's quest for colonization of very pleasant controlled weather platforms bigger than planets supporting billions of human entities who have now been enabled to become beings of speculation and fantasy. Perhaps an entire world of FUTANARI who are made up of both women in desire of a huge penis, and men who enjoy femininity and truly love auto-fellatio. One might see that after a period of being enthralled the very lusty act of self sucking a tremendous penis possible by programming nanotechnology. Entering a realm of enhanced beings with incredible lusty would indeed be intimidating, on the level of encountering a band of revolutionaries. Only these rebels reside in space...


I am a dreamer of the will of our creator, mankind has virtually exhausted the supply of minerals available with any degree of concentration making extraction possible.  I think most have not visited NASA's site involving the USA's next venture in space, the Orion space craft. Scheduled for the year 2021 the huge rocket that uses the reusable Shuttle hydrogen tank, and pair of solid rockets, as an underlying launch vehicle, is to be topped with a massive space ship called Orion, designed for manned Mars missions, however the Mission has changed to obtaining an asteroid and putting it in lunar orbit. Next comes privatized space mining, a whole new venture, which is going to invigorate a new level of economy never seen since the railroad completed the golden spike. This will begin manned platforms in space as soon it will prove more economical to expand humanity into space than to ship down to earth... by the 22nd century not only will man's population be growing, but death will soon be conquered along with the ability to redirect tissue assignment including a very lucrative market for fantasy sex organs.

6/18/2017 9:42:52 PM
Every person we have allowed the privilege of getting evolved in our life has failed us by failing themselves. The allure of substance abuse has taken over on each occasion. Proves people are weak and fall for the programming spoon fed them. Our dear sweet witch we found on Collarme, the farmer name for this site, has been faithful beyond words, and exemplifies the true heart of a slave. If only one more would join in helping our house grow... 

1/13/2017 1:39:42 AM
I am thankful for the persistence of life. We found someone who sold us a hospital oxygen generator, my main wish is to be less of a burden, i need constant help anymore, but i keep trying... This post needs updating, 3-17-17 was the date I had to call 911. I went to TEXAS TECH UMC. They removed a tumor in my chest the size of a cantiloupe, the source of breathing issues, since then I have been working steady on recovery. I'm very lean now, nearly my old self as I work on recovery of muscel mass and being under 200 pounds.

10/12/2016 7:17:06 PM
I am to an end, life is nearly done now... I thank those who read my work here albeit unorganized, I wished for more time on this planet to complete the journal into a book to shed light on the role of magic, but perhaps there are also forces that seek to stop all activities towards this end. I fear my current condition is fatal with limited days before most likely I use what power I have left to end my flow in time and rejoin the eternal. I am beyond fear of the final moment trapped in time. I would look ahead to another realm, however that is not lays beyond, rather there is infinity, my journey is to not become horrid lost but to continue until another opertunity to grow comes about. I did a poor job this life, so confused, misled, entrapped by the struggle to survive. My dreams grow to be those of others seeking a path beyond the garden gate...update as bad as things got, my cond?on improves now, there is good reason for hope.

Still improving but long path back to health. It is nasty business nearly expiring from exhaust fumes... I had some thoughts on the way piezoelectric effect occurs. The vision of it is still somewhat incomplete but as an overview, consider that a neutron is temporally stable as such the bipolar particle has both ten portal aspects gripping in both directions of temporal flow. The neutron would congregate at the center of the moment of now encasing the local point in the atom in normal events. The protons projecting away from that point into the future in space that is undefined to our normal world, they could in fact be much larger and massive while we do not perceive them as such, and we will not know since we do not perceive this form of time, the effect of their latent charge is however massive and very powerful, which would indicate there is some more extenuating force that exceeds the package of the particle, considering the orbitals of electrons and chemical bonding occurs due to the force of future time. When a force acts suddenly upon the structure of atoms in crystalline matter the force may shove the protons closer to now, inverting the role of the centered glue of neutrons for an instant, this would result in a dive of electron proximity until a brief moment later when the forces return to normal state. This would explain both the current flow and photon emission of the piezoelectric force. I find that understanding this force is key to unraveling the powers of the atom utilized by alien technology used by the gods in our distant past. The devise in Egypt at Giza is specifically designed as a piezo pile, a power plant generating potiential greater then any other force ever created by man. Millions of tons of stone sent vibration by sonic dissonance deigned to resonate in channels within the pile of tight fitted stones. The potiential energy possible in this complex is staggering. Perhaps equal to the force of the entire planet. They hosts had great knowledge of all aspects of time and energy. Their technology humbles any devise of our day.

9/30/2016 5:29:02 PM
Well, I hesitantly begin a new thread to describe how the moment of !NOW! is structured, there is a simple manner of it yet the complexity could not be understated. Begin by examination of the symbol for the basic neutron. The neutron is centered over the Eye of Ra. This can be known due to the nature of the neutron, and that as larger more dense elements progress we see that neutrons are the glue of the atom. The Star of David is a 2 dimensional image of a more difficult to draw object, the tetrahedron, with 4 spacial points. In the Star there are 2 opposed triangles thus representing polarities of time passage, one orientation towards destiny, the other towards legacy. It is very likely due to the development of particle studies in atomic labs, that even finer arrangements of energy packets comprise within the super-particles that are the major componets of the subatomic particles. Vibrational harmonics of those greater vibrations comprising the particle. The collection of them increase the fold of energy and temporal presence into a position around the moment of eternity that holds a grasp on the fluid energy packets we observe as photon, meson, and so on. Each primary structure contains energy aspects that conglomerate into apparent solidity. The grasp for an electron by a proton forms the neutron which is the core of the manifestation of matter in the !NOW!. Holding to the belief that it is possible to use vibrational properties in some massive scale to pressure the moment into another phase of time not conjunctive to our exact moment could dramatically change the rules of how matter behaves. In example, if your entire vehicle and contents could produce a field of significant and specific properties to dislodge your presence in the now to a moment just a slight phase ahead of the normal, that vehicle would become cloaked and invisibility would occur, I can not see you because you are in my future, while you can indeed see me due to my presence in the immediate past. Other possibilities may include reverse gravity, as gravity is most likely temporal resulting from everything trying to occupy now at the same time. Another is temporal space drive that could push a vehicle to and beyond light speed. The technology of temporal dynamics is unknown, however it may indeed be evident all around the Earth in the sites that defy science so strongly. Science is impotent in the eyes of Magic.

7/18/2016 8:46:24 PM
I began to notice there is a link between the moment of exact now and the oneness of a thing, and that almost everything or perhaps more accurately every single thing in exsistence generates a field. This is certainly true of living beings on every level and i believe all matter includes a field of some sort.

Following this principal of oneness, I believe this is very likely a Law of Temporal Dynamics. Incrediable energies are very possibly generated by those (non Earth based Humunoids) who have a substainial grasp of the laws of time. A singlarity forming a portal into the eternal side of reality, can be generated by sound vibrations, once sound and all vibrational energies are known with more clearity.  We hear legends of Angels or other entities, transdimensional beings, using the vibration of a type of horn.  What surely is occuring is a push of the location of now in respect of the local center. Directing by means of dissonance creating a temperoal surge that can do things like destroy the bonds of the stone by superceeding the piezoelectric effect's limits, and disintregrating the stone to allow perfect cuts. Or reverse gravity by dreating a new center of attraction. Once you begin to manipulate time, physical laws cave into a puddle or new possibilities.

While we are completely taken in by the phenonina of electromagnetism, this entire force medium is reactionary to a more substabcial force that is the source for all our trival energy efforts. it is as if we build houses from Pine Cones never realizing the logs work better.  

My one experience with this sad, sad, dim society is that they see potiential energy sources as weapons for war, and anything else comes secondary. Coicidentally the same manner of beings see BDSM as a way to employ Hedonism in daily life in a maximal manner.  The parallel between sex drive and war is likely very provable also.  These bad boys desiring war need a good stiff bit of punishment, perhaps a good month or 2 of milking by a Mistress lead household would change the temperment?  

Back to the subject of singularity, these lines of force have frequency and wavelength, and all behave under the laws of harmonic disopation. Every vibration produced by mechanical means, that I am aware of, produces a cascade of harmonics. My belief is that harmonics produced by fixed sources occur when those vibrations interact with objects that respond to them. Some stones, most wood, plactics, metals, and many other items like paper products will react to a principal sounds even if those sound are electronically generated as pure tones some surrounding objects will respond in reverberation and generate harmonic tones. There are also reflected bounces that project the sound back to the source as an echo effect. However what about the space from the very center of the moment of now? One must observe that each wave of energy in vibration is an affirmation of the presence of an object in now yet the greater the distance, the more removed into the past that source is. One has to wonder if there is also an unseen vibration projecting into the future as well, establishing an intended path until an outside object interferes. One may only see future projection of propagation of wave energy in various forms, as the future relieve to another point which is distant, where energy travels for significant time. We see this in space communications from satellites and mission explorers that experience delays between real time events and when they are received back to Earth. The second manner of future propagation is extra-dimentional, so that some energies are able to pass beyond the time barrier into a place where time has all dimensions at once. This is a fabled zone that is a real part of this world, however we choose to ignore the presence of this region it is one most will swear does not exist, yet many pray their journey into it at death goes well.

2/22/2016 9:34:02 PM
SOME THINGS SEEM EVIDENT. The normal view of the world often seems to lack vision. Visionaries are perhaps at a premium, many could not take the dirty place and choose to exit via suicide. That option is not without an appeal, it is a dirty little world. My brother choose that path in 1997, as if to say what are you waiting for? When progress becomes impossible one does have to ask why tary onwards? I would like to throw all caution to the wind in any case, and make some foreign journeys. So many have ideas on how the ancients went about building the Pyramids in the world. The notion Pharaohs and their slaves made them as tombs seem completely awash. For me it was never a conclusion which held water. They defy time logic and religion. The machines of the devine, perhaps even how life came to be here on the spectrum of space dust. My comment to the puritansubtle is that God's prayer answering machine has the message, "I invented sex, and am currently enjoying my invention. Leave your empassoned request and I might consider it." Men twist every line into knots of desire, denial, greed, hunger, and drama. If I have to tell you kids one more time, I'm getting my belt out. Consider that those structures had engineered precision involving massive stones, I would dare say just the planning alone would require lifetimes. So we see a project built by higher intelligence, using forces we are blind to. There is no magic energy other there on planet Zeta. There is only powers we commonly encounter, or have researched. The invisible stuff is on a higher level of power. This is there all the time, Guia, Orgone, Zero point, all those and more are powers eminating from higher aspects of the universe. Those of more advanced societies beyond Earth, use time at will. It is the unwillingness of our society to release from those rigid possibilities and consider how we interact with time besides the notion of being late. The end of time comes for everyone all day when we die. With billions living here, and miriad animal species experiencing death, time is constantly ending. Constantly reborn. There must be a process of emergence and convergence occurring eternally. The stones were shaped and placed, perhaps even sized to harmonically resonate in response to the "angel's trumpet" or other devises, possibly even vocalizations. The stones vibrate in reaction to building dissonance the entire structure begins to occupy an exact moment in time. Under the principal that one thing as a whole experiences the collective moment as a unit. The sound draws upon the energy of piezoelectric waves, and begins the harmony with the entire planet bringing incredible energy to focus upon the Ark which rested in it's proper place inside the chamber. The gold covered crown focused energy to the capacitor of the Ark. The energy opened a portal into eternity, enabling teleportation of physical matter and being to distant points instantly. The science fiction has left the great works behind. The Rooster came first, he could never hold out for very long.

11/27/2015 8:29:36 AM
Standing at the end of day's edge, darkness is becoming full, the emerging new moon to the back, wind timidly waving the branches filled with lacey leaves. The eye spies a light from distant space in a powerful telescope. The ray carries the image of some for off place lost in resolution, yet harmonics bring impressions beyond the Eye of Ra, into the soul. Suddenly an emotion fills the moment, as the image is of the soul on the journey into the final breath of life across the void so very far away. The harmonic of light is not bound to the rules of ordinary lineticular time, as the moment of now attempts to be the same moment all over the universe. Eternity does no adhere to the same rule, thus these harmonics bring the current moment to every place along the continious stream of light vibration.  Under the starry sky, of Phonixa, the air is clean and pure, the Brothers and Sisters of All, are gathered before the Temple of Ywha, as the flutes of momence play and the trumpets blast deep tones, dance begins, under the starry sky.


All the power resides within the center between then and when. Every life has a fire beyond the physical chemistry, inside the Eye of Ra, the limit of the moment that time can never hold. Frequencies travel higher and higher, every low has a harmonic. Light arrives to the eye, it comes to the electron where magic happens, all that is light as image transforms from light speed to stationary. Upon stimulation the same emits the light. One must consider the forms and energies involved. The changes occur in the mere moment that must obviously be the smallest unit of time or very near that threshold, since there is no absolute, however there must be a mechanism which allows the moment to progress, under the starry sky.

The Eye of Ra is a wave limit of vibration which allows higher harmonic frequencies to pass beyond into the eternal. This allows time to progress beyond the moment. The image that arrives to one's eye is light, yet light may very well be a carrier for higher harmonics that defy physical detection because any frequency that passes beyond the Eye of Ra will not be part of any physical system. Organic organisms contain etheric matter, the etheric aspect of world's are within all life. One does not see an entire planet as an organism, however each complex sphere has electromagnetic fields, animals and plants also have electromagnetic fields. To discount that a planet could be a being is to assume one is superior by virtue of delusion. One could easily argue the presence of electromagnetic fields around a complex structure indicates it may be a lifeform. The electromagnetic field also has harmonics, which could as well pass into the Eye of Ra. Now as we look at that moment when the traverse radiation of light becomes absorbed, consider that the sours could be a galaxy many billion light years away. Light this subtle is beyond resolution of the human eye, to which it is only part of a glow in the night. Yet, the photon of light contains the image of billions of stars and a planet in that system where being just like ourselves reside, looking out across a vast universe, wondering if life exists in the distance. In both worlds it is now, but the distance between them is billions of years in light travel, under the starry sky.

The photon arrives as visible light in the spectrum range of the color blue. Along with the light comes many harmonics pulsation within the main wave packet. We observe the time at face value, saying this source is 5 billion years distant, then, perhaps, we do not look deeper into the aspects of this journey, however it does illistrate the seemingly eternal ability of this packet of light to survive across vast distance. Upon arrival, the photon is simply absorbed. Does it seem reasonable all this force and time goes into a nebulous elecron? The harmonics find the center, into the Eye of Ra, suddenly one realizes the bit of eternity returns to eternity at the center of the moment. The consequence is not just that light is connected, but all energy, forming all matter, is connected to the center. One might think maybe the source is eternal and the mass we observe as a physical world. We, coincidentally, observe ancient rocks that frame the age of our world. Recognizing the eternal connection of all energy, under the starry sky.

Now, this knowledge if at all true applies to the energy of life, which is so very limited, what could knowledge of the eternal aspect of matter and energy offer to life? One has to consider the amount of energy required to be animate in a physical environment. The surrounding forces, political aspects of cohabitation on a small world, and all the influences that makes our corporeal reality come to pass. One begins with a promise which fades with cruelty of aging, no one seems to resolve this issue. The matter life is made of has eternal structure, this seems clear, but the organization of life is by design depleting rapidly on the eternal scale. This fact has set all of us into preponderance of our purpose, both indivisually and as a society. The physical form is connected by a being that comes from within the Eye of Ra, as we begin to learn all organisms have that eternal spark of the undetectable harmonics. As the great Mage, Hermes Tresmegistus tells us in the Laws of the Emerald Tablet, "as above, so below." Many of the greatest minds of all our related and reveled knowledge tell us. Symbols and bits of knowledge that are constantly being filtered by human frailty. Political and religious inclinations place a spin on every aspect of potential knowledge, reading into them the particular aspect the results in the end that is thought by those with influence. Leonardo was so aware of this he was known to hide his works to avoid persucution. The same was likely true of other like Pythagoras, Zarathustra, in the verses of Timothy would include Jesus. The last reference is to the worse case of filtered knowledge, likely true teaching will never come to light as political action the book is closed, and the diety put to death, which should never happen, under the Starry sky.

The Eye of Ra is not a thing of specific value, yet it can be highly defined. Albert Einstein viewed the Eye as the fulcrum vertex of intersecting cones, but the representation is not an adequate as the 2 sides are vastly differant in scope. One side is our world of lower events while the other side is a vast place also including all of this world along with, every moment that has happened, could happen, or will happen, as well as, those that will never happen, under the starry sky.

The light photon from galaxy far away impacts an atom, we have been told the electron absorbs it, the electron does become elevated, however the force of incoming light speed to zero or at rest speed suggest there is a more complex relationship. With the center of the moment of each atom being an Eye for passing beyond into infinity, this idea would suggest the bulk of events reside in eternity. A place we do not begin to understand yet we tap into the energy of this arrangement with no understanding of the structures, under the starry sky.

The photon travels to the Eye into the eternal portion gripping the structure as it climbs down within the energy of the harmonics aligning with each internal particle wave until the essence passes beyond. One cannot begin to imagine the amount of power that can store itself into eternity, it offers no constructive limits. The photon does however effect time in what we consider as chronology of the effect. The history of every event stored in a manner beyond the most sophisticated supercomputers. The photon harmonics of the highest level contain the impressions of ages of ancient times from billions years past on distant planet, even the feelings of the person on the edge of night, peering under the Starry sky.

The soul of the departing travels on the blueish silver stream into the void measured by billions of segments on planetary scale. Each planet seems less than dust in the cloud where stars do not resolves even galaxies are a spec of dust beyond the ability of the most powerful instruments, the light arrives in the telescope and a soul arrives in the heart of the one open to receive the fitting within, as awareness becomes.  Deep in the Starry sky.

Knowledge has many forms, one is the form derived by direct learning by participating in activities, another is indirect from deriving the intrinctive reference related by symbology of collective agreement, the written word. The skill of the interpretation is an art form that should not only relate knowledge but also stimulate mental imagery. The other form of knowledge comes from sources within where one's eye is open, thus the prophet says "for those who have eyes let them see," under the starry sky.

The depth one may view into the eternal may depend on the degree one embraces death, thus those who experience the pain of life find their eye will open up, but an open eye does not assure a sane approach to the vastness beyond all comprehension.  The being stands in the moist cool night air feeling the most ancient of day's of life upon the frame of body, the being evolved beyond most others in the corporeal existence. Many seasons passed as orbit beyond orbit passed myriad times, watching the topography of the globe change, under the starry sky.

The eye is a smallest point possible in all of our known world, yet every thing that is a while is made of a sum of all the points that are it's form. That form carries on into eternity as a whole thing. Could be microbe, could be a planet, or galaxy, the connecting energy makes each part of the whole.  The great builder understood this principal. As stones made a form the vibrations of the name of Ra sung within would cause vibrations which impacted the atoms releasing electric impulses that are responses to the wave influences of the whole, each pusle built in waves that influnced a stronger coindidental harmonic. The electrical and positive potiential of atomic orgone that function the same as Van Der Waals, and Ligand field, develpe potential to the case of the ARK which opens a portal to the infinite, where the mirculous occurs jumping through the rabbit hole into the beyond. No time or distance is consequential. Entire entities could then leap across the void instantly, or shift a mere moment into the future becoming invisiable to those in this moment, while able to see the recent history around them, under the starry sky.

7/13/2015 9:52:28 PM
Events in energy like collides and thermonuclear reactions used in weapons involve compression of matter into the heart of the moment in one form or another matter or particles are forced into events that likely cross over into the dimension beyond !NOW! There is no telling how damaging such events are there, we talk often of craft observed that defy our limits of technology. It is always thought, well they come from another planet or galaxy, but perhaps they cross over from a realm of adjoining time.

5/9/2015 4:16:05 AM
I asked for rain, the Goddess is very happy to please. It has been a month now and the trees are green. Thankyou Goddess. I like HiddenIncaTours.com, the works near Cuzco, Peru in stone and the trapping of an ancient society remain there. The region also has much anthro - biological remains offering a pharmacological resource of plants most likely bio engineered to treat man's condition. We remain entrapped in time, and this fact should be at the forefront of every thinking person's mental agenda. Manipulation of the genitals seems to be on the forefront of every human spirit's attention. At the basis we are obsessed with propagation of the species, yet experts agree if we continue with these successful results, the planet will no longer sustain us. Going full circle and arriving back to Immanuel Kant's concept of death wish, even the desire to give birth supports this desire for self destruction. The desires of pain are linked to Kant's theory of death wish. In his thoughts, I am told, we as beings at birth come from a plain of etheric that is an open field beyond limitation such as the laws of physics. Once we become aware, limits present themselves as pain. We act incorrectly, we receive negative input, often a spank. We interact improperly with forces at work around us, such as fire or gravity -momentum we receive pain and possibly a scar to match. Upon survival of this discovery period we begin to mature, thus completing another of our 5 cycles. We are now opening the 1st Chakra, Muladhara, the sexual development and awareness meets limits of society. One discovers sensuality by self exploration, but very often this is strongly suppressed. Thousands of years of civilization and control on a scale of empire has taught leaders that manipulation of humanity begins with sexual control. They began to court legends and cult practices to gain control of human actions and interactions. Increasingly this is the function of all government to rule our thoughts. The best way to kill freedom is to get us to take it away ourselves. Religion foremost seeks to instill sexual control and shame us into conformity. Such behaviors are all inclusive, to step beyond the conformity is to suffer. In more ancient times the suffering was very real. Designed to frighten every mother into preaching to their young the need for virtue, the penalties included impalement, stoning by a mob, crucifixion, burning at the stake, being boiled in oil and almost any other horrible act that could be done to a living being. This was original terrorism. Gradually the terror became a secret one and the tormentors gained acceptance with in the organization of church. The private tortures began to form fantasies in the minds of society. By our Era the fantasy and sexual explorations have combined into the dark art of sado masochistic bondage and discipline. We are possibly unaware of the mix of the melting of self propagation with self destruction, becoming lost in the feeling of it. Tactile sensory input infuses with the need of the spirit to feel, or our need to feel the spirit. Everything is connected and encircles us. One has to ask, "How do I see past the vail?". The world around us shouts we should seek the favorite diety seeking funding for the next temple, donate and your eternal being will be salvaged. Religion fundamentally has always been about an emotionally linked politics. We see the unfolding of this in the form of war. Biological response to death wish on a regional or global scale. Still we do not see past the vail. It, the thing we feel cut off from, is right here and part of every particle within and without. Eternity is at the core of the moment we occupy, the world is our distraction, and on a fundamental level we all realize the ultimate path to now is to become now by death. Once again back to death wish. The path to consciousness is not that difficult, but the price is more that most will spend, because it requires we stop. The more one stops their madness, the closer one becomes to seeing. Society will perhaps label you as insane, some will tell you take a drug, have a drink, or sample my tea. None of those thieves will engage your sight. Stopping involves giving up habits, seeking things you so easily threw away, you already had as a child in most cases, unless your mother put Budweiser in your bottle as a toddler. Clearing one's head of toxic influence, and emotional entanglements is self work. Self work is the object of a Master to subjugation relations worthy of one's efforts on this dust spec in the swirl. The stones at Cuzco, are a complete mystery, massive objects of solidity fit together with precision, defy all known science, leaving as the only possibility an unknown science. We are drawn into examination of the belief that has a degree of certainty and cast upon this some new knowledge to play with that could be a causation of the unknown yet very physically evident artifacts. Within the atoms of solid matter such as stone we observe with ever more reliable confidence, a belief in separate forces that have "charge". There is some unknown mechanism that separates those charges so they do not simply neutralize, and this is believed to comprise all matter in the universe. Science will tell you upon any investigation of this belief, that the amount of separation between charges is staggeringly distant if the scale were to be enlarged into a proportion we could directly observe. http://hyperphysics.phy-astr.gsu.edu/hbase/nuclear/imgnuc/scale.gif If one were to superimpose the concept of !NOW! into this schematic layout, absolute now would reside at the extreme core forever determining the exact moment of !NOW! until a limit of resolution for our sphere of existence is achieved. The particles of charge are behaving as they do and remain separated in time. This is why they are of such scale, and experience energy levels and so on, they are not both occupied in the same exact moment, and the charge is a result of temporal divergence. As often observed in natural phenomena, there is a limit of frequency to the events that resolve as manifest in our reality or physical realm, the more rapidly repeating vibrations or finer matter pass beyond the vail between this temporal river into the vast ocean of eternity. We have those elements infused within our being as does all living and most seemingly inanimate beings. Often we do not attribute life to planets or other bodies in the void, but they may surprise those who can enter the eternal realm where the spirits dwell. Focusing one's attention so one may stop the path of physical causation, to join with the place of dreams and sort the mental from the sensually observable, is the art of the Shaman, Wizard, Witch, or other being that embraces occult possibilities. Interfacing one's mental and emotional spirit energy with a devise that resonates can produce effects like those in Cuzco Peru. Many examples of human energy interfaced technology involving the influence of temporal wave resonance, are located at many sites, however we only observe the outfitting for such machines and not her of the designs. Man will not assume any progress towards this technology until we evolve as beings. Again I look to this format of discipline and exchange of control to find those willing to explore the depth of true magic in a modern world. FURTHER NOTES: Saving ideas for times when the mind becomes weak, one has to recognize the closeness of the end and act on that while still cognitively astute. I asked for rain just days later came the response in the form of clouds, I recall a dream of being taken up into a craft made of puzzles and solving the keys to the gate. Once within I found my hat which had become misplaced. On awaking I did find my hat in a zipper compartment of one of my bags. Perhaps the dream was one of unlocking the memory associated with the event of placing the hat there to begin with however the man I met in the dream was curious to me as a magical being. He had sewn to the hat a fall of material with attached rows of beads that seemed to be jewels of various kinds. The hat then grew powers in the spirit realm allowing me to recall and focus them to find a pathway to commute with the Goddess. Our trees were thirsty everyone told me how hopeless the drought had made the area, and how worthless the place was and would be. I went into the yard and danced praising the Goddess asking her to bring water fourth not for me but for the sake of the grass and trees, and the small creatures. In just two days clouds came and looked as if they would pass us by, again I asked remembering the ship in the clouds in my dream. I told her I knew there would be a price to pay, and I would pay it. The rain was for the trees and small creatures. Within minutes we had a healthy down pouring of rain. I thanked her acknowledging how few ever ask for her help. Now I only wish to apologize to anyone that was dealt an undeserved hand by the weather, may the future be more blessed for you in accord to that which you deserve, by how one regards the nature around one's self. Notes: Recent realizations that a solid particle has 2 cycles in league with 4 aspects and that is likely true of a photon as well as it resonates the nature of centripetal matter in a linear manner. Also noting that light and particles seem to only interact with the electrons of the atomic structure and absorbed, they cause the electron to jump into a higher orbital, thus the increased energy potential is further removed in time after the light is absorbed. This holds very true logically due to the fact that every light particle has an origin and had to travel with kinetic force to reach the atomic field. Therefore the photon is in the past upon arrival, some photons are billions of years old, their frequency shifting lower as they weaken and age. Ultimately a photon is part of an image evidence of a mass and it's form. Visually creating the world that we ponder and relate in emotional terms. An Angel blows it's horn and miracles may occur. Thus comes back to the core idea of temporal dynamics. Harmonics resonate to the diameter of time as a particle if you will. The temporal criterion, a point almost infinite in miniature subatomic scale. Within within and beyond, yet a limit where small and center of absolute !NOW! slips free to the next moment, and time progresses in reflux. Thus this criterion has a scale and therefore a frequency. If one evokes the frequency via sounding a harmonic, things can begin to occur beyond the normal experience. Playing electric guitar, one may notice a strong force can occur involving the A string. The force may feel like the instrument is going to explode, often the string will even break. The ancients used a special frequency for the value of A, and I now believe this value was based in the temporal criteria. How this would work may involve special substances which are made specifically to resonate to the exact harmonic. I can also see that particular harmony as in notes of music may evoke properties of specific design. Some could cause matter to dissolve by dislocation of molecular bonds. Other may remove the effect of gravity, as many points of space begin to share the same moment as the randomness becomes coherent. We are very familiar with the coherent effect of light waves, but have not seen deeply into the world of time to find true effects there.

3/26/2014 3:58:30 AM

The world of plants have wanted me to see the value of their abilities in the creation and sustenance of life.  Mushrooms and vines have messages to communicate about the tree of life.


3/7/2014 7:27:08 AM

The concept of size, which appears to be a physically solid and fixed thing, requires us to think deeper than the surface of our perceptions. One could argue that in order to determine the size of an object one must make a comparison to some other standard.  In the modern world the wavelength on a particular emission of light specific to a stimulation that can be repeated with confidence is often used. Not only is this frequency used to measure distance, but to establish a basis for the measure of time.  One soon sees both measurements interactively correspond. Thus the measurement of distance occurs over a period of time, sometimes it is made with a direct comparison, but the standard is then measured in time. Time is required to travel from one point to the next, this explained in terms of long distance travel as in an occupation which pays you by the distance traveled, like trucking, for instance, where you went 1153 miles in 2 days. In this process the government requires you to log the events. Ultimately, they can determine if you were exceeding the speed limit by the average progress you made, and known speed limits along the route, and reasonable delays, etc. All measurements occur in time over a rate. Now, if you are observing distance in eternity, time is of no consequence, thus distance may not be either, making size another matter, and scale arbitrary. This would be very disconcerting for beings addicted to a solid physical world, yet things that occur to us via our emotional make, up lead us to the threshold of the experience. We marvel in the notion of alternatives. Time was not part of the package before consciousness at infancy and leaves us at the end of our personal time, in death. We do nothing along the way to be prepared for the transformation that is coming. None of our paths conceive of how to withstand this by being aware of our personal particle during this life.  The sum of all the materials and molecules, atoms, energies, and particles form a field around our being.  The smallest of particles exist as ethereal atoms within the being of our spirit and soul.  Those terms are cognitive to connection of the "higher" non physical self, Spirit being the mental aspect of the energy that dwells in the vessel of the body, and Soul being the higher emotional portion of the being that is us.  These are analogous concepts but not directly associated, as each has portions of another aspect, including physical.  A person who develops physical abilities of the ethereal being is consider telekinetic, and could probably influence events in time even from eternity. That would be a very substantial and fortuitous goal for our Spirit to have power to influence the physical world from beyond the grave, as a ghost.  

 

On a hot late summer's night in north east Louisiana I was called to the living room, "Daddy fell" they said, "Come pick him up"  The man was suffering a weak heart after 5 bypass operations, and spend that summer with a drip running directly into the heart to keep him alive.  As I tried to lift him i heard the rattle form his lung of air evacuating and knew he was dead.  I laid him back to the floor and said call 911.  There was a big show that followed, the preacher came to say last rights and so on.  They placed him on a gurney and loaded him into the ambulance.  Everyone left, and I stayed behind alone.  I was frazzled by the event of course, and sat in the warn night air looking out form the front porch to the light of the corner street lamp.  In the very corner of my eye tot he right I saw a movement in the leaves of the yard tree in front of the house.  It was a lace leaf elm tree with tiny delicate leaves.  I quickly turned to look directly at the activity as is instinctual for anyone to do.  There was a hole opening and closing in the leaves.   I stood up and walked to observe this phenomena close up when it began to move and I could also make out facial features of "Daddy" in the leaves, and suddenly I realized I was observing his ghost directly.  I told him he was dead and they took his body to the hospital.  He looked in that direction with a facial expression i could see him vividly shrug as if to say who cares?  Then i told him, look for the white light and seek the infinite.  He looked upwards and suddenly turned, and climbed up the tree out of sight.


2/2/2014 10:35:40 PM

The one item that seemed unapparent to this on until very recently, is that in the context of eternity, the size of a particle is irrelevant. Harmonics above and below the principal vibration take on ever increasing scopes.  All the myriads of tones form a specific organism, or inanimate. Each complete thing as a whole produces an individual vibration that is the specific signature of it.  There is a possibility of a greater order that has abilities the ordinary does not possess. This is not obvious at 1st, but as the eyes of the seer peer into the realm of lightning and winds, the scale of it all become overwhelming.  One understands that an overtone is the summation of all the parts that create it.


11/17/2013 3:22:05 PM

I use collarme because of the unlikelihood anyone would believe, since alternative thoughts are scarey, and alternative lifestyles are scarey for most. Seems to me to make a perfect match. So here be the underlying thoughts and notes for my fourth coming book, "Under The Starry Skies"  I am having to work on myself in the dream world to bring out more details of the past in the ancient world before the great war.


Factors for musical scales based on primes.

Modern musical scales are based on primes, while these scales represent smooth tones for making music soothing to our ears, they also represent harmonics occurring in nature where forces compile in the dance of time. These forces interact with molecular structure in ways we my not perceive. The interaction can even produce free electrons which has to be causal to interaction within the nucleus of the atom. 
Modern scale, Prime 11:
Primes 2, 5, 11 
11 x 5 = 55 value for A---
55 x 2 = 110 octave tone value for A--
110 x 2 = 220 octave tone value for A-
220 x 2 = 440 value for middle A
440 x 2 = 880 value for A+
880 x 2 = 1760 value for A++
1760 x 2 = 3520 value for A+++
All of the notes that make the scale's 12 tones are generated by a ratio of 3:2 then every other calculation requires reduction by 1:2 to shift the value to the correct octave range.
A 440 x 3/2 = 660 the value for E 660
3:2 reduces to 1.5 therefore one can multiply by the ratio's decimal reduction.


The Musical scale of Ra.


The base is the prime 13, which repeats in nature in many ways. One finds 13 moons with a day of rest, to a year, 52 (13 x 2 x 2) years to the cycle of sunspots on the sun. While the number 13 is considered unlucky, the value for F is considered evil. Like many things it seemed so hidden but once all the laws of mathematics are considered, the answer is simple. The name of god is a musical note, a fundamental element of structure throughout the universe.  Here are the 12 tribes, the seven sons...A,B,C,D,E,F,G. I believe this is the elemental tone scale, these harmonics e and matter in very real ways.

A = 416,

Bb = 444.234375,

B = 468,

C = 499.763671875,

C# = 526.5,

D = 562.234130859375,

Eb = 592.3125,

E = 624,

F = 666.3515625,

F# = 702,

G = 749.6455078125

G# = 789.75 

The significance of prime factor bases becomes more apparent as the harmonic frequencies approach wavelengths which form particle waves within the atom. A calculation of wavelength will yield the frequency of the circular or perhaps spherical wave allowing one to find the factor base of the structures.  There is most likely, and I would feel strongly this is a truth, an overtone which is the projected wave of a complex ion formation such as an entire organism or partial material of an organism. For instance look up the work in a volume entitled "The secret life of plants" by Peter Tompkins and Christopher Bird


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_Life_of_Plants


They fairly well have provided proof that plants have an electrically recative field.

 

A realization of the inverse inference of prime bases for harmonics is that some primes may project to a point infinitely small which does not end in any known particles of our universe.  Thus the science fiction statement made which implies there is an alien substance which is of a material we do not know of, could be possible due to matter generated artificially by some as yet unknown process in temporal physics. The subject itself is not one recognized on this planet as if this writing that this one has any awareness of.  A prime base may compose matter which does not occupy time in the same fashion as the matter structures we know as the physical world.  Our senses communicate to our brains and then to the spirit about a world of physical consequence.  BDSM is in its core completely about the human interface with this physical reality and how one may perceive in relation to another reaffirming roles between partners. The empirical question for all in relations is do we all perceive the same thing? Perhaps, some of us see bit extra, and some like the Shaman of Peru, see an entirely different world with lots of extras, they say, we choose not to see. Can it be possible there are base prime materials and essences that while they are perceptible, they require the additional ability to focus using parts of our body that contain alternate matter?  


While alternate matter may indeed be based on a variant harmonic sequence, there would none the less be a consistent regularity to this space as well as the one we normally view. 


How do we know about alternative matter? Basically we do not, yet we talk of it nearly daily. Many believe in a higher power or a heaven or a hell. A lot of us have had very real experiences with spirits and other deities.  Alternative matter is in our presence as a part of our inner being, but not part of the sequence we observe as being the "real world".  We claim that the DMT molecule has some mythological connection without our bodies and the pineal gland.  Yet one has to wonder if the chemicals are empirical to our consciousness as science seems, to believe or if it is the spirit of alternate matter of a higher order of matter to which we connect via those chemical by interlacing harmonics.  


There is much to accept for this view to be cognitively part of a doctrine of any spiritual or scientific fundamentalism, however within this work there are definitions for these values.   So, let's do a short review.   The existence of a particle wave has been defined early on in some of the past journals.  Every bit of matter has a frequency associated with a spherical or circular wave reflex around the exact moment of an absolute !NOW! which is an infinite value for the very center of the moment of all time. !NOW! is impossible to resolve as it is infinitely in the very center of all events on every level. This infinity is a force of it's own which sustains each particle around the local center while while all matter everywhere attempts to find a center of the moment to occupy now.  The paradox is that not all matter can be in the exact same time but still all matter tries to do so.  We see this in astronomy as the collections of matter form galaxies, stars, planets, moons, comets and asteroids.  Gravity is one of the directly consequential forces of time as mass collects trying to be in the exact same moment. The distance between the nucleus arrangement of protons and neutrons and the very proportionally distant electrons is a result of a separation in time. While the neutrons are centered closely with the moment of now and maintain the presence of mass in our time, the protons are pulling ever so slightly towards the future and occupy space not quite in this moment of !NOW! the electrons are drifting away loosely in the immediate past. Electrical potential represents a particle that is nearly a ghost in our time, as the potential increases to very high capacities the amount of time ventured over beyond the moment becomes significant.  There is a story of how this was applied in a field around a large with inexplicable results, known as the Philadelphia experiment.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philadelphia_Experiment

 


While such stories do not provide any form of proof, it does add the intriguing compulsory nature of this dissertation.  

 

  


11/4/2013 10:42:08 PM

Lightning would earn his name as a result of meeting a spirit he did not know existed, but none the less, this spirit did visit him.  The name came along with the fact that he was struck by lightning on several occasions, often enough to be quite bothersome.  Lightning had by matter of curiosity and design wooed the spirit enough to deserve a visit from something beyond time.  During the school years of his youth, serving in the lab as a fledgling mad scientist, he became interested in the work of Nicola Tesla.  Observing that while yes inductive fields do exchange magnitude between copper coils, it was the increasing value of capacitance, that improved the degree of force.  Multiple trips to the school cafeteria produced gallon glass jars that formerly contained peanut butter, mustard, or mayonnaise, which got a coating of aluminum foil inside and out to become laden jars, a type of simple capacitor, linking these in series with the primary circuit yielded a nice thick electrical spark nearly 1,000,000 volts. The spark had a nice level of sustain and rarefied the air with a pinkish hue, until the ground slipped off the water pipe, and the decided that the best alternate ground was his eyeglasses, hitting him directly between the eyes.  That was the only time in his entire life, he as ever knocked out cold.  

 

As years passed lightning would interact with him with odd timing and odd ways, as it seemed a certain spirit had been evoked.  One may develop a feeling that someone or something is checking in on us besides our own consciousness. A few years would pass and he was involved in the summer with a head for love with an attractive young girl. He was a hopeless romantic in those days, he had wooed her by playing guitar below her window for hours. Eventually she got curious, and perhaps charmed.  They began dating and making out before long.  He was close to asking for her hand in marriage when she announced she had news.  Her former boyfriend from high school had suddenly purposed to her, and she had to cut off their relationship because she had accepted her school mates proposal. The young Lightning felt devastated walking away hurt to the core.  It was so unexpected, so unfair.  He had moved away from the place he grew up to another area and realized he would forever be an outsider, an oddity. That night he drove into the dessert to place here a man made waterfalls poured from a canal into a lake.  Depressed and sad, feeling the pain of tears inside that could not come outside, he walked to the water's edge, his mood as dark as the night as he gazed into the reflections on the water that were subdued lights in a sparkle below a dark night sky heavy with clouds.  The flash was incredible, as a thunderbolt which struck the water before him with a deafening sound as simultaneous as the jolt that grabbed his world and sent him flying onto his back... he then saw the clouds seeming to glow within just before the next bolt came fourth striking the ground nearby. This was not a LSD flashback or some other mental breach, real energy was surging through him forcing his body to leap up and try to run only to be blown back to earth again.

 

He lay there looking up into the night sky watching stupefied with the wondrous horror of fear and awe for the pure energy of nature. The rim of the canyon then became the target of repeated strikes. Lightning remained less than 100 meters distant from him for another hour of continuous storm. He wanted it to stop, when finally it did he felt red like he was cooked. Millions of volts had passed through his body on several of the strikes.

 

Years would pass, he became involved with working on neon signs, on several occasions the high voltage had found him by accident, one time he was connected to over 80,000 volts for several minutes while the business owner frantically searched for the breaker for the sign. Everyone had thought it was off, but there was a timer switch that was never used which overrode the outside on off switch.  They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

 

The lightning would come at turning points of his life, around the time of his grandfather's death, a bolt hit in the neighbor's yard. The strike bounced through him leaving a burn on his hand. This time the world seemed reversed like the negative of a photograph.  He jumped away from the van's engine he was working on at the time exclaiming "I've been hit!"  Within a couple weeks of this event he would leave that place in New Mexico and embark on a whole new journey that would become his life.

 

Driving a load of pipe from a dock in New Orleans to a yard in Houston, he had made the delivery and was about to leave. Someone was chattering on the CB about how we should repent and take up the fight for Jesus and so on... the way they were going about it made him angry, it was so hypocritical. He was watching this particular cloud formation move toward him, as he reacted to this rant on the radio by saying to himself "Why don't you just shut up?"  Almost immediately a bolt of lightning hit the truck directly. A surge went through him as his hand was on the metal of the custom wooden steering wheel. It left a burn on his ankle. Following this people in the field began to refer to him as simply Lightning because the story spread through that industry how his truck was killed by lightning, costing thousands to rewire.

 

 


10/3/2013 2:52:33 AM

Recently my mind has been working on the meaning of Sabbath, as it relates to cycles of events.  The Lunar calendar consists of 13 periods, 28 days each totalling 364, with one day outstanding every year.  The number 13 replicates itself in mysterious manners and due to the size of this prime it is somewhat overlooked.  13 x 2 x 2=52 52 years is the time of the procession of sunspots as they travel from the equator of the sun back to the poles of the orb.  The effects of this phenomena are directly emerging to the other bodies in the system like Earth. The radiation of the sun is more intense during a prominence effecting weather events here. We recently experienced a pause of nearly 2 years for sunspots. These periods are parable to the concept of Sabbath. to where the beginning and end of each cycle has a pause while it restarts.  Every cycle has 7 periods which are in allegory to the chakras allocated to human fields of force. Every other thing around us also has such a field, making this a phenomena of energy and time....more to come... 


9/21/2013 11:09:51 PM

Proximity and presence are 2 properties of time that apply to the moment of each particle wave form and collectively amass into a materialized object consisting of millions to the millionth power, and counting, particle packets of energy suspended in a field of time.  The 3 forces of every action are dancing to the tune of time in accordance to natural laws providing a method of execution of actions upon the composite accumulative.  Each aspect of the moment slips along the stream of time like a stone making a wave in the flow of a mountain brook.  The role of time in relation to charge is that negative charge is in the past relative to the positive charge in a system, which is future and then neutral is in the very center of the time flux, stationed at now.  As an occultist we dissect the realm of possibility thinking with our minds and feeling with our souls. Into the depth of material we look beyond the molecular past the atomic into the subatomic and the quark levels into the undetectable unknowable of etheric atoms which themselves go a series of levels.  Thought and emotion are not just electrical impulses in a neuron to think this is to limit the possibility of greatness in mental activities of the beings on this and other worlds.  The layers of consciousness are part of the entire structure. There are 2 tendencies for every structure, one is randomness, the other is ordered synchronicity.  The number of Man is 5 there are 5 cycles to his entire life possibility.  Should man achieve a 6th cycle his timeline of existence would increase exponentially.

 


8/11/2013 3:30:05 AM

As one looks into the history of the ground around us we see an accumulation of days of weather events with winds and rains moving materials which deposit by gravity's rule as sediments. over enough time this forms stone. The workings of layers does not end there however, as these effect may occur within the core of the very moment of now itself. As we attempt to think of now in a most extreme absolute of when the moment was, just exactly when it is, was, or will be, we encounter frequencies of shorter duration. While some say all there is are this or that very high frequency event, such as cosmic rays, one has to question if there is a layer here also. Examining the nature of very high frequency events such as cosmic rays, one sees that they are able to pass right through matter with little consequence, only sophisticated equipment like liquid hydrogen bubble chambers can detect the rays. now suppose there are very much higher events in the range of harmonics to these? Moving by octaves to each event range we double the frequency thus the project mathematically is exponential to the power of 2.  Every reflex of event moment, is closer and closer to the exact moment of !NOW! and while there may or may now be a limit to this possibility, it is the properties of the realms which this infers that is a curiosity to the occultist. Each split of the reflex of now shows a deformation of force in temporal terms between the oncoming and the legacy of events.

 

http://profmattstrassler.files.wordpress.com/2012/12/atom_real.png?w=770

 

The image in the link above shows the size of events occurring as particles, if one consider that these particle have a wave like nature, they therefore have not only a frequency associated to them but those frequencies form harmonics as well. All of this is of consequence to the human organism because we are made of this stuff. Our experiences and thoughts, and memories, are sorted from impulses of this stuff. To develop a self realized image of our desires and wants and then act upon them in a rational manner one needs to understand the roots of our nature on this very empirical level. All of this not only implies a possibility of a higher consciousness for man, but it screams, like a woman in orgasm, yes, yes, yes, there is a higher place we can connect to.  Whether or not there is a dark or light side to this depends on where one's attention is focused in relation to time and how far into eternity we travel.  As one approaches the very eternal aspect of the moment, one is connecting to the infinite around us. This process is with in you now, it is the effort one makes to connect with it that determine how far one may see within. Such efforts are an act of will.  Will the human force is at the very core of BDSM. How one effects this force is determining the role one plays in a dynamic of spiritual and sexual existence. Pain can be a driving factor for many.  The threat of it, or the pleasure of it, can control our wanton randomness leading one to a path that narrows as we approach the gate. At one pint of harmonics within now, worlds are formed. There are levels beyond even this that exist within us at any moment, it is all focused around us in a projection we know as this world, awareness is a function of focus and will. The discipline of one's self looses definition because we can illude our selves by the nature of imagination and desires and become simply delusional. This is why we seek reaffirment and authentication by spiritual guides who claim they have a map, or formula, and to know the way.  perhaps they do, or perhaps they want another trinket of life's trappings, and for a price you can pay the ferryman for a journey over the river Styx.  As always trust is the core of this issue, but one has to ask, how deeply does this guide see the way?

 

 

 

 

 


11/19/2012 7:52:23 PM

The architecture of the human mind quickly become far more advanced than any computer design ever conceived, when we we take into consideration the role oxygen plays. We mostly find oxygen present in the form of water in various states of solution PH between phases of cation and anion, freely associated with complex ion cores involving sugars and amino acids, vast quantities of water molecules are involved i every structure. Science has a tendency to omit this fact by assuming the role of water is secondary to the structure, yet surely the structure would not exist without the presence of water. The characteristic structure of 8 points is what creates the extreme package of the atom. In many ways it is the octave of the simple Hydrogen, with 8 particle waves in an opposed counter-axis tetrahedron, an enlarged mimic of the structure of quark level waves in a Neutron particle wave. The structure allows for states beyond normal ionic bonding, as it introduces us to the force of temporal flux, known commonly as Van DerWaals force. This force then projects in aqueous materials formations of complex ions, which include every building block of organica. The temporal attraction of harmonics attracting concurrently from every level of existence, creates life in it's wake. Key in interest is how these ions become charged in a manner simular but vastly more complex than a computer memory. The energy waves of our impressions in the now leave a path in the history of the now. Corresponding levels of consciousness retain memories the the very finest structures  these number in a exponential quantity. One will notice the most enduring memories are emotionally charged events, often recall is visually active, where we may virtually relive an event. Those who recall past life memories find those to be strongly emotional. This would demonstrate some for of matter in an ethereal realm survives beyond this life. The level of etheric matter would reside within the quark level. This means a single molecule of water could have 8^4 or more moment phasesto become structured to hold memory with in our being.


11/19/2012 7:40:10 PM

The architecture of the human mind would become far more advanced than any computer design ever concieved on e we take into consideration the role oxygen plays. The characteristic structure of 8 points is what creates the extreme package of the atom. In many ways it is the octave of the simple Hydrogen, with 8 particle waves in an oposed counteraxis tetrahedron, an enlarged mimic of the structure of quark level waves in a Neutron particle wave. The structure allows for states beyond normal ionic bonding, as it introduces us to the force of temporal flux, known commonly as Van DerWaals force. This force then projects in aqueous materials formations of complex ions, which include every building block of organica. The temporal attraction of harmonics attracting concurrently from every level of existence, creates life in it's wake. Key in interest is how these ions become charged in a manner simular but vastly more complex than a computer memory. The energy waves of our impressions in the now leave


10/17/2012 4:53:01 AM

Technology serves us to improve abilities in communication, perhaps work will progress more fourth right with the latest addition to such tools, a "Phablet" which is far more versatile than the previous smart devices  This one begins by new realizations of the nature of events, that events are stacked with moments of various frequencies, thus each cycle has influence over other ones. From periods that occur in frequencies longer than the age of this universe, to those so fine no tool of man can detect them, all is a whole in action resulting in the world as we experience it. The particular aspect that is of interest to the occultist is the ability to influence the structure by interacting in a particular manner, namely invoking those higher finest etheric aspects using focus of emotional will and unbending intent. The ultimate desired result is to preserve one's vitality prolonging the period of meaningful living. The standard belief which drives a huge financial market is that chemicals may influence specific bodily aspects and somehow heal us, but do they warn how we could be adversely effected by the undesired results. In the overall they do not influence time in a manner that vitalizes the critical water ionic fields that support the correct format of one's structure. It is as if we are foremost a dream that then manifests in a material fashion and the complete being requires something beyond the influence of a few anions and cations delivered with a hopefully benign carrier. Thus one should seek to consider that matter we intake by terms of the role they play. Those things with the greatest possibilities are the things that boost our vitality. Like eggs more than meat. Seeds, or roots, perhaps also flowers such as Artichokes. All of the present themselves as things which are future directing. The more viable they are the more they provide the force of time within them. That potential once again is in the form of water and the possible states ionically, but as well, the inner subatomic structure is more aligned, a feature our science does not see, and thus fails us in the healing and rejuvenation and we fall ever deeper into the second cycle of life without being renewed. The amazing thing is how layered events are, in example, our normal day is elapsing  while a suicide bomb detonates in a market in Jordan, or some similar event, and we hear the "news" on Television or on the web, perhaps an alert on the phone. The series of highly emotional packed events occurring to the poor being who strapped the bomb to their chest is independant of each of us, we can consider the personal terror of someone that to desperate protest a cause, the 1st person in terror is the bomber themselves. Now consider time around the event, those effected are reaching a terminal end of time as we understand it. We believe that was the end of them, and some also believe in an afterlife. So the principal ....


7/2/2012 3:08:11 AM

The issue was what frequency would be the prime? The answer seemed hidden then recently, it was clear and simple.  The Emerald tablet of Hermes is depicted as 2 tetrahedrons opposing each other on the same axis, one inverted to the other, and oriented so each face projects a point on center.  For some time,I realized this was a diagram of a neutron, the geometric object represents the waves of a stationary standing wave.  As such the frequency would be 1/2 the circumferential distance, in proportional measure to the rate of the wave.  Now the question is one of verifying this rate, one would only be assuming it is light speed, however that may not be the case.  There is a curious effect in relation to the electron's radical change in mass and the proportional distance the orbitals assume from the moment.  The first impression that seems logical is the coarseness of the electron we know, perhaps other undetectable ethereal electrons are filling orbits in closer proximity to the nucleus, however the mass to distance ratio might give a relationship indicating the shift in temporal transit between !NOW! and the ghostly charge of electron.  One might suggest that potential between the absolute now and the lingering into the immediate pat of electrons becomes the force of electromagnetism.  Inversely this becomes a path for the possibility of time travel.  Nikola Tesla was a pioneer in the potentials of voltage.  Yet, even he may have never dreamed of the possibilities of creating massive pulses of direct current as were made within the stones of Giza.  Amazing so many intelligent peoples have not been able to recognize the trappings of a piezoelectric devise.  The potentials that could be achieved there when it was fully functional would stagger any physicist.  The character pivotal in modern faith today was Moses. He is most likely the source of symbolization for the religions of the west, as he was most learned in the magic of the ancient Egyptian world, it had to be seeped deeply in the knowledge of Thoth, (Hermes Trismegustus to the Greeks, especially Pythagoras who likely learned of him via Zarathustra)  The star of David is the target this thread is aiming upon. The philosophers of ancient world and in use in modern times in the Arab world, a flat 2 dimensional object is used to represent a three dimensional object, the Star is symbolic of 2 tetrahedrons interposed on the same axis, that are polar opposite and projecting point from face on centers.  This object is known as the Emerald tablet of Hermes.  The counterpart in a 2D symbol is the star of David.  It is easy to believe that over millennium between the days of trusteeship of men, (The Mage were entrusted with the basic knowledge of the God's technology) and the post period of dark ages following the Great War, the meanings of symbols grew dim.  While knowledge existed of the significance of them, the true meaning faded into obscurity.  Gradually, and very likely eventually, the inner space of the ethereal wavelengths will become recognized scientific facts.  Perhaps in time we will realize that the eternal aspect of the ethereal makes the formation with this inner realm of the moment, a more sustaining aspect of the form of all things.


4/5/2012 8:31:21 AM

  

From a post made recently...


Perhaps at the core of all sexual understanding for human beings of either sex is to gain some perspective on the human condition, to look into the question Paul Gauguin purposed after suffering the effects of a fatal case of venereal disease in Tahiti.  His final work was titled Who are we, where did we come from, and where are we going?  I think he nailed the entire thing on the head with this statement, with the profound and astute inventiveness of one who is certainly suffer an agonizing death. http://www.notablebiographies.com/Fi-Gi/Gauguin-Paul.html#b

    In 1987 or so, in Iraq, prior to any hostilities, archaeologists unearthed a library on the 13th level of Ur.  In this room were nearly 10,000 Cuneiform tiles along side much older Sumerian picto-scrolls. The resulting study is best known as the work of:   http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zecharia_Sitchin

   If one only follows the premise of our creation via his interpretation of our creation, then we are in fact part earth creature with drives and instincts barely more complex than a Dog, and also part Alien being, with a living force far more complex than we might ever comprehend.   The method of BDSM lends itself to the control of one's charge to the extent one may evoke within another being a reaction of total release of inhibitions and nervous underlying energies to the extent that the inner Alien being knows a level of freedom.  

Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien. 
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.
Satisfy the Animal to liberate the Alien.

1/18/2012 4:02:19 PM

Work has been intensive and consuming... drifting from dream like states while waking with disconnected thoughts, I became aware that the disconnection was a speed difference between normal waking consciousness and the lucid dream connected thoughts.  This realization lead me to realize something about memory, that we have 3 basic types, but if anyone can think of another let me know... the 1st level of memory would be functional memories of thing like facts, numbers, spelling of words, etc. The next level is that of association of events, remembering the day, etc.  and the last level would be emotionally based memories of events and occurrences effecting us on the emotional level.  Some become emotional junkies seeking these occurrences constantly, thus every situation becomes an occasion for yelling and ranting, and in couples fighting... but what occurred to me is how long emotional memories last compared to the normal ones.  This could be due to frequency of mental domain, those memories stored in the more refined portions of matter beyond those acknowledged by our science.  The higher the frequency the closer to !NOW! each wavelength is, thus the more eternal it is as well.  This becomes a connection for self work, where we can use this to implant desired memories and changes to our self base to carry beyond death...  I am very aware of the disconnected nature of these notes and the format of ascending chronology the journal brings to one trying to read through this work.  When time allows me to I will be bring things into a focus.  Recapping, with a new view of time in hand, these rules would apply, all things stop relative motion as one approaches the now, this becoming the absolute zero of time.  Events a reflexive in repeated activities on this level, wavelengths become insignificant even when set to the motion of light, which is a limit of the 2nd or possibly the 3rd order of time. One does not possess enough information to know what longer speed may exist below the speed of sonic vibrations.  It could be thought that sound is the base vibration, yet there are frequencies so long they exceed our history.  It is maybe once again possible some rate of propagation exists to accommodate these very long period repetitive event cycles.  I am much more than just a fan of the Gurdjievian schools of teaching when it comes to several of the methods and ideas he brought fourth in the early 20th century.  The laws of 3 and 7 hold true, as when one really studies them, they are irrevocable truths involving the earlier work of Pythagoras. The 7 tones of the musical scale to those who may have ever seen this done by a piano tuner, are generated by 5ths which if a string ratio of 2:3 the distance of the original tone.  Each 5th travels up scale in octaves and is then down tuned to the lower register.  The odd fact that bothers everyone about this process is the coma of Pythagoras.  The notes G# and Ab obtained by tuning up and down scale, should be the same value, but in the end this is simply not true.  This natural mathematical error may represent the curve in time, or the manner of things that tend to vortex, and is worthy of deeper consideration.  An octave is the tone change brought by the ration of 1:2. What caught my eye was the manner in which the Chakras also are 7 in number and could also align with the phases of development in our natural lives.  Once again this may also relate to how we process memory in our bio-field. There is much to consider as all of this relates to how we focus our chi on the moment of !NOW! and self educate and heal ourselves...  The history is unclear of who exactly the person was that was known as Hermes to the Greeks and Photh to Egypt.  It is possible that he was also known as Noah, because he is supposed to have survived the fall of Atlantis.  The Emerald tablet of Hermes is made of 7 laws, and many are amazingly difficult to dispute.  There are most likely also 7 levels of human attainment, since there are nearly always 7 possible values between steps of equal alignment.  Gurdjieff used a diagram allegedly from a group called the Surong Brotherhood, he found after some considerable effort in his early life at some hidden location in Afghanistan deep in the Hindu Kush.  The diagram shown below, purportedly as the Enneagram has qualities Gurdieff tells would qualify it was the Philosopher's Stone, with the ability to transform the Lead of the soul into the light of Gold. 

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14Jgk1pNMus

 

The Enneagram seems to have appeared in all of history in association with Gurdjieff, which goes with his tongue in cheek, all parable based writing and lecture style.  However I believe Pythagoras, who is known for his pentagram, and the mathematical relationships between geometrical proportions relating to musical tones, would have himself applauded G.I. Gurdjieff for this concept. Gurdjieff as this one recalls from one of the books about him was quoted to say, if 2 men of knowledge met in the dessert, they could draw an Enneagram in the sand, and by the mere knowledge they showed of it, they could determine who is Master and student. The nine numbers, are actually 2 sets of laws placed into one diagram.  The 1st is called the Law of 3, while this has many meaning in differing circles, to this professorial philosopher, Time is the entire enchilada. Thus the 3 would be Prophecy, Now, and Legacy.  They are also forces relating to the moment of !NOW!, with future equal to and attracting as positive, and past equal to and attracting as negative, with !NOW! equal to and neutral as the neutralizing force.  The later also being the great attractive center as in time it is a constant we could refer to as eternity.  The paradoxical aspect being that it is !NOW! at every moment in time at every point in the entire universe all at once!  This alone supports the notion that the center of the moment is eternal.  So we would place !NOW! at the top in position 9 at the head of the triangle with the legacy point being 3 and prophecy being 6.  How the law of 7 applies in this diagram is unreasonably complex in a fashion as it is not a lineal progression, it is based on the progression of tones by 5ths which is a ration of 2:3, thus numerically each note is a geometric progression, however this is simplified by secular naming of each tone.  The original value for the musical scale of today is A=440.  At times in the past these values were different and often called the royal A.  Nicola Tesla was seeking a vibratory frequency he refereed to as a "Green Frequency" in the radio range.  The action of this frequency would be one harmonious with water and compounds with ligand fields comprising organic life (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ligand_field_theory

). [Thus proves spell checker is uneducated] His goal was to have the least effect on those activities while transmitting volumes of high voltage electrons to create wireless electricity.  His rich and powerful backers bailed on him over this notion as they could not see a way to enslave the population for causes of energy.  Eventually all this science may realize the nature of a particle and perhaps how time is really involved.  Even the transmission of electric potentials is actually temporal displacement.  Which has a lot to do with the results of the Philadelphia Experiment.  One would suspect that certain warps can occur involving the depth of creation of an energy well as the frequency pushes towards the shorter wavelengths in very high amplitude and volumeous exposure.  The issue with dealings related to eternity is that it is infinite, not just one like we see in telescopes, but an infinity of such infinite realms, in mathematical terms it is called ℵ∞.  We do not possess minds able to deal with the immensity of all of this, nor are we meant to.  In a way it is like the Buck Rogers story, upon meeting with the Emperor of the Universe, he is informed that we humans have no idea what we are venturing into by going into space.  Thus, we could only find a path into some of the realms within the now.  There is a time we spend very often in those realms, I view this as the supposed waking state reality being water we dive in, and dream states as air we need breath to exist.   Understanding the Enneagram requires some complexity of thought that is almost beyond the scope of human achievement, yet one needs to remember the basis of it and apply a proper view of time.  Think too, that a 2 dimensional object in the old world represents a higher level.  The Enneagram evolves to life, with new higher meaning, as the hermetic laws unfold from it, the law of 3 principals or trinity, in terms of the temporal, Future, Past, Now play roles as the 7 harmonics of the principal item create the "voice" of the event.  By "Voice" I mean the full scope of any event is compromised by the harmonic dance of overtones, which fill in to make anything a whole.  When you pick a string on a guitar and stare at the result, you will see a dance of vibration which makes the quality of sound, it is the quality of resonance between sounds made that cause sweet music or unbearable discord.  This principal holds true for much more of our world than we might suspect or imagine.  Now try to imagine the Enneagram standing upright over the triangle of forces, or Temporal aspects.  each point on the path of the lines as they weave side to side and up and down, ascribe the general path of a standing circular wave form.   Of course, each point is also representing the point of harmonic activity.  Also the principal of each progressing note is a octave higher on each deliverance, with descending octaves relating to the initializing frequency. The progression for each whole tone is a mathematical relationship of 3:2, with each new tone formation based on the 3:2 ratio of the previous tone, like this...  A440 which as octaves based on a 2:1 ratio ascending and 1:2 descending in the progression A55, A110, A220, A440, A880, A1760, A3520, A7040, A14080, A28160, A56,320, A112,640, A225,280, A450,560, A901,120, A1,802,240...  which takes the harmonics until the mega hertz range, by the time A55 to the 16 power of 2 is realized.  The harmony of 5th's is based on the next full integer base ratio 3:2 where we follow the formula of multiplying by 3 then dividing by 2, A55x3 = 165/2 = 82 and 1/2 .  It will bear true by association principal, that each ratio of the ascending octave will be double the value when substituted, thus A440x3 = 1320/2 =  E660 and also, E82 and 1/2x8 = 660.  The next value in a progression of 5th's is determined using the previous 5th as a base, thus E660x3 = 1980/2 = 990, however as the diagram below shows these fractions also reduce to other proportional ratios.  The entire scenario changes when applied to a circular waveform, bare in mind that the straight line of the Enneagram are only representative of a circular wave.  

 

 

 

In this figure one can see the path of the 6 nodes that make up the harmonics, as they occur in 2 sets of 3 in response to each aspect of time.  Thus one set is pulled and activated by the future, while the next is pulled and related to the trailing of events into the past.  We soon realize every event has a scope of action that has a duration of time and this duration comprises the functional aspects of the general now.  The Enneagram suggests to me that these events have a path of related harmonics which are more course in the distant aspect and more fine as they approach the exact moment of !NOW!.  

 

 

 

Every particle holds within itself frequencies so short in waveform they are center about the precise moment, considering the size of subatomic particles, this is a very short wavelength.  We produce longer harmonic forms based on the fundamental, yet within this form perceived as solid in our world there are those yet even shorter that comprise the occult matter we do not see.

 

 

 

 

 

                              




I want to inject the ending point of this thread, at the end, then fill in with the path to this end...  This thread came about as a result of a realization that emotional moments are remembered with more clarity over the more mundane ones, thus the memories of those emotional events could serve as a tool in self work. To give an example, to recall a past life one would need to be in a very ethereal state of mind as in a deep state of sleep, The memories that may survive the ages in time and thus still linger in the now, would be ones of moments of great impact in the former life, and thus deeply emotionally tagged.  The object here is to understand how cycles effect outcome and dive within our persona until we reach the more difficult aspects to control, the emotionally based aspects of dreams.  Dream a dream and tag a memory to something emotionally based which is easily searchable in our dream, like a house, or vehicle or a particular type of animal, such as a cat or dog.  When you see these, remember, wake up in this dream.... then have yourself go to sleep in a bed in the house or the back of the car or curl up with the dog and fall asleep in the dream... and dream into a deeper state, this dream may be very disconnected from any aspects of reality as you may perceive it, but notice the light within it and if it is black, remember to wake up completely.  Hopefully there will be light.  It does help to tag ones memories to the lighter side of your emotional makeup.  To reach a second level dream is most excellent, but also, understand this dream is faster, and beings within this realm are real to themselves, so there is a modicum of real danger there, involving encounters with beings of light.  This one has met entities within dreams, and also had encounters with them in real life, in the forms one considers too fast, such as lightning, or plant entities.  Plant entities require our minds to speed up to reach the frequencies they occupy, most often the result of ingesting a plant with psychoactive qualities is altered states of perception, that result in an ability to notice things about plants we would otherwise never realize.  In the case of Lophophora Williamsii the plant is renown for a self contained entity known as Mescalito.   One can only wonder if the the appearance of an entity is due to suggestion, or if the being of the higher level inhabits the plant, it would depend on how one views this type of thing.  As a person of science this would simply be a hallucination experience that has an implanted suggestion.  The scientific method of determining this as a fact, would involve using a group of individuals who have no prior knowledge of the plant's lore.  Ingesting the plant in the same manner as the native do, and seeing if they too experience an entity.  Other cases of common experience involving substances from the plant kingdom do exist as well.  The Shamanistic practices of Ayahausca drinkers in Peru, often comes with reports of a commonality of experience, in that the drinkers of the brew can see the good and evil of the jungle by association of colors.   The ability to do this seems to repeat for a large percentage of users.  The Shaman tell the westerners that they use the brew to fix those who are broken, so they might better see.



11/30/2011 7:46:25 PM

Changes occur in manners beyond nearly any control. They are random occurring events tethered by volition, as this series of events gather momentum by acquiring numbers to increase the volition factor, the randomness slows into a more controlled scene.  The addition of the Wiccan slave Bouddicia to our home has made is possible for Kitty to be with me.  Thus we have entered a period I am calling the time of the Book.  We have decided to consolidate all the ideas we can relate properly into a single work to acquire the attention of those human being who are concerned about the course of human endeavors this planet will take in the next 100 years.  If one is to effect the group with an impact that is of consequence, one must empower those within by one's own actions.  The bond of positive activity is the greater force as positive activities are directly linked to any future outcomes.  Thus, a Dominant, who so empowers one's slave/ submissive family, and presents genuine affection to them all, is by far more empowered themselves in return for the effort that so doing involves.  This requires the release of all fear and the willingness to address all one's internal monsters.  Once again, as I have stated multiple times, a clear head, free of substance issues, is the only path to empower one thus.  The point of all the efforts we make in our small group it to enhance the spirit of the great mother in manners that please the eternal dwelling within each moment.  Our wilds are shrinking and being destroyed, and yet we do not see, that they are the very essence of all life here, including our pleasure seeking spank-able bottoms...


11/15/2011 10:35:43 PM

Sometimes one may seek to make a comparison in analogy, but then with more considerations, discovers it is an actual case of the same.  Thus, the case of the analogy is very useful as a tool of explanation.  Consider a large sink of liquid water filled with gallons of the fluid water.  When one pulls the chain on this sink plug the entire amount of fluid attempts to drain as fast as possible.  the entire amount of water is trying to occupy the same time to drain, thus a vortex forms.  The delaying action of the resistance to the draining forms a vortex, the interchange of moments between future water to drain and past water already draining, makes it spin.  Ultimately it is a temporal action causing the spin and the direction of it to align with the field of the Earth.  Now to make an analogy as to why we do not detect this occurring in time, we can drop a pea into the funnel of the vortex and it will go right into the drain.  When we drop a ping pong ball it will dance on the surface of the vortex violently but not go into the drain.  


Our ordinary state of existence is like the ping pong ball, in a dance around the moment of now, our frequencies too long to fit within the vortex of flux.  But, within us are wavelengths like the pea, that can pass deep into the now, some maybe even to the "other side of now".  It is the object of self work to create and nurture within one's soul the ability to swell in the higher eternal aspects of the self.  To determine the upper mental and emotional centers, and release all traces of the animal at the root of our soul.  We see in philosophies, references to the number 7, and likewise the number 3.  In mathematics, if one studies harmonics of vibration we soon see that the laws of harmonic are physical.  The vibration proportion of 2:3 is known as the 5th in musical tones.  The piano tuner will tell you that as the 5th progress every note of the scale is formed.   they tune up scale by octaves tuning down until both the fifths and the companion notes of that octave are in harmony.  He can also tell you there is a thing, when all of this has occurred, there is a difference between the last 2 notes between tuning up to the end at G# and down to Ab, known as the coma of Pythagoras.  Therefore all the tones in our modern musical instruments as adjusted for this difference in what is known as equal temperament, by the Coma of Pythagoras, the 12th root of 2.  


11/4/2011 8:20:44 PM
               
As I try to see more deeply into the nature if the vortex of temporal occurrence, the complexity become over whelming.  Today's mental images drift to the thought of magnetic fields which seem to occur as electron fields are placed in unified alignment.  One surely realizes nothing is happening with an electron much without interaction with the counterpart.  The magnetic poles of such a field also form a vortex shape, the key thing to understand is, that everything, is attempting to be in the exact moment of !NOW! even the scale of the entire galaxy trying to occupy the same moment.  Not one bit of matter ever does this.  Today's image is in the motions of light entering a mass and being absorbed, transmitted, or reflected, and the way the particular atom involved achieves this match and so fourth, and what processes occur temporally which provide the color specific reactions.  The relationship has been shown to be very specific to the arrangements of atoms and the fields of ions.  Very often the larger complex ions yield vibrant colors.  Developing a thorough understanding of the light photon absorption/emission by the electron cascade process in electron fields will be a key to unlock doors....more on this later.  The very highest frequencies approach the center of the moment, and as we transform from the world of the living to that of the dead, we shed material associations and become pure etheric energy, dwelling in our emotions, and many other aspects of life many of us will never make efforts to develop.
  Someone was drawn to me by energy and events, we bonded, became lovers, and traveled, she felt the need to go home, and took me with her.  Home was a small town in the Ark-La-Miss where her daddy was quite ill.  Before long I was working, helping them with food expenses and lifting him in the wheel chair to and from the house.  He was suffering horridly with a plastic tube in his heart, on a drip keeping him alive.  One night they called me, daddy fell... well of course it was not that he fell, he was dead.  I laid him on the floor of the living room when I heard the last breath expire from his body, after I had attempted to lift him.  They called and everyone came.  The ambulance drove off with the preacher in tow.  I sat on the porch trying to shake off these events, trying to not think much at all.  In the corner of my eye I see something unusual, I see a hole in the leaves of the lace leaf elm, opening and closing.  This seems impossible to me, so, I get up to investigate this.  Normally a hallucination is inconsistent, so this was either a real event, or I was completely delusional.  Next, as I approach, I can see his face in the leaves.  Realizing this is his new ghost, he is struggling to breathe, when I explain to him, you are dead.  He stops, as I say "they took your body to the hospital".  He peers in that direction, looking back to me when I continue by saying, "You need to seek the white light, go to the infinite..."  He turns, looking upwards, then climbs the tree, vanishing from my sight.  I call this incident in my life, 'The Man in the Tree'.  The point is, the essence of our existence is a very fine material, by fine we mean frequency of vibrations, ones that are only possible to detect by equipment by virtue of lower harmonics.  
This idea of harmonic scale has long been presented as part of occult / esoteric reasoning.  The magnetic field many of us have witnessed using iron filings on paper over a magnet, has the temporal funnel at each pole.    Shorter wave lengths, pass deeper into the now, where the scale of time as we know it becomes warped towards eternity, where future and past are fused forever into one eternal mass.  An interaction between the future and past results in the factor of spin which is the most well known aspect of this phenomena, such things as galaxies, tornadoes, hurricanes, and even draining the sink.  Spin is a fundamental of all particle waves as well, and it is likely something occurring universally.  The idea seems so improbable if we are fixed in our minds to a concrete reality, but the exciting thing is here, we find a path to all the mysteries of the ages, the gates of heaven and hell, the afterlife, and the sources of all creation.  As one trains one's mind to perceive this, there are prices to pay, as you fringe on the edge of sanity to the normal world.  Fortunately our lifestyle is not normal, and this is why I choose to relate this information to you rather than the sterile minds of science. 



 Meditation is a definite way to achieve focus, but it is nice to have a map to go by, an understanding that your mental energy and especially emotional mental centers can focus into the realm of time that is always here...  
A point to be made is how seemingly different symbols of fame are actually speaking about the same concept Hermes Tresmigistus, Pythagoras, and even the great Zarathustra.  (One might even consider the possibility that they are one and the same being, an immortal in our midst.)  I am planning an image that will demonstrate the manners in which they coincide.  The general rule in the ancient world is to make a symbol in 2 dimensions that represents one in the higher realm.  

 http://youtu.be/CoYb0KsoUc8

11/2/2011 4:03:00 PM

Once again making notes as the entire process of describing the nature of time, becomes more enhanced as one grows to the knowledge of it.  I am also sure many would ask why this even remotely has anything to do with BDSM?  This is indeed a good point.  The things I would like to relate to any potential being within the family of the House of MARs, involves the development of emotional growth on a par with both mental and physical growth to aid the being in development of one's self to reach a more fully evolved being.  I would like to aspire to this myself, the involvement with others in one's path only serves to enhance one's chances of attainment, as this would potentially remove from the self the possibility of becoming overly delusional.  Balance is a key to reaching a more developed state.  Bringing the functions of the sub conscious dream state non physical mind with their etheric atom neurons, in line with the waking state of a developed being where growth has occurred on many levels of the self, is a goal that yields a higher level of consciousness.  D/s and BDSM can both lend themselves to attainment of higher potentials for both parties.   There are many aspects of all of this learning that do not involve proof in the conventional sense.  Much of it is founded in logic, yet some things defy that as well.  Imagine a whirlpool from the plane of our existence, to the absolute moment of now, as if that point at the center of the moment were located in another existence.  Each frequency lands and sits on the moment in accord to the wavelength, thus the shorter wavelengths would approach the threshold of that exact moment.  Of interest to note, the highest known frequencies, penetrate the earth without touching any matter.  I feel certain that those are just the physically detectable frequencies.  My belief, which is unconfirmed, is that every particle is a wave.  I also believe every particle-wave has harmonics, which would serve to confirm that there are more levels of our body, a widely held belief world wide.  Thus these aspects would approach the absolute moment, while time is compressing, we see that in dreams the person experiences a long duration of time, while the researcher notes only seconds of passage.  This manifests with the physical phenomenon called rapid eye movement, REM sleep.  Beyond this region of the living is another place, that of the dead for whom all time has stopped.  Possibly also the unborn enter time form this aspect as well, which generates the notion of creation occurring as the result of action by another aspect form those we have any ability to know directly.  While one could say this all merely confirms their particular religion, and this is not to be denied, religions are not exploring anything as they feel all has been reviled that should be reviled.  The wizard would seek to use beings in association with the inner portions of the moment, most prevalent in the past, the shell of beings that are clinging to our time just next to us.  Among those are spirit beings called the Jinn.  So, to recap, the shorter the wavelength, the closer to !NOW! it may approach.

 

 


7/11/2011 9:01:36 PM

Junior, like most beings, could not recall where it began, but it seemed like it always was there, just like breathing. A certain spark of life that, seemed to somehow, not interest the rest of the beings around him. 

The night air was cool and a strong breeze folded the captain's hair as he spoke, "This old girl has seen a lot of things, been a lot of places but I never thought I would see this..."  The captain surveyed the flowing waters of the Columbia River where the ship was in mooring near Astoria.  The quiet of the night was broken by the scream of a new born healthy boy, in the corpsman's infirmary.  The captain looked to the 1st mate on the bridge and said, "Looks like a storm is brewing..."

 

 

USS Genesee

 

The 1st mate replied curtly, "Aye Captain!"

 

"Tell Sparky to relay this message to the Bolson's mate on the Hennesee, tell the mate he has a baby boy!"  The captain stares beyond the bridge into the fog of the night skimming the river as fresh water meets salt, and beyond the moon illuminating a band of storm clouds, as a single bolt of lightning flashes in the distance.

 

 

 

  As a small boy Junior would visit his grandparent's house, at that time his mother's parents had recently completed a large brick home with a big living room. The visits began following Senior's honorable discharge and them moving relatively close by in the city a few hours from the country manor of Grandfather's efforts.  The main feature of this house to him was the upright piano near the entry, it would be an introduction to Master Pythagoras's scales of musical intonation.   

 

  He spent many days with grandma and grandpa while the parents were away to work, striving to buy a home.  He would eventually grow big up enough to sit in a red rocker she had, rocking in it.  Junior would play a little game with himself, looking from the side of his eyes to the left, in the peripheral vision he could see the outline of a dark man wearing a top hat moving across the window outside. This occurred on several occasions was cause for immense fear in him, which he never spoke of, but felt a strange attraction to this unknown. 

 

Around this same time he had vivid lucid dreams, set in the American Civil War, he was there in the long rows of tents, which were made of plain unbleached canvass.  The uniforms, had been worn too many days since a washing.  It was raining, the dampness adding to the discomfort of the evening was washed to oblivion by strong drink and the scent of fear, other considerations simply ignored.  His position as commander of some rank, caused him to feel very worried for his men who were engaging in battle at dawn, the stress ruled over any discomforts.  The dream would return over several nights, he would often wonder if this was the last day of a previous life. Junior was about 4 years old when he had these dreams, and hardly had ever seen a movie. They did not have any television in the house until a few years later, when he was 6, in 1960.  Yet those dreams included vivid details, and would never be forgotten...

 

Family life was busy trying to sustain finances and the arguments they brought. The family lived as close to the "Father knows best" version of the American dream as they could. It was the something to aspire to, at times it seemed more important than anything else. Slowly, at first, followed by more rapid migrations of being, the world changed around them. Assaults upon this television version of existence arrived from every angle of the newly emerging media. Following suite, peers in school, who made arguments about which way of life was cool, often resulting in bouts of fisticuffs. Rock and Roll, the Beatles versus Elvis, the emerging war in Vietnam, the assassination of JFK, and more things adding to the pressures of life as this young one grew. Bit by bit, self examinations, and the desire to truly know, brought fourth talents of a higher magnitude. Then they moved to new surroundings and new schools, requiring acceptance once again. 

 

The before mentioned pressures seeded a withdrawal to studies of the nature of things as deemed real and appropriate by the scholarly and scholastic academic authorities on every possible subject. Books, many, many technical books, deeply involved in every subject. Junior's mind was a sponge for knowledge, like someone of a great understanding trying to piece back together a working knowledge of a past, distant and unknown.  He was always carrying around a big stack of volumes that were college courses in themselves. In the second year of junior high, reading a chemistry course for the freshman and sophomore years of college, which was over 800 pages. The text covered the complete course of chemistry, highly involved with gas principals, as well as ionic solutions, valences and more. This text was replaced, once finished, with one entitled "Organic Chemistry" which became an intense study for the next 2 years. Mingled in with this was one on physical chemistry, courses on physics, interest in astronomy, paleontology, intense study of optics and light emission by cascading effect of gases in a vacuum, and L.A.S.E.R.S. After feeling that he had approached the end of human understanding, at that time, of the nature of the universe, he had entered High School and found a new set of tools for exploration of things undiscovered.  A simple question that failed to have any sort of answer. "Where did the matter in this rock come from?" Holding a small stone his my fingers, one highly fused by heat into a glass like substance, he realized that science had really no clue as to the actual origin or true nature of the matter with in it. It was this single realization of the blindness of the system that led Junior to seek another path, one that by it's very nature was occult.


Carrying books in huge piles back and fourth to school, drew deep criticism from those who saw this as odd and out of place, leading to yet more bouts of fisticuffs. One could establish that Junior was willing to fight for the right to be a peculiarity, and defend the ability to continue the course. There were offerings of extreme promotions in school, accelerated learning, a journey to weapons development center at Cal-Tech in Los Alamos, proclamations of advanced capabilities, projects classified.  The effort consumed the young mind which was not so easily taken in by all the flashiness of the world, a greater wisdom prevailed.  Escape came from time spent alone on the piano creating sounds and tunes that were specifically his, the effect of them was hypnotically mysterious like a trance.

It may have been a reaction formation to the sexual awaking of his soul's connection to the body, that lead him to explore more options, but it was a path linked to destiny and therefore inevitable. We control so very little in life, mostly it just happens at the beckoning of higher powers, something obviously open to a greater debate, as this subject always is. Other influences were attracting beyond science which involved the passion and feeling expressive side of his being. In early days Junior stunned family with a Leonardo like gift for art. In the fourth grade a teacher told Junior he could not get an art project back. Because he wanted to give it to his mother, he asked why? The teacher explained that it had been entered in a child art exhibition and won, it was going to the Smithsonian Institution and then on exhibit in Japan. 

In the school he attended there was equipment to set an example as a model of future schools, often visited by other educators, he began to excel in the study of chemistry, but his direction was more on the edge of physics, with a keen interest in the unknown, and aspired to find clues to how things occurred. In so doing, he was very attracted to the works of Nikola Tesla. This began a path quite by accident of knowing the spirit of lightning. One day in the lab, after using a collection of gallon jars collected from the kitchen at the school, and some aluminum foil, paperclips and graphite pencils to build laden jars, Junior was struck by an artificial bolt of lightning. Junior had altered the principal of the Tesla devise by adding capacity. This allowed the current level to develop above the normal range for the coil he was using. The effect was producing a higher voltage it seems as well, but likely it was only adding to the overall power of the electron stream, increasing the overall charge. The unique quality of the coil is the function of the spark gap as a relaxation oscillator. The incoming voltage came form a neon sign ballast. The spark gap was in parallel to the primary coil of 10 turns of heavy conductor. The laden jars act as capacitor collecting electrons between ground and the dielectric, in this case glass jars. The man made lightning bolt was reaching a fantastic 50" or almost 1/2 M.E.V. (million electron volts) this was directed to a sphere connected to ground for safety. The primary project under consideration at that time was an ion drive engine for space travel. But also the ability of force to be collected and moderated in a manner emulating nature. Lightning is an effect produced by the same manner of ions in the molecules of water within clouds.  His little engine used a glass tube with glass wool and ammonia to shoot a ping pong ball driven by the electromotive force between the source and ground. 

(In a more elaborate version of this type of ion space drive devise, a turbine would be driven by circular ram jets burning ethylene gas produced by organic methods in a biosphere chamber. Ethylene is the condensation product of ethyl alcohol when introduced to hot concentrated sulfuric acid. The acid remains dry and full strength as the water of condensation is driven off by the heat source. The products are condensed and rather easily separated. The jets turn to power a turbine within the ring of them, this turbine is water injected beyond the primary burn blades just past a venturi, the emerging steam increases the rotational force which is driving a magnetic field generator. All the force of this generator is feeding the primary coil surrounding the engine, and inducting the inner secondary coil, the primary is connected to a massive capacitor bank and spark relaxation gap. The stream of emerging steam and combustion products, all of which are provided by space ice components acting as the primary fuel, become the ion stream reaching for the ground of drag cables proceeding behind the craft. The secondary coil providing the electron ionizing potential. The space ice would serve to shield the craft from moderate impacts with micro and larger meteorites etc... just a thought.) 

One day he began dropping out, there was a girl.  She projected a certain aurora, which occupied his mind constantly, this was not sexual it was something deeper, a feeling for her, he could not extract into words. This led to a situation, sitting in the back of her car with another girl riding next to her up front, they stopped on a back road, and they began smoking a marijuana cigarette, the smoking of the first joint ever was administered by being blown sensual nose hits by 2 young ladies, who were both attractive to Junior.  Either he had found drugs, or they had found him, the difference is semantically null, and the lure of implied sexuality was involved, girls liked it. After this they went to his house where to play piano for them, perhaps they had thought of more sexual things, but that was not on his mind specifically. Junior was influenced by the values preached to him by church and family, and was one who wanted marriage.  He would wait for a long time before engaging in sexual activities. The sounds of the piano evoked the words of his poems in spirit but had not yet formed into complete songs. They listened to the sounds of the keys that he made and felt the pure joy of music from the heart.  A door to higher perceptions was opening and it was like falling into a well.  The door was within him all the drugs were facilitating was the latch.   There was also a vision of this girl engraved on him, but he could see it was not actually her but someone in his future she resembled, some one he sought to know.  The vision would remain for life.  Events moved rapidly, like the storm of a mind needing release from a trap, the days whirred as nothing would stand in the way of progress of this quest.  He had friends who were elated to see him join the path, but blown away but the depth it took.  If Junior was a prodigy of science and art in life, he was attempting to be a god in this new world of vastness.  Very soon he was out the door of the family home seeking what he must know...

Some time later, he was living with hippies from Hate-Ashbury and Hawaii, growing long hair, becoming vegetarian, smoking temple hashish, and dropping acid... In along with all of this, there were some unusual experiences even for a hippie. Before actually leaving home, he had visited on, several occasions, his soon to be benefactor and his girlfriend, several times. The idea of leaving home grew in appeal. An event that landed in a argument with his parents decided this once and for all. Junior had been invited to a class hiking trip but mother refused permission for him to go. In heart ache over not being able to join in with his friends, especially that one special girl that he lived to be with at the time. The following morning he packed much of the contents of his room and away he went. 

On the first night of freedom they smoked a huge amount of weed and got a strong buzz going on.  Junior felt this buzz taking to another place and time. It began with believing he was in an old style phone booth, there was a phone that had a dial face, and making a call, to Fred. It is hard to say what significance the name had, perhaps it was purely invented.  Every time it was the same journey, on a road lined with pines and walking towards a light over a porch, eventually there was a man with silver hair standing there looking at him like he was purely a fool.  Junior's newly befriended hippie family thought he was, to say the least, eccentric, and they thought he got entirely too high from just a small amount of weed.  These out of room experiences grew in magnitude, then became medically explainable, due to a tumor causing restricted blood flow to the brain. It made the use of drugs even more foolish, fortunately for him, the use of street drugs was a limited portion of his life that become corrected once self work began.

The most memorable event at this first house, was the night several of the family gathered to smoke hash on the knives, a process where the hashish was crushed between 2 hot knives, and a glass bottle, like a wine bottle with the bottom cut off, was used as a funnel to collect the smoke for a direct hit, it was very effective, none of the smoke was wasted. The house was situated in the Renton Highlands in Washington on Cemetery Hill, the significance is one old days rockers would know, Jimi Hendrix was laid to rest there, less than two years prior to this night.jimi

 

  The house was about 1/4 mile directly north of his grave. The family had his life sized poster from Rainbow Bridge on the kitchen wall. The poster was life sized and faced the large plate glass window in the dinning room and the light in the dinning room was on projecting his image into the garden as it did many nights. The group, including Junior, were sitting in the dark in the living room looking into the dinning room at the image. The stereo played the album, Rainbow Bridge. The entire party of the 6 were dedicated to Jimi, quietly focused on his music as they sat there.  Everyone saw him come into the image and play his guitar once again, it drew immediate and loud reactions, lasting for over a minute, then once the focus was broken it stopped. At the very least, it was a lovely hysteria induced by the flower power from Nepal which was consumed.

 

 


5/30/2011 5:49:12 AM

We often obsess, and overly identity with a concept, notion, or idea, I (ego) am... what ever.  This is a fundamental of politics, that someone can set your mind by creating influence.  A fine line exists between Identifying with something and being something, this is going to be a matter of attitude and solidarity.  This Master has a feeling emphatically, for those beings who become slaves, that this action, is incredibly difficult, in fact, to do.  There is the conquered slave of days of old, the raid is over and she is drug away by the bonds holding her tethered to the horse and either runs along or is to drag on the ground until dead.  A truly unsavory from of rape which was likely the process for keeping the human strain strong by natural selection.  As an animal, humans are violent and bloody by nature, we can supply a very long history of hacking off body parts to prove this.  One can hopefully think we are on the threshold for evolving, and this discussion of new ways to be and think is part of this evolutionary process. This being has discovered that few on this world can let go of the standards, many of them literally burned into our society, the depth of the teaching of false values is so strong we are unable to accept anything beyond them without serious deprogramming.  The Christians to me are quite warped by Roman rule.  Not to discount the teaching of the one behind the basis of the writings, or His value as a teacher, this being can feel His disgust for the warping of them into the current version which was, principally in historic times, forced upon the populace by violence to preserve empire, by His very would be killers the Romans.  This one makes an effort to be free of all religions and the warping of human possibilities into something smaller, they imply.  To accept a philosophy limits one to this realm of thought, thus we can not grow, and are ensnared by it.  They threaten us with loss of our human soul, yet there is a logic that seems to escape everyone about the desires of the power that created life, which is by what reason are we brought here and then harvested like the wheat? Do we not have something more inside us? Is there a possibility for the evolution of this being into something of greater value? Would not this ultimately be a benefit for the power(s) of creation, to enjoy the greatness of those who aspire to be more?  One could be both great and humble, if they stride free of ego, and have the humility of a slave.  Then one walks a thin line, between those considered insane, and those considered to be a light on the path for everyone that may care to follow.  One is well aware not everyone feels they can make their own path, however, everyone can evoke a process of self work.  Many in life, do not see a need for self work, and hide from things requiring effort.  If one man takes initiative to evolve, and shares this path with another man or woman, then they might also choose to evolve, and so fourth until we as a species have all chosen to evolve.  This master, continues to evoke this evolutionary possibility as part of the lifestyle, as a path for our eventual ability to enable seeing of this world as it could be, and should be.   hugs -MARs

 


4/27/2011 9:39:44 PM

Junior, like most beings, could not recall where it began, but it seemed like it always was there, just like breathing. A certain spark of life that, seemed to somehow, not interest the rest of the beings around him. 

The night air was cool and a strong breeze folded the captain's hair as he spoke, "This old girl has seen a lot of things, been a lot of places but I never thought I would see this..."  The captain surveyed the flowing waters of the Columbia River where the ship was in mooring near Astoria.  The quiet of the night was broken by the scream of a new born healthy boy, in the corpsman's infirmary.  The captain looked to the 1st mate on the bridge and said, "Looks like a storm is brewing..."USS Genesee

 

The 1st mate replied curtly, "Aye Captain!"

"Tell Sparky to relay this message to the Bolson's mate on the Hennesee, tell the mate he has a baby boy!"  The captain stares beyond the bridge into the fog of the night skimming the river as fresh water meets salt, and beyond the moon illuminating a band of storm clouds, as a single bolt of lightning flashes in the distance.

 

As a small boy Junior would visit his grandparent's house, at that time his mother's parents had recently completed a large brick home with a big living room. The visits began following Senior's honorable discharge and them moving relatively close by in the city a few hours from the country manor of Grandfather's efforts.  The main feature of this house to him was the upright piano near the entry, it would be an introduction to Master Pythagoras's scales of musical intonation.   

He spent many days with grandma and grandpa while the parents were away to work, striving to buy a home.  He would eventually grow big up enough to sit in a red rocker she had, rocking in it.  Junior would play a little game with himself, looking from the side of his eyes to the left, in the peripheral vision he could see the outline of a dark man wearing a top hat moving across the window outside. This occurred on several occasions was cause for immense fear in him, which he never spoke of, but felt a strange attraction to this unknown. 

Around this same time he had vivid lucid dreams, set in the American Civil War, he was there in the long rows of tents, which were made of plain unbleached canvass.  The uniforms, had been worn too many days since a washing.  It was raining, the dampness adding to the discomfort of the evening was washed to oblivion by strong drink and the scent of fear, other considerations simply ignored.  His position as commander of some rank, caused him to feel very worried for his men who were engaging in battle at dawn, the stress ruled over any discomforts.  The dream would return over several nights, he would often wonder if this was the last day of a previous life. Junior was about 4 years old when he had these dreams, and hardly had ever seen a movie. They did not have any television in the house until a few years later, when he was 6, in 1960.  Yet those dreams included vivid details, and would never be forgotten...

Family life was busy trying to sustain finances and the arguments they brought. The family lived as close to the "Father knows best" version of the American dream as they could. It was the something to aspire to, at times it seemed more important than anything else. Slowly, at first, followed by more rapid migrations of being, the world changed around them. Assaults upon this television version of existence arrived from every angle of the newly emerging media. Following suite, peers in school, who made arguments about which way of life was cool, often resulting in bouts of fisticuffs. Rock and Roll, the Beatles versus Elvis, the emerging war in Vietnam, the assassination of JFK, and more things adding to the pressures of life as this young one grew. Bit by bit, self examinations, and the desire to truly know, brought fourth talents of a higher magnitude. Then they moved to new surroundings and new schools, requiring acceptance once again. 

 



The before mentioned pressures seeded a withdrawal to studies of the nature of things as deemed real and appropriate by the scholarly and scholastic academic authorities on every possible subject. Books, many, many technical books, deeply involved in every subject. Junior's mind was a sponge for knowledge, like someone of a great understanding trying to piece back together a working knowledge of a past, distant and unknown.  He was always carrying around a big stack of volumes that were college courses in themselves. In the second year of junior high, reading a chemistry course for the freshman and sophomore years of college, which was over 800 pages. The text covered the complete course of chemistry, highly involved with gas principals, as well as ionic solutions, valences and more. This text was replaced, once finished, with one entitled "Organic Chemistry" which became an intense study for the next 2 years. Mingled in with this was one on physical chemistry, courses on physics, interest in astronomy, paleontology, intense study of optics and light emission by cascading effect of gases in a vacuum, and L.A.S.E.R.S. After feeling that he had approached the end of human understanding, at that time, of the nature of the universe, he had entered High School and found a new set of tools for exploration of things undiscovered.  A simple question that failed to have any sort of answer. "Where did the matter in this rock come from?" Holding a small stone his my fingers, one highly fused by heat into a glass like substance, he realized that science had really no clue as to the actual origin or true nature of the matter with in it. It was this single realization of the blindness of the system that led Junior to seek another path, one that by it's very nature was occult.

Carrying books in huge piles back and fourth to school, drew deep criticism from those who saw this as odd and out of place, leading to yet more bouts of fisticuffs. One could establish that Junior was willing to fight for the right to be a peculiarity, and defend the ability to continue the course. There were offerings of extreme promotions in school, accelerated learning, a journey to weapons development center at Cal-Tech in Los Alamos, proclamations of advanced capabilities, projects classified.  The effort consumed the young mind which was not so easily taken in by all the flashiness of the world, a greater wisdom prevailed.  Escape came from time spent alone on the piano creating sounds and tunes that were specifically his, the effect of them was hypnotically mysterious like a trance.

It may have been a reaction formation to the sexual awaking of his soul's connection to the body, that lead him to explore more options, but it was a path linked to destiny and therefore inevitable. We control so very little in life, mostly it just happens at the beckoning of higher powers, something obviously open to a greater debate, as this subject always is. Other influences were attracting beyond science which involved the passion and feeling expressive side of his being. In early days Junior stunned family with a Leonardo like gift for art. In the fourth grade a teacher told Junior he could not get an art project back. Because he wanted to give it to his mother, he asked why? The teacher explained that it had been entered in a child art exhibition and won, it was going to the Smithsonian Institution and then on exhibit in Japan. 

In the school he attended there was equipment to set an example as a model of future schools, often visited by other educators, he began to excel in the study of chemistry, but his direction was more on the edge of physics, with a keen interest in the unknown, and aspired to find clues to how things occurred. In so doing, he was very attracted to the works of Nikola Tesla. This began a path quite by accident of knowing the spirit of lightning. One day in the lab, after using a collection of gallon jars collected from the kitchen at the school, and some aluminum foil, paperclips and graphite pencils to build laden jars, Junior was struck by an artificial bolt of lightning. Junior had altered the principal of the Tesla devise by adding capacity. This allowed the current level to develop above the normal range for the coil he was using. The effect was producing a higher voltage it seems as well, but likely it was only adding to the overall power of the electron stream, increasing the overall charge. The unique quality of the coil is the function of the spark gap as a relaxation oscillator. The incoming voltage came form a neon sign ballast. The spark gap was in parallel to the primary coil of 10 turns of heavy conductor. The laden jars act as capacitor collecting electrons between ground and the dielectric, in this case glass jars. The man made lightning bolt was reaching a fantastic 50" or almost 1/2 M.E.V. (million electron volts) this was directed to a sphere connected to ground for safety. The primary project under consideration at that time was an ion drive engine for space travel. But also the ability of force to be collected and moderated in a manner emulating nature. Lightning is an effect produced by the same manner of ions in the molecules of water within clouds.  His little engine used a glass tube with glass wool and ammonia to shoot a ping pong ball driven by the electromotive force between the source and ground. 

(In a more elaborate version of this type of ion space drive devise, a turbine would be driven by circular ram jets burning ethylene gas produced by organic methods in a biosphere chamber. Ethylene is the condensation product of ethyl alcohol when introduced to hot concentrated sulfuric acid. The acid remains dry and full strength as the water of condensation is driven off by the heat source. The products are condensed and rather easily separated. The jets turn to power a turbine within the ring of them, this turbine is water injected beyond the primary burn blades just past a venturi, the emerging steam increases the rotational force which is driving a magnetic field generator. All the force of this generator is feeding the primary coil surrounding the engine, and inducting the inner secondary coil, the primary is connected to a massive capacitor bank and spark relaxation gap. The stream of emerging steam and combustion products, all of which are provided by space ice components acting as the primary fuel, become the ion stream reaching for the ground of drag cables proceeding behind the craft. The secondary coil providing the electron ionizing potential. The space ice would serve to shield the craft from moderate impacts with micro and larger meteorites etc... just a thought.) 

One day he began dropping out, there was a girl.  She projected a certain aurora, which occupied his mind constantly, this was not sexual it was something deeper, a feeling for her, he could not extract into words. This led to a situation, sitting in the back of her car with another girl riding next to her up front, they stopped on a back road, and they began smoking a marijuana cigarette, the smoking of the first joint ever was administered by being blown sensual nose hits by 2 young ladies, who were both attractive to Junior.  Either he had found drugs, or they had found him, the difference is semantically null, and the lure of implied sexuality was involved, girls liked it. After this they went to his house where to play piano for them, perhaps they had thought of more sexual things, but that was not on his mind specifically. Junior was influenced by the values preached to him by church and family, and was one who wanted marriage.  He would wait for a long time before engaging in sexual activities. The sounds of the piano evoked the words of his poems in spirit but had not yet formed into complete songs. They listened to the sounds of the keys that he made and felt the pure joy of music from the heart.  A door to higher perceptions was opening and it was like falling into a well.  The door was within him all the drugs were facilitating was the latch.   There was also a vision of this girl engraved on him, but he could see it was not actually her but someone in his future she resembled, some one he sought to know.  The vision would remain for life.  Events moved rapidly, like the storm of a mind needing release from a trap, the days whirred as nothing would stand in the way of progress of this quest.  He had friends who were elated to see him join the path, but blown away but the depth it took.  If Junior was a prodigy of science and art in life, he was attempting to be a god in this new world of vastness.  Very soon he was out the door of the family home seeking what he must know...

Some time later, he was living with hippies from Hate-Ashbury and Hawaii, growing long hair, becoming vegetarian, smoking temple hashish, and dropping acid... In along with all of this, there were some unusual experiences even for a hippie. Before actually leaving home, he had visited on, several occasions, his soon to be benefactor and his girlfriend, several times. The idea of leaving home grew in appeal. An event that landed in a argument with his parents decided this once and for all. Junior had been invited to a class hiking trip but mother refused permission for him to go. In heart ache over not being able to join in with his friends, especially that one special girl that he lived to be with at the time. The following morning he packed much of the contents of his room and away he went. 

On the first night of freedom they smoked a huge amount of weed and got a strong buzz going on.  Junior felt this buzz taking to another place and time. It began with believing he was in an old style phone booth, there was a phone that had a dial face, and making a call, to Fred. It is hard to say what significance the name had, perhaps it was purely invented.  Every time it was the same journey, on a road lined with pines and walking towards a light over a porch, eventually there was a man with silver hair standing there looking at him like he was purely a fool.  Junior's newly befriended hippie family thought he was, to say the least, eccentric, and they thought he got entirely too high from just a small amount of weed.  These out of room experiences grew in magnitude, then became medically explainable, due to a tumor causing restricted blood flow to the brain. It made the use of drugs even more foolish, fortunately for him, the use of street drugs was a limited portion of his life that become corrected once self work began.

The most memorable event at this first house, was the night several of the family gathered to smoke hash on the knives, a process where the hashish was crushed between 2 hot knives, and a glass bottle, like a wine bottle with the bottom cut off, was used as a funnel to collect the smoke for a direct hit, it was very effective, none of the smoke was wasted. The house was situated in the Renton Highlands in Washington on Cemetery Hill, the significance is one old days rockers would know, Jimi Hendrix was laid to rest there, less than two years prior to this night.jimi

 The house was about 1/4 mile directly north of his grave. The family had his life sized poster from Rainbow Bridge on the kitchen wall. The poster was life sized and faced the large plate glass window in the dinning room and the light in the dinning room was on projecting his image into the garden as it did many nights. The group, including Junior, were sitting in the dark in the living room looking into the dinning room at the image. The stereo played the album, Rainbow Bridge. The entire party of the 6 were dedicated to Jimi, quietly focused on his music as they sat there.  Everyone saw him come into the image and play his guitar once again, it drew immediate and loud reactions, lasting for over a minute, then once the focus was broken it stopped. At the very least, it was a lovely hysteria induced by the flower power from Nepal which was consumed.

 



On several occasions I did experience a physical shift of location in several manners not considered normal, I found them terrifying as I did not like to move in ways unexplainable. Flying about my room or becoming enveloped into the material of a wall, and once, instantly moving outside my sleeping bag, leaving it without being tossed and laying flat, still zipped up, while I laid next to it, nearly in shock that it could happen. It was perhaps sleep walking, but did not at all appear to be. There were several instances of telepathy with my friends which caused them to become very upset with me as they did not at all like me inside their heads.

My ethnic friend (J.R.A) had been with me since early times at school, he was brown and that was not a concern to me as maybe some were judgmental about the superficial things. His talent was to feel things empirically, and I just liked his company. Later there had come a new person (R.C.S.) who shared the passion for science, he was one with skills for hands on success with experiments and especially electronics, therefore mentally focused. Together we formed a trio that lasted well past the end of school and into our early 20's. Their abilities served to push myself into further investigations of many sorts. I have lost all contact with them and wish them the best life can offer. J.R.A. and I went to Mount Rainier in the spring on a full moon for my first ever use of a compound purportedly containing LSD. I was told it wasn't very good that it had been compounded with some type of speed or other drug. On this trip basically nothing happened but a lot of buzzed time. We had driven up Mount Rainier to the Paradise visitor center, now called the Henry M. Jackson visitor center. I observed my friend becoming part of the wall in front of the closed center, and he said the same had occurred with me, thus we had a unilateral experience that indicated some junction of minds, by suggestion perhaps. This trip occurred on a full moon and was done upon the advise of Fred, who told me to use the drug and that I would not see him again. This was quite true, I did not, but the images of our meeting in alternative space are most lasting in my soul. 

The following days I took this same mixture several times. The next day use I went for food at a burger place, something one would consider normal. While standing in line the girls taking my order changed in a grotesque manner, her face became elongated, snout like, other in the room began to become equally grotesque. While waiting for my order, my impressions of this warped vision of existence, was that I was being shown the errors of commercially prepared foods. There was no spiritual endorsement of the slaughter and preparation, thus an abomination and this displayed as grotesque configuration of the partakers. being one myself I learned the error of my ways and to this day do not use much food offered by such vendors. The next time this compound was used was with K.M., my house sister, who had the most prolonged merge of minds with me that ever occurred, she was open to the telepathy event to a point then began to block it and asked me to stop. The object was not to offend so I obliged, however I stopped so thoroughly, I nearly ceased even involuntary functions, and could not drive, we were some distance from home and it presented an issue since she had never driven a car. This state was one where the entire of my mind was blank, empty unable to make word either in my head or verbally. I was only able to look at her and make gasping sounds. 

The end of school came and I was to graduate. Just a few days prior to this they had announced the end of the draft for Viet Nam. It was on my birthday, the war had been a strong aggravating factor in my leaving home and misbehaving. I had a draft number of 12 which meant certain draft for regular Army. The news from nearly 10 years of my life was never good, I had older friends coming home with missing limbs, wounds, and ailments that defied cures. It was in my mind I did not want to go, so this news was a release that sparked days of pure parting in joy. 

Some memorable events from that summer involved use of psychedelics, which had become our entertainment I suppose. We met a fellow from Alaska selling psilocybin Mushrooms dried and ground into capsules. That scenario was always hard to trust, someone always had something in a gel cap. Only who knows what or how strong? But for that matter, who knows what is added to your booze? We each managed enough money to buy a dose from him. I had a vivid vision where I had driven my car into a sign and wrecked my car and the sign. The police came and towed my car and I walked back to the party on the beach on Puget Sound. when I got back I did not say a word, our hosts there retired and we were planning to leave. There was a series of ramps and stairways up to the road from this beach cabin. They were calling on me to drive as it was my car we used to arrive there. I was about to go into the explanation of how the car was wrecked and towed away when I saw the car. I stood there dumbfounded while they asked what was wrong. I had suffered another massive event of total displacement of reality. The car was fine, I had never left the beach. 

The trip home involved my friends getting down on me for eating meat, this was when I made the commitment to become vegetarian. As it turns out this decision for me was nearly fatal as it contributed to the tumors growth. My version of being vegetarian was very limited because basically I loathe vegetables. I substituted cheese, nuts, and other products for meat in my diet adding fats without the ability to dissolve them. I lost massive weight becoming quite thin, my family worried for my health. 

We moved to south Seattle, where we lived with tapestries on the walls and ceiling, and only pillows for furniture. We found connections for better materials to cause more pronounced effects, obtaining some Blue double-dome acid. This supply occupied the bulk of that summer as the score we most desired. I recall a night when we arrived home as I was about to peak on it. A sign appeared in the middle of the floor, seemed like I fell into it. It read "Kimball Hall" there was inside a huge display of advanced robotics, something from the future. My life has since taken a huge interest in robotics. The place I went too soon dissolved, and I returned to the room where the items of the room seemed to be made of jewels.

On another use of this compound the same items were made of composites of mushrooms which began a quest for magic mushrooms to use.

One night, I was standing at the window looking at the trees in the back yard, and beginning to peak on 4 does at the same time. One of the dogs named Peyote, suddenly appeared to be looking directly up at me, and began barking at me, her barking sounds became as English in my mind. 

"What are you doing in dog's world?" Shocked that I could understand the dogs "language", I went into the living room and sat on the floor, everything became pink as if I was in a curtain, then there was a sensation of moving forward physically. The place beyond this veil was dark and heavy, it was hard to breathe and I felt trapped in it. Eventually after what seemed like forever, I was back in the room not wanting to return to the dark place again. This effect with the dogs was most lasting and by far the most prolonged telepathic experience. During the next 3 weeks, I completely understood every gesture and movement made by the dogs, Yote, and Gange. Dogs are very often empathic with me even now. More recently, I was bitten by a young Pit bull Terrier, the animal was surprised by my walking through his territory, and while he was still defensive about his space, I felt he was indeed sorry he bit me.

With winter approaching things began to change and took a new and not so pleasant turn, I attempted to return home for vocational technical school, and my benefactor was obligated to move without my help for rent. He had gotten K.M. pregnant, and was becoming a complete jerk about it. Suddenly, he was too Irish to have a part black baby, he began drinking heavily and showed me total Hippocratic behavior at it's best. I had come to love her as my sister, loved her face and ways deeply, seeing her cry and feel sad was overwhelming. I wanted to offer to be her man in his stead but it seemed totally inappropriate as I was too close to them both, and also way too young to be a father. She had to return home to her family to raise this child, I will always love her in my heart. 

The effort for school failed, I was glad to be back with the old neighborhood trio. My friend and I would go on cruises in the hills on Cougar Mountain and May valley smoking hashish we obtained for the purpose of getting high, it had less odor and was more powerful than weed. We were all becoming deeply involved with drug culture, and also reading Carlos Castaneda, becoming a warrior seemed noble no matter what the media take on him is. The situation with my family was unexceptionable for a young warrior on the edge. I had an experience where ravens warned me of a scene that soon ended my stay back at home. I learned to stay away from the old coop. While I was there I enrolled in a pottery course at the community college using the facilities of my old school. Also I developed a relationship with my art teacher both during school and afterwords. He was influential in me deciding to start a pottery studio. My grandparents eventually supported this idea also and it came to pass I had such a studio.

I also become more involved with the subculture around my old high school, spending a lot of my time with old school acquaintances, I ended up living with a group of young bikers on the verge of prospecting for a gang. This was a dangerous time of higher risks, which ended badly for several of them. I met some people at the mall, we did some business involving Purple Haze, and became friends. I spent a few weeks in Tacoma getting to know them. 

Shortly, to avoid being in deep trouble, I made a permanent move to the eastern side of the state to join my grand parents. Which worked out well since they needed my painful assistance from time to time, laughs. It was their intentions to keep me out of trouble, I think it worked, but I was not easy to deal with. Looking back if I could have done this part of my life over with wisdom, rather then recklessness, I would have. My grandfather began construction on a room especially for my pottery studio in Soap Lake, Washington.

That spring I had met a young lady that held My attentions for a while. One night we had a spat over some issue, and broke off the dating. Being impressionable, I was very upset, this might have been amplified by a fever from catching laryngitis that same day. I drove my old car, a 51 Plymouth, to a park near by which featured a waterfalls. Standing by the water of Long lake at Summer Falls, I was feeling quite sorry for myself over the disappointments of love failed. The water lite up bright as the sun, suddenly as lightning struck right in front of me, the force of the strike blew me backwards to the ground and I felt electrified. 

It was a familiar feeling as back in my days in the lab I had made Tesla fields of a magnitude over 1,000,000 volts and had been struck in the glasses by a charge bolt when the ground wire slipped off. The lightning did not stop with one strike, but even though I attempted to run for my car and leave the park, the strike hit so close to me I felt terrified, as well as electrified. I believe these are called near misses or partial strikes, but most will count them as being struck. I could feel each one surge charge through my body, as I lay on the ground absorbing every one of them terrified to my very soul of them. The storm seemed to last for about an hour and there had been several strikes, I will not try to lie about how many were close enough to feel, because I was definitely hysterical by the time it was over. It seemed that at least 5 were close enough to put charge in my body. The number total may have been close to 100 along the basalt lava rock rim of the lake's cliffs. 

The rite to passage for this one happened on my 19th birthday, obtaining materials from supposed Sandoz origin, a friend from my old high school and I drove towards the coast to a place we wanted to trip. The microdot (very small pills slightly larger than grains of salt but perfectly formed) was hard to retrieve from the bottom of the mini baggie, so I had to dampen a finger with a small amount of saliva, to cause them to stick to it. Having done so, my dear friend being the brat he was, imitated the Cheech and Chong routine and said there was a patrol car behind us, which prompted me to lick the entire bunch of them down at once without so much as a thought, except then, "Oh Shit! I ate them all!" and of course no actual officer was present. Then began the effort to count how many were left, and how many taken, and how many gone? It was a wasted effort, the count could not be made, only an estimate of around 12.

So, now I was off to the Pacific coastal river beach at the mouth of the Hoh river in Washington, blasted on at least 2400 micrograms of LSD. Life does have a few interesting moments, and that one was by far the most powerful of experiences, never to be reproduced. 12 missiles pointed to my brain building up to explode, the rush was overwhelming as we moved up highway 101. As I look at this now, I think how lucky we didn't become a permanent part of a logging truck. My friend, who had taken 5 hits, was blasted himself and having his own issues, but still managing to drive. I felt like I was dying, pressures mounting up with in me pushing past barriers, then I saw myself on a beam, this beam was on a fulcrum and I had to run from one end to another to effect balance on it, then I found the center and become perfectly in balance with whatever it was that I was fighting. As obscure as this seemed, it became a permanent part of my being from this point onwards. It was a balance between emotions and fears allowing one to let go of all the tensions that force us into states of discomfort.

A musical set of tones began to become part of the experience like angels singing, like the wind blowing past chimes, like aliens playing a concert with very odd guitars. Suddenly this one could see into the mind and life of my long time school friend from the neighborhood who was driving the car, and began speaking to him directly without words. "Are you okay?" this one inquired of his condition, realizing he was driving. "What the fuck? How are you in my head?" "Is it okay, we can talk like this if you like?" He became very protective and this one received a projected an image of himself trying to cover his penis with his hand, representing the portion of the mind that held secrets of a sexual nature. At once this one realized this was the reason we do not communicate directly, as we feel we have so many things to hide. He began to become angry with me asking me to get out of his mind, "No! get out of my head!!" this was said verbally. The possibility of men communicating by telepathy is real enough, we are merely blocking it due to the animal instincts we can not over-ride. That very thought then occupied my mind for several minutes as it was hurtful to me that we lost this opportunity to really know.

What is even more interesting is at this point, this person was permanently lost as a friend. Within the next few months he would grow to despise and remove himself from this one's experiences. He was unable to cope with the force entry of his private world. perhaps to him this type of communication was not possible, but having experienced it unsettled his grasp on the world.

Looking ahead of us on the road was like torture. One could see radio waves crashing at us from the air. In the clouds, the light of the full moon illuminated the powers within, they seemed to have leaping energies like a mass of frogs on the move a moving pattern of fret work, elements separated with sharply defined edges like parts of a jigsaw puzzle this is somehow animated. Looking from the car's window, one could see crocodile scaled beings moving in the woods, yet another manifestation of fear. The car disappeared as I looked over to my friend with whom this one had shared a thirst for scientific investigations, and said to him, "Hey man, could you like, maintain the existence of the car? Because, I just lost it and it is freaking me out, man..." The shield was like molten metal cooling into something solid as he did not want to feel me in his mind again. The force of his blocking was cold and all this one could sense from him at this point.

In the midst of acid soaked reality, we navigated our way to the secondary road, the number of crocodiles in the darkness of the full moon light woods increased, as did the intensity of the music of the spheres, one would say that this was close to a peak of the experience from the drug, but that would be far too merciful, as this was a true vision quest. Suddenly, we were at the end of the road and motions stopped. Parked in the tiny car, an Opel Cadet, for those who recall them. We faced the river, to the south of us, at the point where the pacific ocean meets with the fresh water. The Indians had a gill net across the water. The river had washed a tree from it's roots at the edge of the banks and had collapsed against the stump of a much older tree long since cut for the lumber. The tree was still living in this unsupported fashion. As this one took in the scene there was some source of light from a street lamp on the south side of the river, part of Oil City on the reservation, and the light in the fog from the moon. 

Beginning to focus on this fallen but still living tree and it became an entity in female form such as the Mother Earth Goddess or Kali or mother nature, the branches forming her hair, this one was awestruck by the appearance of jeweled beads that matrix her being. She was looking outwards into the night air of the Pacific, as questions in the former existence for this being faded from the concrete absolutes of how could ancestral beings believe in such things, to how could one not believe? Slowly she turned to look directly at the car, this was overwhelming and this one had to break the gaze.

This lead to looking at the glove box button, if indeed that was what it was, with the light shinning reflecting from it, there grew another entity in the light of the reflection, this one directly from the page of an eastern religion. The illuminated being, was the Master seated upon a flaming blossom of the Lotus flower, legs crossed, forefinger to thumb in each hand, he interpenetrated this one's soul and took the body away as we looked upwards through the roof of the vehicle, to see a bluish silver line in the night air above us some considerable distance, all fears washed aside as this beam of energy carried this one's humble self essence into the night. The first place arrived at was unfathomable like a matrix of darkness with a grid of impossibility, a place of dimensional failures, that did not coordinate with convention. There were green mountains with white peaks each covered in the impossible grid, with no up or down, no in or out. No when was? No when will be?

The blue-silver line returned for this mere soul as if a rescue, once again flying higher than before, and soon decent occurred as into view came a place of total convention but staggering the mind in both scale and sheer beauty. The total vision was of a temple both ahead and to the left, like unto the style of the ancients, classic architecture, with a tremendous number of steps, the appearance was of a floating mountain. After some level of steps there was a terrace, then more steps, as if each step represented a level of achievement, and the terraces new levels of attainment.

At the base of the Temple to the right directly ahead stood a being in a pure white robe, and His entire person was radiant with white light, he held the staff of a Biblical shepherd, which appeared to be gold. This Master did not say a word but pointed above us as this one's essence hovered over him. The action held great power as this one was instantly projected deep into space, to view thousands of blue-silver orbs each connected to the next by threads as the one providing this one's path. It was possible to project one's self into the path ways of these lines and understand that every sphere was in direct connection the the others, as a voice came from the being below entering the mind or soul of this mere being saying to it, "These are all the worlds with life, you may merely project yourself into the pathways and you can travel there..." This one's own voice came rapidly, saying distinctly... "But, you do not have the power!" and suddenly there was the car, having found the path that this one will seek, for all of life or lives, spent on this world.

Now, my old friends were rarely available by phone and this began a series of moves over and back that went on for some time, which ended following a certain event I will attempt to describe later. I did manage to arrange a meeting with my friends to come visit me and finally J.R.A. came for a while to try living in the dry climate of eastern Washington. R.C.S. paid us a visit from the coast and had brought something from the city he termed as very mellow organic extracted mescaline. We set off for a place we all thought would be a prime place to camp, R.C.S. and I had had a hiking trip in that area of the mountains and it seemed to be a perfect place to camp out in the summer's night. There was a blocking barrier for the car so we hiked the rest of the way to the spot we had in mind. I had carried my guitar as it and I were inseparable, at my benefactor's house, there was always a on going guitar jam which I really enjoyed. Soon we were dropping the compound and smoking joints, slowly it came on and as it was foretold, it was mellow. I began to play some cords I was learning to play and adding as many embellishments to them and variations that blended into the key. Soon, I was beginning to sing to the mountain that loomed over us. We sat where we had a consistent view to the peak of it by a beaver damn type pond at the base of Mount Poe. I was, at first, facing the forest and looking into a small sub-clearing next to the road on which we sat. Then I became interested in the moon light as I continued to sing along with the cords.

"Mountain spirit I am calling to you, mountain... spirit..."

After some time I become less self absorbed in the moment, and noticed both my fellows were basically hiding in their sleeping bags. This bothered me because it was such a nice night and surely they were not sleeping?

I stopped singing and asked them why they hide? J.R.A. spoke, "The mosquitoes are eating us alive, and we can't stand it..."

I replied, as I sat there not noticing any mosquitoes biting me, "I do not have any biting me."

"Yes we know, it is because the bats are circling you like electrons around an atom, and eating all of them up, so you are not bitten, and that is freaking us out most of all!!" he went on to say, "I saw this in a comic book once and you must be a jinx, because jinx's have bats flying around them like that!" Indeed as My reference point changed upwards there were many bats flying around me, which was of course alarming, but the bats did not mean me harm, so I continued playing and returned to singing.

They huddled up tightly in the sleeping bags and did not come back out all night, this had to have been a real bummer but I continued to experience this valley as the moon come out and illuminated it. It had to be rough to be my friend I suppose looking back at this, but one should not waste the effort or the moment that power chooses. By now I was used to hearing words such as witch in association with me, but a jinx was not a title I wished to use, I told him after some thought, "I am not a jinx, I am a muse. A muse who encourages the spirits to come out and add their protections, if you can overcome your fears you would be safe too." I resumed the song. 

As the evening wore on I noticed the edges of herbage and grasses in this alpine valley had a reddish hue to them, as the depth of the night drew near this became more of a violet, and as morning edged the sky in the east it became blue, thus I observed the process of the absorption of carbon dioxide and emission of oxygen in the field, by perceiving it.

Along with the observations and lending of protections by spirits of the woods, sunlight came by morning, and found me still playing guitar in a song that was by then quite automatic and polished, the song was an extension of my will, yet once we left this valley it was to be forgotten. I head a sound to the left and turned to face the source of it, still playing my guitar. There not at all far away, just across the pond were several huge bears every one of them brown indicating grizzly, each of them sat and listened and sniffed the air, but mostly they seemed pleased by the music and accepting of it and our presence. In a sight I will never forget, this counsel of Ursa, drinking their fill of water, separated from the pond turning to go back up the mountain, the under brush snapped and waved aside as they disappeared with only the displacement of the small brush and trees that covered them to reveal were they made the path.

All of this was merely an awaking as I come towards the path of the warrior spirit within. My hippie friends introduced me to new writings by men who suggested that strange possibilities existed, Carlos Castaneda, Ram Dass, and T. Lampseng Rampa, along with the more classical Bhagavad Gita.

While residing in Soap Lake, I heard of a co-operative for natural foods forming in Chelan, Washington. One the first journey of some 80 miles to go there I joined this coop, and soon spent a good deal of time driving back and fourth on occasions to shop there. it was on one of these trips I met C.H.B., the person assuming ownership of the co-op and who established it as an entity there. He has since passed away, but became a long time friend. One of my journeys there involved picking apples, I heard about a barter fair occurring in the mountains, I went to the store to inquire of the location and eventually found this site on Avalon lake. It was the first ever of these fairs and I would not return back for another 20 years to one of them, and may never again attend one.


Meetings with My Mentor-

In some time, as one gradually settles to the idea that the surroundings in which they have rearranged one's life are indeed suitable, they also become part of the landscape, even if they do not entirely fit into the social scheme. Time and circumstance brought new friends, eventually the old days faded beyond memory. As one grows older they become more accustomed to their own skin, more able to be alone and enjoy the solitude. In 1974 this one met a man who had a particular interest in the occult. Perhaps it was a case of a person of intense interest meeting one with intense but undeveloped talent, albeit he was definitely empowered with his own abilities. This association consisted mainly of talks that run over a 30 year period, towards the end we seemed to have little to relate, your writer's ways were on a diverging thread from the mentor's, and thus the discussion closed. There was a series of events that seemed isolated yet related to these talks, while they occurred in areas distant from the ordinary life at the ranches on which he worked, the events always packed powerful lessons. One becomes slowly aware that for both parties the imprinting of our impressions directly effects our being. This dispenses a far different action on the real self than the mental ramblings we incur by written or even most spoken words.

When people have any level of personal power they collect spirits which tend to cling to them, mostly minor ones such as the spirits of pets which have passed away. Some who believe themselves dark sided collect spirits of the dead, the worse of these collecting those who were ritually murdered, often these types make for sensational cases in our news. If one actually wants to hold within themselves some level of personal power, they need to understand the nature of time, it is this one's study of time that represented the divergence of paths spoken of above. Moreover, it was the line of thought based on a more mechanical approach that defines this difference between us.

After some time alone in the eastern side of Washington, this one began to win over a small group of friends who developed some level of confidence in association. This one's talents leading to the formation of a small local rock band. Like a lot of adventures, this band was one that occurred with intermittent gigs and long breaks between. It was at one of the first gigs that my mentor's wife appeared, her acquaintance lead to our eventual meeting. She and her husband seemed to have a good deal to offer in terms of understanding some of the activities that this one had experienced first hand.

This one returned once again to the western city environment of Seattle. The multitude of changes of habitation between the two parts of the state led to this one's beginning of understanding of how we become trapped in cyclic activities. With a little investigation, it was learned J.R.A. was residing in the district associated with the university, known as the U district. Eventually, we had a meeting, and we ended up sharing an apartment there. J. was volunteering as a helper at the university drop in center and suicide crisis hot-line. This was crazy person Mecca. This one too began to spend time in the center, adding a voice for some degree of reason to the peer group within, but possibly also just as crazy in many ways.

One evening a woman entered the center and began to dance, this one was immediately drawn to her hearty handsome looks, and began to dance with her, she seemed to find this entertaining. We talked for a while and soon it became apparent she had come to the proper place for her condition. She was for one thing homeless, having been someone the system had merely given up on, she was released without effective treatment from the mental ward at a local hospital. She told of spending the last four years in this institution and the only reason for her release was budget cuts. We soon agreed that our association would not be a sexual one, pity she was a sweet looking lady, but she had the attitude of a real lady, and was also married and had children who lived with the father. Her condition was one of severe schizophrenia, she could not hold still and consumed massive amounts of coffee and sugar. What soon seemed apparent was a disconnection within her self and some other driving force inside her causing havoc and actions beyond her control, punctuated by times of lucidity.

This one was never one to be motivated by hedonism even though lust was often very predominately part of the personal menu, she was however freely offered protection and shelter at the apartment J.R.A shared with me. One night we sat talking until very late, the sun was beginning to raise, and the half light was coming through the window. As she spoke she seemed noticeably more rational. This one's eyes began to droop with a bit of fatigue from being up all night. Suddenly a vision occurred of another person superimposed slightly above her. This person was different in appearance to the lady, by several ways including color of skin. I got up and went to the kitchen, removing from the cabinet a tablet with drawing paper and taking a graphite pencil began drawing the person I had just seen. After a few minutes I had a captive representation of the image. This was merely the beginning of this episode. The days that followed were chaotic, everywhere we went she was unmanageable and unpredictable, not just the typical manner some women will behave in when being bratty, but her actions were on the edge of both legal and bizarre. We would be ejected from places such a cafes and other public places due to her uncontrolled rages of irrationality. This one began to suspect that she was at the mercy of an outside force not of a physical nature. That idea in itself seemed insane. Making the decision to take her to the place where the bears listened to the song this one had played in the woods, a place of personal power for me, we made the journey one morning in my old car. While we were there she became completely rational and the discussion of how her delirium was rehashed with vastly improved clarity. a compounding condition for her was that she was released not only form the hospital but the regiment of powerful drugs administered by them as well. The day went well and we found that past all of the insanities we were friends at the core. On the way back we made a stop at her home, where we met her husband and children. He seemed upset with the idea that she was in the company of a male, this one made a strong effort to assure hum that the purpose of her presence in this person's company was to hopefully effect a permanent change for the better, in her condition, and not a sexual conquest or design of lustful ends. As we left that house she burst into tears for missing her children, which became a powerful catalyst in the events that followed.

Returning to the city set her off into high gear the entity within her became a rage of crazy impulses. Soon this compounded by the addition of another party to our troop. A man with multiple sclerosis in a wheel chair who was homeless on the streets, she insisted we take him in and care for him as well. Seeing that this may indeed give her some purpose and reason to fight off this affliction, and by now feeling assured that her condition was indeed possession by some psychic entity, indeed the very one which was seen and drawn on paper, this was carried with this one in the car. As the entity began to loose control of it's host it became more aggressive towards the one who drew it fourth.

Classically, this type on demon is a succubus, she had been given a drink at a party, the drink was spiked with a very strong dose of Acid or maybe STP. This drove her off the deep end, that part was normal mental dysfunction, some time following she wandered about not returning home, she was no doubt a restless housewife and mother who had a urge to party, which met with bad ends. Such a drug is capable of opening up the centers in not so good a manner, making one weak to attacks form the ethereal. while this type of demon will affix to a male, who will encounter them through sexual acts or other ways, they find that a woman can bring them far more powerful emotions on which to feed. her action were all designed to produce these type of effect on all who surrounded her. The entity fed upon those actions remaining strong. This type of entity also has no possibility of a future indicating it formed by self inflicted death or sacrifice. The impression this one gathered from it were that it originated in ancient times as a goddess of the moon in central Asia or Mesopotamia. It wore a crown with moonstones set in ovals and three bars of gold connecting them.

With this new person in tow, we began to search for a place to spend the night, she had a friend who worked for a rental placement agent, and called him. This produced a house with temporary access for just one night. he told her that a drug deal was going to occur at this house also, involving several blacks who were quite violent. Lovely place to be was the immediate thought. That evening she complained of a severe headache, this one went to his place to get her some aspirin, on the way back strong words were vocalized against this entity that plagued her. Upon entering the house, she was found reclining on the floor with one hand bracing her body almost snake like, and she turned to this one with her eyes rolled upwards until only white showed. This alone was unnerving, but next she croaked in a very deep voice, "You can't have her she's mine!" The voice was almost not sounds but pure impressions. Chills run over the skin from this encounter with this entity directly in this manner, but this would be only the beginning of this entities attacks upon the young apprentice.


4/3/2011 2:45:23 PM

A very few of us are those who live like the beast, we are comfortable in confined and unfurnished spaces. If there is nothing we make it something special with simple tools and our minds eye.  I once told someone I was one of the richest men in the world, yet at the time I had no home and roamed everywhere and anywhere, "Yes, I am rich because I own the entire world I walk on..., I can get food everyday by the talent of my hands alone... and every night, I live in some other spot than I did the night before..."  Now, this has become the secret to my success, because I am comfortable where ever my occupation takes me... To find a special someone would require the kind of person who is not likely ever going to have an internet connection, so if you know someone like that tell them to look me up...


1/20/2011 3:22:53 AM

 There is only one savings you can take beyond the grave and that is your core being, ignore this and you will become trapped in time, not a good place for an eternal entity to land.


12/26/2010 8:07:55 AM

One day, a philosophy professor, who is also a devout atheist, is walking through the woods.  His entire life was based on evolution, the big bang, string theory, random occurrences, and accidental entropic collisions, which result in life, the universe, and the things found in nature.  He then is admiring all of the random outcome, when he accidentally, crosses the path of a hungry bear.  The bear begins to run him down and he runs away as frantically as he can, when he accidentally stumbles over a tree branch, which accidentally fell to the ground during the last storm.  The storm was the result of solar flares caused by the 15th dimension acting on the sun.  The bear pounces on him immediately, and lift his huge paw to swipe off his head... "Oh god, NO!!!" cries the man, when suddenly time stops in it's tracks and a light shines from the sky on him. 

"YOU HAVE DENIED ME ALL YOUR LIFE, AND NOW THAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO DIE, YOU ASK FOR MY HELP."

The man thinks upon this for a second and replies, "Well that does seem a little hypocritical." 

"YES, IT DOES"

"Do you suppose you could at least make the bear a Christian?"

"VERY WELL, HE IS NOW A CHRISTIAN"

Time resumes, and the bears lifted paw meats the the other front paw and astonishingly the bears speaks in perfect English.  "Holy Father, please bless this meal for which we are about to partake!"


10/27/2010 11:56:12 AM

This day was not going to be a good day, Junior thought.  It looked like snow was coming and while he does enjoy snow for the beauty of it, the professional driver is always leery of a snowy day.  Junior was sitting in the sleeper on the edge of the bunk in the Freightliner Century.  He had just gotten a decent WIFI signal on the computer and was chatting with friends, when he got a call to go towards Grand Rapids.  He gathered up the stray garbage in the back and tidied up the bed quickly.  Next, he walked the garbage out of the truck to the dumpster, then walked back to it.  He made an entry in the log book to go on duty, then drove away.  The box van trailer was empty not something desired on a snowy day.  He left Saginaw,  heading on the freeway as it began to snow, he slowed in precaution, making his way west.  The snowfall got worse, as he drove. Finally, making the turn up US 151, then off at the Wyoming exit to the truck stop.  Finding a place to park, Junior went inside to have breakfast.  Looking outside the window of the restaurant, he could see the snow was coming down like something pouring from a huge can with a shaker top, it fell endlessly.  He could barely see the street in front of the place, as he sat at the circular table with other drivers.   He had barely placed his breakfast order when the cell phone rang.  


The kid they had working as dispatcher was barely out of high school, "Go to Holland, Michigan and pick up load going to Boston"  The accent come through the phone like Russian, but they were Bosnians. 


"When?" Junior asked the kid.


"Now" he says.  


"NO!, I am not leaving here the weather is too bad and the more west we go the worse it will be, besides, do you expect me to get a load to Boston in this snow storm?"


"Yes it is good load, pays good, please go pick up..."


"Okay, I will tomorrow, tell them we'll get it tomorrow..."


"No, today..." the argument began, he told the kid to put the owner's wife on the phone, told her that if there was a wreck do not charge this driver for it because He told them no.  


"Okay, okay, I'm going to go get your load, but you are making a mistake there is no visibility out there."


He paid the waitress, the other drivers asked him if he was going?   He said, "Yeah, but I told her if I wreck, to charge it to that kid, not me...(laughing nervously) 'cause I told her I have no business driving in this stuff right now."


"Be careful" one of them said.  Junior went out to the truck thinking it is stupid to give up a parking spot in front of the whole lot,  just to go get messed up in this snow.  He wasn't really afraid as much as mad, it was just idiotic to think you could drive to Boston in this storm, they were saying up to 4 feet of lake effect snow would fall.  He backed it out of the spot and went through the driveway to the side street, threw on the signal and began reaching for gears enough to make the light, signal still on for the right turn.  Junior couldn't really see what was coming, so, depending on the traffic light to work, he went on the green up to the interchange.  


This exit off 151, is one with straight ramps ending in traffic lights.  Looking to the left at that off ramp there was no visibility at all.  The snow was coming in bursts like feathers from a pillow fight, the sky and air was thick with the mess.  Waiting at the red light, a little nervous, he just had a bad feeling period, all morning about this.  The light changed, and he gassed on the fuel pedal to take off and was hitting almost 1700 rpm on this Cummings, about to shift when, BLAAAM!!! The truck shifted violently to the right shoved across the road.  


Took him a minute to regain focus the impact nearly blacked him out.  His neck felt like someone karate chopped the side of it and he began to shake involuntarily.   He looked in front of the truck through the windshield was intact but the hood was gone as was the radiator, there was steam adding to the confusion, but soon saw a full sized Chevy work van in the front area of the truck, almost into the engine. The driver was getting out of it seemed unharmed but shaken.  


He reached for the cell phone to call dispatch,  "You better come down here and look at the truck you just wrecked."  


"You wrecked the truck!!??" He sounded baffled as if, 'how could this be possible?'


"NO YOU WRECKED THE TRUCK!" Junior replied sternly, with a burst of anger, "leave ME out if this, I told YOU no, remember?"  By then the cops arrived, and soon the state patrol was in charge of the scene since it involved DOT.  


"Are you alright?"  The officer asked looking concerned for him, "You really took an impact, the driver of the van is saying that he left the freeway doing 70mph, skied up the ramp in a skid and could not stop.  He totaled that mini van then slammed into you."  The cop pointed behind us to a wrecked brown Ford Astro van.


"I didn't even see the van." Junior said, "Where is it?"  


The cop asked again more softly this time, "You okay?"  


Junior began to think quickly, 'I better act like I'm okay, or they well go medical on me, and I'll have to get release to get back to work.'  Junior replied to the cop, "Yeah, yeah i'm alright, just shaken up."  But he wasn't alright, his neck hurt like hell already, but knowing how this goes, it would cost him too much to play wounded wing.  Junior was a tough man, he took it in stride to heal on his own.  


The owners came, and they had to fill out reports, the truck went on the tow hook, so did the cars.  The drama passed, and finally Junior was back in his own car.  Miles from home back in the state of Wyoming, he was talking to Kitty his wife on the phone.  Assuring her he was okay, over the hands free microphone.  "I'm going to go get a room over here somewhere, look for one on the web for me okay?"  


"Okay honey, are you sure you are okay?" she asked concerned for her guy.


"No, I'm not okay, but if we go the the hospital what can they really do besides make us more bills we don't need?  If I get into a medical situation I'll need a doctor's release to go back to work and my licence will not be valid without certifying for medical. I'll take a hot bath and meditate, see if i can make the pain go away, I don't have to rush to this, if it gets worse we get a lawyer."


"Okay, hey, I found you a room..."  Kitty is a great wife, the best ever.  


Eventually, Junior was in the room and soaking in a tub of very hot water.  Relaxing in the electric light, contrasting the deep and dark interior of the painted wood cabinets of the older motel room.  The tub was a metal one from the late 60's must have been about when the whole place was built, like maybe 1968.  A white plastic like cloth curtain hung in billows of draping folds, leaving a gap for the electric light to come in.  There was this stillness and odd silence of everyone being asleep, Junior had been involved with his chat room until fairly late but the neck pain had sent him for a return soak in the tub.  His eyes barely open, as he peered through them to the beige tiles on the bathroom walls.  Junior began to use his training, returning as he always did to the person he was before he entered this rednecked world of 18 wheels.  Junior was a person with depth, working in the biggest job there is, to make a place for his new family.  His reasons were the same as anyone there is, who works like this, but his goals were not.   In the past, he had been involved deeply with the occult, serving power as power seen fit, but this was a new phase of his life.  


He stopped.  Everything stopped.  Thoughts of silence as eyes closed in meditation, one could almost drift off to sleep but this was not sleep this was pure stopping.  Darkness became silver reflections off a lake in the night, the water of his vision seems so calm, like a mirror.  A small thought, what is my true name?  Do we have a true name?  Junior let it echo in the forever of this mind of souls, and in a few moments a beautiful voice replied to him, Mage AmenRa. Junior bounced up directly from the tub, what was that?  Then aloud, "What was that?"


It was the voice of an angel coming into his mind with exactly the thing Junior was seeking.  'She spoke my true name,' he thought, and went to the computer to look up the words, see what they meant.  He began searching Google, and Wikipedia, the word "mage" links to the Magi seeming to have origins in ancient Persia and the sect from which Zoroaster was born.  The deepest of knowledge comes from this source, as it was the religion of Zarathustra, known as Zoroastrian which was the very first monotheism or religion with only one god.  Further searching found a definition for mage as one who can channel the power and knowledge of a god.  Next, searching for Amen Ra proved to be much easier, this was the more rarely used Anubis form of the sun god Ra.  Thus this name was more a title as if old soul need not care about a name but need only confirm in a new life the title once earned.  The name meant  a mage, being one who channels knowledge and powers of the god Ra, in the before life or death form as a total spirit, a spirit which can bring forth all of creation.


Junior was beginning to identify with this true name as the acceptance of the true nature of his own spirit in this incarnation.  The long path of trails and witnessing of the miraculous, both in displays of nature and in dealing with entities of the spirits.  Now his Master was coming home to dwell within him, he knew in his mind it was so. He peered at himself in the mirror on the motel room wall.  He could see time was short to realize the ambitions of the soul within.  


As days passed and events returned him to the road, once again Junior had time to think.  The realization became distinct and clear within his mind that this name was that of his true Master.  There was a formation of unity between the man who lead a life in the ordinary world and the soul within.  This soul was older then he could conceive and had many dreams sending Junior back into the deep past relating memories of events from distant times.






9/5/2010 12:48:29 PM
The most masochistic slave this one ever knew came into my life one night in 1983, she called my name as while walking by the door of the local bar.   Alcohol dominated her life until the very end, she died of liver cancer in 2002, having long since parted ways with her in the early nineties.  She was an influence beyond the simple efforts of life.  There was always a level of the mystical with her, always a side of life beyond the ordinary.

One day we were living in the Lewiston, Idaho area and went for a walk together.  The walk ended at a bar, it was a non-white bar with only the Nez Pierce tribe inside.  The slave led me into that bar and immediately they were very non receptive.  Since she was also Indian (Ute) they allowed me to stay, but only at the grace of the fact that she was was the guide.  Soon, at a table and introduced to the one they called the "chief".   It was indefinite if he was actually the chief, but he was in fact the grandson of the famous Chief Joseph.  The situation grew to become very uneasy, moving away from my control.  Before long, the bar scene faded as we were in a pick up bed, behind the cab, heading for the reservation, with wind blowing tangles in long hair.  Our destination was the "Chief's" house, for continuance of drinking even more.  M. our host, confronted me with a rifle saying he would not hesitate to shoot me if anything got out of line.  He was freshly back from white's man's prison, having already killed someone, this was told to assure no threat. 

This was not the normal type of party atmosphere one knows from years of entertaining situations, there was never any feeling of comradeship between us, we were not becoming friends any time soon.   There was an atmosphere of another nature, as if something about me showed him that he was to take me for a lesson of a sort.  As is often said, power was pointing us both into this path.   We spent 2 days there at the house, mostly drinking.  The second evening, leaving the house by walking together to the local store on the reservation.

 "We are going to go get our backs to the wall!" he exclaimed loudly,  the journey seemed to only end in my purchase of a bottle of Thunderbird white wine from the store.  We went to the wall next to the store, where he directed me to squat with knees bent and my back like he had said against the wall.  The part that seemed almost silly was when M. told this one to position hands in front of me with the palms up as if to take a spear into my hands.  He made an animal sound with his lips tightly pursed.  The brushy trees next to the wall and behind the store, began to wrestle as if a small animal or bird was within them. It was completely startling when 2 large Indian Dog Soldiers walked from the brush and squatted next to us, on the left side of M. who was in turn on my left. 

They spoke only in their native tongue, as M. explained while translating for me to English, "They want me to tell you we have our backs to the wall of the white man's world.  We call this having our backs to the wall, do you know what this means?"  This could have been far different than it seemed while it was occurring.   Nothing in this one's world had changed that could be noticed, and yet this one can recall nothing of the world around us, with the presence of something so alien to a "normal" world, dominating the scene.  Looking backwards at this scene, to realize that this was not occurring in "ordinary" time and space.  While it seemed odd that there would be such a thing as a native dressed aboriginal warrior at my hosts beckon call. It was in fact impossible for him to prearrange, he had not a chance to make a call to anyone.  Beyond, this the dress and authentic aging of the garments was beyond the scope of some prank, these men were real.  Now, the question remains, were the warriors from our time?


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P.S. -To My friends, the real ones, OKAY?  Hope you enjoy reading My blog, it is still a work in progress.  The real effort here is remembering things somewhat in order.  Love you all.  -MoM

5/1/2010 9:09:05 AM
One learns directly form one's impressions a direct knowledge that they may try to think upon at some later point in life, but the learning performed by the body is immediate and direct.  One learns the limits of human abilities in the physical soon on as they develop, it is the more subtile encounter that linger into the depth of life.  One may encounter a ghost and choose to ignor the presence as a bad bit of food causing them stress and certainly no ghost could be present.  One may witness some person pocessed and say that person is mad, yet it could be the indication of a demon within.  Often these observation are a gift of sorts to push the eye of the mind to percieve more than the supposed physical world.  As solid as society would want this world to be it is not as we choose by peer association to view only a portion of our world and live only a portion of our life, then complain that something is missing and indeed there is.  What is most disappointing is how comfortable everyone seems to be with belief in the solidity of everything.  Then we are convinced of the ability of chemicals to effect healing of us, or to effect some level of understanding.  Yet chemicals can only effect the result of higher action which places their activity in the past, only an alignment with a healing from the future can truly cure, this coming form the spirit and world of the ethereal.  I hesitate to call it a world as i use that word, because it is not a separate thing, but one reason we do not redily percieve it as the completion of this world is because it does not align with the past but is in the realm of possibility just ahead of now, right on the edge of this moment as your eyes scan the computer screen.  We do catch small glimpses of this effect all the time but ignore it, or dismiss it.  Some use chemicals or power plants to see into the edge but this effect is somewhat useful it does not show us the actual path to use and the results are very unreliable.  Shaman  are quite aware of the use of power plants to blast one into some state of consciousness but will tell you the same as I that it is not the best way to obtain a result with dependable or lasting outcome.  It is the actions of the will that improve our edge.  This is how I come to see bdsm as a path to self improvement, as i felt the force of control well directed could serve as a tool for this end.  But alas I am not disappointed by the lack of human concern or the overwhelming hedonism, it was exactly what I did expect.  Thus I am giving up on this pursuit entirely, and turning instead to ways to work upon myself and seek out refinements on my own without the push of someone sub to this purpose.  The opportunity for them is now closed.  I am done trying to relate to this planet, collectively you are hopeless.   I will keep this account to store some of my work, although they were but rough notes. -Mage AmenRa 

10/19/2009 8:53:59 PM
The Manor...  day one...  Rebecka admired her body in the shower, as she suds up herself with body wash that morning, 22 and still a virgin to men... she smiles well almost, except for her naughty mouth... she giggles to herself...but it was her little secret. She rinsed off and dried herself with a fluffy soft towel... then she dressed in clothes appropriate for the new position she took as maid at the Manor on the hill above town.  She clutched her purse tightly as she rang the bell to the massive doors, they were carved with elaborate motifs of angelic scenes, which she found to be rather moving.  Rebecka was nervous and the feeling from this somehow made her feel like urinating, as if she would piss her nice skirt right there but she held back this urge to await the footfalls approaching the door.  She looked at he shoes, they always seem to soothe he knowing she woe nice shoes made he feel good about herself, like wearing nice makeup. Soon a man appeared who spoke softly as he identified himself as the Master of the house, Mr. Armstrong.  The Master was a handsome man for his years she thought.  She tried not to go there but her mind insisted as she got carried away with a notion of becoming His miss.   She laughed at herself.  He wore a dark suit, which seemed to fit the setting of the house but also seemed out of place, it was also a bit strange to her that he wanted a maid but had no other servants in this house.... then he explained,  "I've had a maid service cleaning the house but they proved unreliable, so I decided to try hiring my own.  Please come this way..." they walk down a hallway to a small empty room with a closet in the back wall.  He opened the closet dorr and told her to put her personal clothes in the closet on hangers and put on her maid's uniform.   "I got the uniform for you based on the size you said to get...I expect you to wear it for your job, I do have business guests who come to this house, and I like to keep things formal."  he then pulled a folding table from the closet and took out the wardrobe for her attire, included a full corset and white panties with nylon stocking with seams in back... "Please do try to get the seams straight" he said, as he placed them on the table.  "I expect you back in the entry hall in 15 minutes." He turned and left the room closing the door.  She had never once in her life had a man dress her like this, it seems highly irregular to her but she thought he must not want her to seem sexual to his clients... because this foundation garment was strictly a body molding item.  The stocking and garter from an era gone by.  She stripped naked and begun to dress is his choice of panties, then the foundation garment, which fit amazingly well.  She had to fasten the elastic straps on each side of it... then the stockings adjust the seams as she unrolled them up her legs, the the long skit and the top of the maid's uniform then the shoes, low pumps with buckles, and finally an apron.  Rebeca felt somehow excited as she step into the reception room...  The Master of the house led her to the utility closet showing her the accessories for the built in vacuum system, dust mops, and other tools for cleaning... then he explained the numbering system used for his library, an extensive room of books many seemed ancient and possibly quite valuable, which adjoined the study with a massively heavy desk made from dark oak.  The library to Rebeca contained a collection of deeply philosophical books which seemed to supersede his years, as if perhaps collected through generations of masters of the manor.  The manor in itself seemed to have simply always been there dominating and somehow defining this town.  Rebecka had made the move to the town a few months ago, to help her sister in law's parents on their farm nearby.  When she inquired about the manor people seemed indifferent saying it has always been there some say it was built in the 1840's...  Her day as maid began by sweeping the porch in front of the house, it was a sunny day and the warmth of the sun made her corset uncomfortable, yet she proceeded as if it was not there, determined to keep at her task, but the feeling of needing to use the bathroom facilities resumed once again this time more urgently...she found herself fighting with the garment to use the toilet and nearly having to undress to do so, finally she put herself back together...  Looking at the porch all swept clean and tidy, finally, she took out her list of chores assigned, and went to the kitchen found the polishing supplies and sat herself at the servant table there laboring to polish the silver, the Asparagus servers, egg coddlers, Brandy warmers, flasks, butter dishes, oval, round, and square chaffing dishes, sugar bowls, salt and pepper shakers, flatware, candle sticks, and at last she was finishing the flat square serving tray.   She could see herself in the tray quite clearly, she was feeling proud of the job she did...  The Master came into the kitchen and looked at the pile of shinny silver aligned on the table... looked into her eyes deeply as if he was seeing her very soul, and said..."what a mess we have here?"  not showing any emotions, "why can't you take out one piece at a time and return it to the place it belongs?"  she felt nervous not realizing her mistake until she looked at the cabinet empty of silverware and realized she had neglected to return each piece after completed.. she felt dumb and begun to flush red..."come here" he commanded...  she stood still holding the serving tray...he took it from her hands and in a surprise move placed it on the floor pushing it between her feet so she had to spread them wider to accommodate this metal mirror, she realized that he could look up her dress from the reflection off of it and felt warmth growing down her body from her face heading to her privates...  he then walked about the room speaking.  " I work on the human condition as a personal project, and also work on myself.  I seek to improve the overall evolution of mankind..." she watched his eyes as he spoke to see if he was looking... she felt she dare not to move but also felt embarrassed yet so turned on, it must be his way of punishment she thought...  He talked on as he made tea on occasion glancing her direction to assure she had not moved away from the tray between her feet.  She found she was becoming excited sexually over this situation to a degree that there was some amount of wetness in her personal area.  This only served to add to the embarrassments of the moment, then he came with 2 cups of tea sitting them on the counter, and he filled the silver sugar server with fresh sugar.  After this the Master bent over to collect the tray looking intently into the reflection for a few seconds, this time she was sure he was deliberately looking up the dress, he picked up the tray as he stood.  Then the tray was pushed directly under her breasts so close it touched the underside of them. He demanded she hold the tray, she did exactly as he had positioned as by now she was hoping he would simply rip off her clothes and fuck her on the table counter and anywhere he desired... but instead of her fantasy becoming any type of reality, he sat the sugar server bowl on the tray between her tits, the placed one steaming hot cup before each of her bra cups the steam raising to slowly heat her nipples as the garments warmed.  He then said follow me....   She carried the tray exactly as he had placed it, taking small steps slowly careful not to slosh the tea cups.  He led them from the kitchen to the study, finally telling her to place the tray on the heavy desk.  As she did this she noticed once again the brass rings fit on each leg of the desk, he must have noticed her looking at them and explained them, "Movers rings, they place poles through them to lift the heavy desk with straps so they may move it."  He sat behind the desk and motioned her to take a cup of tea from the tray, then he also took one with it's saucer opened the sugar bowl and put 2 small spoons of sugar in the tea with the sugar spoon allowing the sugar to pour off the spoon, then stirred it with  separate spoon which was on the saucer.  Rebecka followed his example carefully.  "Have a seat, please." he waited for her to sit, she had to tug the skirt up some to sit in it, the foundation garment suddenly didn't feel comfortable as it had standing, and she felt the stockings pulled tighter on her legs as she sat.  "I became interested in the alternatives to normal thought as a young man, due to experiences I had then, and due to the incomplete knowledge admitted to by the contemporary scholars of my schools, and literature that I read, mush of which I later purchased and placed in the library here."  He paused motioning towards the walls of the study covered in books...  "Eventually I met my mentor in the Arts who trained my mind to perceive, by placing my life in order.  This period was followed by one of intense work where upon I amassed some level of wealth, all the while working upon myself to improve my condition as a human being."  Becka listened closely at first then her mind began to drift to the thoughts of naughty sexual notions, she pictured this Master dressed in black fetish leathers with tall riding boots on and a crop.  She pictured herself stripped to just the foundation corset, laying on the desk, her legs pulled widely into splits at the edge of the desk, ready to be had sexually, secured by ropes from the curtains with their silky golden braid pulled to the brass movers rings, then running to her waist and around it then to the top rings, and back to pull her arms crossed behind her head.  She then began to feel wetness in the cotton panties as she thought of Him swatting on her mound of personal privacy with the crop, admonishing her for not putting each completed silver piece back where it belonged.  Each word he spoke was accompanied by a slap on the cunt from the leather loop, each slap harder than the previous one... "oooooughhh..." she let out an audible gasp of orgasmic like pleasure.  He looked at her sharply, as he stopped talking for a minute.  His eyes peered at her as if he could read her mind, and he then astonished her by saying, "I don't ride horses, never really liked the idea of granting a horse that much control over me."  She found she had caused herself a condition, best taken to the bathroom.  She asked if she could be excused for the privacy of the bath room,  to her surprise he suggested she take a bath before getting dressed for the ride home.  "You will want to get the grime and silver stains of of you."  he paused, "So may as well take advantage of this nice bath."  He opened the door to a huge room with a freestanding claw foot cast iron tub, for some reason she once again envisioned herself tied to those feet while in the tub naked this time... she paused for a second and thought..."Oh, My!"

9/29/2009 1:32:55 AM
Everyone seems to be so self oriented, although they seek to serve, their terms always engaging to themselves... we have forgotten how to have values and how to give freely to each other... It is disappointing to be a human in this time of self indulgence...., if one gives from themselves they are merely thought a fool.  I listened to the song "Man in the Mirror"  sorry to see you go so soon Bro... MJ you were a cool person, no matter what they say about ya...

8/15/2009 5:58:42 PM
Lives are Leaves on a road, the wind whips them into the air only to fall slowly into the puddles where raindrops form a trap to cage their spirits. The foot steps that lead to the door seems heavy in the rain, and the leaves are sticking to the traveler as he passes by.  The door opens slightly displaying the darker places beyond.  He steps in carrying a few, a very few, clinging leaves, that now, are little more than remnants of a once vital green factory of air in exchange, from the early evening reds, to the midnight purples, and the early morning blues.  The aura glows to a 3rd eye peeping beyond the ticking hands.  The clock obeys Salvidor's reason dripping from her arm as nature stands holding symbols of sanity in hyper form. The erie sounds of motions that can't exist creeping into the veins of life forgotten as the tears wipe away beyond the carved stones.  The door of perception closes slightly and the hours stand still. Suddenly even the traveler is compressed into nothing as lines rule and points tingle. There is only oxygen when you try to think of it but it isn't helping to breath it, gulping the ether in place of air is useless and the ghost turns slowly, looking up into the tree, and climbs skywards.

I see your face, among the leaves, a subtle ghost looking back at me, beyond the body it's hard to breathe... beyond the body it's hard to breathe... but I see your face, the man in the tree.  Turning towards the light, turning towards heaven.  I see the man climb the tree. I saw a man in the tree.


6/21/2009 4:58:10 AM
Life has phases, for your own benefit, do not live it in regret.  When you are on another plain of life, and find yourself lamenting over another time and place past, let it go, and live in this one.  We are more complicated as people as we age, men are slow to learn the worth of a woman in general and do not respect the value of a submissive or slave.  When we mature we bounce off of someone with tons of baggage we can't seem to uninstall.  Bdsm can release us of this issue, sometimes.  Medical science tells us we replace all of our cells and the body exchanges it's mass every 7 yrs.  I consider this in comparison to the Chakras of eastern philosophy as follows: In alignment with tones of a musical scale 1 to 7 makes and octave which begins with the original note or vibration.  The 1st octave is conception to fetus, fetus to infant, next.  Infant to newborn, these occur rapidly, as we develop the vibration periods expand, finally we reach one year of age with some degree of awareness.  1 to 7 the last octave of development, we begin the journey to reproductive status, and thus this scale begins, 7 to 14 is the (1)Muladhara, 14 to 21 is the (2)Svadhisthana, 21 to 28 is the (3)Manipura, 28 to 35 is the (4)Anahata, 35 to 42 is the (5)Visuddha, 42 to 49 is the  Anja, and 49 to 56 is the Sahasrara, then we begin a new cycle where we all seem to desend rather than assend, has we the power to assend the next scale would likely be 49 years the sum of the pervious series for each note in the next which means the next nexus would be at 1+7+49+(49x7)=393 years meaning it is possible to achieve the Bibical ages we see in Genisis, however we may require 2 ingredients.  One the ability to make water of life which is a form where all the matter is in phase, and two, the ability to evole spiritually so we are prepaired for the long journey of greater lifetime on Earth.

Based on A=440 we derive the tones by fifths in the Pythagorean scale (note how Gorean is part of this word, also an ancient school of the occult that continued on many years after the man deceased.)  each 5th of the principle from a vibrating string or air column is found at the 1/3 rd portion of the string by touching it or by making a hole in the side of a tube with some origin of vibration in the air inside it at this same point.  As one progress with adding string tuned to match the 5th of the proceeding as in a harp, or lyre, one develops a scale of 12 tones in this manor.  Since 3/2 =1.5,  it is easier to multiply by 1.5   A>440 x 1.5 = 660    E>660 x 1.5= 990;  B>990 x 1.5= 1485;  F#>1485 x 1.5=2227.5; C#>2227.5 x 1.5= 3341.25; G#>3341.25 x 1.5= 5011.875; D#>5011.875 x 1.5= 7517.8125; A#>7517.8125 x 1.5= 11276.71875; F>11276.71875 x 1.5= 16915.078125; C>16915.078125 x 1.5= 25372.6171875;  G>25372.6171875 x 1.5= 38058.92678125; D>38058.92678125 x 1.5= 57088.388671875; A>57088.388671875  the 8th octave value for A would be 440 x 2^8 =56320  This is off by 768.388671875 representing the Coma of Pythagoras it is a mathematical fact which is often graphed and produces the form of the nautilus sea shell seen in nature again and again.  Thus also a natural fact.  This is reconciliation of the Binary with the Trinity.  Most of us would be doing well to head the high G @ 25372.6171875cps  In musical instruments these pitches are divided by 2 to lower it to an octave functional for sound, however we are only concerned with the nature of vibration in this use.  We are not applying the rules of music as much as the natural laws of events in vibratory manners.  The vibrations of solid matter are magnified by pure kenetics where some more massive events do not allow displacement in the physical world so the displacement occurs in time.  Examples of this are long run out land slides, and meteor impacts, the latter when massive enough causes fusion to occur.  The matter yielded in this reaction is in equilibrium with the resultant material from this reaction. Thus CO2 will fuse in comet material upon massive impacts with another more massive body... to Ca40  the numbers working like this... C12 plus 2- O16 = 44 particles ejecting one alpha particle (He) yields Ca(CO3)2 creating a bed of limestone in the floor of the creator.   The massive impact involves the material having to compress ths material has no place to go with such a pressure upon it, thus it must travel somewhere so it goes into the future for a fraction of a moment, this compression voids all of the previous properties of the mass prior to the event, causing fusion. 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tunguska_event

Had this even occured during the cold war, our lack of knowledge about the nature of time would have led to our sure extinction as the Russian military would have perceived this as a nuclear attack.  Leading us to a level 5 event of war.

4/26/2009 4:56:20 PM
We seek knowledge of the more obtuse directions of the knowable arts.  One must consider each aspect of possibility and relate this information in carefully planned steps.  The pinnacle of the perilous journey to a lofty tower in the soul, is knowledge.   That peak was scaled with the fingertips of the mind reaching for each handhold, and accessed for every footstep to assure its solidity.  The sojourner of a effectively planned expedition, will seek a guide familiar with the pathway, leading to embankment points.  The guide is able point the way and say, “Master, it is this way, but I and my people have never ventured beyond these gates.”   

Such guides were of avail in the writings of many authors, who were mostly revealed to this one, via my mentor, a remarkable man who consistently pointed the way.  After searching, this one eventually come upon the gate that held no path beyond.  A great debt is owed this person for persevering in encouragement that this one should ford fourth into the dark beyond the gate…

When one makes an approach to a difficult assent, they plan a path based upon information collected from the distance. After accessing from differing angles, not forsaking the possibility that unknown factors will soon block the way, one also plans for this occurrence as well.  What is never accounted for are the changes that will happen to the individual along the way, as we do not normally anticipate our own growth in mental and emotional terms.  These changes are resisted by those who know us best, as they have pressed upon us our history.  They require a mental image of everyone they encounter with summaries within their minds of the scope of a person based on the amount of interaction



they had with them in lives.  The people who “love” you most, will project your limits.   Thus, this one sought solitude to allow time to reach deep into the parts of knowledge that would become the footholds and reaches of the fingertips.

In the early days of youth, an eager mind absorbed volumes of knowledge summing the available information at the time, and as time progressed, also attempted to keep pace with the ventures of others, updating as much as possible the data for this base.  There was also an accumulation of non academic observations from the more obtuse source of personal observations of occurrences in the occult.  Encounters with spirits and other entities showed this one beyond any doubt that this world is not as it appears on the mere surface.  While this work could venture off into the nature of these encounters and occurrences, this will be reserved for a separate work in a future date, or perhaps as an addendum to this work once the main focus has been illuminated.  The events of logic will be best illustrated with the knowledge of this work in hand, than without.  

The most trying aspect of relating this information with the crude method of written word, and even illustrations, is that they will surely fall short.  It is an art to paint the images in your mind to any medium, so that you, as observer, will know their meaning as well.  This said, the key point is where to start?  It is impossible to know the level of understanding about matters that will be discussed, that people in general will bring with them upon reading.   It will require some depth of knowledge of physics and chemistry.   While this is not the subject of this work, it was yet also the path that led to the gate.  This one will not attempt to educate you to much of a degree, but would prefer you to arm yourself with the ability to research some of the aspects involved, however, as the artist of this image, this one will try to make the descriptions as illuminating as possible.


The beginning is void.   The properties are infinite.  One could say there was nothing, but that is not accurate.  One nothing is a self entity.  Thus this infinite assemblage could assume virtually any quality, with simplicity, comes complexity, as everything reflexes.  There could have been one continuous moment forever froze, and not self realized, yet, we breath air in and exhale, while pulsing surges blood in flesh, all of this, to attest to this not being the case.   One can play the story of creation in any fashion one desires, however it is far more likely that a creation never happened, there was no before, there will be no after, only changes in what is happening now.  In the beginning it was now, and that now was the same now that is now also, and it will always be the same now.  One pattern that seems very likely is that at some point matter and energy were more coherent, and the progression is towards more randomness, which would leave the universe as dust. However, we see clouds of protons drawn into the more dense regions forming stars.  It is very likely there are conditions in vast regions of space that defy our comprehension.  Many of these could escape our detection, in particular when we have such limited vision.

There is a dynamic within this moment of now, that will become the next and leave a result.  This result will persist into the moments to come.  This dynamic is a reflux within the scope of the moment, it does not encompass a dimension.  



The concept of a dimension is a contrived and irrational notion that, while utility to a calculation, has no credible validity.  To consider time as dimensional is not at all provable.  This one feels this concept has led us astray in seeing the nature of the working of matter, and kept us from seeing the true nature of energy and spiritual existence.  Now is irrefutable.  The validity of this moment can’t be questioned to much of a degree, your eyes are scanning a document and the brain is processing the information,  perhaps you grow weary and impatient with this reading, as emotional assessments override thoughts.  You are hungry, hot or cold, horny, and your ear itches.  This is all possibly happening within you right now.  The main questions everyone shares are asked by most of us at some point in life.  What is this world we live in?  How is this happening?  What is our purpose, and what is the meaning of our existence? Some of us seek answers from and trust in the standards for religion but once one studies the origins of these illusions and discerns for themselves the degree of validity, they are disenchanted.  It would even seem that god is disenchanted with these.  The pillars of western religion were founded in basis from the original monotheistic religion of Zoralisterism founded by the Persian Zarathustra, who touted the name of god as Azura Mazda.  The most credible portions of the Torah involve the history of Moses, whoever he may have been, it would seem he awoke within him much of the knowledge that will be related herein, and likely even more, since he had only mild difficulty bringing the entire government of Egypt to submission.   

There are ego related attitudes,  as one may feel they have a deep education and thus they know how everything works.



Then, it will be easy for you to live forever, right?  Since one is so filled with modern knowledge they have found all of the answers to every question there is right?  Obviously, if you do have such an education, you have also encountered a mountain of statements in science stating… “We don’t know.“  So what of the “impossible”?  If anything, we have seen this crumble with the dawn of reason and science, yielding technology.  Yet with every discovery comes challenges to attempt to define and formulate some answers.  One set of answer that will be defined here may be even more disturbing to most of a practical nature, due to those points of departure firmly residing in an etheric existence we all seem to want, but also want to deny.   The word is difficult to find in the dictionary, so as such perhaps need to be redefined.  In the 1st rendition of the existence of aether, using the archaic vowel (ӕ), we had speculation of this as a substance that served as a medium for wave propagation.  Experiments performed by contemporary science of the time had clearly shown the presence of wave forms and behaviors associated with waves.  The speculation was that the aether was the medium the waves traveled in.  In the late 1800’s this was disproved by a famous experiment involving an ether wind.  In this work the etheric will be defined as beyond ordinary time, beyond a turning point in the nature of the universe where frequency knows no limit, but light is no longer a limit for speed and mass does not exactly exist.  To us this etheric barely exists, until we feel it and know it is here inside us.  We may also examine a place beyond time as well which is one of the domains for entities of the greatest powers. There is no need for faith in this matter, if you have faith then you will find it more absorbent in your thoughts, if not you well be invited to debate with others who also share


this forage into the places the mind dares to look but the eyes close in fear or disbelief.  This is the point where science and religions butt heads and both fail.  It is a principal reason for this writing, to demonstrate the possibility that there is more than meets the eyes or instrument and that this substance with no substance actually rules the path things take in life, or even in death.

So, here we sit, this one, in this moment of typing on this keypad, trying to relate a point, and you reading and wondering what it will be.  In a manner of speaking I just made this case, if you made an assessment of being in the now.  The animator has a clue as to how this universe moves and changes moment by moment small changes sum up into major ones, every event is occurring within countless billions of atoms that have alignment in some form of unity that eludes us to define unless we add the possibility that there is a source of higher consequence.  In order for there to be a direction of will, volition, intent, creativity, imagination, anticipation, or even reflex, there must be some substantial factor that moves beyond the pace of events and in some special cases sees beyond events.  Now, is exactly what it is, now is everywhere there is an observer and everywhere there is not.  It has a dynamic within the scope of an event moment and that is the subject of this work, that being, the exact nature of this dynamic.  


CHAPTER  I - DEFINITIONS OF TIME.

The origin of this path begins as we examine our thoughts about time.  It would be proper to claim as an assertion that there is only one verifiable time, one “now“.  Any large scale projection into time is not provable, nor can it be documented in a scientific manner.  The possibility of variance in the scope and scale of now is, however, a definite consideration.  Based on perspective and influences within the smallest scale possible, very small projections in either direction of time can be ascertained with more accuracy.  The definition of now in this case is very specific, as this is an absolute.

The current methodology of considering time as a dimension, is not specific enough to deal with the events at the particle level, when one is considering sub-atomic and energy field structures.  In analogy, use of dimensional time theory in sub atomic structures, is equivalent to trying to fix your car by staring at it.  The temporal dynamic method allows us to get our hands dirty, but hopefully, produces a result.  What proof of a dimension of time could ever exist?  Since this theory relies on our assumptions that there is a projectile future and a tangible past?  In order to make this assertion one has to extrapolate, postulate, and theorize that there is this vague place called the future.  One also is asked to assume that there is a past.  We are completely powerless to make this assessment.  All possible vectors become mentally intriguing, however one is not assured of any linearity.  History is only recorded by physical manifestations in the now.  If we ever do invent the future seeing camera, we will all want one, and we will all fear it.   The dimensional time concept is very accepting of the now, in the time line now is the zero point between future and past.  We, as beings, can perceive both aspects both aspects of time as a common experience, yet we are powerless to change anything, for us everything just happens.  There is another aspect of life that lies beyond time, its presence is very much part of everyone, but due to the subtle nature, it remains generally ignored, etheric matter and energy, which allows us to think, create, and feel.  The tendency to separate and categorize are basic tenants of science, thus the method led us to miss the importance of the unity of everything.  In a world with only one now, one substance, and one aspect, we can then begin to define by understanding the mechanisms how the observed processes occur, the properties observed can be viewed as divisional aspects, but are really only part of a whole.

Regardless of possible debates over the nature of dimensional time being real of not, it has dominated our thoughts in all matters since the concept was introduced, and that is the fundamental difference of this approach to dealing with events, this method is more specific.   This dimensional precept of time was first purposed by Peter D. Ouspensky in the middle of the 1800’s.  Ouspensky in his book Tertium Organum, outlined the concept of possible dimensions as if each was a separate existence.  The idea of a 4th dimension was immediately well received by physicists of the period, as it lent itself well to mathematics and calculations for the newly forming thermodynamics theories.  One should know that the schools of that element are to be admired and worthy of some consideration, as they were very close to some real answers, especially for the age in which they lived. (referring to the occult schools of Gurdjieff, from which Ouspensky seemed to always feel superior.)  

Another aspect of dimensional time theory is that is does have accuracy as a model of events, lending a strong case for credibility.  The tragedy of this however, to anyone trying to develop a deeper understanding of how matter actually works, and in association with this, the reality of existence, is that the dimensions are not real.  Interesting to note that the model was so accurate to the actual world that it allowed Einstein to speculate matter being made from energy in his theories of the relativity of time.  Yet he was perplexed in the inability to know more as well, thus showing the limit of the model.  The fact that he was stuck in a dilemma of perplexity shows the level of aggravation caused the community by this concept of dimensions.  It is a wonderful theory that has helped change our modern world and increased our insight.  The concept has usefulness in many calculations should not be abandoned entirely, but for the purpose of this investigation we will set this aside, becoming more specific.  A very subtle difference in choosing a view, the whole of existence could be considered in this dimensional fashion but it only becomes a forced precept.  The popularly of this theory is accepted and taught universally which is also why alternative models have gone unconsidered.  It is very much like music, the western framework of tones set fourth by Pythagoras, defines music, yet in Polynesia it does not.  Being absolutely specific and as insistent as nature is, let us look only at the verifiable nature of time, and thus becoming specific as well.                 

We can only verify the practical notion of now, this moment no matter how small the scale, can be specified.  Now, at the smallest possible scale, would be for practical use, the scale of sub-atomic particles.  We also realize that matter is energy and that energy behaves as a wave form.  These two aspects are owed to the dimensional thinkers.  We do not however have much of an idea of what energy is, only the properties of it, and the interactions of energy with matter and the fields matter generates.  Wouldn't energy behave as a wave in a particle?  Certainly, from observational experiments,  there is every indication that this is true, as we can obtain the release of photon packets with definite wave characteristics.  So, how can a packet of energy be a wave, yet also exhibit the characteristics of a particle?  The photon, would look like this figure 1, to some degree, of course this is only a diagrammed representation.  Photons are, as we know through study, of a solitary frequency, and normally travel in random phasing, at light speed.  We also know that they are influenced by gravity, indicating a possible mass, and will take the shortest path through a medium to maintain the speed.  Other properties include that they are absorbed, reflected, and emitted by matter.  These are the thermodynamic kinetic properties of photons.  

Introducing a new concept of temporal dynamics involves this question: "How can this wave be a particle?"  Let our considerations involves how we define time.  In the very strict
sense there is only one tangible point of time that can be considered with certainty, we will refer to this point as !NOW!   Defining this as the absolute moment with no range at all.  Therefore !NOW!  becomes an infinity of proximity surrounded by a lesser period of uncertainty.  This point is at the very center of the dimensional time line.

Becoming a matter of scale, proximity to the precise moment
is only approached, kinetic events would reach absolute zero, as every event freezes to a complete stop.  Armed with this as a model, one begins to see the aspects of this dynamic of time. 

A fundamental rule or LAW of temporal dynamics: No part of matter or energy ever occupies the same exact space from one !NOW! to the next, everything is in motion.   All points of the universe have thus far proven to be in relative motion to another, every mass has some degree of spin and is in motion to some degree in relation to a greater mass.  Perhaps as we explore this dynamic we can determine why.  It needs to be noted that as the absolute !NOW! would freeze time forever.  The emphatic motion of everything breaks this hold, !NOW! however, holds infinite potential at the very core of it, revealing an interface with another level of existence.   As an assumption of a more esoteric nature one could think, this is the method that god uses to discover himself in answer to the quest, who/what am I?  As far fetched as this sounds, this one would beg you to recognize this, you have a mind with some limit of mental prowess, expand this notion to understand all of these processes are not within the realm of the physical mass that is you, there is a greater form of ourselves which is beyond or within !NOW!. 

We are as beings in part entity, and part flesh, we dwell in this house but it is not all of what we are or does it represent all of our possibility.  We have at hand the ability to become more and develop into something by means of metamorphosis of the soul.  As we look at this diagram of compression into the infinite (Fig.2) one could think of 2 possible outcomes, one is that this leads to nowhere and is merely a compression to a very small point.  Or two, this is a path to another greater region with more expansive properties that is by this definition part of every moment, riding close to us in every aspect of life and existence.  This author is a huge fan of the latter description, however is reluctant to refer to this existential realm as a dimension, but rather the greater aspect of this world. If you find that as impossible, then perhaps your mind is too closed and this discussion will be wasted upon you. 

In figure 2, one may note the bottom line showing time in the 2 aspects of future and past and have an “ah hah” moment, relating to dimensional thinking, while this can’t be argued against, these vectors are within the scope of uncertainty of the moment.  The regions of past and future in this case are limited in scope to the scale of the determination in consideration, and are allegorical to the mathematical concept of the point as part of a line.  The 2 aspects are forever present in our reality creating the pressure that reflexes on any substance as moment by moment our vibrations project the next event.  However, this realm of past and future is part of another aspect that one is cautious to define as a dimension because it has more qualities than merely a measurable thing.  The future and past here are the result of the motion which forces the point to move on.  One requires that the reader push on for the moment and consider further postulations before approaching this discussion at this point.  The actual point of figure 2, is to demonstrate the assent into absolute !NOW! 

As we look at this assent into smaller considerations of time one begins to realize that if this was not to ever reach a limit then how would time ever progress?  Also in correlation to this one can see that as the limit is approached similar to a black hole, one would imagine nearly unlimited energy associated to this assent.  So the ability to hold to the center is formed allowing the energy packets traveling at light speed to suddenly stop and be absorbed.   This has always seemed amazing, how can a point so small it nearly defies detection, suddenly absorb something traveling at light speed?  Then in an equal feat of superpower, emit the same energy by merely causing a chemical reaction as in a fire?  Yes the discussions of a chemistry class come to mind, but really think upon this, is this not truly incredible?  There has to be a store of potential energy approaching infinity to allow these common occurrences to take place.  The atom is rapidly approaching superhero status, but how is it possible?  There has to be some glue here that is beyond our current scope of detection, force that has extreme potential.  It is then beyond our framework and yet it is our frame work.  Thus, this world is a subset of a greater realm.  We have been told this forever, every culture has been aware of this.  Perhaps it is not just the superstitious rants of men from our ancient villages, who consumed power plants and had incredible visions, while their bodies lay on the edge of death, and survived to say… “don’t eat that stuff for lunch”.  Yet this is where our developmental journey began, we did have those visions.  Our society tries to ignore them as madness, we want a safe world, yet where is that safety?  Leave this book for a moment and make an effort, take a drive or a walk to a graveyard.  Go sit there, and look at the graves, spend some time.  Then come back.  

Are you back now?  What did you experience, maybe you felt something or had some sensations.  If you are gifted at all, maybe you had some visions of your own to explain.  Some of us wouldn’t even want to go, already sensing fears relating to this place of death.  Yes, quite often, there really are spirits there.  If you felt the morbidity of it all then yes, it is.  They wanted a nice safe life too, just like you.  Now, if you are seeking to live, keep reading, we need to solve some problems to resolve this issue of death, because it comes far too soon for most of us to do any real work on ourselves, and far too many of us are silly minded, thinking we can just go on until we pass away.   If you think this is ok, go back to the graveyard and sit some more…

As extreme as this my be, so is life, we shall not take it for granted at the best of moments.  We all live on an edge, in our daily lives.  So what will become of us?  There is still such an unsettling feeling in the midst of the dead.  This should tell us that they are in some state of regret.  This work will go forward to explain how this relates to time.





Chapter II - Time, Space, and Charge.

When we think of time, we usually have questions that come to mind, such as, what time is it, or what time will it be?  Science generally makes use of time to create the base line of a graph, involving some type of clock, or as part of a calculation.   Another manner in which to think of time is elapsed distance.  Since everything is in motion, time could be viewed as elapsed distance.  In the case of the most common use for measuring time, a clock, the hands movement on the dial represents the rotation of the Earth.  The distance method can also be used for measuring subatomic temporal events.  Producing an interesting event map, as the future attracts the event to begin the action, and the past elapsing to complete it, !NOW! is a point at the center of travel.  Referring to figure 2 from chapter one, one can see that figure 2 is exactly that type of map.  This is similar to the dimensional thought of time but requires us to pause to consider that the base consideration in this case is distance of travel.  

In reality, the only method that has ever been used to measure time, is the distance per a fixed rate of travel.  An interesting point of view is wither or not time is in fact consistent.  The concept of the second is in fact a rate relative to fixed space, but what is unknown about this rate is if it could change in some fashion nearly imperceptible.  The notion of time as a single event cycle at a fundamental level is not a bad one, but one can still not be entirely certain of the consistency of time.  If time itself produces a fluctuation we would not be able to discern this in any fashion by measurement.  However we may still sense this occurrence, when we see time is dragging along, while other times it is just going too quickly, this could well be a real thing where our bodies are telling us what the clock does not.  Thus we look at 2 senses of time, one where time is a fixed unwavering constant, or one where time has a current and things beyond our comprehension are acting upon it.  Just as an amount of distance is measured but is in reality comprised of an infinite number of points between the start point and the end point, so is this true for time.  This is why it has been thought of as a dimension, however, if we are to gain the unique knowledge of the true nature of matter and energy we need to think very specifically.

There is another aspect that needs to be considered as well, fixed space.  This would serve as a reference point for the event during which time has elapsed.  Each point of fixed space is not in motion at all, and would be at the center of the !NOW! for the period that !NOW! passed through the fixed space.  An interesting thought about this process, is that there seems to be a point where the scale of the moment yields to physical reality, allowing time to slip off into the next point.  The !NOW! point would move from one point of fixed space to the next as the motion of everything is applied.  To map the movement from one point of fixed space to another would produce a time path, this would be used to cover a very specific event.  Fixed space can also be inclusive of an area or region, these areas passed by the moment on the time path may be thought of as historical space, while the regions ahead of the time path would be anticipated space.  

Eventually, as we consider how our personal path through fixed space would look, we see that our journey is a matter of scale.  In the same fashion as we peer into the subatomic, we are just as insignificant as one observes the motion of the Earth from a point beyond the solar system.  A point on a wheel in motion creates a wave in the trace of it’s path, thus our lives here are waves on a time path in space, and all of our motions and activities are deviations in this wave, like an amplitude modulation of it, in the sense of considering our time path.

To clarify this law of constant motion, lets consider ourselves.  One would hope you are somewhat comfortable at the time of reading this manifest, providing it becomes a published document, and you found a copy at the weird books store.  Now, you are sitting on the bus heading uptown on the way to work.  The coffee is a bit too bitter this morning but it is hot and somewhat palatable, and has become a morning addiction, as has the reading of weird books.  We have established your motion relative to the surrounding city.  You notice that the sun is finally coming up.  Nights are long when you spend the majority of your time reading, in the winter.  The Earth is about 8,000 miles, 12,800 km in diameter, this is the entire width.  Some simple mathematics c=πd, circumference is found by multiplying the factor pi times the diameter.  This is fairly common knowledge, the earth at the equator, is about 24,000 miles in diameter.   If you want to calculate your rate of travel in Minnesota on the way to work at 3M, you will need to use a bit of trigonometry.  Using your latitude and providing the sin function to calculate your position, find the portion of diameter, then divide this by 24 hours.  Okay, it will work like this, say you are at the 45° parallel, on this bus.  Take that degree number times the sin of 45° which is 0.7071, times 4000 miles of the Earth’s radius, which is 2828, then double this amount to 5656 miles, multiply this by pi, to get 17771 miles that you journey every day with hardly any noticing, divide by 24 hours and you are traveling just below the sound barrier at 740 miles per hour. (Refer to FIGURE 3, the formula below  incorporates 2/2=1)  So, you were worried about the jerky motion of the bus spilling your coffee?  

Diameter of Earth(8000 miles) x (sin 45°) x π=17771 miles.

This is small time compared to other motions we are all on, we are zinging around the sun at a whopping 66,000 miles per hour.  93,000,000 miles x 2 x π/ 365.24 days/24 hours = 66661 mph. ( See Figure 4 )  The sun is taking the entire solar system on a journey as well, and so is the Milky Way galaxy.  This may seem amazing but you are whizzing along at a small percentage of light speed, yet as you pass by the park, the lake is calm and still as glass this morning.

As the bus progresses take a second to look out the window, as we all have done periodically, you see things coming towards you and others passing by.  The buildings and trees in the distance in any direction appear to change slowly.  If you look at the ground as close to the bus as possible there is a point that blurs where you will be unable to focus.  If you could see below your feet there would be a pattern of continuously less resolvable vision as we are coming closer to the exact moment we are in.   The degree of inability to resolve our vision is dependent on the rate of travel, our minds cannot process the amount of information they are receiving.  This only becomes worse as the rate of travel increases, which is something one begins to experience at extreme rates of travel close to the ground, as does a fighter pilot making a low pass over a body of clear space like a lake.

93,000,000mi. x 2 x π / 365.24 days / 24 hours = 66661 mph

When considering the smallest of event cycles, one needs to consider charge.  The atom has produced more mystery than it has given answers as to how it behaves.  Consider what would happen if a circumstance could be related to time, like charge.  Considering charge as either future or past, relative to the uncertainty surrounding the exact moment.  The more credence one allows this notion, the more other aspects of the structure can now be explained.  

Another aspect of charge relating to time is wither or not waves only occur in amplitude flux of charge, or if they can be purely a vibration, or as a third possibility the nature of them would be completely unknown.   It may be possible that charge is a condition that is not the make up of the particle, but is rather the net condition of it.  This is a deep question, perhaps the depth of it all, what is the material it is made of?  As this discussion progresses, we may find that this answer becomes more confused than resolved.  There is always going to be some level of unknown, no matter how far we peer into the depth of the knowable.  What does seem inescapable is the existence of a material that is the core of everything, it can be dismantled into many forms but continues in some fashion endlessly.  This has been termed as energy, however energy is a condition, not the actual substance, thus an old term will be given this definition here as the substance that is molded into energy particles and massive particles, referring to this as ether.  In the late 19th century and early 20th, ether was viewed as a substance that filled the universe like water in an ocean, thus waves propagated through this material, it was later disproved by the famous Michelson - Morley experiment.  In this case the term is being evoked as a similar substance but rather it is the content of the wave bundle than a field of substance around them.

Aether would be defined as have the properties of accepting Newton's Laws of Motion completely, thus validating the principles of thermodynamics.  Once placed into a motion the material in what ever form amassed, continues on as this thing.  Likewise once pressured into time, the substance stays in this pose until some force is able to resolve it to the middle ground of !Now!.

One of the true mysteries of the structure of the atom, involves the forces between the nucleus and the orbital fields.  Beginning with the absorption of photons resulting in a greater kinetic state. Also, the relationship of electrons as they become stimulated towards plasma is unknown.  Another is the cascading effect, which is the manner in which photon emission of a gas occurs.  A key point of interest involving subatomic structure is the reason for absorption and emission of energy at specific frequencies, which give raise to the definite possibility that events within the subatomic structure are frequency specific  as well.  Many other aspects of chemical and sub atomic structures may become illuminated such as molecular bonding, crystal structure, Van der Waals force,  and ligand fields, once we apply this time based model.

Let us consider the possible events.  Defining any event occurring in the future territory ahead of !NOW! as positive in charge, events with very close proximity of the !NOW! moment would be considered as neutral charge, and the past would be negative charge.  (Note that this is not electrical charge, at this point, but rather atomic particle wave charge.)   One should note that while the particle is a cyclic wave involving complexities of harmonics this entire cycle can occur in a variance of the degree of it’s position in time.  One cannot reject the possibility that the flux occurring within the cycle of it is charge related, but is more of a pure vibration occurring as the particle is pressured by the law of constant motion.  Thus we see the Uncertainty Principle has a deeper role than Heisenberg had foreseen based on models of dimensional time, however bravo Sir you were very correct!
 

Beginning with the neutral charge, a friend once emphasized the existence of a neutralizing force.  This requires us to make some long and deliberate considerations.  The word force involves action, yet neutral has exactly the opposing effect.  So this neutralizing force would be the point between the future and past, any parts closer to !Now! will have less potential.  So particles that are positive would have waves dwelling on one side of this point, while the negative would inhabit the other side of it.  With perspective to mass the closer to the moment a particle wave is the more massive it becomes, thus a neutron is the heavy weight in the subatomic realm.  The proton is a positive charge particle wave that has made a very short venture towards the future, and thus has relatively more mass, due to the fact that reaching into the future is not an easy task and this particle has not moved too far from the exact moment of !NOW! at all.  The electron has the luxury of occupying known space in the past, it is able to languish in history for a while and resides further from the moment and thus has nearly no mass.  This idea alone, makes this model intriguing as a method to view these processes.  One more thing that can be said about mass is that even with the neutron settling at the center of the moment, and it’s relative size as small as it is, the wave activity is still present thus letting us know how very much smaller the exact moment is, by virtue of the fact that when approached all motion would stop.

In this discussion thus far we have seen the exact moment of !NOW! as type of black hole, freezing all motion at the very center.  It really can’t be drawn or represented well.  If we could make an imaginary journey to it, the voyage would be like traveling to a distant galaxy.  In so doing, we would become more dense as we also become increasingly more compact.  Since all motion is trying to stop, our kinetics would stop, as would any form of motion.  It might become like a tunnel taking us to another place entirely, to the source.  This almost sounded like accounts from near death experiences, didn’t it?  There is some logic to the idea that upon death, one would, therefore cease activity in time and make this very journey into that exact point.  The soul would experience the massive version of this journey as billions of etheric atoms leave time.

Something must be incredibly small yet extremely powerful to trap the energy of a proton and neutron in the nucleus and hold it to the center, while radiating a field of unknown energy that creates the orbital fields of electrons comparatively far away.  This force then creates chemical bonding, crystal structure, and Van der Waals force allowing aqueous solutions, and complex ion formation, thus ultimately responsible for ligand fields and life.  In terms of scale, the outer fields of the neon atom, and others, which produce the cascades of light we know so well in casino signs, are a vast, nearly astronomical distance from the nucleus.  In chemical bonds of molecules this distance is even greater, but the greatest reach of this force involves ligand fields, and magnetism.  Beyond all of this are effects not explained or even really explainable, gravity, and mental energies of thought and emotions.   This will also be discussed as this treatise continues.  Repeating, that while this work may or may not be correct, it is an offering of another possibility, to expand our knowledge. 

The positive force lays just ahead in time, it is more of an aspect of the neutral, than separate from it, but since it lays beyond the exact moment of !NOW!, it could be on a wave form like the one in Figure 1 of chapter 1.  Given the nature of waves, one part is phased positive in respect to the opposing.  Counter to the positive is the negative, however this can also occur on once side of the neutral, this being more, then less positive.  In the case of these particles this is very much the manner of operation.  As the particle is thrust into the next fixed space the future portion finds this aspect first, reaching into virgin space for it’s journey.  

The most convincing portion of this idea of time based charge, involves yet another unsolved mystery of nature.  The proton is positive and attracts the negative electrons, it is also believed that a neutron contains an electron, so why do electrons orbit so far from the nucleus?  Consider  that if the particles are involved with time based charge, then they do not inhabit the same exact time.  The rays of proto-magnetism must travel in time to meet up with the electrons.  This is why we see the layered effect of electron shells.  These orbital shells have been well documented through the intricate understanding of chemistry and chemical bonds.  The electron shells are spherical, however as they progress a region of “piscus vices” the overlapping of spheres in this case 4, these 4 nodes are tetrahedral in axis.  As this study progresses we shall see that this number is representative of the number of nodes the standing waves contains and thus occurs consistently.

All of this is coincidental to the internal structure of the nucleus, as atoms build structure they require the role of a neutron to be stable, one can readily see that like charges repel thus the combination of both charges in the neutron makes for a strong attraction.  Thus also indicating that the neutron is a dual aspect particle with both charge factors in separate aspects yet bonded, this was illustrated by Thoth's Emerald Tablet which displays a two intersecting tetrahedrons 180 degrees opposed in axis, indicating the phase of each is in opposition.  Thoth, (Photh) a God of Egypt, made claim to being a survivor of Atlantis.  The ancients from research recently revealed by the ability to read the most ancient of texts, held a vast knowledge of the inner working of matter and a higher technology as a result, thus if to them this aspect was of the ulitamte importance then it should be given a good consideration by this work as well.  As this is the doorway to yet an even closer approach within.
 
As nature builds atomic structures for each chemical element, certain rules are forming involving the presence of neutrons, which seem to be the glue that allows for the fusion of matter.  When hydrogen is amassed in a vast quantity the collection of it causes gravity to force density.  We see this at work in our star Sol, the sun.  Known as the carbon cycle the route to fusion of carbon has been charted, then disregarded and changed to the CNO cycle.  When anyone discusses fusion it is like going against the declared policies of the King, the torture will commence shortly.  If you can make fusion impossible there are funds available, if you make it possible, they have ways to declare it impossible.  Politics of this age are the factor of darkness that is dragging us into the dirt.  For those who would like to hear this, this work is purely fictional.

Neutrons are made when the kinetic force involved is extreme and pressure is so high that the proximity is also forced.  Heat of great intensity can cause the particles to vibrate, which brings them to a close point in time, as each is reaching a greater than normal amount. 

Neutron formation is critical to the more complex atoms forming.  Our star makes abundant amounts of carbon and oxygen, and stars are a source for the basic chemicals found in space.  Some dense and massive stars emit huge quantities of high velocity neutrons given a verifiable and reasonable proof that neutrons form during fusion.  These chemicals are flung from the stars surface and possibly interior also as plasma eventually finding electrons to become stable matter.  Much of this matter has come to land upon Earth, and makes up a good amount of this world’s composition. 

The Earth also partakes in this process, with in the core of the planet there are forces of heat and pressure sufficient for fusion to occur, once again this process is involved with time, therefore, there are threshold events for fusion, but transmutation can occur at lower levels given the proper states and time.

At this point we shall look at models of possible structures for particles based on temporal charge.  The educated reader may have set this reading aside by now thinking that all of this is too far fetched, and admittedly it is a radical departure from the classical view of energy and matter.  If it makes you feel more comfortable, then consider that the 4th dimension has been applied to the 3 dimensional models you know.  This is not however accurate, the time in consideration here is merely a duration of uncertainty in very close proximity to the precise moment.  To state this in another manner, we are discussing the proximity of the events to the exact moment of time.  Now there are theories that have been hard wrought that show the processes occurring in a very different fashion, but this fine we are taking another view.  The first level of energy to become anything close to massive is a photon.  There is a change which occurs in the frequency of energy as it ascends the scale.  This has long been a topic of discussion and will become a chapter in this work also.  The change is sourced in where the origin of the energy is found.  Each step of emission comes from a deeper source as we climb the frequency scale.  Emissions from the electron shells are photons, as these emissions increase in frequency they become even more compact and massive to some degree.  Money intensive efforts have driven institutions, with huge calculations behind every effort, to disassemble matter by smashing it to bits and see what it is made of.  Ever give a complicated toy and a hammer to a 4 year old, then later try to figure out that it was a plastic fire truck?  They do the same thing with vastly expensive machines, there is of course a lot of valuable research going on, for star drive engines and death rays etc.  This path is not going to prove very productive, but maybe you got a PHD in hammers?  The partials that occur when you smash a proton is something remnant from the wave of it.  We are not dealing with collisions at near light speed as impressive as it may be, real matter is normally in a more stable configuration. 

Now to alleviate any doubts about this concept being "real" or needing proof, as already stated above, the electron shells exist as a result of the journey higher harmonics from the nucleus and protons in particular make, THE "RAYS" MUST TRAVEL IN TIME TO MEET THE ELECTRONS, THEREFORE THE RESULT IS THE DISTANCE BETWEEN ORBITS AND NUCLEUS.  If anyone can find any other possible explanation...?

To become a full particle of matter it has structure, it is in itself a wave, a standing wave in a spherical cycle.  If you do possess the PHD, then you are perhaps very aware of the nature of standing waves, but for those who just like reading weird books, a standing wave is normally considered in sound and acoustics.  A simple case for one is the column of air in a pipe organ pipe, or a string plucked on a harp.  A primary characteristic of a standing wave is that there are harmonic overtones that occur allowing us to hear the rich fullness of tone.  If you have ever played music of any type you know harmonics, they are key to a system that uses sound to evoke change.  

Wave mechanics are at the very core of this method, and we will discuss them excessively in later parts of this work.  This has been repeated several time so far, however some aspects need to be mentioned now, but in an effort to not digress into too many threads of discussion the depth of many subjects will be tabled for another portion of the book.

This image depicted in Figure 5, is merely a computer generated diagram of a fractal, but it may be very close to the actual look of the standing wave of a particle.  These frequencies are very high, cosmic waves are high energy photons, the frequency of a proton would be much higher.  Electrons are much lower as they are able to absorb light, and emit it as well.  The fact is no one will know these exact answers until investigation begins in this direction.  This involves new methodology.  Relating these concepts at this stage is little more than a fantasy, one can see scientific heads nodding in agreement,  but your curiosity is sparked or you would have moved on.  The cycle wave or particle wave has possible properties that allow for lower frequencies to occur in the form.  A photon is the basic wave unit looking like figure 6, they are quite fluffy in mass as are their parents of the electron.

The wave of a photon travels like a warping disk.

electrons.  It can be argued that electrons are made of groups of photons, but as we discuss the nature of waves in cyclic form we may adjust this point of view.  Figure 6 shows a photon as a simple particle wave.  It likely travels as a warping disk being push-pulled by time as it makes its way.   While some light is man made most comes from stars, like the sun.  Each photon is specific to the atom that made it.  Most come from plasma which occurs when the electrons are partially stripped from the nucleus by energy.  The remaining electrons absorb energy from heat in the occurring event of the pressure in the star then jump up into a vacant higher shell.  When they have the chance to return to their orbit or perhaps jump to another atom they release a packet of light. 

Man first made light in small sparks by striking stones, he probably thought it was like the power of the gods who threw lightning from the clouds.  He was forcing electrons to give up light along with a good deal of heat, and due to an effect called piezoelectric some electrons moved too.  Perhaps even before this early man experienced a static shock and saw sparks from that also.  Surely early man immediately demanded huge tribute to study the issue and began smashing things with stone hammers until the sparks flew.  The same intrepid primitive researcher later caught his cave on fire thus inventing fire.  Man used these sparks to make fire and keep himself safe from predators in the night.  The skills of making fire allowed him to survive the ice ages.  Man begun to use fire for leisure time ventures in the arts drawing on cave walls then demanding huge tribute, but settling for a roasted wing of duck. 

From ancient text that have recently been unveiled, man may have caused the last ice age on Earth.   Some among us suffer from an illness that is sanctioned by society but causes wars and suffering.   They lust for everything, power, greed, and control, men such as these caused the Great War. 

Substances are particular to frequencies, so much so that science uses the absorption and reflection of light frequencies to analyze chemical composition with great accuracy.  This tells us that the electrons themselves have frequency specific properties, as one would suspect is also true of the inner portions of the atom.

Another thing of interest is mass, defining some conclusive understanding of what mass is in regards to time.  The most massive particle is a neutron.  By the definition of this particle being neutral it would be stationed over the middle of the moment and therefore contain !NOW! energy. 

We have perhaps carried from antiquity several symbols of a very early culture that may have once had off world contacts,  obviously this book could be filled with this argument, let us assume that it is possible and move forward.  The Star of David, if made 3 dimensional (Figure 7) would satisfy the framework of a neutron.  One will not likely trace the origin of this symbol, there is a factor of this planet’s anthropology and psychology that seeks to destroy any trace of higher possibilities for mankind, and has erased much of the known for political gain that edges madness.  Moses possessed great knowledge, and one could speculate that this very subject was well in his command.  Those who wield this power have left those around them groveling in the sand.

The reason the triangle is used relates to the Aramaic traditions, when something is portrayed as 2 dimensional in a drawing or painting, the meaning is implied that it is of the higher realm.  The 3 dimensional figure is difficult to draw, thus it is implied that this form is one of depth.  The relationship of this diagram to a neutron is not readily evident nor is the relationship of this part of matter to god, one needs to understand the deeper functions within all matter to see this.  The cyclic wave form has 4 nodes, the two counter opposing waves are interlocked indeed very hard to draw so two tetrahedrons are used to depict this formation.  Figure 8, without an intentional pun, shows the relationship between the cyclic wave and the tetrahedron.

Tetrahedral formation within the wave.

Drawing even one wave is difficult thus the tetrahedron helps with representing a cyclic particle wave, making this matter even worse to artistically render is the fact that a particle is filled by harmonics and we are back to the computer generated fractal image in Figure 5.  Points 1 and 2, are more situated in the future and are opposed in character.  Points 3 and 4 are more in the past and also opposed in character, from one cycle to the next they will trade places with respect to time.  The apparent frequency and the actual are not the same, the trace we see by our methods is influenced by the travel of light speed, yielding a wavelength measured by interferometer.   The calculated wavelength does not reflect the frequency in the packet, but rather only a trace of it.  The information is good, however the photon size needs to be determined to find the actual frequency within the photon packet.  This will be a higher number as the wave length of the packet is shorter than the trace.

The Mage used simple diagrams and it was assumed that the fellow practitioner understood the significance.  It was a time of deep understanding, not unlike this time, all of the best intentions are ripped from those with the sight, and used against men by those who cannot stop their animal minds.  The Great Society will never allow aggression to continue into the void, men should heed the lesson of the flood, albeit long forgotten.  The whole world remembers, many of us are reborn from this time, or maybe it is just a spirit that lingers to possess.   At times this one remembers in dreams.

These symbols will serve in the discussion.

The dot represents the center of time the arrow showing direction.  The electron has no dot as it also has no center but is nearly free of mass flinging about in the past. 

A point of distinction between the particles is to make note of the separate properties of each aspect.  If you place a speaker near a bowl of jello, the surface would vibrate if the sound amplitude is strong enough, thus the substance vibrating can be inert, thus while responding to the energy from events it is not in itself the energy.  Likewise with charge, this same substance could achieve a charge without being the charge itself.  The unique quality of ether is that once a stress of any type has applied to it the quality continues to infinity, unless it encounters an altering stress to change the quality.  This is part of a beautiful design by which heaven and earth are merged.   The closer to the moment a mass is the more mass it attains.  Thus the neutral charged neutron is the most massive since it virtually straddles the moment.  The Proton is pressured to the future by virtue of its structure, however it is not able to leave the moment by a very great margin and therefore has mass.  The electron however has the luxury of lounging about in the past, in known territory, and as Heisenberg’s principle of uncertainty attests the place the electron resides is not certain.



 

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CHAPTER  I - DEFINITIONS OF TIME.

The origin of this path begins as we examine our thoughts about time.  It would be proper to claim as an assertion that there is only one verifiable time, one “now“.  Any large scale projection into time is not provable, nor can it be documented in a scientific manner.  The possibility of variance in the scope and scale of now is, however, a definite consideration.  Based on perspective and influences within the smallest scale possible, very small projections in either direction of time can be ascertained with more accuracy.  The definition of now in this case is very specific, as this is an absolute.

The current methodology of considering time as a dimension, is not specific enough to deal with the events at the particle level, when one is considering sub-atomic and energy field structures.  In analogy, use of dimensional time theory in sub atomic structures, is equivalent to trying to fix your car by staring at it.  The temporal dynamic method allows us to get our hands dirty, but hopefully, produces a result.  What proof of a dimension of time could ever exist?  Since this theory relies on our assumptions that there is a projectile future and a tangible past?  In order to make this assertion one has to extrapolate, postulate, and theorize that there is this vague place called the future.  One also is asked to assume that there is a past.  We are completely powerless to make this assessment.  All possible vectors become mentally intriguing, however one is not assured of any linearity.  History is only recorded by physical manifestations in the now.  If we ever do invent the future seeing camera, we will all want one, and we will all fear it.   The dimensional time concept is very accepting of the now, in the time line now is the zero point between future and past.  We, as beings, can perceive both aspects both aspects of time as a common experience, yet we are powerless to change anything, for us everything just happens.  There is another aspect of life that lies beyond time, its presence is very much part of everyone, but due to the subtle nature, it remains generally ignored, etheric matter and energy, which allows us to think, create, and feel.  The tendency to separate and categorize are basic tenants of science, thus the method led us to miss the importance of the unity of everything.  In a world with only one now, one substance, and one aspect, we can then begin to define by understanding the mechanisms how the observed processes occur, the properties observed can be viewed as divisional aspects, but are really only part of a whole.

Regardless of possible debates over the nature of dimensional time being real of not, it has dominated our thoughts in all matters since the concept was introduced, and that is the fundamental difference of this approach to dealing with events, this method is more specific.   This dimensional precept of time was first purposed by Peter D. Ouspensky in the middle of the 1800’s.  Ouspensky in his book Tertium Organum, outlined the concept of possible dimensions as if each was a separate existence.  The idea of a 4th dimension was immediately well received by physicists of the period, as it lent itself well to mathematics and calculations for the newly forming thermodynamics theories.  One should know that the schools of that element are to be admired and worthy of some consideration, as they were very close to some real answers, especially for the age in which they lived. (referring to the occult schools of Gurdjieff, from which Ouspensky seemed to always feel superior.)  

Another aspect of dimensional time theory is that is does have accuracy as a model of events, lending a strong case for credibility.  The tragedy of this however, to anyone trying to develop a deeper understanding of how matter actually works, and in association with this, the reality of existence, is that the dimensions are not real.  Interesting to note that the model was so accurate to the actual world that it allowed Einstein to speculate matter being made from energy in his theories of the relativity of time.  Yet he was perplexed in the inability to know more as well, thus showing the limit of the model.  The fact that he was stuck in a dilemma of perplexity shows the level of aggravation caused the community by this concept of dimensions.  It is a wonderful theory that has helped change our modern world and increased our insight.  The concept has usefulness in many calculations should not be abandoned entirely, but for the purpose of this investigation we will set this aside, becoming more specific.  A very subtle difference in choosing a view, the whole of existence could be considered in this dimensional fashion but it only becomes a forced precept.  The popularly of this theory is accepted and taught universally which is also why alternative models have gone unconsidered.  It is very much like music, the western framework of tones set fourth by Pythagoras, defines music, yet in Polynesia it does not.  Being absolutely specific and as insistent as nature is, let us look only at the verifiable nature of time, and thus becoming specific as well.                 

We can only verify the practical notion of now, this moment no matter how small the scale, can be specified.  Now, at the smallest possible scale, would be for practical use, the scale of sub-atomic particles.  We also realize that matter is energy and that energy behaves as a wave form.  These two aspects are owed to the dimensional thinkers.  We do not however have much of an idea of what energy is, only the properties of it, and the interactions of energy with matter and the fields matter generates.  Wouldn't energy behave as a wave in a particle?  Certainly, from observational experiments,  there is every indication that this is true, as we can obtain the release of photon packets with definite wave characteristics.  So, how can a packet of energy be a wave, yet also exhibit the characteristics of a particle?  The photon, would look like this figure 1, to some degree, of course this is only a diagrammed representation.  Photons are, as we know through study, of a solitary frequency, and normally travel in random phasing, at light speed.  We also know that they are influenced by gravity, indicating a possible mass, and will take the shortest path through a medium to maintain the speed.  Other properties include that they are absorbed, reflected, and emitted by matter.  These are the thermodynamic kinetic properties of photons.  

Introducing a new concept of temporal dynamics involves this question: "How can this wave be a particle?"  Let our considerations involves how we define time.  In the very strict
sense there is only one tangible point of time that can be considered with certainty, we will refer to this point as !NOW!   Defining this as the absolute moment with no range at all.  Therefore !NOW!  becomes an infinity of proximity surrounded by a lesser period of uncertainty.  This point is at the very center of the dimensional time line.

Becoming a matter of scale, proximity to the precise moment
is only approached, kinetic events would reach absolute zero, as every event freezes to a complete stop.  Armed with this as a model, one begins to see the aspects of this dynamic of time. 

A fundamental rule or LAW of temporal dynamics: No part of matter or energy ever occupies the same exact space from one !NOW! to the next, everything is in motion.   All points of the universe have thus far proven to be in relative motion to another, every mass has some degree of spin and is in motion to some degree in relation to a greater mass.  Perhaps as we explore this dynamic we can determine why.  It needs to be noted that as the absolute !NOW! would freeze time forever.  The emphatic motion of everything breaks this hold, !NOW! however, holds infinite potential at the very core of it, revealing an interface with another level of existence.   As an assumption of a more esoteric nature one could think, this is the method that god uses to discover himself in answer to the quest, who/what am I?  As far fetched as this sounds, this one would beg you to recognize this, you have a mind with some limit of mental prowess, expand this notion to understand all of these processes are not within the realm of the physical mass that is you, there is a greater form of ourselves which is beyond or within !NOW!. 

We are as beings in part entity, and part flesh, we dwell in this house but it is not all of what we are or does it represent all of our possibility.  We have at hand the ability to become more and develop into something by means of metamorphosis of the soul.  As we look at this diagram of compression into the infinite (Fig.2) one could think of 2 possible outcomes, one is that this leads to nowhere and is merely a compression to a very small point.  Or two, this is a path to another greater region with more expansive properties that is by this definition part of every moment, riding close to us in every aspect of life and existence.  This author is a huge fan of the latter description, however is reluctant to refer to this existential realm as a dimension, but rather the greater aspect of this world. If you find that as impossible, then perhaps your mind is too closed and this discussion will be wasted upon you. 

In figure 2, one may note the bottom line showing time in the 2 aspects of future and past and have an “ah hah” moment, relating to dimensional thinking, while this can’t be argued against, these vectors are within the scope of uncertainty of the moment.  The regions of past and future in this case are limited in scope to the scale of the determination in consideration, and are allegorical to the mathematical concept of the point as part of a line.  The 2 aspects are forever present in our reality creating the pressure that reflexes on any substance as moment by moment our vibrations project the next event.  However, this realm of past and future is part of another aspect that one is cautious to define as a dimension because it has more qualities than merely a measurable thing.  The future and past here are the result of the motion which forces the point to move on.  One requires that the reader push on for the moment and consider further postulations before approaching this discussion at this point.  The actual point of figure 2, is to demonstrate the assent into absolute !NOW! 

As we look at this assent into smaller considerations of time one begins to realize that if this was not to ever reach a limit then how would time ever progress?  Also in correlation to this one can see that as the limit is approached similar to a black hole, one would imagine nearly unlimited energy associated to this assent.  So the ability to hold to the center is formed allowing the energy packets traveling at light speed to suddenly stop and be absorbed.   This has always seemed amazing, how can a point so small it nearly defies detection, suddenly absorb something traveling at light speed?  Then in an equal feat of superpower, emit the same energy by merely causing a chemical reaction as in a fire?  Yes the discussions of a chemistry class come to mind, but really think upon this, is this not truly incredible?  There has to be a store of potential energy approaching infinity to allow these common occurrences to take place.  The atom is rapidly approaching superhero status, but how is it possible?  There has to be some glue here that is beyond our current scope of detection, force that has extreme potential.  It is then beyond our framework and yet it is our frame work.  Thus, this world is a subset of a greater realm.  We have been told this forever, every culture has been aware of this.  Perhaps it is not just the superstitious rants of men from our ancient villages, who consumed power plants and had incredible visions, while their bodies lay on the edge of death, and survived to say… “don’t eat that stuff for lunch”.  Yet this is where our developmental journey began, we did have those visions.  Our society tries to ignore them as madness, we want a safe world, yet where is that safety?  Leave this book for a moment and make an effort, take a drive or a walk to a graveyard.  Go sit there, and look at the graves, spend some time.  Then come back.  

Are you back now?  What did you experience, maybe you felt something or had some sensations.  If you are gifted at all, maybe you had some visions of your own to explain.  Some of us wouldn’t even want to go, already sensing fears relating to this place of death.  Yes, quite often, there really are spirits there.  If you felt the morbidity of it all then yes, it is.  They wanted a nice safe life too, just like you.  Now, if you are seeking to live, keep reading, we need to solve some problems to resolve this issue of death, because it comes far too soon for most of us to do any real work on ourselves, and far too many of us are silly minded, thinking we can just go on until we pass away.   If you think this is ok, go back to the graveyard and sit some more…

As extreme as this my be, so is life, we shall not take it for granted at the best of moments.  We all live on an edge, in our daily lives.  So what will become of us?  There is still such an unsettling feeling in the midst of the dead.  This should tell us that they are in some state of regret.  This work will go forward to explain how this relates to time.



 

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We seek knowledge of the more obtuse directions of the knowable arts.  One must consider each aspect of possibility and relate this information in carefully planned steps.  The pinnacle of the perilous journey to a lofty tower in the soul, is knowledge.   That peak was scaled with the fingertips of the mind reaching for each handhold, and accessed for every footstep to assure its solidity.  The sojourner of a effectively planned expedition, will seek a guide familiar with the pathway, leading to embankment points.  The guide is able point the way and say, “Master, it is this way, but I and my people have never ventured beyond these gates.”   

Such guides were of avail in the writings of many authors, who were mostly revealed to this one, via my mentor, a remarkable man who consistently pointed the way.  After searching, this one eventually come upon the gate that held no path beyond.  A great debt is owed this person for persevering in encouragement that this one should ford fourth into the dark beyond the gate…

When one makes an approach to a difficult assent, they plan a path based upon information collected from the distance. After accessing from differing angles, not forsaking the possibility that unknown factors will soon block the way, one also plans for this occurrence as well.  What is never accounted for are the changes that will happen to the individual along the way, as we do not normally anticipate our own growth in mental and emotional terms.  These changes are resisted by those who know us best, as they have pressed upon us our history.  They require a mental image of everyone they encounter with summaries within their minds of the scope of a person based on the amount of interaction



they had with them in lives.  The people who “love” you most, will project your limits.   Thus, this one sought solitude to allow time to reach deep into the parts of knowledge that would become the footholds and reaches of the fingertips.

In the early days of youth, an egger mind absorbed volumes of knowledge summing the available information at the time, and as time progressed, also attempted to keep pace with the ventures of others, updating as much as possible the data for this base.  There was also an accumulation of non academic observations from the more obtuse source of personal observations of occurrences in the occult.  Encounters with spirits and other entities showed this one beyond any doubt that this world is not as it appears on the mere surface.  While this work could venture off into the nature of these encounters and occurrences, this will be reserved for a separate work in a future date, or perhaps as an addendum to this work once the main focus has been illuminated.  The events of logic will be best illustrated with the knowledge of this work in hand, than without.  

The most trying aspect of relating this information with the crude method of written word, and even illustrations, is that they will surely fall short.  It is an art to paint the images in your mind to any medium, so that you, as observer, will know their meaning as well.  This said, the key point is where to start?  It is impossible to know the level of understanding about matters that will be discussed, that people in general will bring with them upon reading.   It will require some depth of knowledge of physics and chemistry.   While this is not the subject of this work, it was yet also the path that led to the gate.  This one will not attempt to educate you to much



of a degree, but would prefer you to arm yourself with the ability to research some of the aspects involved, however, as the artist of this image, this one will try to make the descriptions as illuminating as possible.


The beginning is void.   The properties are infinite.  One could say there was nothing, but that is not accurate.  One nothing is a self entity.  Thus this infinite assemblage could assume virtually any quality, with simplicity, comes complexity, as everything reflexes.  There could have been one continuous moment forever froze, and not self realized, yet, we breath air in and exhale, while pulsing surges blood in flesh, all of this, to attest to this not being the case.   One can play the story of creation in any fashion one desires, however it is far more likely that a creation never happened, there was no before, there will be no after, only changes in what is happening now.  In the beginning it was now, and that now was the same now that is now also, and it will always be the same now.  One pattern that seems very likely is that at some point matter and energy were more coherent, and the progression is towards more randomness, which would leave the universe as dust. However, we see clouds of protons drawn into the more dense regions forming stars.  It is very likely there are conditions in vast regions of space that defy our comprehension.  Many of these could escape our detection, in particular when we have such limited vision.

There is a dynamic within this moment of now, that will become the next and leave a result.  This result will persist into the moments to come.  This dynamic is a reflux within the scope of the moment, it does not encompass a dimension.  



The concept of a dimension is a contrived and irrational notion that, while utility to a calculation, has no credible validity.  To consider time as dimensional is not at all provable.  This one feels this concept has led us astray in seeing the nature of the working of matter, and kept us from seeing the true nature of energy and spiritual existence.  Now is irrefutable.  The validity of this moment can’t be questioned to much of a degree, your eyes are scanning a document and the brain is processing the information,  perhaps you grow weary and impatient with this reading, as emotional assessments override thoughts.  You are hungry, hot or cold, horny, and your ear itches.  This is all possibly happening within you right now.  The main questions everyone shares are asked by most of us at some point in life.  What is this world we live in?  How is this happening?  What is our purpose, and what is the meaning of our existence? Some of us seek answers from and trust in the standards for religion but once one studies the origins of these illusions and discerns for themselves the degree of validity, they are disenchanted.  It would even seem that god is disenchanted with these.  The pillars of western religion were founded in basis from the original monotheistic religion of Zoralisterism founded by the Persian Zarathustra, who touted the name of god as Azura Mazda.  The most credible portions of the Torah involve the history of Moses, whoever he may have been, it would seem he awoke within him much of the knowledge that will be related herein, and likely even more, since he had only mild difficulty bringing the entire government of Egypt to submission.   

There are ego related attitudes,  as one may feel they have a deep education and thus they know how everything works.



Then, it will be easy for you to live forever, right?  Since one is so filled with modern knowledge they have found all of the answers to every question there is right?  Obviously, if you do have such an education, you have also encountered a mountain of statements in science stating… “We don’t know.“  So what of the “impossible”?  If anything, we have seen this crumble with the dawn of reason and science, yielding technology.  Yet with every discovery comes challenges to attempt to define and formulate some answers.  One set of answer that will be defined here may be even more disturbing to most of a practical nature, due to those points of departure firmly residing in an etheric existence we all seem to want, but also want to deny.   The word is difficult to find in the dictionary, so as such perhaps need to be redefined.  In the 1st rendition of the existence of aether, using the archaic vowel (ӕ), we had speculation of this as a substance that served as a medium for wave propagation.  Experiments performed by contemporary science of the time had clearly shown the presence of wave forms and behaviors associated with waves.  The speculation was that the aether was the medium the waves traveled in.  In the late 1800’s this was disproved by a famous experiment involving an ether wind.  In this work the etheric will be defined as beyond ordinary time, beyond a turning point in the nature of the universe where frequency knows no limit, but light is no longer a limit for speed and mass does not exactly exist.  To us this etheric barely exists, until we feel it and know it is here inside us.  We may also examine a place beyond time as well which is one of the domains for entities of the greatest powers. There is no need for faith in this matter, if you have faith then you will find it more absorbent in your thoughts, if not you well be invited to debate with others who also share


this forage into the places the mind dares to look but the eyes close in fear or disbelief.  This is the point where science and religions butt heads and both fail.  It is a principal reason for this writing, to demonstrate the possibility that there is more than meets the eyes or instrument and that this substance with no substance actually rules the path things take in life, or even in death.

So, here we sit, this one, in this moment of typing on this keypad, trying to relate a point, and you reading and wondering what it will be.  In a manner of speaking I just made this case, if you made an assessment of being in the now.  The animator has a clue as to how this universe moves and changes moment by moment small changes sum up into major ones, every event is occurring within countless billions of atoms that have alignment in some form of unity that eludes us to define unless we add the possibility that there is a source of higher consequence.  In order for there to be a direction of will, volition, intent, creativity, imagination, anticipation, or even reflex, there must be some substantial factor that moves beyond the pace of events and in some special cases sees beyond events.  Now, is exactly what it is, now is everywhere there is an observer and everywhere there is not.  It has a dynamic within the scope of an event moment and that is the subject of this work, that being, the exact nature of this dynamic.  


4/26/2009 9:44:01 AM
Just a small note: A submissive really has no business judging a Dominant.  <Note, that is a period.

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