after thoughts: the after burn..as i smoke the days last cigarette this is what she said:

star date millennium sector star colapse has driven all life to the recesses of shadow doubt and Death walks without Being noticed amoung the billions of followers deeper into the city of thy dead. Deeper than i am willing to go with my Own and even the vulcun er ability of Others at my mercies in strength and survival games of those wycked enough to be kicked out of hell above the common knowledge of earth to live amoung them WithIn. Unhappy to inherit such difference and such curse i work without stop at times and at others i can not seem to get out of bed with my lover and face that we are the world that We inherit again.  while i am not ignorant of war and the wealths of the priviledged i am not stationed to actively engage in fist to fist combat. i make efforts more to attempt to establish an order of command that can vest in Others the ability to at least protect Themselfs in the spirit while We wait and grow on towards Our goals of World ONE, Universally set to Occupy the Stars that We inhabit with Our Earths, and its wealth of stock and priviledge to Be and Become available Universally to All Others of Higher Order and of similar Origin in Humanities of the Living Creatures of upright and walking intelligences to Be known to overcome Great Wars both within and about Ones enviro mental captivities and in invite of the Spirit to be wedded to His life after having lived alone and after death. i have such respect for the Lords any and All above already this place and station of human consumption of intelligence and provision of reason to have been. Quite bitten by how handsom They thy mind, i am confused and curious about the Men they yet stilll are also in flesh burried beneath the eight billion walking dead left to Earth. i look everywhere for awhile and i work for my own place of safty in the graves of flesh, serving the wealthy the famous the accomplished and even the unknown i keep busy enough till a new lover takes me for a spin of head in fantasy fuck and fortune that might could be had right here where i live on earth...i just do not yet know if i am able to live the fantasy live....i really do enjoy walking in the spirit and for that i need to be alone in my bed... i think of maybe if i could have both...knowing the jealous beast and bastard after sex with a dom of my own kind makes it almost not possible to serve an entire world of need and want while i serve His bed chamber too....sick myselfs in need to feed on the reality of food having been forsaken in any understanding at War, my own real true possibility is no longer a personal preferance in choice to keep secret, Others must Be given the new millennium knowledge to pay the futures that have me left for dead in any other answer or invite to explain that there is no dead for some, i myself already have not been allowed death after i had already died. Anyway i am thankful for my new lover and i like to question my mind on the ways of buying His pleasures with what i am available to in knowledge and power....politics and porn not yet filthy with pig for people playing like they are Masters of the House they have inherited only a bit of knowledge WithIn much less from Above knowing All Things relevant in judgement.

Really a bed pet at heart, i like a boyfriend more than a husband all my life, but my new boyfriend wants husband from me, when He, in politeness to note,  has not offered it to any Other before, and i really do truely love vesting as a secondary power not unrespected in my dominant self in my submissive monueverability of making Him  and letting HIm Be We while i just go back to being me everytime then when i go to bed, i can sleep and put work away even in my head and in the spirit and in the flesh all at the same time making it possible to let myselfs be of service to the species at  least part time, even dead.

one day i undie, until then i have put words away in my spirit manifest and i am walking with arms drawn set to kill only my own so that i may then too rise above the flesh and into the mind i have harvested, the lost heavens of the lost cities and the houses of the Holy in SPirit. My lust for the sunken treasure spanking me hard with time, but with my tooth in the gold, i can not help it, the wedded web....

as i have said, i am in bedchambers and do not yet know my own near futures criss crossing with the new conditions  choices and options making decissions for me and everybody, while i still slave can only make a choice of how i behave through what will be in front of me. a bath and food and a lover i like in head to go to bed and fall asleep with....heaven and earth are found in bed, hell has flesh deserted on isle of head...

it is very scary reality in frontline warfare, 

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