i will trust You!!!

The most difficult thing in the world for a submissive to do is allow herself to trust after repeatedly having her trust meter broken over and over again by men from vanilla to kink.  To have all your personal possessions ripped out from under you never to be returned, things you worked hard for most of your career gone in an instant because you trusted the man who told you he loved you only to find out his love was in vain!!! You sit in the middle of your empty apartment crying, you feel raped & violated and the emptiness isn't because all your "stuff" is gone...no i am not defined by the possessions i own, it is not who i am. The emptiness comes from deep workings,  your heart ripped out and torn to shreds' because you believed him when he said he loved you, you believed him when he said no other compared to you, you believed him at his word and you trusted him with your most fragile possession "my heart"!  This road is long and the journey of a submissive not easy but in order for me to have any kind of life with a Dom i must learn to trust again. i must leave my past behind me and believe again. i  cannot spy, i  cannot be deceitful for if i do i will never believe or trust again.  So dear kind Sir, my heart though still fragile is open to You....guard it with Your life because with my heart comes my body, mind and soul.  Take care of these and You will be worshiped as You so deserve to be.  It's a big step for the B/both of U/us but one W/we can make beautiful with open communication, love, respect and acknowledgement of what each of O/our needs are!!! 

It's a big leap of faith and one that has been difficult for me to acquire Sir but i will do my best not to disappoint You as i feel You  will do the same for me.  my happiness will be derived from Your happiness so take my heart and set me free for now it is Yours!!!

LusciousLea

i present myself naked to symbolize that i shall hide nothing from You 
no thought, no word, no deed shall ever be concealed 

i kneel before You to symbolize how i shall always come to You 
humble, exposed,  without defenses to shield me 

i sit at Your feet to symbolize that my desires are beneath Yours 
Your wants, Your needs, Your will shall always be above mine 

i bow my head to symbolize my deep and abiding respect for You 
honor, deference, devotion shall always be given to You 

i avert my gaze to symbolize that Your authority is unchallenged 
my obedience, my service, my subjection are all freely given 

i offer to You and no other my three greatest gifts 
my honesty, my trust, my submission shall be Yours alone 

should You accept my offering, i ask only that You find me worthy 
nurture me, protect me, cherish me and i am Yours forever

She is 49 years of age now
She has searched for all of her years
She did not know for what she searched for
She looked here and she looked there
She has learned to do many things
She has learned many craft skills
She has learned many work skills
She still searched for something
someone to fill her life
She wanted someone to be there
She wanted - needed someone to draw boundary lines
Someone who would be strong with her, for her
Someone who would have and demand that which He expects of her
Someone stronger than herself
She wanted someone with the ability to discipline her
Not beat her, not cause her harm but with love so that she would understand
and accept.
For years she searched for the One who could the One who would
Never would she have thought that she would call Him Sir

Never would she have considered herself owned
Never would she have thought that all of her insides feelings would be
exposed
She knew that she wanted to give Him her all
Not knowing nor understanding
What that would be.