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Its been close to a year or so I think since I have been on this site and much has changed. I no longer identify as dominant, and I now know that asexuality is a thing, wich had a lot to do with my identifying as dominant. (I dont like sex, and I was trying to prevent people from trying to make me into some sort of sex slut as that is a common theme in bdsm though it can be and is so much more than that.) So in short, I have learned and grown.
I am an asexual pan-romantic slave seeking to meet people for potentially an LTR TPE. Because of the seriousness of what it is I seek, I will proceed very carefully, establishing first trust, then the other emotions needed to give myself fully to someone. Relocation is probably possible in the future, but not very soon as I am currently taking care of elderly family.
I am not new to TPE or bdsm, and I do know how deep it goes. I have training from a few different sources, some of them contradicting, but I learn quick, and enjoy being trained. However if you require sex, then I am not the slave for you. I undersrand that TPE gives no choice, so I also know to not accept such an agreement with someone who does require sex. If you lie to me about it, well, that still would make it rape and I would leave rather than obey at that point. (Had someone try this in a discrete manner whome I met irl and I only assume that online will probably bring out worse people.) I dont know why some dominants think that slaves are automatically idiots. We are not.
Anyway, I am also into sado-maso, protocol and ritual, and bondage. If I find a dominant with whome I find myself wanting to serve, I will send them a al petition, however that would come long after I have gotten to know them and began to trust them. Once I am sure it is they whome I wish to serve.
I am nerdy, love rpg games, Critical Role (though I am a new Critter so no spoilers please!), and documentaries. (How its Made marathons anyone?) I also love almost everything to do with the ocean except sand rash, wich could happen anywhere there is sand, not just on a beach.
I am happy to say that my diet is working and I have gone from 228 lbs to 185 lbs in roughly 2 and a half years, so slow but sure, and I am no longer addicted to sodas. I add this to show my new-found self control that is stronger than ever.
Anyway, asexual doesnt mean I dont love deeply, I just show it differently, instead of sex, I want to serve you and make you happy. I also love cuddling (as long as it stays asexual) and even kissing. Asexual doesnt mean I dont like to be touched, it just means I dont like being touched with your genitals nor you touching my genitals. You pee through that, you know. Gross. (My opinion, no hate to people who love sex or pee just not my thing.)
So, really hoping that somehow there is an asexual dominant looking for an asexual slave out there, because there are so few asexuals who exist it can seem like an impossible thing to seek out. Impossible never stopped me before, hell I graduated bootcamp and got an honorable dishcarge 4 years later. That was supposedly impossible for me too.
Anyway, because I know how this site runs, I will be ignoreing all messages that are rude, disrespectful, belitteling, and sexual in nature. So, yeah, if you want to be ignored you can do those things. I will ignore the shit out of that. I am no ones fuck toy or slut. I have no interest in being one, either.
Meaningful conversation, is welcome. I am bluntly honest so only ask what you want to know my answer to.
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