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Time is working against us. lonely . |
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Sad day. Sad week. Sad sad sad!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Today was a great day, even if I only saw Master for a short time, any time that I get with him is cherished.
xoxo |
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i am beaming with pride this morning!! xoxo |
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When will the suffering end. Please, if someone you know has depression...GET THEM HELP!
Be an ear, a sponge, just be something! Cries for help are just that...cries!!
Don't take a suicide threat for granted.
Xoxo |
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It's a dark day, the ending of a dark weekend. The sun is out but the sadness that clouds me still remains. When does it end?? When do I find inner Peace. Maybe I am too much. |
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So obviously no one reads these. Not one fuck was given with my last one. Thanks... |
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What really matters in this lifestyle to you? I'd love to hear some genuine responses. |
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I have heard some people say that you cant possible live the lifestyle 24/7. I disagree, and here is my opinion on why.
Submission is a state of mind, a choice, it can be an emotion, a memory, an action, even a fear.
The way i carry myself. My attitude. My thought process. My choices and my reactions. These are all things I do while being in the mind set of a submissive.
When i walk into a room of men, i can pick out the dominate ones out of the non dominate ones.
Its life, and doesn't mean you're doing a scene, or playing , its just life that goes on everyday.
I always do things with Master in mind. What would He say? Think? Would He be disappointed in my decision ? Will He punish me if i don't make smart choices?
The things He teaches me carry on throughout the days i don't see Him, so how can i not live submissively 24/7?
Just my opinion. |
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I feel so many different emotions right now.
I feel numb compared to how I feel with Him.
I miss Him on the days I can't see Him.
I ache and feel miserable.
I want.
I need.
I long... |
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Although I think the darkness hides me, it is in the darkness I find myself. With no self judgement or reflection of what I see in a physical sense, I am able to focus on the mentality of my innermost self. It is in the dark corners of my mind where you will find me. |
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There is no better feeling in the world than having the lights go on for the first time...for real. The feeling of being vulnerable and afraid, yet confident and trusting...then the validation that follows.
I am in an amazing place in this journey. And I feel so fucking free!! |
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I have been given a divine second chance to be the slave of a Dom I should not have been running from the last 5 years. Fear of the pure, true trust and the real connection we have are the same things that kept me running. Beginning today, I run no more.
Wish me luck, give me the encouragement and strength I need to do this.
I will not fail Him. |
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Darkness settles in
The moonlight piercing through
I lie awake in the night
Thinking of only you
Ever since my eyes met yours
A connection thus was made
And even though you're not missing me
I still remain your slave
Waiting until death if need be
I hold you in my heart
For my devotion is so strong and
Has been from the start
So take this for what you will,
You know who you are assumed
Until you summon me again
Alone I'll be consumed
~Sheri |
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My heart goes out to all the people that were in Las Vegas when this tragedy took place. Thankfully, my family members and friends who attended are safe. I pray for the families and friends who has lost someone. The world is evolving into a very ugly place to live. |
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back in this "space". Every time I'm on here it's the same story...I swear I don't think people ACTUALLY read the profiles. It's very annoying. |
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Back here...not sure for how long. I will see how it goes. The ones who know me, you have my heart. |
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I got some really good advice from a D who is a friend of mine here. I'm taking your advice and letting shit go. Someone can only OWN your heart if YOU allow them to.. I can get rid of the heartache and misery by simply letting go and NOT hanging on to someone or something. I decide. Just because I am a submissive, does NOT mean I allow anyone to own my heart simply because they want it. You will not keep me down, and I will in time, forget you and the misery. |
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Another day. Another moment that I know you do not think of me. Maybe you do, but it is never made known to me. Perhaps it is a punishment. Mental punishment to me is more excruciating than any device could ever inflict. I know why. I know it is for my countless times of running. If you only knew the torture I go through, that I put myself through. It is human error on my part, perhaps even on your part because you didn't give me what I needed in return. I fell in love with you. You said you loved me, but the narcissistic personality you possess does not allow you to want to know me,or anything about me. Now I wait and wonder, and will until death. Maybe some other lifetime will warranty my love for you. As dark and psychotic as it sounds, it is the writhing pain I go through evertime I see your picture. I love you...You're my misery. |
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Good morning Thursday!!!! A day closer to Friday!! |
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Time can't erase everything. There is always a lingering in my heart for those I have loved and lost. Surrounded by people but feel so alone at times, there is an emptiness in my heart that resonates in my mind, too loud to ignore but too quiet for anyone else to hear. |
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Death of my spirit I once had. I am so lost at times. Not sure who I'm really supposed to belong to. Doubt is the worst emotion. |
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Happy New Year Kinksters!!! Xoxo |
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It's fucking Friday!!!!! Omg yesssss!!!!!! I will be in and out this weekend so if I don't get to your messages right away I will soon xoxo |
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Wednesday...
A dismal cloudy day, I do love the winter better than any other season. Also, it is a nickname I was given..as in Adams family's Wednesday. Maybe it's my love of black Gothic clothing and the fact I have gargoyles perched throughout our house...or just my dark personality. Whatever it may be, I am here and not seeming to get anywhere fast. Just looking g for friends here. Sometimes it's nice to have someone to talk to without having a cock shoved down your throat. lol |
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It's been awhile, but I find myself here again. Life doesn't seem so ergonomic as I expect it to be. I have so many wants and desires that have been pushed down and extinguished...yet I find after time they resurface and smolder. How do you ask for something that someone can't give you? How do you say "I'm not getting enough" when you know the answer will be something you don't want to hear? But I behave, am loyal and respectful. Dedicated to one. Some days it just hurts more than others. |
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i HATE the bright pink background here...and i have no idea how to change it!!!! |
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There are days I feel as if I'm not living up to my own standards. No incident to recollect on, just a feeling of unworthiness or mediocrity in my eyes...makes me wonder if its seen by others as well. Please...save your negative comments on this. I'm simply observing my feelings on the outside. Raw emotions do exist in all of us. |
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Who the hell are these people in the ads to the right on my screen???? SOOOOO phoney!!!! |
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Finding new Friends here is far and few between...but
Thankful for the ones I'm finding!!! |
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The road in this journey is not straight and narrow. Seems to be a lot of turns and uturns...LOL |
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Happy fathers day to all the Fathers and Daddy's out there!! Xoxo |
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Life throws us curveballs a lot. It's best just to figure out how to catch them.. . |
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Just wish for once that when I give my heart and soul to someone , it would Be enough. Why must greed succeed over everything... |
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Good morning! Hope everyone has a good day.. |
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I believe a Master should take great interest in his sub. No matter the distance between them, I think communication would be important. |
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He won't even give me the time of day
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Anyone EVER read these????? |
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