not so lonely anymore:) xxx

i seriously need a therapist right now:(, a dominant therapist would be ideal lol

i have gone from hating life to absolutely loving it the last month as actually been amazing, but fuck me, i am the most awkward person in the world i need a therapist or some nice people to talk to:( x

i fucking hate life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is a massive massive massive idiot, what is wrong with me why is that everytime i get a chance a glmmer of being happy with someone beautiful amazing intelligent i seem to be able to destroy it by doing something stupid, i think i was built with a self destruct button. I hate myself about now 

slowly but surely im starting to understand what i am looking for, i need someone to take full control of me and make my purpose be to please them completely and do whatever i can to make them happy, i know that my position is to serve others if someone will have me