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Pan Transgender Submissive, 40,  Of lost souls, Massachusetts
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Things change and it takes forever for them to update profiles. So instead of me continually pestering them by updating little tidbits about myself, Im adding this warning.

What you read below may no longer be relevant. Ask me what you want to know. Im a pretty open book to those that are respectful. And if you cant handle me being frank then dont bother messaging me. Dont send me nasty messages then block me either. Thats just a waste of time and quite childish.**

Im starting over which is a scary thing, but fear drives me. It fuels my soul and pushes me to do things I normally wouldnt. So right now might be the perfect time for you to approach me. If Ive looked at your profile youve piqued my interest. So go ahead and check me out. However, Im shy at first, so if Im of any interest to you, you should probably make the first move.

What is a true relationship?
A true relationship is about giving your partner the power to destroy your world, and knowing that they never will. A true relationship is what I seek.

Who am I?
Im not sure I could ever fully answer that question. I think the best way to wrap me up would be to say I am a dominant in some aspects of my life but I prefer to be submissive when in personal romantic relationships. I find it easier and more enjoyable for me not to be the one in control, probably because I am submissive by nature. Some people seem to think that makes me a brat because they cant seem to grasp the fact that while I do live this 247, I also live in the real world. I have real-world obligations and I have to get shit done and sometimes that means I have to be bossy. Its a crazy thing this game called life. They also think Im a brat because my mouth has absolutely no filter. Im unapologetically candid. So fair warning there.
And about that 247 thing... You wouldnt realise it if you saw me. Im a very average looking person.

Im FtX. Meaning I was born female, but do not feel as if I am specifically either gender. At times I am very stereotypically female. At other times I am very stereotypically male. I consider myself transgender and maybe one day Ill transition to a less feminine state. For now I am comfortable as I am.

As far as BDSM, Im not into the gear and strict protocol. Thats not to say that I have any ill feelings towards those things. Its just not my cups of tea. Ill get dressed up for an event, night out, or party, but its not my everyday wear. Nor is being nude 247. And the protocol stuff just doesnt feel authentic to me. So dont bother trying to start anything beyond friendship if its your thing.

Anyway, I guess if I had to Id say... Im a complex person trapped inside a simple body with a wild mind. If you want to know specifics ask. Like I said Im pretty much an open book, as long as youre respectful. Also, please call me L or, if you know it, my real name. I do not like to be called any kink related terms of endearment by people that dont have a special place in my heart. Thanks for understanding.

If you want to know anything more just message me. However, if you send me a message without a little bit of substance I most likely wont reply. Dont get me wrong, the hey there messages, and the like, are nice. However, to me, they feel like a greeting you would give a stranger you walk by on the street. Not someone you actually want to get to know. So if you send me one Ill feel like youre being super snotty and doing it out of spite. So you for sure wont get a reply. If you keep sending them to me Ill block you, because thats just ignorant and rude. I used to reply and to ev-er-ry-one, even the hey there and hi people, but Im done with that. I was being nice in more ways than one and thats not something I strive to be. To everyone else, I come on here in random spurts. So please dont think Im ignoring you.

Good luck to you all on your journey to find happiness!

I once... Dreamed of a world... Without consequences... Without reminders... Of this... Brutal... Gutter... I am collapsed in... Once I dreamed... But then... I... Woke... Up!












 Submissive Transgender

 Of lost souls 


 Willing to Relocate

 5' 3"






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Transgender

Submissive Transgender

Dominant Female

Dominant Male

Submissive Female

Submissive Male

Switch Women

Switch Men

Domme/Dom Couples

Sub/Sub Couples

Femdom Couples

Mascdom Couples

Friends Only

Online Romance


A Poly Household

 Lives For:



 Eye Contact Restrictions

 Hair Pulling

 Mental Bondage

 Speech Restrictions


 Curious About:

 Corner Time

 Local BDSM Community

 Erotic Hypnosis

 Medical Play

 Role Playing

 1950s Lifestyle

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Journal Entries:
4/13/2018 11:45:02 AM
Not seeking any type of relationship at this time, but if you have, or know of, a job opening feel free to message me. :)

3/24/2018 11:55:58 AM
**WARNING** The pack of sugar free lollies caution on excessive consumption is a tad off. I debating on whether or not I should be making fart videos. Lol

3/24/2018 11:17:26 AM
I wish someone would spoil me rotten and let me be the bitch that I am.

1/1/2018 11:20:32 AM
Another one bites the dust. Haha. Just another man using a porn stars photos. You would think they wouldn't choose someone that has a well known face but alas the people on this site have yet to prove their worth. This site never fails to make me laugh. Tid bit of info to all you out there: I WILL NOT SEND YOU NUDES. You want to see my body then come see it. Don't sit behind a computer screen and pretend to be something you're not then block me when I figure it out. Which, by the way, I always do. So, you want to jerk off to an image of me? Fine. Come and see me. Trust me when I say the real image is far better than any photo.

12/31/2017 3:18:25 AM
I love when people think they have some sort of power and berate me through messages. Hate to break it to you all but nobody criticises me harsher than I do. So there's literally nothing you could say that could hurt me more than I've already hurt myself. Try if you must but know that your time, energy and efforts are wasted on someone like me. Also I respond more to honesty, brutal or not. Calling me names that don't even fit who I am just make me laugh. :)

5/5/2014 2:49:49 AM

I love my job. My schedule however is another story.

4/9/2014 8:06:46 PM

According to the majority of emails I get I think it's safe to say that chivalry is dead. Or maybe CM is just the door to some sort of chivalrous sucking black hole.

In the words of Pepe Le Pew......Le sigh.

4/9/2014 10:10:29 AM

Why can't we speak another language? One we all agree on? Why when men look outside, they see houses? Instead of the fields they grew from? We are constantly uprooted from them. Making us tiresome and fearful. Can you get up right now? Endeavor to free fall?

'Cause you can fall if you want to. It's just a matter of how far you've treasured our hometown. You've forgotten where you are. And it will stay with you till your mind's been found. And it has been found wandering around with that skipping rope, the trampoline. The crafty smoke that made us choke. But we didn't give up hope. It's just the simple ways of getting paid. The carelessness of running away. I wish I stayed, I wish I stayed, I wish I stayed.

Patterns all arranged in my background. Pillars and posts keeping this country on form. Letters were all sent with no addresses so that people can't discover that we're always under cover. Why do I always draw triangles? Instead of words this paper deserves?

'Cause you see, I don't own my clothes but I own my mind. And it's not what you've lost but it's what you find. With that skipping rope, the trampoline. The crafty smoke that made us choke. But we didn't give up hope. It's the simple ways of getting paid. The carelessness of running away. I wish I stayed.

I wish



4/9/2014 10:01:01 AM

Don't burden your mouth with the words that you speak.

5/17/2013 8:56:04 PM

I love the people that think they will fool me by sending me an insulting email from a different account. Ummmmm. You have pictures up on both. Silly goose. Tricks are for kids and games are for players. I'm neither a kid nor a player. I'm a hopeless romantic who's young at heart, but has an old soul. But keep em coming. I like a good chuckle every now and then.

9/6/2012 4:43:08 PM

Dealing with some stuff right now so I apologize for the delay in email responses. I will try to get to them as soon as I am feeling better.


9/3/2012 7:06:32 PM

Apparently my previous journal post about calling me by my name wasn't clear enough. So I decided to clarify something. If you call me Ma'am, Miss, Mistress or any other kink related term of leadership/endearment I will just delete your email. My name on here is London. Call me that! Or, like I said, if you know my birth name you may call me that.

Clear enough?

8/23/2012 7:29:15 PM

Overwhelmed by too many emails so I deleted a bunch unread. Sorry for the rudeness but it was getting ridiculous. If you really want my attention and it was one of your emails that was deleted then I suggest you try again.


8/22/2012 11:29:18 AM

I felt photogenic today so I posted a couple new pictures. It doesn't happen often so...... Enjoy.

8/21/2012 7:06:32 AM

For the love of fried cheese please do NOT call me ma'am/miss/mistress/lady or any other sort of kink related term of endearment/respect. I am not your owner/mentor/mistress or any other sort of kink related term of leadership. I know a lot of you go by guidelines and what not, but for goodness sakes, if you don't know me or even if you do, you know that terms like that, in my opinion, are special and used for the special. Also when people use those words so frivolously they lose the heartfelt meaning behind them. So please, out of respect, call me London. Or for those of you that know my given name you may call me that.



P.S.- Maybe it's a southern thing, but in my book "ma'am" is used as a term of respect for older women. I'm not a child anymore, but I am certainly not old.

8/21/2012 6:54:09 AM

I wish I could find a submissive man that would take charge in the bedroom. Or maybe a dominant man that is only dominant in the bedroom. Basically what I really want is someone that will be dominant only when it comes to sexual matters, from kissing to actual sex. At other times I want them to worship the ground I walk on. No in a literal kink way per se, but more so in a vanilla way.

A friend said my motto should be: You give me what I want and I let you take what you want. I think there's a lot more to that though. I know I wrote a journal post like this already but I needed to tweek it a little. I guess the only difference is that I want the man to have some control outside the bedroom. You know like "normal" people do. I don't want a doormat.

8/12/2012 10:30:55 PM

Well I found the perfect pair of problem. They are about $60 more than I can afford.....and that's the price for the used ones. SMDH. I need a new job. Anyone need a petsitter/walker?


By "pet" I mean of the animal persuasion. As in born an animal. No offense but I can't do the whole human pet thing. It's cute, just not for me.

8/12/2012 3:32:46 PM

I'm on a treasure hunt right now. Aka shopping online. I found the most wonderful dresses and a simple pearl necklace/stud earrings combo. Now all I need to do is find shoes. I left all my stuff in storage so this is a well needed spree. I've been dressing like a tomboy for far too long.

8/10/2012 11:31:31 AM

I feel like going to the Woodshed tonight. :P

8/7/2012 5:49:59 PM

The trainers at L.A. Fitness don't mess around. Man I got my ass kicked..............Not in a good way either.

8/6/2012 9:48:32 PM
"Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands? Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it. Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air? Have you ever looked fear in the face and said I just don't care? It's only half past the point of no return. The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn. The thunder before the lightning, the breath before the phrase. Have you ever felt this way? Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone? Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone. Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry? Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside? It's only half past the point of oblivion. The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run. The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames. Have you ever felt this way? La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la There you are, sitting in the garden. Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar. You called me sugar. Have you ever wished for an endless night? Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight. Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight......" Written by Alecia Beth Moore & Billy Mann

8/5/2012 9:08:07 PM

How sad....

8/5/2012 12:57:03 AM

I need advice on how to get rid of/cover a bruise. It's on my neck and it's huge. Considering the fact that it's summer and I live in FL I can't just throw on a turtleneck and call it a day. Oh and it's really dark. So dark that I don't think makeup would do the trick. So any advice on how to get rid of it would be fantastic.

8/4/2012 9:57:59 AM

To the park. To the park. To the park park park. To the park. To the park. To the dog park park. To the park. To the park. To the park park park. To the DOOOOOOOOOOG park!

Life is good!

7/31/2012 9:46:20 PM

You know what I want? I want a man that can, no, WILL spoil me and make me his queen. I want a man that knows that in the bedroom he is to take complete control but outside the bedroom he has none. I want a man that will give me what I want, when I want and not ask any questions. He of course will get what he wants later, but that's another story. I want a man that understands that I am a switch and do have submissive as well as dominant needs. I want a successful, good looking, compassionate, loyal and trustworthy man. I'm not even sure if such a man exists, but I do know that I will not settle for less.


Right about now some of you are probably completely dumbfounded but hey, I'm just being open and honest.

7/12/2012 12:04:16 AM

"I wish.... I wish I knew what your fingers felt like.... How your hair smells in the morning.... How soft your body becomes while you dream.... I wish.... I wish I knew all those.... all the secret places that set you on fire.... To know the strength of your lips.... To taste the sound of your breath, dancing with mine.... like wisps of smoke from two smouldering fires.... I wish I knew the heat of your stare.... To be crushed by the endless molecules of your embrace.... this subtle gravity.... I wish that day was today!"

3/21/2012 7:09:07 AM
I was apprehensive about putting a face picture back on here, but decided since most people on here are fakes it doesn't really matter. :)

3/18/2012 6:46:19 PM
I need to start going to the gym again. I got squishy! O.O

3/18/2012 5:56:20 PM
I should probably update this at some point. Maybe tomorrow I will.

10/26/2011 2:29:41 PM
New addition to commonly misspelled words that piss me off. Where, were and we're. I mean really people. Unless English isn't your first language or you're mentally disabled, you should really know this already. And to those of you that think ghetto talk will have me falling at your feet, all I can say is ROTMFFLMMFAO! Yes, I can understand what you're saying, but it is a huge turn off trying to decipher what you've written. Plus I really take pride in knowing that someone takes the time to thoughtfully write out a well put together email. Just an FYI: I am in no way saying I don't like ghetto males. I just don't like the "ay bae u luk sexi mami wen u cum'n ova herr so I can b smak'n dat azz i be all up in dat shiz we gon be fuk'n till u bleed" emails. I mean come on. I'm not 15 and I'm not a whore so please don't treat me like one. I may not be as educated as the rest but it's more so about respect. Respect me and I'll give my all to you.

10/24/2011 6:01:49 AM
If you don't know how to use the following words properly, do not contact me. To, too and two. Yes, they really are three different words. Your and you're. If you tell me that "your going to own me". You're mostly likely never going to meet me never mind own me. Lose and loose. Second grade stuff here. Dominant and dominate. They probably didn't teach this in school, but they did teach you the difference between a noun and a verb. So those of you who don't know, you cannot be a dominate. Dominated, yes, but if that's what you want then you're looking at the wrong profile.

3/7/2011 3:29:20 PM
Why is MA so cold? I really hate the cold!

10/8/2010 11:49:06 AM
Watching "Enough". Man I love this movie! Although I doubt I love it the same way most women do. *winks*

10/8/2010 9:02:31 AM
Okay so my friend just told me that I'm crazy. WOW! That's a bit harsh. I guess saying that "I?crave being controlled and I love?it when?they pull my hair or hit me" was just a tad too much for her. Now granted I'm not like every other "submissive" out there, I have a mouth that usually doesn't have a filter on it, I'm stubborn and I'm?sometimes a bitch, well a lot of the time I am,?but I don't think that makes me crazy. I am who I am. I will only adjust, not change but adjust, myself for one person. I have yet to meet this person, but know that I will someday.
Anyway we each have our own kinks. Why not just accept that? That doesn't mean you have to agree with it. I'll give her this though, she did agree with the hair pulling.

2/27/2010 1:44:19 PM
Lord have mercy. I didn't think I needed to explain this but here goes.
Just because I say "no thank you" or "I'm good thanks anyway", does not mean I am not looking and have a dishonest profile. It means I'm not interested in you. I happen to be a polite person and try to email everyone who emails me. Key word there is try. Anyway, would it be better or more clear if I just say what is really on my mind. For instance I have previously wanted to say "hell no" or "omg not a snowballs chance in hell" or even "fuck off". The last one was for the vile creatures that send me nasty messages. Or maybe I'll stop replying all together and leave you wondering.
You decide. If you would rather me be rude and not reply, I'll do so. If you would rather me be blunt and possibly hurtful, I'll do that. I would prefer you want me to be the polite person that I am.

2/19/2010 9:42:47 PM
As tears once again well up in my eyes, I realize that I never should have left Florida.

I need to stop chasing dreams and face reality. The problem is, reality bites. I don't want to see myself for who I really am.

What am I? A useless submissive that is in tears because she can't keep an owner. How pitiful is that.

Maybe it was who owned me, maybe not. All I know is that being unowned is a horrible, lonely feeling.

Slowly but surely another one slides down my cheek. Like always I hide my face so no one sees. Maybe this time when I look back up someone will be there to wipe away my tears.

Regardless I'm going to keep on smiling!
My dad always said- Don't show the world your unhappy or they will think less of you. Always smile like you just won a million dollars and they will envy you.

2/7/2010 6:09:05 PM
*Sigh* I just don't know anymore!

11/27/2009 9:36:07 AM
I ate so much yesterday it's not even funny! Hope everyone had a happy Thanksgiving. For future reference, never stuff your self with food and then go to a comedy club. Laughing so hard it hurts with a full stomach is a dangerous concoction!

10/12/2009 6:06:48 PM
Is it me or do some people have pictures that don't portray what they say they are?
For instance, not mentioning any names or anything, but a "Domme" has a picture where it looks like she is kneeling at someones feet with her head bowed. To me that doesn't say "Domme". Then there's a picture of a "Domme" on her hands and knees, a picture of a submissive using a paddle on someones behind and a picture of a slave that at first glance, in my opinion looks like a total Domme. Doesn't help that the name for that profile is a total Domme name as well, but I wont get started on the names.

My point in this ramble of a journal post is that I know we shouldn't judge a book by it's cover but pictures really do speak a thousand words. How's that for two catch phrases in one sentence? :p


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