Updating my journal, my master and i have grown stronger together over the months of my training. He has shown me another side of me that i am enjoying. Being more submissive and welcoming the slave role that i have with him is a dream come true for me. In my training i have learned orgasim control, orgasim denial, light bondage,nipple play,anal play,and he pushes my limits slowly of the pain that makes your body numb and all you feel is the tingling sensations with the orgasim that sends me over the edge as i cry when i let go, to feel so vunerable and when master holds me as i come out of it i feel so safe and secure. Its every slaves dream to be in the warm arms of thier masters, to feel his heartbeat, wiping away your tears and kissing you passionatley for he is proud of  how far hes pushed you and is very pleased. In my training master wants me to experience with another sub/slave woman, though i have never really considered being with a woman master has opened doors for me in my experiences with him that now i would have to say that yes i am curious to have a pet of my own. Master wants me to experience my dom side with a woman and learn how to feel the domination and the responsibility of another slave. I have many friends that i have talked with that are bi and i have asked alot of questions on thier first experiences with another woman and all has said that it was a beautiful experience and has enjoyed it very much. For master to let me have the opportunity to do this it is a precious gift that he has given me and i am very excited to recieve that gift on the journey that we take together as master and slave. 

I finally met with my master and the experience was out of this world. He had instructed me to a location where to meet the drive there was agonizing being nervous i squirmed on the way there. He had me watch bondage porn the night before to learn how the subs reacted too their masters to always address them properly and to do what is expected of them. In watching the porn he had told me not to touch myself while watching because he wanted me to crave his touch instead of my own. After many hours of watching he told me that it was enough and to get ready for my day with him. I arrived at the location first then he parked beside me he got out of the car i was so nervous now he is here. I put my window down he touched my shoulder and said are you ready? We then went in. He seen how nervous i was and shaking so badly he held me so close to reasure me that is was ok and he wasn't going to hurt me. He then let me go and instructed to change into what he wanted me to wear as he went to the restroom. When he came out he was very pleased of what i was wearing and told me to kneel down. He then was putting on my collar i was shaking as he told me to be still. He then lifted my chin and said you are now owned, you are my slave. It was such an overwhelming feeling i had butterflies in my stomach. I then proceeded to undress him. I had experienced the pain and pleasure the combination of both was so erotic it took me to a place of pure exstacy. To feel the high and when i couldn't take it anymore that he felt i was to release it on his command and the feelings of the orgasim was something i have never felt before. The feeling of helplessness and the control that he had over me was so amazing. He left nice marks on my body that will remind me of him and to see it dissapear will be heartbreaking only to wish for new ones. As the day went on the he did many different techniques that sent my body into a bliss of excitment. I also seen the romantic side of him as he held me close carressing me and kissed me so tenderly. Leaving him was the worst feeling of all he says that this is the hardest part. I long for his touch to look into his eyes knowing that i am his and will always be for another man will ever touch me again.

The experiences with my master is beyond great. He is showing me self control and how to bring out my submissive side. This is something i have never experienced and only dreamed about. He took me to a very high point and when i released the submissive side it made my body quiver and shake the feeling was so overwhelming i couldnt catch my breath i started crying it was so amazing. I felt emotionaly drained and so relaxed an orgasim that i have never had its hard to explain in words. He is very excited that i am so eager to show him my submissive side and put trust in him to do so. He is also showing me to love and how to devote yourself to your master. I always thought that being a sub was all about sex and the cool toys you get to play with. But i was wrong that is only the erotic part of pushing you to your limits slowly to bring out that side of you. Now i know the true meaning of wearing his collar and to accept him as my master. Its about love and devotion between 2 people that grow together and experience things together a solid relationship that you can be very proud of, to crave that attention and wanting the desire to please my master and the graditutude of feeling his approval. To hear him say thats my good girl it gives me goosebumps and makes the desire to please him more everyday. He brings out the sexy,playful side of me that i didnt know that even existed. I feel comfortable with him and i am so glad that we found eachother. I will post more to my journal to show our progress together and what i have learned, for he will be watching these posts and reading on how we grow together. I do journals to him everyday that are emailed to report what we did and the feelings i had afterwards. Any thoughts and feelings i have he wants to know about thats the way we grow together on this awesome journey of a true relationship between master and his sub.

I have searched for 3 years for my dominate man and i think now well i know now that my search is over with i found him. Hes an awesome man that is dominate and has a softer side that i always wanted. I have accepted to be his sub and i gave myself to him as claiming him as my master. Im so excited to have found him i cannot wait to kneel down to him and accept his collar. Im wearing a temporary one right now that he has approved of im seeing him soon and i cant wait.