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PARADOX
Imperfect creature. Born into a woman’s body… though never fully shared or experienced the gifts that lie within. Lived a life of privilege…though currently lack the ability or the right to enjoy any privileges that are not given. Know how to love and give…though currently lack anyone to love, honor and respect. Worldly traveled and knowledgeable … though currently my life is an island lacking any friends or family to care about my existence or whereabouts.
For years, I lived the life of a housewife and took for granted the lifestyle I enjoyed. When the house crumbles, you soon discover the empty shell that it was and the lie that you were living. I now know my privilege is to serve and it is not my privilege for others to serve me. It’s a paradox brought on by my own foolish mistakes that has opened my eyes to acknowledge my role and purpose.
I have not always been a naïve housewife. I have had experiences tucked away as a stripper, a bisexual wanton slut and a cum slut in my life - all conveniently compartmentalized away and forgotten. Funny how life comes full circle.
I admit that I will be a project for someone. But I want to be cherished as a submissive just as I will cherish them for their strength, wisdom and power. I want to be moulded to become the perfect slut, slave and pet realizing that the canvas is still an imperfect creature. I want to experience the exhilarating highs and the pain and agony of becoming a more useful creature as you break me down and rebuild me in your image of what a woman’s body and life should be.
From reading the other personals, I recognize that mine is different from the others. I may not find what I seek here but know no where else to look. I am seeking a Master or even a Dom/Domme couple who is willing to take on the project. My desires and imagination run deep but my recent experience is light. I have experienced bondage, toys and use but not the desires that lie within my soul and the experiences I have not yet imagined. I need to be trained in how to service my Masters, how to bring them pleasure, how to present and dress, how to withstand pain for the pleasure of my Masters, the true meaning of humiliation. I don‘t dare say no limits but trust that the Master chosen for me will be reasonable and knowledgeable about how far and how quickly they can transform me.. Yes, I am a project. But I have a lifetime to commit to this and hope to become what I was always intended to be. I am open to anywhere in the world and willingly walk away from this past existence. I would hope my former friends, if they cared, would not recognize me for what I will become. For what I want to become is the real me that has been buried inside for years.
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