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To the heart I betrayed:
How can you ever be lonely when my thoughts are always with you?
How can you ever miss me when my hand has never left yours?
How can you ever be cold when my warmth surrounds you?
How can you ever feel sad when you light up my life so much?
And how can I ever live without your love for which I get for all that.
Death can never stop me being with you my Gab - my beautiful sub 'shali' - Im always with you, I am with you right now and will always be there too, whenever you feel a warm glow, its me wrapping my arms around you - just to let you know that everything is perfect, just the way it is right now, this second, any second.X
Something to sleep on:
if your heart beats for me once or twice, I can hear that. if your words sometimes fall on a small "I love you" I can feel that. if your tears sometimes fall because I touch you, then I cherish that. And if your thoughts ever drift to me for a moment during the day, then know that I am right there next to you thinking of you at the same time too. Need I add it? It hardly seems to cover the extent of whats in my heart.
The thing is - I find you completely fucking amazing, I have never felt this way about anybody before. sexually and loving all in one. Its a trip. the thing is if I feel this way then another guy can too. And I dont feel much for anything. You just ran straight into my heart and completely overwhelmed me, so amazing. i will always love you for that.
You have brought something to my life, my heart, my dreams and my thoughts and it is beautiful. Think if I ever lost it I would never recover. Ill love you forever X My most amazing Gab, you leave me breathless.
Its strange to be in your head, but familiar also. I can see everything about you so clearly and the more I look the more I see the person you are and i feel like I am the only one who does the only one allowed to and the only one to love you the way I do so what is there for me to do while in your head except curl up and enjoy the amazing beauty of the things I see around me.
Sometimes it feels exciting and sometimes unsure. Ive felt it secure and felt it with its arms around me but have never felt it so right until now, like a warm jumper, a soft cuddle, one forehead against another. I close my eyes and its all I need, to see you and your perfect love, perfect for me
Do you think you are alone in being scared? Living in the here and now is all well and good, but it is no where near good enough cuz I cant see you. I can hear your voice, I can hear your words. I can feel your love and I can really feel your love. I am scared too my gab, cuz losing these these things is bad enough but not touching you is worse and I am scared of being half alive without you and I am scared of being half dead if I lose you.
Here and now is beautiful it really is, and I am scared to lose that too. I do understand you my only gab - I am not that far away after all.
Soon (M-----) and all her drama will be gone for good and there will be nothing to hide. As long as there is a roof over my head, you will always have a home with me if ever you need it.
I will never let you go, I will never let you down, I will always be there to catch you if you fall and I promise I will never let anything or anyone hurt you or come between us, my beautiful gab. I promise.
Your heart will always be safe in the palm of my hands. I will protect it with my life and cherish it always. You have nothing to fear from me, my gab. I promise XXXXXXXXXXXX
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