YES Today I got some relief! A very respectful slave happened to be in the area, he came and met me in guildford, he paid for my small amount of shopping and got me dinner at his hotel. This put me in a great mood to play with him. I had a lot of fun, it was a good thing I was wearing my leather boots... I got to trample and kick and get him to lick his own precum off them for me. Dirty little sissy slut in his pvc skirt. Releasing my sadistic beast, just a little bit, was  incredible. Really enjoyed kicking him around. I wasn't allowed to scratch him so to improve my mood I slapped him very hard round the face. He was so turned on. What a lucky slutty slave. He was in the right place at the right time, and had the balls to call me and meet up with me at my total convience and pleasure. This is how it should be. I feel appeased and calm now. He wrote the below for me. He's not getting to cum till he is back with his vanilla partner.

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i know this website is a load of wank, and i shouldn't be surprised, but it seems so hard to find a sub i really want to own. perhaps my first one set the bar incredibly high, or perhaps i am jaded and i need more impressing. i find i can tune into almost any perverted fantasy and play in an incredibly real fashion. i know what it is i offer. if people are paying, that's one thing, but for my personal relationships i need something much more. if you are interested send me a photo and *no* cut and paste emails, there has to be a personal ressonance or we are getting nowhere...

got a certain sub under consideration, he is the filithiest one i've come across. so far it goes well and he's following orders perfectly, renewing my faith in finding real non-bratty whiny subs. let's see how it goes when we meet

It's going to take some pretty fucking special and amazing now for me to want to collar the next person, I expect a decent email to let me know you are intelligent, interesting, and have the potential to be my dark muse.

Girl sub has already evolved and moved on, I think I'm getting too good at this. Looking for one to keep now

Just started a delicate and new relationship with a sub girl now. Going to treat her carefully to start with. She's a beginner at this but so far it seems she really rather likes pain...massively exciting for a sadist. She also has wonderfully soft hands. I am quite enthralled.

I have no pet now, he's all grown up. I have instead a frustrated low growling rage inside me that I need other outlets for. The trouble is finding a submissive who can truly be strong enough to take, without wimping out, without running away, the depth and intensity of who I am. Who can match FULLY the dominance in me. My standards grow higher each time. I start to suspect it is an impossible task. fuckers.

I want my pet here. He is too far away by the sea right now. Such a shame, as I have desires that need feeding... if some local sub is in need of some bondage and spanking tonight, I may well be prepared to be generous.

Last night I came back home from chatting to a dom guy at the pub, to discover my pet dressed up beautifully and completely as a girl...heels, convincing wig, girl clothes, boobs, everything. Make up too. My jaw actually dropped it was incredible. I had a lot of fun fucking 'her' and at one point I really saw a girl beneath me rather than a boy. In the meantime, I've been learning how to extend my energy body into silicon cocks and feeling every sensation as his/her lipsticked mouth wraps around my shaft and I penetrate him/her. We finally found the right lube and it's fantastic.

I hope you girly-boys are jealous.

Any girl out there who likes androgyny should get in touch. We'd love to  have a girl to play with. x

really enjoying playing with gender fluidity at the moment. my boy has an incredibly slutty girl in him, we had hot lesbian sex and then the next morning I turned into a man and had my wicked way... :)

wearing a key round my neck...unlocks something very special..something that is now totally MINE.

collared an exquisite creature, enjoyed playing with him immensely, looking forward to where we go next.

Meeting a mixture of people so far, and already starting to make a few good friends, which is excellent. I met a potential slave on friday and there was very intense energy between us, and a potential pet boy is on the horizon. If these two work out I'm pretty good for individual men. I've met one awesome relatively local couple who are really genuine and supportive - I'm finding that playing with couples could be the best solution for opening up and exploring my precious inner submissive. Being switch, opening up both my domme and sub sides at once, is perhaps a little bit of a head fuck but at the same time the wonderful space I feel for BEING who I AM is worth it. Glad I made the effort to come back here. I want to say I much prefer meeting face to face or speaking directly as soon as I can - I can pick up so much more about a person that way. When everything is done online it's so easy to project fantasies and then end up disapointed.