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Hello everyone.
This is my second take on profile deion during the lifetime of this account, and just as before I will try to give You detailed picture of my person, thoughts, preferences and views. Naturally I am going to write quite a bit about myself, what I like and what I think, thus I may seem like more self-centred person than I am. Please take note of that.
As short as possible: 25yo sub, sissy but not all the way, sincere, after a long term d/s relationship.
Let’s start with who I am.
I am 25 years old, not UK native. I’ve been here for around a year now. Just moved to Glasgow (On a side note, I do love this city). I did move to this country to find more about myself and for a better life. Still waiting for the life part though… My life is far from perfect right now, no surprises here. Instead of kicking myself I actually work hard to shape it, make It what I want it to be.
In this paragraph, I’ll tell You about my interests, I really wanted to find a nice adjective to describe “wide variety of interests” and while I learned a few words, well, I’d come out as pretentious cunt using any of them so… I have pretty wide range of interests. Here we go. I am quite artsy. Can paint, be it on paper/wood/canvas, using just about anything from actual coffee through watercolours to oil. Can sculpt, in polymer clays, usual clays or plasters of paris. I do like to look and admire some art in various forms too, I am not too picky about that though. On the other hand I am programmer, probably not good enough to make living of it just yet but it’s just a matter of time. I like to cook, I think I am pretty good but I do not really cook for anyone but me so it is harder to judge. I like to play tennis. I read, just about anything from Suworow to King. I am learning Norwegian, just because I think it sounds cool.
Hey, it’s collarspace and You know…
Yeah, I know. From here I will tell You about me in more BDSM’ish tone. I’ll start with my experiences. There is not too much of them and I still consider myself novice. Keeping that in mind, I have been both online and real-time sub. Learned that crave more intimacy and attention than online thing can provide, did not like that, it is not what I am here for. On the other had I was a live in submissive for a Lady. It lasted around a year. It definitely was service-oriented submission, as a boy. I learned so much during that time. My tastes evolved in quite unexpected ways since then.
The most important thing I took out of that is: “I do want to make someone proud of me”. I will go a long way to do that, and as long as I learn my tastes will probably change, my limits will too. That thing won’t.
What does submission give me? What does do for me? Obviously, a lot of satisfaction. Most importantly though, structure that D/S relationship provides, rules give me the feeling of comfort and safety. Peace of mind. There is certain clarity to it. You disobey? Get punished. You deserve something good? Come. It is really something refreshing, appealing.
Down to earth honey!
Yes, yes.
You can probably see, I am a boy who really wants to be a girl. Treated like one. Made one. Most of my tastes revolve around that. Sissification/feminization topics. Not all the way though, usually what former one means, is total objectification. I however am a person first and foremost, I have nothing against that in moderation, as a part of a scene or a play. I could not stand being ‘nothing’ or a ‘piece of trash’ for someone all the time. Secondly, while all the ‘forced’ themes here are arousing I want to point out I don’t need them. No one has to force me to shave my legs. I do work on myself, I do yoga for leaner muscle tone, I am on a diet for months and yes You can see the effects.
I am very fond of chastity devices, they do affect me, my mind tremendously and ideally I would be kept chaste basically at all times, allowed to climax in a girl way. “Then why don’t You keep yourself completely clean right now?” I am far from perfect, I can keep myself locked up to 3 weeks, that’s it. I need a goal, and someone to set it and go along the way with me. Keep me on track.
Collars, or just about anything bearing some symbolism, reminding me that I am owned, are important to me. I do want to be able to fondle them in my hands while waiting for food at take-out or sitting in a train.
So what are other turn-ons? Bondage, corporal punishment, sensory deprivation, micromanagement, general obedience training themes, gloryholes, some pet-play, uniforms and more. I am a curious creature.
This is also a good time to point out that I do not want to push any of that on anyone. Most of my pleasure and satisfaction comes from pleasing someone else. Someone I devote myself to. It should however be clear that I do want to share long term goals with potential owner.
Limits are pretty typical and include: fire, breath play, severe pain, illegal activities, blood, scat. That is not all obviously, bdsm world is vast and there are extreme activities I probably will never be part of, there is no point in googling them all. Also, a note on pain, I have nothing against it, my pain threshold is pretty low though and that is a topic to talk more about. I chose to include it here just because I am not ready to handle too much right now.
Okey, so what am I looking for?
I am after D/S relationship where I can feel, know that the other part needs submissive as much as I need them. I will do a lot, but do not want to be a doormat, I like appreciation and attention. I want to be ‘for’ someone. Someone understanding, outspoken, valuing communication. Sane. With who? I am bi, open for female and male Dominants. Couples too, which would be the best of both world I guess but You never know who You’ll meet. I want to be taken under someone’s wing and taken for a long and exciting journey.
A few additional notes to wrap up this monster deion (mostly loose thoughts that appeared while writing this thing but didn’t really fit anywhere).
I am very self-conscious person, have low self-esteem and, on top of that crave attention. This is pathetic mix and I work on gaining more confidence. It is hard, but You could have guessed all that pretty early. I am also in no way a ‘man-of-power’ at this point in my life. I do know that, now You do too. I am honest and look for something real. On top of that, If You actually read the whole thing, You know me pretty darn well. I made myself kind of vulnerable here, and would really appreciate If You could write more than ‘Hey, hot pics.’ or anything similar.
Thank You for reading, I do hope You enjoyed it.
Have a nice day,
Lexie.
If You do have any suggestions or corrections (eg. grammar, stylistic) let me know.
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