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I can find reward and pleasure from seeing You smile when i meet Your wish. i can give up my pleasure for You. i would like to share my gaze of compassion and feel Your strength and pride in what You are capable of. i like to play, to be obedient, to bark, to heel, to trot, to prostrate myself. i am capable of making some special desserts to share (like chocolate truffles). Also quite a simple person. I hope you appreciate good communication and take the time to be attentive, as well as expect the same from your partner.
I am very positive, well-traveled and into cultures where people find it easy to smile, despite their hardships. i am a culture aficionado. One of my pics is of me in northern Finland. Yes, during the white nights.
Documentary film, and Fiction books are important to me. As is human health.
http://www.spike.com/video/does-spanking-lead/3058838
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“The most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you'll never have.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
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This is a very interesting story.. Documentary about commodification of needs such as affection in Japan. Wonder how far metro areas such as NYC, Los Angeles or Chicago are from something similar: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.?v=wshhk4n8z5J5dRQ74H9g ... |
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To all my good people here, it looks like the feature of "Forum Posting" is not usable. One consequence of the migration from collarme to collarspace... |
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This is a very interesting interview (Piers Morgan interviews porn actress) with a relatively clever rhetoric, exploring how sexual freedom is stigmatized in a free society:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzWDPOKdq40
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This Labor Day i am serving me. Big bathtub. view of Everglades forest & a few birds. Soon comes my reflexive footrub. En espanol, mi automasage. :-) |
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i took some time today, surfing. i found some nice discussion groups which were thoughtful enough as to be very arousing. Here is a sample of one to my liking
http://www.downonmyknees.com/archives/chastity/orgasm_denial.php#comment-815451 |
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i am sorry for my lack of expression lately. back on track. i was thinking, many men and boys of vision have their muse: the one they envision will tear open their passion to create, to work, to serve someone or humanity.
For me, that person feels empowered to be able to exercise total power over me. i imagine that there will be one who steps forth, and will feel proud to simply point or say a word, and action from me will be the result. i imagine there will be one who will be happy to punish me to improve my worth to her and i will be grateful for the exercise. i imagine there will be one who will enjoy the thought that when she calls me, i have things prepared and am on my knees, greeting her every aspect, as she steps through the threshold of the door.
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I need to get this out: After 2 years of dating, vanilla web sites and this one, i must say that as we get older, we talk about decisions less, when it comes to love, sexuality and choices. Sure, on the one hand it is all about consciousness and there is nothing really to say, ever.
But, when making a decision to go bark up that tree or take that high road or say goodbye to that illusion or experience we wanted or thought we wanted, it is nice to let people around us know. Such sharing and insight only helps the people around us grow.
And it manifests and clearly represents us around and toward the people who are interested in remaining close or listening to us.
i remember one beautiful relationship i had started some 6 years ago. With sexual intimacy came the knowledge that she was going to hospital visits to assess whether she had a brain tumor or not, whether it was cancerous or not.
i tried to help by giving one of those, "dont leave any stone unturned in a search for a cure." You know, it may come from chemotherapy, but it may come from homeopathy. Being very much a systems thinker, she didnt care much for what i had to say. i walked home saddened that day and never called again. "It's just not gonna work," i thought. "i am too open." For her, too strange.
How many times i looked back and wished i could travel back to that point in time and say why it was that i didnt call back. To explain that it wasnt time for our world views to clash. That it didnt feel good for me to have my holistic side closed by someone who is ill and did not want to hear holistic thoughts.
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Today, i want to talk a bit about a difficult time in a submissive male's evolution toward a relationship with a Dominant Woman, Goddess, Mistress or Lady.
After an initial first contact, there will be times when a Woman will appear and drop off withou saying hello. There will be times when there will be a spark of interest, only to mysteriously fade.
In such times, it does not serve the potential relationship well to have silence about the matter. What usually results, is that a week later, the Dominant is calling the submissive things such as:
1. a troller
2. irresponsible or flaky
3. not interested
So, in such patterns, the behavior of the dominant is sometimes CREATING the behavior that they do not want from the submissive counterpart. We can not read each other's mind. Communication is always key.
Recently, i took a step back because someone said they had a "stalking experience." To me, since i practice not only submission, but timelessness, detachment, strength and control, to me it meant patience. So, by being a bit loser and not aggressive, all of a sudden i became flaky. A simple conversation and a little bit of trust would have revealed that i was actually trying to be respectful and trying to give time to have the other person trust me. To show that each person is unique. Sometimes we need time from trauma or bad experiences to see that each human being is a unique universe of thought and habit and experience, unto itself.
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It is interesting, learning about myself by seeing the profiles of a few people that attract my interest. i am happy to be at a point in my life wherein i have the courage for an LTR bdsm relationship.
i decided, today, that if dominant women can make entries and i hear from them to see what they learn in the process of their search, then i can do the same. But i dont know if dommes read journal entries. Perhaps the reluctance to actually read and reflect is a global phenomenon, and by that i mean across all genders and across the entire control and power spectrum.
I ran into this today, and it was interesting. Good for dommes and subs to see how deep and how far a simple item can expand out, once some creativity, symbolism and cultural mysticism is added...
http://www.iron-rose.com/IR/docs/embi.htm
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