I have these thoughts of the things in life being nothing but that…things…….
Things we wish to keep we are unable to have and the things that we do not wish to deal with are thrust into our faces with such force to plop you on your bottom and kick the sand in your eyes while you are forced then to eat your own pride.
You are forced to see things in a new light. If you are able to truly see light. You tormentors are that which you feared the most…The things you hold dear are taken from you in plain sight and held as tools to make you conform and behave to the point you are labeled normal as to the worlds standers.
Tears fall and heart aches but the tears are not seen and heart aches are ignored to the point of conforming is what is needed to get on with life as normal. The normal you are used to and not the normal they wish to force upon you and have pushed for through the courts. They say it is normal but had you already had this then you still would have been not what they think is normal but then odd.
Why do you let them force things upon you? That’s right they hold the key to your happiness, your children.
You have to eat the words in which you wish to tell them but they are able to use their nasty words and even write them even use them in court against you. To harm you further to show you that they think you are trash.
Bound and gagged you go into court, sit there and hope the judge reads through their crap and webs of lies.
You wait breathing heavy and heart pounding as the judge sets forth his new ruling. Tears beg to fall as you breath more heavy, so not to let them fall. Stomach turning as you try to take in what is said. Feels like a tunnel dream with no end in sight.
~Sigh~ as you get the sweet grip from the Man you love with all your heart, to calm you. Three squeezes to say ”I Love You”.
After court you feel a tad bit better knowing that you aren’t what those tormentors have painted you out to be in court. Their words hurt, yes but they are only words. Yes they are written and yes they paint you as dumb, stupid, know nothing idiot. They shall be taken to court for slander so relax.
You can’t change them, they think they are normal. You can yell kick and scream all you wish but then that gives them more to beat you with in court with more words and may even pull those children further away from you in the long run. All saying it is legal.
