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Ever felt like you aren't quite finished?  That maybe you aren't living up to your fullest potential?  That you are only existing to survive?  Perhaps even that there is One who might complete you, help you, as only One can...? 

Endless days of work, struggle, acting as if you are everything you should be, just because society now frowns upon women who don't stand on their own, striving to work, talk, act and live as a man, instead of enjoying the feminity of being a female, being protected, loved, and at the same time, guided and even punished if needed when wrong. 

Struggling to get over the taboo society has placed on certain things that people find enjoyable, when in reality, one's own morality should only be their own guide.  By this, I simply mean that what two consenting adults want, need and experience between themselves should be considered enjoyable, thrilling, and beautiful, in whatever form it takes. 

I'm feeling my way, learning, watching, but also wanting.  Wanting more, to live, to love, to do more than exist. 

I want to learn to play, life should be about enjoyment, not just struggle, or worry.  Take each day one at a time, and live...simply live.
9/13/2009 7:53:18 PM
Becoming ill...well frankly it sucks.  Thankfully I'm on the road to recovery.  Thank you to my friends for their well wishes and apologies to new friends here who I haven't been able to contact in a while. 

I am recovering nicely and striving to be a better person every day than I was the day before.
LadyAllie