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I would like to make it clear from the very beginning that I am ONLY looking for friends here, though I am open to friendships with anybody who is "real." I don't care if you are man, woman, transgendered, dominant, submissive, or switch... just don't be fake and get carried away by the allure of me being a woman.
That being said... I am here to learn about the lifestyle from others who live/have lived it. I am not currently collared, but I am in a very committed relationship of 3 years. We started out in the lifestyle, but due to our current circumstances (and a few other various reasons) we have decided to take a break from the D/s lifestyle.
To be completely honest, I am quite inexperienced in the lifestyle... not to mention that I have had a myriad of bad life exeperiences that have lead me to be guarded and a bit of a control-freak by nature. It's strange that I would consider myself a submissive personality while at the same time having the need to be in control. However, I think the need to feel in control is more out of fear than actually needing to be in control.
If I were asked to describe my 10 biggest flaws (or what I perceive to be flaws), I would have to say that I am: stubborn, bratty, insecure, head-strong/strong-willed, fearful, cautious, wary, opinionated, anal-rententive (aka: perfectionist), and skeptical. These things have made it very difficult for me to engage in and understand the BDSM lifestyle.
One thing that the man is always telling me is that I have to "just let go." Well, in all the time we have been together, I am still struggling to let go of some of the things in my past. I love him with everything I am, and I truely just want to make him happy... but there is a small part of me that continues to cling onto the bad things that have happened, making it difficult to be true to who I am inside of my heart and soul.
So, I am here to talk to people with more experience than me... especially submissives and slaves so that I can get that point-of-view. I want to find a friend who will answer my questions openly and honestly and will give me suggestions and advice. I don't need someone to play with... I don't need someone to try and dominate me. I just need someone to talk to... who understands me.
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I would like to thank everybody for their messages and interest in my profile. However, I would like to make it extremely clear that I will not answer messages that my other half does not approve of out of respect and dedication to him. Please do not be offended. Perhaps it is the way you came across in your message or perhaps it is because you were a moron who didn't actually take the time to read my profile. If you would like to try again, I will look again at what you write. However, it may get deleted again... you never know. But as I said, messages from morons, fakes, wanna-be's and general *ssholes will not be answered. Thank you! |
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| Age: 27 |
| Southfield,
Michigan |
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