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Hello kinksters / perverts ~!
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Lets begin at where I tossed my sweet sugary coating of a human and got comfortable with my zesty spice.
I have known that I was into bondage, S&M, and such. Ever since I went into the attic and browsed through these boxes of 1970's to 1980's Heavy Metal magazines, that is. The only problem was, I was still at the naive age of eleven. I only portrayed these authoritative women in black tight suit and a whip as your usual yet bad-ass comic book heroines. ... But, I wanted to be them. It was akin to these Disney princess fantasies. You'd think I wanted to be a mermaid like Ariel, tree-hugger like Pocahontas, or even a kick-ass bride-to-be like Mulan, but nope these Dominatrixes' appeal easily outranked them. Crazy, right? (Haha ~!)
And, now, fast forward to high school years. I was a sophomore at that time. I was one of these silly teenagers who think older boys/girls are better than these "immature" kids. I dated a college boy, knowing that he was not interested in anything but sex. I futzed around with him, and was able to go to parties at his expense. I got to see interesting things and I experimented. A lot.
(We didn't last that long, but I had to mention him in here because without him I don't think I'd start anywhere early on.)
I started from bottom to top. I tasted the sting of whips / floggers / paddles, I was embraced by ropes / tapes, I tackled orders, and I've come to understand how dynamics and scenes work. However, I also discovered how much I craved for power; I struggled with the idea of bowing my head to anybody, urges of implanting fiendish tortures on others, and being oppressed under one's control.
Eventually, I started to move onto other side of this exploration at barely eighteen years old; I've graduated from high school by then. I got to grow into the shoes of who I wanted to walk in. I recognized how more complicated it to be a dominant, but the shoe fits.
This was it; I couldn't ignore and deny feelings, thoughts, and fantasies of having others worshiping me, leaving marks on their precious bodies, and almost shatter their whole being to ashes.
I felt like myself. Complete.
------- Personality: -------
First and foremost, I am a dominant and sadist. What a familiar tune, right? Maybe it is, maybe it is not.
I've been blessed with an overactive mind. I swap wits; I enjoy a large range of humor, from dry to perverse. I illustrate and formulate plans vividly, but leave some space for the unexpected. I question, almost, everything; I'm an idealist and a perfectionist on the same page.
Although, I am open-minded and I do try my best accept others for who they are. I am always learning, and growing, as I go. Learning is a process that never ends.
An ambivert; I am both extrovert and introvert. I don't do well in large crowds, for a good reason, but I will happily interact with others in smaller groups. I define large crowd as a group with 20 or 30+ individuals. Don't misunderstand me for demure, because I am far from it.
Here is the 'buts'.
I am caring, but I am also callous.
I am patient, but I am also passionate.
I am careful, but I am also impetuous.
I am curious, but I am also indifferent.
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I am deaf; I prefer writing / typing/ texting as my choice of communication. Other than American Sign Language, that is.
I am allergic to rain; The season, scent, and weather itself, not raindrops. If I abruptly walk away from you and if you haven't angered me, there is possibility of you having the scent of rain on you or the scent of rain is nearby.
I am crafts-y; I am an artist, I draw and paint digitally whenever I can. I enjoy Do-It-Yourself projects with duct tape, resin, and wood. (Rope might be next addition. Hint hint, wink wink.) I do and enjoy photography.
I'm a gamer; I do board games, card games, and video games. If you have a game that I haven't heard of or seen, the chances is I'd want to learn how to play (and play)!
I am a massage therapist to be. I will change/ update this when I get my license. Currently, I specialize in Swedish, deep tissue, relaxation, and hot stones. My goal is going in Asian body work, acupressure, and acupuncture.
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