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It's time for another chapter in my life. I've cleared muck. I see a finer looking glass underneath.
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Seems unfortunate when someone leaves you without a trace and mere words to satisfy their actions.
Be a crumb or a morsel, as long as the dream is false a fantasy is just a reflection of the deceit that surrounds the soul. the heart is in, the blood thickens yet runs rapid. the craving grows without malice. the dream is false a fantasy is just a reflection of the demise. Follow and yearn to seek thy humble abode. Eat, drink, touch and run all the emotions rapid through the veins believe in the path dig for the goal yes dig for it and what is found is only the cast the core is calling you to relinquish the seat pass the glass and drink once more once more a drink to the dream the fantasy. Believe in the vastness because it curses through the veins. "I am , I am!" Fall to thine feet and scream them and find no sound, no tremor ...only the gasp of your fetish. |
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a growing fondness, O/our time spent with you coilded up within My rapture, crave to know ..seek to find Me, I love the sounds of your voice when you surrender yourself to Me. Your aches are notes to my soul. Desires run like a river heavly flowing from the mountain tops. Shudders and grunts are the top notes to the Desire I seek to fulfill, To touch you for Me, to look down upon yearning eyes. A code so sacred there is no other path to follow, hense only W/we can find the doors of O/our minds |
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Wow, what is the sudden spark...thought all of us die and went to heaven. Are you heeled poor sport? How can I prolong your suffering exsistence. Why do you call upon Me as though I'm your savior. Can you be true to this ? Can you offer something other than your slanted cock. It aches for Me...how I speak and touch...oh no...don't think I touch you!? There is so much in this wonderland...are you ready to follow? |
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Easy come easily gone...I guided and slide my way to be thru the skin, under the breath you, should say My name. Quiver with delight to view Me. If you believe your unworthy then you are, because u state your fate with your actions, with your thoughts. you let those around you how to live and how to react. How often do your comrads see your scrotum, how many touch it?, can they smell the cage? that you are show Me your devotion. You fail to follow bc your not capable of being guided. Step to your own drummer, deny you true self. Look into the mirror and see despair . quest for Me...to make u a better person..trust is what you lack...it can be never 90%. don't I prove to you? my slut my simple portion. Free yourself give chance to your heart, make way for fulfillment. |
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I'm so high right now..My body shudders at the past few days. Wondering if i'm being set up for a downfall. Slowly little bits of the puzzle fits. I only want to deepen O/our bond and though hestitant I know you want it too. A male with a lock is viewing himself as My property...All the treats of my desire; how can I not keep moving forward. Now let's explore some more certainly, to follow My heart. |
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I lived bounded for over 30 years...chastity was my friend just prior to that. Hurdles have been jumped; only for me to come to a place within Me...so I'm not the slut..I play timid but watch out bc patience is My best friend and yours too. Kneel before Me and find the inner peace you so desire. Fear is a hidden drug we all swallow. Guilt is only required when you followed a path of uncertainity. Regret are only for those who fail to forgive themselves and refuse to process the pain's extention.
Where is My blue boy...you know who u are. without Me you are lost and starving but yet you continue to fight Me...keep squirming Bitch...Power is Mine..stop whining over those Nuts
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The whole point of my destiny is to find that inner peace...that fulfillment that seems to travel through my body and yearns within my soul. I'm not sure I have properly lived without being fulfilled. Traveling and adventure along paths to find there is many memories but no milestones upon those roads I have traveled. I know what I seek. It seems only time will deliver what I truly will deem me satisfied. In that retrospect I know what I really need...there has been reminders and realisations. I will not accept the lessor. As to accept the lessor is only to fail at what truly can be mine ...happiness is an effort...I never doubted that for a moment
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I can't tell you how trust works ...but I can say it comes for the gut. You're instinctfully aware of when things just don't seem right. You can't pinpoint it and you can't give an explaination. We all have these invisible tenticles within our nature. I'm aware and no words that pass your lips to convince me are worth the effort...I'm here with my heart and soul and I trust them to guide me. For many of us what we do most is for selfish reasons and that is normal: however how much of these actions towards someone else wil affect them to a point that's too late for repair . I'm hoping for someone with a bit of a conscious, and enough of it not to feel they can fool Me. Please don't question why I won't play or engage in activity when there is this wall that you have created with your deceit. If your open with Me and give O/our relationship a chance to grow and build trust...you will find an even more pleasurable feeling within your soul. Let Me show you how this bond can grow and to feel totally fullifilled within O/ourselvvs. Don't let fear get in the way of what can truly give U/us O/our Joy. |
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Im a bit shallow..not into fleshy subs..not into older than My tolerance. As friends, OK but I won't do older subs..doesn't seem right to Me. Just be a true average sub who appears that he cares for himself...Im not into sissies so please keep it moving. you may wear a panty now and then but Only because I like panties...don't get twisted..subs in lipstick just don't appeal to Me..Ah pain now that is something I should indulge in maybe I'm too nice and sweet..give me a real reason to torture..speak up from the heart and begin to cowar just give a reason and I'll start on a path of 'you deserve it' |
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I no longer have the desire to play with those who can't truly serve my thirst to serve a Domme...to really want me to be pleased and not hestitant to express it.
I have taken on a playmate...with that said my desire grows to have him under my hand and control..being trained/ that no matter what...I'm the reason he feels nurtured, the reason he feels fulfiled and the reason he plays. No matter how much I try I can't think of anyone else. My fantasies are growing. I feel bonded to who he is and what he is about to become for me. No matter what the obstacles I would love nothing more than to overcome them and for him to feel the same. I want to guide him to total sanity and bliss as my submissive. As many are mostly into pain and humilation..I want him to feel and be manly under my feet. To serve it to sacrifice the part within him that gives him peace and solace. The part of him that bonds with all that we can be together.
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how do I be sure, In a world that is constantly changing...whenever I am away from you...the desire to play only increases...hmmm I wonder if I would be toying with you every nite? if you were around...Well you can deny me all you want...and I know we are not bound to the rope...you know I am the giving
Domme and can only show my tainted affections in return..yes laying on that bed...all prepared for me..amazng what a little black will do.
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Calmer today...I guess working some issues out but it will take time to take back control with the stubborn minded...why does he fight it so hard..silly boy...I hold your toys and you will surely know...I have the key to your toy box!
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ok well its been a full week and I'm writing words. I can be so vanilla at times and what was I thinking getting involved with someone who is unable to bring the drama in my direction. I wanna hate, I want revenge...it would be so sweet to indulge in such actions towards him Well Im patient and he has no choice. My alter ego just speak volumes...I just need the correct mix of challenges and I'll just be me
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I shouldn't want to hear...I should not to hear perfect answers and of course they are none , to get a sense of the true self within
only then can I say he can have a place next to me me, entice me not with subtle pleasantries or coy remarks
be who you are and accept your fate with or without me the world is a grand place for me to explore let me know the wonders of all of you...just be true to this life or life will show you many doors
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Oh
my days are quite tiresome...
RL play with a professional ass!..as he so needs my hand upon him..to remind him his place in my world. Promises should be kept..so I shall see if he is serious again..that slut. He has never released like that before...he so deserves me to hurt him ...I want him to cry..i want him to beg...Never will happen...his heart is elsewhere...he needs to be taken out of these caged emotions..ON with a strap!
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