I didnt know where to post this. Its laughable and new and may or may not draw interest from people wanting what I want but hey.............it worked when i was another person and I met many fine women but not fine for me. I am different than they hoped and wasnt "out" about who I was. My fault, but back in those days denial ruled supreme.not today Merry Christmas!!!!!

If you dont like my post please don't be a hater .I never critisize and never hurt anyones feelings who isnt asking for any problems. Like you reader, I am looking for love. Somebody brilliant, somebody who loves life, somebody who enjoys travel, somebody who thinks snow is pretty but warm beaches are nicer, someone who has an inner child and isnt afraid of herself. Someone who is a thinker but can and does on occassion throw caution to the wind. Somebody who does not need to lead in a relationship yet doesnt want to be overwhelmingly led. Somebody who loves life and wants someone to share it with. Quite honestly, it took me 40 years to understand myself and even when I did I figured it was too late and my lot in life was just what it was and if I was more honest with myself years ago things would be so differnt. I have to admit that was my darkest revelation and thank goodness I was wrong. Its not too late my therapist confirmed that to me today, while wishing me well and sharing with me that in an overwhelming victory her panel of professionals confirmed after reviewing her notes I was a very extraordinarlily clear case to approve. I was declared a woman by them all.

Hows that for drama and getting you confused.....in short the panel of head doctors one must go through to make sure this wasnt a passing fancy and a mistake to be made said NO! They declared me to be the real deal and have sent me to step two of the three step process. Today I was approved and graduated me to the therapist who will put me on female hormones, who will oversee breast implants and have me live 100% as a woman for six months give or take a month before she sends me to sex reassignment surgery. I considered writing this post in the men seeking woman column but my advisor who thinks I am in a great place right now to have a girlfriend agrees and endorses me seeking one here if i am honest right from the writing of the post and most importantly that nothing causes me to think of myself as a man. She laughed and said we both know you were a faker all those years and your more female than most females. We got along great and I will miss her but thanked her so much for helping me get approvals on breasts and hormones. One doctor down two more to go.

If you think like I did in the past you are thinking oh my God a sissy, a freak and a real yucko......no its not that way and I wish I seen it early. I alos fought with myself over religion and spiritual issues and my own pastor in the end was like....well maybe just maybe.....this could work out and he told me never to quote him so I shall not. Its not that I am swishy or mushy or anything else I am masculine enough on the exterior thugh ot at all hairy. Its not that I have a lisp I dont. Its not that I like other men Oh my God I dont like men too much at all ! Why should I? The thought of being with one sexually or in partnership is such a turn off for me. I have never had trouble as a man finding very sweet, very charming, and very much marriage material ladies. Many were as fun as I am and I m so sorry that each wanted and thought I was superman but inside I am all girl.

Check it out.........I love to go shopping, I will like go to ten stores and decide which clothes I like in each and then have to go revisit them to actually purchase them. I love clothes but on a recent holiday shopping trip I realized something I never did . When I go shopping I do the whole store not just mens clothes. What rang the bell and made me see it I dont know but...In each store twenty percent of my time is in kitchen equipment, another ten percent is in bed and bath, I always walk fast through the make up places as I push the fantasy world I thought I was in away from my shopping trips. Then I spend like sixty percent of my time looking at womens clothes while thinking of females I know and if it would look good on them never really thinking of myself or allowing me to think of myself. The other ten percent of my time is to hurry and pick up my mens clothes before the store closes. My therapist cracks up about that. By the way, I want to point out that I never asked to go to the therapist and dont have any mental disorders. I brought my questions to a mediacal doctor who talked to me for two hours after an exam and she told me I had to see a therapist because its their call to write the scripts for use of femal hormones in sex change cases. They all want to be sure and my therapist says I am the best argument fot this being legal in the world. She promises we will always be girlfriends so nice... Anyway, thats my sidebar shopping story

I have many personality traits and moments where even the people like my pastor who first said WHAT!!!!!! end up admitting to one degree or another I am a girl. I havent told my family and none know I am and have been talking to this therapist and her associates and have been being tested for four months now.....Its a done deal and we are going to start next week with first injexctions. Then they will work on my skin making it softer and i may need a little dermabrasion and give or take a week or two in three months I will be a much softer voice and ready for breasts and my journey and last chance to back out come as I have to live 100% female for six months before losing my really big clit...smiles I can spend hours telling you my female traits and why I am so freaking happy today knowing soon I will be who I really was meant to be but perhaps it would be more fun for you to see for yourself. I want to share with you that every girlfriend I have had as the man that I tried to be always commented on my nipples saying many girls would be jealous and all of them actually got into sucking and fondling them. Heaven for me let me tell ya lol...even with that it didnt register as i wanted to be the girl. Always another reason and nobody ever question my manhood......God I hope these hormones make me less freaking stupid. Men are you know?

I am submissive to the core, in a place thats soo soo soo happy now and cannot wait to have my breasts, new clothes, shoes, makeup, ladies nights and someone special to be like a sister, a mommy and best friend, not to mention my owner all four in one lady

Anyway, I could babble on this thing all day and night...fact is I am a woman who certainly needs another woman in her life. I dont seek a fly by night, I dont seek a psycho, I want someone who can forgive my giant clit for a while, someone who can help me choose what size my very very very cool titties are gonna be, someone who can help me with makeup, my therapist has a makeup consultant but whos better than you? I want someone who doesnt think dating a transexual is wierd. SOmeone who wants it all travel love romance and a life, home, and someone who loves and appreciates her better than any man could. Somebody to be there when I wake up for the first time with no balls.......though like most woman I will still have my mental toughness and bigger balls than most men so who needs these things lol. In short.....I am gonna be so cute, slutty at times and just a very well dressed woman. I am so freaking excited about buying clothes its killing me..think of the fun we will have!!! Oh yeah SHOES!!!! I am driving myself crazy lol. and want to drive you crazy but crazy good.

I have two jobs now, this is gonna procedure is expensive and luckily most of my time working is in my home office as in the office I built in my home. Its not gonna effect anything to have this surgery from a financial standpoint and my nieghbors to the left just bought their house and they are a Lez couple .....if they only knew whats coming soon lol..... There goes the nieghborhood huh....

Please be the one, I loved your post.

I think I am calling me

Lacey Anne