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	INTERESTED IN INTELLIGENT CONVERSATION I've always somewhat known I was a sub I've just never been actually able to fully realize my sub potential as I've never had a true Dom. I've had a rough partner here and there and someone who tried to fujfill the role in bed but nothing that ever felt like true dominance. However at the current moment I am not searching for a partner. I've recently moved into the area and I'm mostly looking for friends with like-minded interests. I am a submissive with a very strong spirit and I've played the Dom role once or twice but I do not like it. Because of my strong spirit it's hard for me to take a man trying to dominate me seriously if they're the type who just likes to tie me up now and again. So many men claim to like BDSM but don't understand that it's not just about fucking and "using" a woman. What I love about it is the complete feeling of being owned, the helpless feeling, that feeling of just absolute devotion (says the person who's never had a true dom hah). I'm into asphyxiation, bondage, spankings, forced orgasms, orgasm denial, and name calling to name a few things. I am attracted to men of all races (but have a slight preference for white men). Other than that I'm not particularly picky about hair, body type, or height, I believe it's all about a person's personality. Although my profile says bisexual I consider myself more pansexual. I've never been with a woman sexually but I do find women attractive and if the right one were to come along I wouldn't pass up the chance. NOTICE I was hoping this wasn't necessary but I am NOT NOT NOT into race play...

5/3/2013 10:47:51 PM

Frustrated about my vanilla life and mentally exhausted by it. My boyfriend is now upstairs asleep. I had an energy drink, hoping to stay up and maybe finally have a wild night (it is the weekend after all) but no, per usual he is tired. So I can't even have my average 2-5 minutes of boring vanilla sex where I pretend to get my rocks off and scrape the surface of my sexual addiction, just slightly calming my constantly horny racked nerves.

How can I complain though? I'm kind of a shitty person for staying with him. I appreciate him as a person and friend but as a lover he does not fulfill my needs. When I bring them up they're seen as unreasonable, my thirst unquenchable, and if I just give him time it will get better. Our relationship will terminate when I graduate, we've been having sex for over a year, IT HAS NOT GOTTEN BETTER. We never have sex more than once (i.e. no second round) and he last 2-10 minutes with little or very boring foreplay. He's maybe eaten my pussy 10 times in the year we've been together, has never tied me up, and has never ever even come close to satisfying me. His way of fixing our sex life is to fuck me harder...or what he interprets as harder which is more strokes per second which ultimately ends in 2 minutes sex.

We will never see eye to eye on sex...but my sex addiction makes me stick around for the shitty sex. Yes I could get sex anywhere but at least I know this is STD free.

Is it to much to ask for to be tied up and stripped of my personal right for a moment? To just want to please and be pleased in return. To be punished for being a mean little brat and rewarded for being a good girl. To be choked, spanked, bitten, fucked, licked, and used so thoroughly that all I want to do is collapse in a dirty sweaty heap and sleep off the pleasure? I guess it is...