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I'm Mistress Kristina Hel and I want to share a little bit about my history and my philosophy of domination with you.
I remember the exact moment I realized I was dominant. I was lying in bed wide awake late at night (not unlike now) and I was pondering my fantasies. Pre-transition I was sure I was more submissive, but post transition, I had new feelings. What could it mean that I wanted to hurt people for my own pleasure? Was I unconsciously an evil person? No, I was dominant. And I realized I wanted to be dominant very badly, or rather I wanted to actively live as a dominant. I wanted men, the traditional power holders, to tremble when I entered a room.
In the very late morning, I woke up, still charged with the energy of this self-revelation. And I scoured the internet to know why I felt this way. Naturally I found others like me and others who longed to serve me. Very quickly I found myself in the car of a stranger heading out to his home so I could torture his body and ultimately fist his asshole. It was my first scene with a real person, I had no idea how to do it, but I managed to get by through not resisting any of my devious impulses. It turned out, when I trusted my inner sexual self and my rapport with this man that I knew exactly what to do and when. Before I knew it, I was elbow deep inside a man's digestive tract and dizzy with enjoyment. Finally, while thrusting my arm in and out in repetitive motions, I decided to let our activities end in the greatest release available to humankind.
"Cum for me." I said through gritted teeth. And like a good slave he did, he came hard. It was the squeezing around my arm that I enjoyed the most. His whole body seemed to explode with pleasure and while I saw it from the outside, I felt it from within his anatomy.
I returned home that night in a state of extreme thrill. I told my best friend all about my incredible experience and the feeling of being in control and worshiped for it. Her response was perfect, "Well, maybe you should domme guys more often."
So I did. I've been doing it roughly 5 years now, 3 lifestyle, 2 as a professional and I love being a Domme. And after a great deal of thought I finally figured out why I love being a dominatrix so much.
Have ever seen a piece of good art? Like really good art, the kind that speaks to you, be it painting, song or film. I'm talking about that one creative endeavor that just stops you in your tracks and years later you still remember how it made you feel. And that feeling was so perfect, nothing but you and what you were experiencing. Like the world stood still and nothing else mattered for a short period of time? Do you remember that escape? Do you remember leaving it all behind and just bathing in the intensity of the experience, forgetting all about your job, your family, your life of obligations?
There, that feeling is what an hour with a dominatrix should be like. Intense enough to give you respite, but not so intense as to break you in half. That perfect level for you is something you should be in touch with, I can't know exactly where it lies, but I think we can find it together (part of the reason I spend so much time speaking with my prospective subs and slaves). It's that perfect level in you that I'm on the hunt for. That's what I live for. For a period of time, I want you to leave it all behind and swim through a world of bodily experience with me. And for every person who sessions with me, I'm honored to lead you through that ocean of sensation. I love that you can step out of the world for a bit with me and I love that I'm the key to that experience for you.
So that said, It's not subs and slaves I'm looking for. I'm looking for people who want to create a relationship with me and want to explore themselves with me. I expect also to explore myself a bit with you as well. We'll both gain a new insight into ourselves together, it's a win for both of us. Well, maybe a bit more for me as I get to delve into you through your submission and since I love discovering the core truths of people I'll take a bit more pleasure than you might.
If this interests you, if you want a deep and meaningful relationship with your Domme, then send me a message we'll begin immediately.
And just for the sake of clarity, here's a list of fetishes I enjoy and a little bit of why.
Crossdressing: I love exploring gender, its meaning and expressions. I love finding your true identity within and bringing it to the forefront. Most likely you are not fully trans, but floating somewhere between the binary, I want to find the real you as it hides away from the demands of the gender roles.
Sissification: Not to be confused with crossdressing, Sissification implies that you already have an idea of what expressing your feminine side looks like. You love pink and lace, you love looking like a complete sissy, you love the most feminine of feminine, you're not looking to pass as a woman, you're looking to be a fantasy of femininity. You're looking for complete submission as your sissy alter ego, you want to do traditionally feminine activities. You want to cook, clean and enjoy fancy tea parties. I don't see Sissification as a lesser of form of crossdressing, I see it as a very specific form of crossdressing and I enjoy it for what it is.
CBT: There really is nothing quite like taking the core of masculinity and torturing those nerves and skin that give a man so much pleasure. Nothing turns me on like holding your manliness in my palm and being the sole owner of your pleasure center. And I love torturing it, I love your screams and groans as I press your balls in a vice and abuse that shaft with the many implements in my arsenal.
Chastity and Orgasm denial: Personally, I see it as a form of CBT. Cause I know it can't be that pleasurable to have your dick and balls swelling like that and your mind just aching for release. I love this activity. I love knowing that something so personal to you belongs to me and through it, you belong to me too. Through your denial of orgasm, i get a little bit of pleasure myself, it's not quite sexual, but it feels good. I especially love wearing the key to your cage around my neck, I wear it everywhere on a silver chain and I love when people ask what they key is for and i tell them it's to the padlock around some poor bastard's chastity cage and that he can only touch himself when I permit it. I love the shock on men's faces and the envy on the women's faces.
Anal play and training: I know a bit about pleasure centers and the most important thing I know is about all the hidden pleasures behind the gateway of your asshole. From Prostate massage to fisting I love doing it all. I keep an assortment of plugs and toys, though I love when my subs and slaves bring in their own favorites for me to use. From fingers to strap-ons I love it all and get such a thrill from exploiting your ass for both our pleasures.
Spankings and OTK: For me there's just something about having a handful of your flesh at my disposal that I love. And that rosy color it turns after I give it a few good whacks, beautiful. But my total favorite aspect of spanking is having you over my knee and feeling your whole body squirm with each strike.
Corporal Punishment: If you've been reading through my list, you've probably got a sense that there's a delicious Sadist within me. It's true. Given the opportunity, I revel in unchaining my inner monster. I want to hear your pain, I want to see it when you flinch at my slightest movement. And you can be sure I'll just squeal with delight when you finally break.
Humiliation: While my inner Sadist loves corporal punishment I also greatly enjoy punishment by words and humiliating deeds. I love wracking my mind for insults and applying them artfully for your degradation. While you may not desire being punished by whip or cane, you may desire lighter forms of humiliation, such as face-spitting, objectification and my favorite, human ashtray.
Above are my favorites and things I consider myself fairly skilled in them. If you don't see your particular thing listed, feel free to message me and ask about it. Chances are I'm into it as the above list is not exhaustive.
Activities I do not do:
Body worship: Yes, I know you dream about having unfettered access to my body under the guise of worship, but unless you're someone exceptional or someone I want to fuck, you can continue dreaming.
Blood, knife, needle play: Not because I don't like it, In fact I'm very interested in it, I just do not have enough experience in the activity to do it safely, however if you are knowledgeable in the subject and willing to guide me a bit as I learn with you, then I'm very much interested.
Subbing: I'm a very dominant person, I won't sub for you, so don't ask.
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