I am a slave seeking a master. As a slave I am very obedient, listen to directions well, and dedicated in molding myself to serve my master better and better. I desire a firm hand to both organize and give meaning to my life as well as a focus to direct all my affection and energy towards.
What I am looking for in a master? I am looking to serve long term and hopefully permanently. I am open to play with the right person, but I desire to find my true master to serve always. I hope to find a master that can be creative and inventive in challenging me to expand my horizons and experience new things, feelings, and sensations. I am also looking for a relationship. Sex is good, but it's better when there's a connection and a mutual desire for each other.
I think my ideal is a man who can be both my master and my boyfriend. I want a relationship of mutual love and care and affection, but one where my wishes are still subservient to my master's.
As for my experience and limits. I have only a small amount of experience and look forward to more. My limits are scat, and permanent damage, though both are negotiable for a long term relationship.
4/28/2011 10:04:29 PM
Just throwing this out there, but I'll be house-sitting on the east coast the first two weeks in May and would love to have some hot kinky fun. I'd be very interested in entertaining that special visitor. I'm open to pretty much anything. Short visit or spending a few days or whatever. Anyone who wants to try and arrange something, feel free to message me.
3/22/2011 11:04:53 PM
I've been having a really shitty month. Been about as bad a month as could be. What I could really use is a Dom to visit me, or have me visit him, and just go wild with me. Use me often and hard, for a couple of days to a week. I'd be up for almost anything, from the most vanilla to the most extreme. I just need the use. Anyone want to help me out with that?
1/16/2011 3:07:31 AM
I’ve always had this real big kidnap/sex club fantasy. I’ve wanted to be lured by a Dom, go to meet him, and then be kidnapped for a weekend. This dom would either be Asian and in or travelling to Asia, or black. I have a massive thing for Asians and also a burning desire to be enslaved to BBC.
Anyway, I’d be taken by this Master for the weekend and locked in his house during the day. I’d be restrained and then shaved, enema’d, cleaned, made all ready for the party at night. At night for the first night he’d take me to a sex club, which would either be all Black or all Asian. He’d walk me in, and then parade me in front of people, naked except for my collar and the leash in his hand. Then he’d take me to the bathroom. Here he’d have me kneel in one of the urinals. He’d take out some chains and chain my collar, and hands to the top of the urinal so I couldn’t move. He’d chain my legs to the floor so I’d be forced to kneel in the drain. Then he’d place and open mouth gag around my head, forcing my mouth open so it wouldn’t be able to close until he took it off.
Then he’d take out some paper and a black marker. On each sheet of paper he’d write “Out of Order.” He’d tape them to each of the other urinals and stalls so I was the only working urinal. Then he’d either sit down to watch and direct all who needed to piss to use me as the one working urinal, or he’d leave and go enjoy himself elsewhere. I’d be left there all night, urinal for every Master, slave, or visitor to the club. Some would piss all over my body, some would stick their cock in my open mouth gag and make me drink ever drop, some would cover my face in their piss. Others would use my mouth to fuck and cum in. All night I’d be helplessly kept there, taking every load of piss in the club.
I'll continue with night two next time.
11/16/2010 7:23:18 PM
So..... here's a new one... since it's been forever since I last created a good fantasy entry.
So this one is slightly fantasy… but could be reality to some extend. Just needs some good construction.
I have a massive machine fetish. I so want one built to work almost every inch of the body. It would be shaped something like a motorcycle. I’d straddle it, lying down, ass up and out, face forward. It would conform and strap to hold me in place, mouth facing outward, head in place. An attachment of an open mouth gag would attach to my face, keeping my mouth open and as wide as possible, stretched to the limit so things could be inserted into it. My legs would be strapped tightly together feet pointed down, ass facing slightly down, slightly outward and held in place. Arms down the side, strapped in place, and hands inside a round cup-like mold that forces the hand into an open fist, loose enough for a cock to fuck it.
From here, there would be numerous attachments all over the machine to stimulate the slave sexually. Each attachment would be on a swivel and could be inserted or removed so a human could take its place on the slave. First, there would be a dildo on a fucking machine that could be swiveled into my ass and fuck in and out. There would be another dildo on a fucking machine that could swivel into my mouth and fuck in and out there, even going far down my throat with the right size dildo. Both dildoes would be detachable and could switch with varying sizes and shapes as well as butt plugs or other objects. There would be another dildo on a fucking machine that could swivel over the one on the ass so I could be double penetrated by two fucking dildoes. There would be another 4 or so swiveling dildo fucking machines to use the tight spaces between my legs fucking between my thighs, between my feet, between my calves, between my knees. There would be two more dildoes on fucking machines that would swivel around on my hands, so each hand could be holding a fucking dildo. Each dildo would also have a large bag of lube attached to the back. And each dildo would have a hollow urethra in it, so the lube could be setup with a timed squeezing device, to regularly shoot out and re-lube the openings.
Also attached to the machine would be a variety of swiveling attachments for all sorts of use. The machine would have retractable, pivoting, rotating candle holders... that way wax can be dripped all over the place on every part of my body and be left for as long as desired. The machine also would have nipple attachments.... maybe some alternating things. One set is suction cups to really pull out and stretch my nipples, then another set is clamps that can be clamped on my nipples and rotated out to pull the nipples ever farther... stretch them as far as they can go. There could also be paddles, canes, and other hard objects that could be swiveled in and turned on to slap down hard on my body, spanking my ass and back hard and repeatedly. What also might be nice is clothespins all over the place that the machine can press down on to open, swivel in and close onto flesh, then yank off... lather rinse repeat..... for all those areas there isn't a whole lot going on with.
Beyond this, there would be a piece jerking off and surrounding the my dick. It would be one of those robotic stimulators. It would have a tube that drained/sucked all the fluid out and re-routed it up to the dildo fucking the my mouth... that way I'd get a healthy dose of my own cum and piss... and no fluids would go to waste. Plus there'd definitely be some liquid catcher underneath the machine. It would catch all the sweat/spit, etc to drip off. It could also catch any piss used on my body from my Master or any other guys. Hell.. it could be for any fluid dumped on or around me, such as beer... or punch, or liquor, or animal piss or cum, however extreme my Master wanted to get. It would all drain out into another tube that would connect to the dildo at my mouth... give me plenty of variety to drink for those choosing not to make me drink from the source. And... it'd be nice to have a second tube there as well that with a switch will instead pipe all the liquid to my ass instead, though there'd have to be no beer or such when this pipe was on.
As a bonus, the wall next to the machine could have stalls lined up to contain however many other subs could be gotten at the moment, or any other doms. The stalls for the subs would have a tube similar to the one I have... jerking them off constantly and sucking all the piss and cum out of them... and then tubing it back to the dildo at my face. The stalls for the doms could have toilet bowls to piss and jerk off in, or a fleshlight with the same tubes to suck up the fluids and pipe to my mouth. This would keep me constantly filled with fluid in my mouth... plus any that burst out because I couldn't swallow fast enough would just hit the liquid catcher and come right back up.
I would love to be strapped to such a machine… or see other subs attached. And long term use, for like 8 hours, as my Master and any other doms came in to swivel out any part they wanted and use any part of me instead until they were done, and then swivel the part back in to me. It would be amazing.
3/14/2010 12:57:27 AM
So here's another fantasy. thought of this really interesting game to be played.
So we play this game. I’m required to end every sentence with “Sir” while in your presence. I am required to refer to myself in the third person while in your presence, i.e. only “your sub” and “he.” It is optional… but you may also require me to be naked and collared at all times.
So the game begins. The rules are that if I make a mistake, I get 50 spankings on the spot. Every time I get to 100 spankings, in other words, fail to speak properly twice, you get to give me an order and a time limit to complete it. It can be anything you desire or create. Moreover, as a bonus you get to start the night with any one order you want. If I complete the order in the time, we continue on. If I fail to complete the order in time, you get to give me two new orders. You can do the same one again and add another new one, or choose two completely new orders.
The orders can be something simple or complex. For example you can order me to keep my mouth wrapped around your dick for ten minutes straight without opening it. Or you can order me to keep a butt plug up my ass for the next hour. Or you can order me to ride a dildo in front of you until I cum into a cup. To make it complex you can even purposely choose orders I can’t complete. For example, if I’ve been ordered to keep a butt plug up my ass for an hour and we’re only 30 minutes into that hour, you can order me to have a dildo up my ass in the next five minutes. No matter what I do, I’d fail one of the orders, so now you’d have two whole new orders to give me.
Heck, as a starting order you can order me to bend over for 100 spankings every hour, guaranteeing one order every hour. You can use orders just to set up more that will cause me to be subject to many new orders.
The possibilities are endless. You can keep making me repeat the same task until I get it right if I fail. Like if you order me to keep your dick down my throat for a minute straight in the next ten minutes. If I fail you can keep giving me that order so I practice and get better, as well as giving me other orders each time. It can serve as a good training session to teach me how to serve you properly.
You can test my limits. If you give me an order that I don’t want to complete, I have the option of refusing or not doing it. It just gives you two new orders. You can keep ordering the same thing to rack up orders or try and convince me to do it. Or you can see it’s something I don’t want to do and give me new orders in a new direction.
Overall this can allow for a lot of diversity in play and a lot of excitement.
3/6/2010 1:34:36 PM
I've had this fantasy lately of being used for 24 straight hours. I'd be put up in a hotel room, tied up, restrained, whatever was needed to make my mouth and ass especially presentable for guests. Then, however many guys were needed, it'd be scheduled so that for 24 hours straight, I had a cock in me, mouth, ass, whichever. Both my holes would be open for whatever, piss, cum, spit, lube, toys, but most importantly, a cock would have to be in one of them at all times.
2/28/2010 11:07:07 PM
Spring Break is gonna be coming up soon for me, March 25th or so until April 5th. I haven't done gone anywhere or done anything exciting for Spring Break in ages, so I'd definitely be open to any ideas anyone on here might have. I would be up for some travel. It would be cool to have a place to go for a couple days or even a week and experience some really intense and kinky things. Let me know if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions.
2/27/2010 2:39:24 PM
So I had this idea recently that I thought I'd share again. I think it was Valentine's Day motivated and what would make a really good special dinner.
So first we'd get the ingredients, mostly vegetables, carrots, cucumbers, squash, zucchini, maybe some potatoes, onions, even a baby eggplant.
So then you have me get on the table, face down and ass up. You tie me up, arms behind my back, legs spread with maybe a spreader at the knees, but feet tied together. You make sure my ass is nice and spread for entry, lube it up little and get it ready.
Then you wash the vegetables in water, put them on a towel and begin to prepare them. You start with one, maybe the carrots and slowly lube them up and begin to slide them into my ass. You fuck my ass with the carrots until satisfied and then put them aside and move onto the next vegetable. You stretch my ass real good with all the veggies, using small onions like benoit balls and some cucumbers like dildoes. After my ass is good and fucked, you take the vegetables and chop them up and throw them in a skillet to cook.
Then, to add some flavor, you take a nice long piss in the skillet and cook the vegetables in your piss until they're nice and flavorful. Then, you can jerk off on them or jerk me off on them for a nice glaze of cum. Or, if planned ahead you an save up cum over a week or so before so it makes a nice sauce on the vegetables.
With me still tied up on the table you put the piss sauteed, cum covered vegetables in a bowl in front of me and make me eat them all up and lick the bowl clean.
1/22/2010 12:45:06 AM
Here's another stimulating fantasy for me.
I'd like to be bent over a table and tied down so I can't move... Each leg would be tied to a table leg so my ass was spread wide open. Then my ass would be lubed up good and a fucking machine would be inserted into it (one of those didloes attached to a machine that pulls it in and out to simulate fucking). I'd be left there with the machine on for hours and hours until my ass was a gaping lube covered hole. Then a bunch of guys (or one over a long/whole night period) would be brought in to fuck my ass and cum and piss in it until it was a gaping hole dripping piss and cum everywhere. There'd be a large bowl on the floor directly under my ass to catch all of the lube and piss and cum. After an entire night of this I'd be untied and forced to drink the entire bowl of cum and piss and lube.
1/2/2010 7:30:12 AM
Here's another entry of fantasies I have and would enjoy trying.
I’d also like to be strapped to a table on my stomach with my legs spread and ankles tied off to each corner. My head would be secured in place on the other end of the table. My master would put a mask on me that covered my face but had a mouthpiece that kept my mouth open and made it impossible for me to close it. Then a box would be placed over me and the table with only two holes… one lined right up with my ass and one right with my mouth. My master could leave me like that for a day or two. I’d just be an anonymous fuckhole and him and his buddies, or random people could just come by, stick their dick in, and fuck either hole until they were spent.
12/26/2009 2:33:13 AM
I thought I would use the journal here to simply describe some of the things I would enjoy having done to me. It might help potential masters decide if I may be right for them.
So here's one to start.
I would blow my master over a long period of time or as many of his friends or other doms he brought in for me. Preferably, for the duration I'd be tied up and unable to move as dick was shoved into my mouth. Either way I would suck the cum out into my mouth, but not swallow. After each cum shot, I would spit it into a tall thin glass or some penis shaped mold. Eventually after enough times with my master or enough guys he brought in, there would be enough cum to fill it. The cum filled mold would be frozen and become a dildo of cum. When was ready to play he would tie me up and immobilize me. He would take out the frozen dildo of cum and make me lick it and suck it. Then he would fuck my ass with it. Once it started melting he would shove it up my ass to stay there until it melted completely. He could leave me for a while, immobilized and full of cum. Then I would be forced to squeeze out all of the cum into a glass which he would hold over my mouth and dribble in, forcing me to drink it all.
