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I recently tried to have a boyfriend and it just didn't work out because he was shy and I haven't been in a relationship in so long I didn't know what to do (though I definately felt more dominate than him). So I definately know that I need someone to help 'lead' me.
Still having feelings for someone from my past *7 years ago* that's going to be back in my life soon. I'm wondering about trying to start something with him or not.
So, yea. Right now, I'm not going to be really on here much. I don't know my needs or wants really right now and I don't know how I could ever with someone in that state of mind. I'm trying to find myself.
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Having two crushes hurts.
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Right now, I'm suffering from wisdom teeth extraction. All four at once. It's been 72hrs, but damn the swelling. v_v; The meds. that I'm on keep me knocked out for hours at a time. This also keeps the 'pain' (which has mostly felt like pressure) away. So yeah. Sorry if I don't respond to emails right away. : ( |
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o_o; Last night talking to my younger Domme IRL friend...she said...that I wasn't 100% sub/bottom....and that I wasn't exactly all Domme/Top either. Lol. ...okay. ^^; It's something that I've been thinking about a bit lately.
All this 'topping from the bottom' stuff. Because I'm sure after awhile, I'll be fiesty and maybe even demanding in the bedroom, but still be the one 'recieving'. And that's not really sub-like behavior? Hm, but I don't think I have it in me to be very Domme-like. Hmmm, I think I'm like 80% or higher sub/bottom. And then the remaining Domme/Top. I wonder if a Dom would ever LIKE those qualities in a sub?
And yea, after thinking more on the picture thing, I was all, "Do I really want to keep getting emails from these guys?" Hmm, no. It might make me momentarily feel good about myself. But then I think, "That's all they're looking for anyways." And then NOT feel good. :S |
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YOU FUCKERS REALLY NEED TO LEARN HOW TO READ! D: I'm getting so aggrevatted with you all. Stop chat requesting me. I don't want to and the fucking system is screwy. UGH. |
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<strike>I'm thinking about putting a pic up, but dunno if I should or not...meh.</strike> |
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Ahhhhhhhh, I meant to say Happy New Years' to everyone. ^^; And happy holidays. *late*
xD;
I had fun getting drunk on New Years'. At 9pm I had a shot of vodka. Gordon's vodka is gross. I was going to take a shot every hour starting at 9 and ending at 12...but it was nasty vodka, so, no. Then I had my hard cider from 10-11. Before 12 I 'chugged some beer' then had two glasses of champagne at 12. Then went to my brother's house and became the mixer for him and our friend. Orange juice+vodka. Orange juice+Sierra mist+rum. Orange juice+Sierra mist+vodka. Had about four little glasses of a combination of the above. Stayed up all night being crazy. Nice. No puking. Just really thirsty in the morning. Then it got better after some water and when we had the traditional New Year's dinner. xD;
CHEERS!
Also had a nice time with my younger Domme friend. Emphasis on the FRIEND. No hanky-panky went down, oi. xD; |
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*smug* And then again, there's aways some really nice people on here that make me smile. Thanks, you know who you are. : ) |
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: D Thanks <user here> for being such an asshat. You've taught me a new lesson on collarme that might not be fair to some users that actually want to get to know me before they label me with such useless, pitiful, and meaningless titles as 'waste of timers'. : )
For now on, I'm DECLINING chat requests. Sorry, that's just how it's going to be. If you honestly want to get to know me or just chat, then you'll have to send a freaking email to me first. And you BETTER have some kind of information about yourself in your profile. D:
No, that didn't hurt my feelings, it made me pissed off, because once he said that, he just left the chat. : /
And since I didn't post WHICH user it was (ie-write out his username), (and since I didn't 'bash' him) I better not get penalized for this post. D: |
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So, I've changed around some things in my profile. : /
I really don't know what to think at the moment. It's not so much that I'm confused, but I just have to figure out how to do things. Because I need to tell my Domme friend how I feel, but at the same time I'm hoping that I might be able to get with this guy. As his girlfriend. I don't know him that well, but he's a sweet and shy guy. We just need to talk and stuff.
Still waiting on my History 101 grade. D: Argh, I've made a chart out of my grades/semester gpa/and next semester gpa and for the year. It sucks. I have to make a gpa of 3.6 next semester to have a 3.0 for the year and to keep my scholarship. D: Meh! v_v; |
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Gah. End of semester stress...waiting for grades to come in. I'm worried about keeping my 3.0 for scholarship. The two classes that I'm worried about are taking forever to come in. ;_; I left a message to my roomie and she was really sweet and called me to talk to me. *luffs upon her* So, even if I don't keep my 3.0, I think I'll still be able to go on into Spring semester...and we were talking about maybe, everyday after all our classes, instead of going back to the dorm room and getting online (like we usually do), that we go to the library and do all our work for the next class first. Then go home. And also, no skipping class unless we're sick. We need to buckle down. :S |
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Just seeing what's the deal with the journals. I'll post a quote from my Saturn going retrograde warning that I thought was pretty interesting:
"Saturn turning retrograde puts a challenging spin on achieving success, but the planet also rules issues of leadership, making this the ideal time to establish your own boundaries, strive for self-improvement and unleash your creativity on the world. Furthermore, when your goals have been met, you'll be that much more satisfied at having cleared this astrological stumbling block! On the way, you'll also have learned a lot about yourself and clarified your perspective."
See what I mean? : D
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| Age: 28 |
| München,
Germany |
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