Lost in Darkness-Seek Her with the Light

I learned my submissive ways when I was very young-it was forced on me. For many years that side has had to stay hidden in me. I long to explore it now.

I am not into hardcore B&D and S&M and I realize that will limit my possibilities and chances of exploration. I want to explore being sensually controlled. I want to be helpless under the guide of a woman who can control me but not be cruel or mean. I need her to be controlling and even a little strict though. I seek use of soft ties instead of gear. I want the chance to explore my past through this. Every day I am in charge of my classroom, I strive to please others at work and at home. I want to have no choice to but to be helpless to those moments outside of all of that with a mild dom. I don't want to move, talk, or see unless she permits me to. When she does I will be doing for her be it massage, caresses, or whatever she may wish. I want to let go of the here and now for a while and go to another realm with a guide.

Obviously there is a background and to any dom who would consider helping me explore I will be forthright about the past to now. I long to try this once or twice so I can truly know and then from there I can choose my path. Knowing is the important part and that is why I seek her to show me the light.