I have had much advise both on collarme and off.  My exMaster has suggested that, as I have had so much experience as a slave, I should make the switch to Domme.  Domme that is to other whites and specialize in training subs and slaves for black service.

This way, in his opinion, I would remain subservient to blacks and fulfill a latent talent as a Mistress.  He noted my attitude and approach to helping my exMistress in her physical therapy and felt my dominant side was very evident.  He had discussed it with my exMistress and she agrees and, in part, lead to her decision to dismiss me.

Its time to evaluate my future.  My last situation grew out of friendship, as it grew we each found our place and, after a while, it seemed the natural state.  My Master and Mistress gradually asserted themselves and I fell into my place as the submissive and finally the slave of the trio.

Many people on here seem to think that one will fall into that slave roll after two or three words on a screen.  These are the people who don't seem to realize how much time and devotion goes into a Dom / sub relationship.  They seem to think that any slave is available to any Master.  Just like in the slave market but without paying for the property.  And then they wonder why they are not getting the results they seek.

Good luck out there and don't be in such a hurry to hurl yourself into a relationship - if it is there, allow it to grow naturally, enjoy the anonymity, exchange ideas and nurture friendship.

It seems my efforts have been misinterpretted and more than a hint of jealousy has reared its ugly head.  Mistress is feeling vunerable and now resents my continued association with Master (her husband) and I am being sent away never to return.

My lady is doing well, she now has complete mobility down her left side and her speech is back to normal.  I am having to bully her at present while we are working on her dexterity, otherwise all is well.  She is at a point that she wants to collar me again so she can punish me for pushing her the way I do.

Mistress has finally convinced her sister (my pseudo mistress) to go back to her family.  Master and I had discussed it and I had aired my concerns to him.  I am now back with Mistress as her caregiver for now and, maybe, her slave once more when she is well enough.

Looking back on my past relationships, I have realized that true trust and devotion are not of an immediate nature but built over time.  The couple I served were, initially, acquaintences who fostered our friendship as I did.  We came to realize that we enjoyed each others' company and from that a caring that grew into love.

We were completely aware of our differences and racial background - for me as a white girl from a place devoid of any African influence and, they, African-American with a distinct documented slave background.  My existence as a slave started as a exercise designed to give me a better understanding of life as a slave.  To this end I was collared and taken into the household and treated as a slave in every way.

The exercise gradually and mutually became a reality and I am sad that it is now over.