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Please read my profile BEFORE sending me a message. My preferences are clearly stated and my email is set up to adhere to those, so you will go to bulk if outside of what I am asking for. I am set in those, as I know who I am and what I want. Thank you.
I am only looking to have any type of relationship in real life, this includes friendships. If you are not close enough to me for that, please do not email me, it is quite simple :)
- "I never did mind about the little things." ~ Point Of No Return
- "I ask for so little. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave." ~ Labyrinth
- "You can't have virtue without sin. What I'm after is having my characters' virtues defined by how they operate in a very sinful environment. That's how you test people." ~ Frank Miller
- "The key to growth is the introduction of higher dimensions of consciousness into our awareness." ~ Lao Tzu
About Me?
How to describe a multifaceted individual?
Country chick, Bohemian babe, Goth girl, Nighttime naughty, Quixotic quirk?
Yeah, that's a start!
All that applies, and yet there's more.
Not really accustomed to talking about myself in layman's terms.
Hence the easiest solution seems to be to just answer whatever is asked of me.
I value honesty and respect from others above all else and as such will always respectfully answer honestly in return.
Retrospect in RESPECT
I would like to request that you not be a generic in your email...while "Hello" is appropriate if we already know each other, more is usually expected for a proper introduction.
Thank you!
UPDATE
I have suffered a loss I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
My Beloved passed away the morning of New Years Eve.
As a sub, I am feeling so very lost in how to carry on.
Even though I do my day to day as best as I can, I question every little act as if He was still around. I have suffered deaths close to me and they have never affected me like this before.
For now, I am trying to build myself up to the place I know He'd want me to be. And I can almost hear Him say.."you are at your most vulnerable, so I must push you for more"..all I can do for this is comply.
So now I welcome new friends, supportive & combative. Spice of life and all that crap..LOL!
I cannot be allowed to shut myself off from what I found once before.
If you have read this far into my profile, and I hope you are legitimate enough in your pursuit to do so. You may wonder, why I say I am still taken in a relationship with someone who is no longer even in this world?
My answer is a simple and honest truth for me. He will remain my Dom, my Beloved always until another has..not to have taken His place, but to have allowed me to put Him to rest. For that is not something I can do alone, it is not my nature to let go of what holds true meaning to not only my mind, heart, and soul..but to my very being. For me, this is still the evolving sense of my journey, another voice that adds itself to my chaotic conscious choices.
Personal Preferences...
Now, while we all may not want to come off as shallow when we are to describe what our search consists of, let's face reality and be adult enough to admit what attracts us. These things listed are a preference for me, and in no way means I will be rude, just that I know myself well enough in my life to know what I search for to complete myself.
.I would not be comfortable if you were not taller than me. And as I do enjoy wearing heels, this would put me at 6' on just about any given day.
.HWP is such a generic term, however, for me, it would simply mean that you know how to carry yourself now matter if you have those 15-20 extra pounds you can't seem to shake, or sometimes even want to bother to try...confidence truly is key.
.I cannot travel easily. I am a single parent and as such, also cannot easily do spur of the moment plans. This is not to say they are impossible, just sometimes stressful. And there is no way for me to relocate, at all.
.I truly want someone who compliments who I am. Shared interests are great, even most welcome. If you are already married or in a relationship, you are off the market, even as a friend, that is just me, please respect that.
.I want someone who while Alpha themselves, is secure enough to accept an Alpha as well. I am a strong, confident person.
.I prefer to have relationships within my own race, location(do not want LDR at all), age range (5-10 years one way or the other is preferable), and overall personality.
.I am not looking for a quick fix.. Not looking for a now, but for an Always!
.I am a SUB...not a slave. I am a little sassy at times, being a smartass and all that comes with it.
.Please treat me with the respect you would want shown to you. It's really not too much to ask for (though it can boggle the mind to wonder why one must even ASK)
This is in no way a reflection on who you are, just what I have come to realize are my own needs.
I am sure there are a thousand more things I should add to this profile...I have one on FL as well (of which I got things done quicker by copying from)...same name there as well.
Please read & understand. I have my preferences set. I am not able to relocate, or alter what I know I want in a partner. Please respect what I am searching for so that you obtain the same respect in return. Calling me names because I will not change all I am to suit you is just plain RUDE, and I really can't tolerate it. You won't get it from me, so please refrain from giving me grief over this.
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Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. ~ Khalil Gibran
Slowly working to bring myself back from the edge of reason. I am finding myself ready for more and more each day. There is so much about a partner to share my submission with, so much that I miss and want, no need to heal myself completely. It is a process, a journey, that I find on myself on this road once again. |
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I was just informed that a good friend passed away today. I cannot take any more death to those around me, to those I care so much for. I will not be active on this account for quite some time to come. I do this to shield myself. Someday, I may return. I know not when. |
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"The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering."~ Okri |
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All of You
I close my eyes, not yet to sleep.
Tasting salty lips as I weep.
I lay here aching.
While inside I'm breaking.
Waking,
to an open heart surgery.
Wallowing in my misery.
I rant, I rave,
and no matter how hard I try,
I still crave...
You.
Your touch, your smell.
Your kiss,
and damn it to hell.
I miss.
All of you.
What else can I do?
Tears fall from my face,
soaking in my shame.
I fell from your grace,
I was all to blame.
Can I try to again,
give me another chance.
Take from me this pain,
spare me a second glance.
One more time baby please,
I know I will give it my all.
Save me from this release,
don't ever let me fall.
I rant, I rave,
and no matter how hard I try,
I still crave...
You.
Your touch, your smell.
Your kiss,
and damn it to hell.
I miss.
All of you.
What else can I do?
In this storm of my pain.
Hurt comes on like rain.
Biting down into me.
I never want to be.
Free,
of all the times before.
When we had our so much more. |
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Senti-Mental
Times trapped within. These masks you must make.
Hurts gazing back. Beyond your mirrored fake.
Walk the path of your journey.
And when you must leave...
Do so, loving me.
Always, lovingly.
Don't want to hear. I'm sorry you won't mean.
Too many regrets.
Too many mistakes.
Too many we've seen.
Our music we will find. Sung in a soul of a past.
Haunting my mind. These feelings of never last.
Use me, abuse me,
Just don't confuse me...
With a dream, you once had.
With your life gone so bad.
What once was. Will for never be.
When what you long for. Remains my memory.
These pretty places.
Have farewell faces.
Cause of the chaotic chases.
Walk the path of your journey.
And when you must leave...
Do so, loving me.
Always, lovingly.
In all the moments. Swept fast away.
For all the moments. Live with today.
Lovingly, Love Me. |
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Lost In Lies
Lift me high so I can see.
Help me, please.
Don't let me go,
don't let me lose control.
What have I done?
Who have I become?
This monster inside.
Is all my foolish pride.
In the night, I call your name.
Lost in the lie I became.
For shame.
Come back to me, my Michele.
I don't want to be in this hell.
The memories we shared,
are all I cared, about.
Without you, I'm so scared.
In the night, I call your name.
Lost in the lie I became.
For shame.
Lift this fog from my mind.
Guide me back to find,
you.
Come back to me, my Michele.
I don't want to be in this hell.
What have I done?
Who have I become?
This monster inside.
Is all my foolish pride.
In the night, I call your name.
Lost in the lie I became.
For shame.
On this last sigh,
I say my last good byes.
I'd found my soul, in your eyes.
And so...In this end of dreams,
you take my love with thee. |
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| Age: 28 |
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