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Where to begin, I wonder.. I guess a good starting point could be a little something about me. Personally I think I’m an insecure, shy person who avoid confrontation like the plague. Trying to work on that though, been for quite some time. Actually when I think about it I guess I have always. But I also think I’m an above average intelligent person, with excellent memory and have a way of seeing things the majority of people seem to lack. I’m openminded, free spirited and a truly kind soul, feeling only anger against all this preopinionated judging and hate towards one another in the wretched place we all call home. I believe in true equality, no matter what. I believe in peace and love between all humans. I believe in understanding each others pain, wanting to together erase all pain, never creating more. I believe in a world built on kindness, global friendship and working together as the human race. I don’t believe in a system made out of money, dividing everyone; making some people rich with opportunity while others suffer generation after generation. Such a world created in the form of power, weapons, violence, poverty, slavery, pollution, sickness and competition will bring only hate. This is a primitive way of life. Lastly, I think that only the people afraid of losing their fucking money and control over those they believe and want to be beneath them, are those making every and all decisions concerning everyone else. Enforcing their will on “lesser” people and with deception make everyone believe they are there to help. They are probably there to help, but only themselves, be sure of that. A leader is only needed if not everyone agrees. And people don’t agree in an unjust monetary system. There you have a few of my thought‘s on our life on earth. More about me.. Hm what should I add now? I’ve always had a lively fantasy, always playing, sketching and creating games when I was very young, then, when I became older, came the books. David Eddings, was the author who made me start reading fantasy books. And after that I would never be the same. I wanted to create a world that people could enjoy as much as I had his books. I love fantasy! But some of that love also come from all, must be thousands, of those videogames I also find so facinating. Creating a fantasy world in a virtual world is just as amazing as books, now sometimes even more so. Some of my first memories are of me and my brother playing video games together and ever since then I’ve been hooked on games, that later made me chose a highschool with programming as my primary subject. I wanted to create my own games. At the moment I’m trying to fulfill my dream of becoming a fantasy writer, which I’ve had for a long, long time. So together with my friends, who actually have similiar dreams, (I’m so fucking happy to have them in my life) we are creating this amazing world. We’re actually making our first videogame (based on our fantasy world as well) too and it’s so awesome seeing our story coming to life there as well. All this while I through various means am searching for the universal truth and reason of our existence, if there is any. When I think I finally find some answers, there are always a million more questions. The most irritating thing about this is that I suspect that it’s futile, and that I will probably never have the answers I seek. I wonder if this will make me crazy for real, or maybe I have been all this time. That’s the thing about crazy, you don’t know if you are. And I understand exactly what that means. If you wondered what I spend my free time and money on, that’s it. Glad if you managed to get through all that and I guess I should thank you for taking your time to read the most honest and personal text I’ve shown anyone. Thank you Okay, a little about my submissive side seems like something I should write about. I’ve always been interested in women older than myself, one reason is because they’ve a more mature way of thinking than those my same age or younger. Obviously that’s not always the case, but intelligence, wisdom and experience are things I find attractive, and they aren’t found in younger people very often. But it has also always been a physical attraction to women in their age. I just think they’re really sexy, and have thought so for as long as I‘ve thought about women in a sexual way. Growing up this was pretty hard, since I wasn’t especially interested in girls my own age, but instead women, who was often more than double my own age, I found myself browsing the internet after ways to meet with older women. But being inexperienced, young and naive this was not a success. All this searching later made me stumble upon the BDSM world. I read everything, watched videos both sexual and not about this fascinating subject and subcategories. I found myself feeling drawn more and more towards the D/s relationship archetype and soon I could not stop thinking about it. It became a dream, almost an obsession, to be owned by another person. I wanted to share such a relationship with a Mistress who I would give my mind, body and soul. A beautiful, mature, strict and intelligent Goddess, with whom I would have interesting dialog. Tell each other our deepest thoughts, fantasies, fears and talk about our views on the world. For this Mistress I would give my kindness, my obedience, my everything. For the rest of my life I would be hers, this was now my life partner dream. So here I am still seeking for the Mistress of my dreams, hopefully this is not as futile as some of the other ambitions I have :) Truly, if you read this, I‘m grateful! Whoever you are know that I love you, as I love everyone on this earth. We are one and we are many Peace

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dabina
 
 Age: 29
 Toronto, Canada