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a few days ago i was asked what makes someone want to be a slave.....what is the "payoff".......i thought i'd give everyO/one the answer as well........"the "payoff" for a sub is knowing you are cared for in a very special way..and not having to pretend to be anything as your Master owns everything...even your thoughts....and knows you inside and out...also a slave has a very strong desire to help and serve something or someOne....even as a vanilla i was always the one ppl came to if they needed help...and it gave me a strong sense of joy and peace to help them".......this for me is the reason i was originally drawn to D/s and why i am so happy here. |
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i noticed something today....a D/s relationship teaches one to really appreciate the little things that most vanilla take for granted....like hugs and kisses, compliments, cuddling, and sleeping next to each other....for most vanilla these are considered the norm...for a slave these are precious gifts....as a vanilla i felt hurt or shorted if i didn't get a kiss on the way out the door...now when Master gives me even a peck it lights everything up....and just the words "good girl" can make my day better...and when i've been extra good and i get a cuddle...i'm quite happy for at least a couple days....and yesterday Master mentioned the possibility of me sleeping next to Him....the thought is incredible....so even if i learned nothing else from D/s (which i have...quite a bit) i have most definitley learned never to take anything for granted
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well i'm back...sry it's been so long....a lot has happened...one of which is i began having problems and doubts about being a slave....Master made me write a long e-mail telling Him my thoughts...after reading it Master made some adjustments and all is well again...i'm very glad Master didn't need to release me as my life wouldn't be the same w/out Him....He owns all of me..mind, body, and soul...and i wouldn't be complete w/ out His firm and loving presence.
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"sigh"..i don't know why but for some reason i keep regressing....it seems that every time i move forward i take two steps back...i just keep messing up. and when i mess up it upsets Master. i just did and all i want to do is kneel at His feet and beg for forgivness....which because of distance isn't possible. all i can say is that i will keep a better watch on myself. and no matter what, i will do my damndest to not upset Master anymore. |
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just thinking today...and my thoughts went back to when Master gave me His collar....it was wonderful to feel Him fasten it around my neck...and when i looked into the mirror i almost cried from joy...then Master gave me a leash...oh man do i love it when He clips it onto me....i was told that the only times i could take the collar off was when showering...i'm glad of that because i don't feel right w/out it...unless i can reach up and hook my finger through one of it's loops i feel as if i'm missing a part of me....after Master put the collar on me He sat me down at His feet and i officially aknowledged Him as Master...that was the first time He ever kissed me too :)..hopefully this was coherent as i just kinda wrote out my thoughts....lol
jewel :)
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well...got a bit of writers block going tonight....so..on the subject of flogging....honestly it's not my favorite thing in bdsm...however i can see how it can be arousing....so far Master has used two different floggers on me....on has wide leather strips...the other has twisted leather w/ knotted ends....the knotted one stings badly if used for punishment but it can be quite stimulating if done just right. i'd like to get to the point where Master can use them for pleasure rather than pain.
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not sure what to write tonight...hmm...when Master smiles.....i think the best part of being a slave is seeing your Master smile...it seems like all is right w/ the world. for me at least it's a feeling of great contentment and peace. and when you're the reason...it's the happiest i've ever been. It can make the worst pain seem bearable....and once you make It happen, all you ever want to do is see It again and again.
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today's story is my thoughts on submission....
as a new slave i'm still learning how to submit properly and, yes, there are still days i wish i was my own person but on the whole i really enjoy being a slave. there is nothing better than when your Master tells you He's pleased w/ you. it's a feeling of incredible happiness and contentment...and dare i say pride? yes, i consider submission something to take pride in. i consider it one of the greatest gifts you can ever give...and i'm lucky enough to have a Master Who realizes how precious submission is.
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well today Master ordered me to write a daily blog on here...i'm going to apologize in advance, i'm not a writer. this is basically going to be my thoughts on bdsm and maybe story time. i think i'm going to start w/ story time... Master tried something new w/ me the other day. in some circles it's known as "figging"...basically it entails ginger root and a subbie ass. Master only used a small root for the first time (thank You :). it didn't burn as bad as i had expected, however it's side effect - instant and intense arousal - was in full swing. thankfully Master had me stroking Him or i might've gone crazy. i wonder if He'll use a bigger root next time... :P |
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update time.....things are going well w/ my new Master....He says i'm coming along in my training nicely and i'm happy here sooo.....that's all i can think of atm....will update again soon
jewel:) |
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i'm back...and have entered a 90-day trial period w/ an area Master....so i'm collared again! i will try to keep writing as things progress.....
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As of today i am no longer owned. i will be taking some time off from cm. i'll write again when i'm back. jewel :)
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