JadedMasoc		jadedbuttr		JadedAngel

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I think the best way to show you who I am and what I'm looking for is to write out my fantasy as completely as I can, in the of a story. Note: since initially writing this I've imagined a potential fast track for the eager sup. See the last paragraph entitled 'Quick submission' for more on this. The following is in past tense. Though it hasn't happened yet, and will certainly not unfold exactly as imagined. This is the story that I would like to live with you: Phase 1 I hired you as a maid and personal assistant. Not for the sake of any pretense; you had already read this story and knew what you were getting into. I hired you as a maid and a personal assistant because I needed one anyway, and because it provided a basis for you to be in my home, and for us to grow comfortable with each other. It was also a natural way for us to establish a power dynamic that wasn't so far outside the bounds of mainstream culture, and could be used as a baseline from which to begin pushing boundaries further into a D/s relationship. We negotiated a contract in person. We probably met on my front porch, though it is possible we met someplace neutral. It is likely that you took some time to think about it after having met me. I had given you the choice to start on a weekday or a weekend day. The weekend would mean that my children would be in the home as well. Perhaps this was the best place to start, as it would provide some boundaries, and allow you to get to know me better. You can learn a lot about a person by seeing their interactions with their children. On a weekday morning it would be just you and me in the home. You might have chosen this If you already had a good read on me, and felt safe, as it would allow things to develop more quickly. Whichever you chose, on your first day in my home I gave you a tour, talked with you in more detail about your tasks, and allowed you to begin some of them. You had come dressed appropriately for the work you would be doing. This day was vanilla. Anyone watching would have just seen an interaction between a householder and his help. Though It's possible that there was some discussion about D/s. We continued this way for a few visits, I'm not sure how many. For me this was a good way to get into practice of giving you commands. I learned more about how I liked to deliver them, and how I could expect you to respond. It's likely that I found I prefer to use pleasantries when issuing commands, much as I do with my staff at work, but I gave myself the freedom of experimentation, and found the dynamic that would suite us best. Phase 2 It was time to begin pushing boundaries. I had you purchase a rug to replace the old ratty one in my front room. One that would be comfortable to lay on. Once we had that laid out I asked you to get down on your hands and knees. This was the first ask outside of the realm of normal made/assistant responsibilities. You complied. This simple compliance might have been enough to make me feel overwhelmed by the power you had entrusted to me. I might have stopped there. It's likely that I felt ready for more, and stepped you through a few more poses before getting overwhelmed. Then I sent you back to your normal tasks. The next time I picked a pose that I found particularly beautiful. I asked you how long you felt you could hold the pose, and then commanded you to do so. I cut down the time frame if you picked one that I felt was too long for you. I pushed how long you could be still over the course of our time together. Perhaps this was valuable to you as a time to practice mindfulness. For me, you were the finest of house decor. I had you purchase some wrist cuffs and a chain.You also chose a gag that we would use. Perhaps a silk scarf, or a satin tie. I prefer cloth gags. They are much more beautiful to me than ball gags, though I like those too. I chained your wrists above your head, attached to a pull-up bar in the door jam. I gave you enough slack so that your arms would be comfortable. I asked you how long you could stand to be bound like this. Then I gaged you and left you bound for your chosen time. I pushed how long you could stay like this over the course of our time together. I also sexualized this more and more; having you bound, or posed in various stages of undress. Sometimes I undressed you myself. It's likely that I always told you what I was going to do before doing it. I might have experimented with not telling you, but I let you know that this was how it would go beforehand; at least until we found what worked for us. Sometimes I would be in my bedroom composing music while you stayed bound in the other room. I would always stay in earshot in case you called out; needing to be released. I would pass by you on my way back and fourth through the house. Sometimes I would stare at you like a work of art. Sometimes I didn't even acknowledge you when I passed, though there was a part of my mind that was always staring at you. Just as you were in a part of my home, you were in a part of my mind, delighting me. Eventually I decided it would be nice to have you on the wall in my bedroom. I installed an eyebolt so that I could chain you there. I often didn't tell you how beautiful you looked. I wanted too, but this was a mindfulness practice for me as well. I had a people pleasing side that I was keeping a watch on. But I did want you to know. I found other times to tell you my deeper thoughts and feelings. Perhaps I did it in writing. Perhaps we even had a whole other relationship dynamic that took place in writing. Phase 3 Overtime we became more sexual, and more experimental. We engaged in all manor of curiosities, often unsure of what we would or wouldn't like. We attended classes if we were curious about riskier things. We put a priority on health and safety. We renegotiated contracts on a scheduled basis. Adding and removing various curiosities. We also became more comfortable with each other. It became more natural to have you in my home. It became easier to be casual with each other too, so that focus was not always D/s, though the dynamic was well established. You came to learn that I respond well to unsolicited affection, and you took advantage of unprompted opportunities. You might, for example, come up behind me to give me a hug whilst I was in the middle of something else etc. You also learned that my sexual appetite tends to ebb and flow, so you would not get concerned when we went from hot phases to cold phases. Phase 4 We eventually reached the limits of our potential. If we both needed more growth, then we parted ways. This was tough, but there were no hard feelings, as we knew this day might come. Hopefully we stayed friends if this is where things ended. It's also possible that we were content with how things were, and chose to continue with each other indefinitely. Maybe we got a fairytale ending. Either way, it was a rich experience for both of us. Fast Submission It's possible that at some point during the early phases you were ready to move things along more quickly. Perhaps you were stubbornly submissive. If you were seeking a true 24/7 D/s relationship, you might have told me that you were giving yourself over to me completely, and that you would not make another move until ordered to do so. This would have rapidly established a very clear relationship dynamic, and given me the confidence to really play with the power you were giving me. To practice with more frequency and learn more quickly. You know also that I would prioritize making sure that you were also taking care of your responsibilities outside of our relationship, such as work and family or whatever they may be.