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I am no longer actively looking for anything...ok, ok; I'm simply passively browsing for individuals that interest me.
On with the show...This profile is largely incomplete right now. I've just recently began returning to the site and will continue to update as I find the time.As you can see I've finally added a picture to this profile, too bad I have to be some hideous chud huh?lol - :P
Here some more about me...
I AM about 6 foot even and around 300lbs, black hair, brown eyes, wire frame glasses and a full goatee. Yes, I'm a large man, but my personality vastly outweighs my appearance.
I listen to Metal music but not exclusively, I simply enjoy good music. I also play the guitar as well as other instruments. And I indulge in the pleasure of making music.
I love to read and soak up knowledge in general. I like studying things like psychology, history (Ancient Society and WWII eras), sociology, religion and philosophy.
I like to write short stories, poems and lyrics for the songs I write. I'm currently putting together a book of various poems and rantings I've written on different subjects (have been for the past several years, so don't expect it anytime soon!). lol
What I look for in women is mainly located behind their eyes. I like ones who don't take themselves too seriously and have a sense of humor, and intellegence but first and foremost HONESTY. I love getting inside your heads and I cannot totaly achive this without honesty.
I love hearing confessions. I love it when women tell me the secrets, desires and fantasies that they would never divulge to another until I came along. The things that make them ashamed, the things that make them feel deviant.
Do you have a confession? 
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Dynamics... how I embrace them so eagerly after so much static!
My life has recently seen several changes and almost all have been for the better. I have a new job, and with it has come several aspects I've been lamenting for a long time now.
Inspiration! I've been experiencing waves and surges of creative inspiration since starting the new job! The daily interaction with different individuals has sparked the darkness that had come to engulf my being and that small bit of light has exponentially brightened every other idea and thought connected to it.
I'll share more later, I just wanted to post something to bury that pathetic event below this. I mean seriously, that was worse than a 'Club Mix' of an already shitty song.
*edited upon request
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Since this special individual has 'edited me out of the mix' and blocked my messages, I'm issuing a public plee to her and to anyone else who sides with her....
Whats funny, is that you assume that I DO NOT know what it is like to suffer at the hands of rape. I do, I was raped when I was five years old.
Please, just for the sake of logic; I want you to outline for me the passage or passages that qualify the scene to be rape. Cause as far as I could tell, it's nothing more than consensual sex where she is being told that she's actually despised instead of respected.
If you can successfully accomplish this task, I will issue a public apology and remove the journal entry.
PS: Convolution cannot be the basis of this logic. I want clear cut, bone dry kill logic. Good luck. |
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This is so pathetic, such passion wasted on the ignorant...
...I`m not even going to dignify this with a reply. You`re pathetic,
and you`re disgusting. You imagine raping women. Not in the consentual
non-consentual way, but in the real, cold, psychotic way. That`s a fact
and a problem you`ll have to live with. And as long as there are women
out there who will take the misogynistic to their breast, and say that
everything is OK, other women will have to suffer the consequences.
Justify it however you want, as obviously nothing anyone says to you
will make you understand just how repulsive you are.
For your wish
of my death by cancer, I can only hope that sometime in your near
future, you are raped to death. :) Mayhaps then you`ll understand.
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Well, I must say...I've forgotten how sad it is to witness someone who cannot tell the difference between fact/fiction - real life/internet.
First of all, I would like to point out that I never once mentioned the word rape in the musing I posted two entrys ago. I also find it worth mentioning that in the scenario the nameless non-existant woman actually has an orgasm in the end. This implies that she enjoys the act. IN FACT THATS THE WHOLE POINT - make her cum, make her realize that she was sadly mistaken to begin with. Also, how can you be a 'boarder line sex-offender'? I don't see a gray area in this issue. You're either a sex offender or you are not. Also, I'm failing to see how the suspect journal entry could fall into any spectrum of the alleged gray zone. It's not attempted arson if you muse about burning down the building you work in because something pissed you off at work. Yeah, you're toeing a fine line and will probably get your ass watched closely, but it's far from a crime. However, I can see how it would offend some one with a sensitive emotional disposition to such ideas. That is something that I am completely aware of, but it is not a crime to hurt someones poor little feelings. I can also see where this might disturb someone who has been victimized in such a horrible way, and for that alone I'll apologize and make it clear that ideas are ideas. Just because I'm being a pissy little drama queen about how I feel about the way they look at me and taking a extreme stand point has no reflection on any intention to act upon these feelings. Seriously, you've never thought 'GOD I should kill that person!' when they piss you off? You're never going to do it, but you think it in the heat of being pissed. It's the same thing. If it makes you or anyone feel better about themselves for whatever reason to look down on me, then be my guest, but don't try to act as if you're actually above me in anyway. Because I have news for you...while you're busy picking this a part and attacking me for every little nuance in something I wrote that is basically a work of fiction based on true events and feelings, I'm living my life like it never happened. Get over it...move on, you can't be that fucking bored, are you? I can say whatever the fuck I want within the guidelines of collarme.com's policy and the first amendment. Just because you got offended by it doesn't make it wrong. Just because you easily associated it with rape, doesn't mean that it is. Whatever reason you have for being so sensitive to the subject, it's not my problem. Don't like it, don't read it and most certainly don't send me any fucking messages about it because I don't fucking care. All you're doing is giving me something to work out on after I get off of work. In the words of Maynard James Keenan "I can say what want to, even if I'm not serious." I hope you die of cancer.* (*not wishing death on you, just wishing that your inevitable demise is the direct result of cancer.) ------------------------------------------- The reason I wrote this. ------------------------------------------- After reviewing the barrage of jumbled and backwards logic you wasted
the time to compose, I will now reply, bit by bit, line by line. Shall
we begin, then?
"I
can only shake my head at this sad, piteous sort of useless cashing in
of fifty cent words and pseudo-intellect. You fail to see the point of
what I'm trying to say because of the way I've decided to say it. Then
again, you've never actually shown any sign of understanding the
complete idea of anything."I find it unfortunate that you
cannot grasp that someone has actually taken the time to educate
themselves, and can compose an e-mail consisting of "fity-cent words".
As far as me never showing any signs of understanding the complete idea
of anything, it`s good that you assume that. Impressive that you have
drawn such a conclusion, considering "never" is a fairly long span of
time, none of which you have known me for. Please, keep believing that
I`m ignorant. It gives one a certain advantage when one's enemies still
entertain delusions of superioriority. "You're too fucking
busy with a thesaurus trying to find some wax-poetic way to demean me
for the way I feel about the way I'm treated."That`s right, move
into your victim stance. You poor, innocent little borderline sex
offender. I pity you, honestly and truley, but not in the way you wish
I would. "Then you take the time worn defense implying that I
am a male and cannot differentiate between the women who treat me this
way, and the ones who do not. You to are now making ignorant
assumptions."A rapist is a rapist. Because women snub you, you feel
it is appropriate for you to entertain thoughts of raping them? So, you
would never rape a woman who liked you, but women who treat your poorly
are deserving of such an act? Good to know you can so easily discern
who you would and would not commit an abomination against. "I
used that scenario as a reversal of emotion. You should try to imagine
how I feel. Genuinely offering the customer service that I am required
to provide them, only to receive in return one of the deepest insults
they could offer."Cry about the harsh world that we live in. I work
retail as well. The same slings and arrows hit me, and never would I
entertain thoughts of hurting someone in such a manner."I'll
also be willing to bet that you've conveniently missed the first
sentence, the one framed with '*' or you would know it's not 'the
female gender' that was directed to, in fact it was only directed to
those guilty of the transgression."Your little disclaimer was not
lost to me. Writing a "Don`t be mad at me but!" and then spewing forth
misygonistic filth does not excuse the fact that you still spewed forth
the filth. "My description of how the events would unfold was
designed to express the level of disrespect they display when they take
this frame of mind."Instead, it showed only the level of depravity that you display when you take on a certain frame of mind. "Basically
I feel raped in a way when they look at me and assume that I want to
fuck them. I also feel raped in a way when I get messages like these
from people who assume that because I feel like doing these things to
one female that I will do them to all of them."Once again, I am
SO sorry that I made you feel bad for wanting to be a rapist. I
apologize for making you feel raped when you yourself are the only one
speaking of commiting such an act. You honestly believe that you are
the victim? That I, as a woman, and susceptible to a man commiting such
an act, should be the one apologizing to you? When you were the one who
wrote so openly about wanting to violently rape women? Your logic is
frightening. I also repeat my previous statement of "a rapist is a
rapist." You may not think of raping every woman, but even the "nice"
ones may transgress against you some day. Can you justify raping anyone
by simply saying "she was mean to me, and made me feel raped?" What a
wonderful thing, to be so deluded with self-entitlement. "Are
you trying to unify the women of the world in a collective unity with a
symbiotic existence to each other, like saying, 'You hurt one of us you
hurt all of us.'? If so then you've just insulted women more than I
could have ever imagined. 'You're simply telling me that all women are
just alike.'"I`m bored with your assumption that by attempting
to unite women against a common enemy, I am insulting them. How
insulting, to rally against allowing rapists to entertain their
thoughts without guilt. And yes, in the way that rape hurts, all women
ARE alike. If you`re too foolish to understand that, then I have no
hope for you, and this entire episode is pointless. Although, I`m sure,
at this point, since you so fearlessly posted your sociopathic musings,
you`ve completely justified everything to yourself, and my words have
made no impression, anyways, other than putting me in the "rapable"
category."I happen to know that is NOT true, because you alone
are far MORE ignorant than any woman I could throw a rock into a crowd
of women and hit. 'OH NO! Now he's throwing rocks at us! How childish
and 'recess-rage' can you get.' and the cycle just repeats itself and
goes on and on and on."Was that a personal attack? Hm, sounds
like. How fortunate that I don`t care at all what you think of me. I
don`t strive to gain approval from sex offenders. You are correct,
however, in the statement that the cycle goes on, and on, and on, while
foolish, misogynistic, privilidged, entitled little children like you
stir the whirlpool. In conclusion, I repeat my previous advice to
seek help. And a quick note about posting my e-mail on your profile.
Thank you. Maybe my words will ring true with somebody. A little bit of
fame never hurt any cause. -S
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This is an e-mail I received from a female user in regards to my previous journal entry. It will be followed my my reply.
I'm keeping her anonymous because I feel like being redundantly mysterious....
^^In reply to your journal, I can only shake my head in a sad, piteous
sort of useless hatred. How strange, to see that even a borderline
sex-offender could find someone that would accept such sensless
violence towards the female gender. What a torpid ocean of mental
illness and nihilism this community is drowning in. What a "dom" you
are, openly admitting that you fantasize about crossing such a huge
line, and commiting the violent, sick, disturbing, and cruel act of
rape.... Please, seek psychiatric care. Before you hurt someone with
your callous stupidity.
My reply to this...
I can only shake my head at this sad, piteous sort of useless cashing in of fifty cent words and pseudo-intellect.
You
fail to see the point of what I'm trying to say because of the way I've
decided to say it. Then again, you've never actually shown any sign of
understanding the complete idea of anything.
You're too fucking
busy with a thesaurus trying to find some wax-poetic way to demean me
for the way I feel about the way I'm treated. Then you take the time
worn defense implying that I am a male and cannot differentiate between
the women who treat me this way, and the ones who do not. You to are
now making ignorant assumptions.
I used that scenario as a
reversal of emotion. You should try to imagine how I feel. Genuinely
offering the customer service that I am required to provide them, only
to receive in return one of the deepest insults they could offer.
I'll
also be willing to bet that you've conveniently missed the first
sentence, the one framed with '*' or you would know it's not 'the
female gender' that was directed to, in fact it was only directed to
those guilty of the transgression.
My description of how the
events would unfold was designed to express the level of disrespect
they display when they take this frame of mind. Basically I feel raped
in a way when they look at me and assume that I want to fuck them.
I
also feel raped in a way when I get messages like these from people who
assume that because I feel like doing these things to one female that I
will do them to all of them.
Are you trying to unify the women
of the world in a collective unity with a symbiotic existence to each
other, like saying, 'You hurt one of us you hurt all of us.'? If so
then you've just insulted women more than I could have ever imagined.
'You're simply telling me that all women are just alike.'
I
happen to know that is NOT true, because you alone are far MORE
ignorant than any woman I could throw a rock into a crowd of women and
hit.
'OH NO! Now he's throwing rocks at us! How childish and 'recess-rage' can you get.'
and the cycle just repeats itself and goes on and on and on.
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**This entry does not express my opinion about women in general, it is a ranting directed at a small section of society**
Wow, just fucking wow. I can't believe the level of conceit, that some of the people I've recently dealt with, have about themselves.
Not just here on this site, but at work too. I work at a gas station and to be perfectly honest, ALOT of hot chicks come through my counter.
However, the thing that pisses me off is that these bitches just ASSUME I want to fuck them. I'm a guy she's a female, and she thinks that since I'm a little heavier and not as attractive as the average guy that I'm drooling over her and just can't wait to jack off thinking about her.
Fact is, I probably hadn't even noticed her beyond the fact that she was a pretty face and body. No opinion, no sudden lust or desire...until I see her start that bullshit.
Then.... I really want to fucker! I want to fuck her because I hate her. I want to be inside of her, make her cum, force her to stare into my eyes so she KNOWS who just fucked her. Then just before I cum, I'll tell her how sick she makes me.
Then leave her...just walk away.
Fucking whores! I mean seriously; I rarely even think about anything near like having sex with them until they assume that I am. Then I do, but I think about humiliating them with it.
I don't know...I'm going to shut up now.
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As you can probably see I have a pic posted now. It's not the best but I guess it will do for now. Anyway, lots of things changing, not that I suspect anyone I've met on here still reads this thing, but it's a statement of good news none-the-less.
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| Age: 25 |
| Seattle,
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