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After a short very intensive Mistress/slave relationship I've certainly found my true calling. I just need to find a mistress who is... let's say... more compatible with my needs. It didn't work out. She wasn't particularly experienced and it would have ended badly for us both. But it was an amazing experience. And I'm truly grateful that I had a chance to experience this lifestyle.
In the short time it lasted she taught me many things I didn't know about
myself. I think everybody should try being a slave at some time in their
lives. Very good experience for developing things like humility,
patience and letting go of one's ego. She's taught me that I take too
much space in conversations. Talk too much. Isn't concise enough.
Mustn't waste my mistress time with meaningless babble. Skills that are always useful.
Yes, I've been a member before. But my mistress demanded that I deleted my profile. Now when that ended I'm back. I'll upload the pictures again shortly.
What I can offer a mistress:
- I'm devoted. I want to worship my mistress like a goddess.
- I'm patient, and won't waste my mistress time.
- I'm a service slave and can cook, clean, do all the housework and otherwise make your life pleasant.
- I'm a cuckold. I can be monogamous if you want, while you have as many lovers as you want. I have no say. I'm an emotional masochist. It turns me on to be humiliated this way.
- If it pleases you you can have me fuck others, even men. I'm not really bisexual. But I get turned on by the humiliation of getting used by men.
- You can fuck me in the ass with a strap-on as much as you want. Even fisting works.
- I can be a 24/7 live in slave that takes care of your home and all your practical needs while you are out fucking your lovers. I'd very much like a relationship like that.
- I can fuck long and hard. I'm fit, muscular and generally in very good shape. I have a big cock too ;)
- I can lick pussy for an eternity. There's no limit to how much I love licking pussy. I think I'm pretty good to ;)
What I require from a mistress:
- You time. Unavoidable.
- Genuine affection and care. Pretty basic really.
- Disciplining. I need to continuously be taught my place.
- You need to enjoy training me into becoming a good and obedient slave for you, as well as working with me to rid me of my weaknesses.
- I have a fetish for piss. So for it to work between us I need to be allowed to be your urinal.
- I need you to take ownership of my penis. I need to be denied the right to use it for my self pleasure. I want my cock to exist solely to please others. I can be in a chastity cage at other times.
Hard limits
- Money slave. It just doesn't turn me on. If I'm a live in slave and it turns into something very serious, you'll of course be in charge of the money. But that is after we've established stuff like that you're fiscally responsible.
- Shit. So far that's a hard limit. I can't promise it'll ever be negotiable.
Today when I'm at home I prefer being in a chastity belt. I like being forbidden to pleasure myself with my cock. I want my cock only to exist as entertainment for others. I like the idea that my only source of physical pleasure comes from being fucked in the ass. It's humiliating and degrading, and I love it.
I want to be stretched as much as possible. I've only been stretching regularly for about half a year. But only recently have I got serious equipment to do it. I love walking around with a plug in my ass.
My life has been an interesting journey so far....
I'm a very fit, well trained man who needs an owner and mistress to
dehumanize me completely. That's what I want. No. That's what I need. I crave being denied all rights as a human. I want my self esteem and self worth to be totally destroyed. I love it.
So how did I become this pitiful creature? My journey so far.
I've always struggled with being good enough. I studied hard, worked
hard. I climbed in the corporate ladder. I'm now a senior manager and
at a major corporation. I have rock hard abs and look good. Seemingly
I have it all. There was still something missing from my life. I used
to think I was dominant. I certainly had no problems attracting women.
I attracted submissive women. Now I know that the only reason was that
I knew how submissives think, so I knew how to manipulate them. I've
lived as dominant almost twenty years now with a string of great
looking submissive women that I genuinely loved. But those
relationships were never complete. There was always something missing.
My dominant self image came crashing down the last couple of years. It
should have been obvious when I was young, since I've always
fantasized about being dominated by women.... or anybody. I just want
to be totally humiliated in every way. It's always that fantasy. Never
me being dominant. That should have been a clue. I did start
experimenting being dominated by men quite early. I've done that now
and again, just for a lark. Two years ago I got a master I met
regularly. Felt great, but there was still something missing. I'm
straight. The fact that I'm straight was part of the humiliation I
craved. But I needed a dominant woman in my life. I broke up with my
girlfriend/slave the winter of 2011/2012.
It wasn't until I went to a corporate leadership training for managers a few months after this event that I finally accepted the truth. It was when they started talking about self knowledge and sense of self worth that the penny finally
dropped. They said that managers often have a lacking sense of self
worth. That's why they're so ambitious. Since a a person like that
doesn't believe they have any human value they have to surround
themselves with external evidence of success to convince themselves.
But it's never genuine and it'll never feel real. I almost stood up in
my chair and called out, "THAT'S ME! That's what I've tried doing all
these years." They also said that it wasn't a problem, and people
could function fine as managers this way, as long as they understood
why they are the way they are.
Up to that point my life had been a sham. A lie to cover up my perceived lack of
human worth. It really doesn't matter how much people tell me they love me, I'll
never feel it. The only thing that makes me excited, happy and content
is being torn apart emotionally and to be degraded. It's the only thing that makes me feel alive. I'm looking for a woman to degrade me and dehumanise me completely. I want all my pride and any residual sense of self worth to be torn from my being. I want a woman to worship like a goddess. I'd prefer living as a 24/7 slave. I crave constant humiliation. I want to be trained as a toilet slave.
I love drinking piss. Haven't got any experience with shit. But it sure is humiliating. I want to be cuck-queened. My masochism is primarily emotional. I'm not sure if I'm all that into pain. Probably not. I haven't really experimented much with that. I love being stretched and fucked in the ass. I'm a great cook, and would love to serve my mistress.
Right now I'm quite happy about my career, and don't want to
jeopardize it. So while I'm learning about slavery and learning about
myself I'll keep my identity hidden.
In the relationship I envisage we have a normal relationship outwards,
but at home I'm naked in a dog collar and chastity belt constantly
under the heel of a cruel mistress. She controls me completely. She's
free to have other lovers or slaves. I want to be total property with
no say. I'd love to be forced to sit and watch while my mistress fucks
somebody else. Or even better, force me to eat the cum, preferably
from her ass or vagina. I want her to train me and teach me how she
wants to be served.
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| Age: 32 |
| British Columbia,
Canada |
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