It occurs to me I haven't written an entry in a few days. That's no good.

Waiting on Sir to come back from his events, I feel my heart give an extra hard push whenever I thought a message came in from Him.

I've been thinking all about what I've discussed with him. It seems more and more perfect the more I do. I simply can not wait to see where else I can go with this.

The biggest hang up I have here is that I'm afraid of what people I know will think of me, but without that barrier I'm free to truly express myself. I'll await to see what Sir says but my future seems filled with delight.

wearing:boring boi clothes, grey thong underneath.

Well, Sir told me I needed to write down my feelings on why I left and came back.

It can be summed up in one word: fear.

Trying something new is scary and finding out how much you enjoy it is just as scary.

I came back because I love it and I've always loved it from the first time I slipped on that thong. I deserve to be happy and I need to stop preventing myself from achieving that.

It's more than comforting to know how easily I was accepted after my transgression, it reinforces the notion that Sir is secure and understanding and only wants what's best for me.

Wearing: Pink dress, Off=black pantyhose, salmon cotton thong, hot pink bra, navy high heels

Just adding a few more thoughts.

I love the feeling of this thong sitting snugly between my cheeks. Sometimes I like to squirm just to feel the satin material rub against my hole. It makes me feel so slutty and girly. I finished shaving my legs and the pantyhose simply feels glorious. They don't look too bad either. There was a wet spot on my panties. I couldn't help but feel incredibly girly at that point.

Chastity Journal 1 hour

Purple and black satin thong with nude pantyhose.

Replaced brass lock with plastic seal so Sir could see that I've not removed my device. Started shaving from waist down so my hose would feel especially divine. Wondering when Sir will contact me again. decided to reset the count reflecting lock change.

Chastity Journal

4 hours 30 min.

I was told to write another entry so here I am. Being a sissy girl makes me so happy, I know it's in my best interest to be one. Without anyone there to help you though it can be very confusing and hard. Now that I have someone to help me I feel much safer going forward. I find myself wishing to please already. I find myself thinking of the different ways I will be controlled. My cock continues to strain uselessly against it's cage, and my hand sometimes feels the need to oblige in its own impotent way. This feeling, a desire that always grows but cannot be fully satisfied makes me wonder if girls feel this way all the time.

Everytime I watch a hypno vid, seeing all those girls sucking cock and taking it up the ass, makes me incredibly jealous.

I feel so proud to be doing what I'm doing. I feel as though I really can become someone new. Whenever I remember that I'm dressed up in such feminine clothing, and cannot touch my sissy clit in any sufficient way I feel sooo good,

I'm wondering what my new teacher may have in store for me and I know that I will not be able to stop myself from becoming what I always was meant to be

I'm feeling quite a bit excited at this point.

God, I wish I had a cock to suck.

Chastity Journal 3 Hours

9/17 5:30

Received my girly stuff from ebay, was probably most excited about the CB-6000S. Cashed some checks wearing it and some pink boyshorts and nude pantyhose. 

I want to touch myself so bad! It's driving me mad! These hypno vids make me so jealous of girls though, more than usual I mean.

Wearing: Pink summer dress, above items, and blue push up bra. Love how my tits feel in this thing.