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| You know who you are and thanks you for asking me to update my profile...I was recently in contact with the Dom I walked away from in 2008 when we realized we were too far apart in our needs and desires to make it work and he was not available when I was , so I handed back my collar and bid him good bye after being asked to be released and with a heavy heart he let me go. However, we decided that we could try once again and see if we could make it work and we both tried but once again, we just could not make it work and I knew he could not have changed and become more of the Dom I needed, despite his assurances to the contrary..I seek a controlling, firm and yet loving Dom who can and will push me to my limits and beyond...yet he seems so hard to find. I am not going to lie and tell you I am an easy submissive to deal with and I did test my former Dom in the past and was punished accordingly and while I loved it and craved it...it was not enough and I need more..I need to be told what to do and taught how to serve a real Dominant and not someone for whom this is a game...I am in a live in situation and my lover is vanilla and no, he does not know I am submissive and have a need to be controlled even when I am not with you and he will NOT be a part of this. I learned in my last D/s relationship to separate my two lives and yet I was my Master's submissive even when I was not in his presence and LOVED it!! If you think you can handle me...let me know and I will be in touch...I promise :)
My free time is weekdays from 9am until 6pm or later depending on if I make excuses at home. 0nce in a while if necessary,I can be gone for some time on a Saturday but would need advamce notice and sadly I can't host and so I hope that you can :)
PS...the Dominant I seek will not have more than me as His submissive...I can not stand to share :) and I am a smaller BBW so if that bothers you...please look at the next profile
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it seems like - have been gone for a very long tme ad whhen I came to change my profile,0i was not in te least bit srprised tat nothing h changed. having spoken to some of those who sent me messages, I feel that so many want to bw called Sir or Master wthout us eveb hving met face to face. I am still kinda new to D/s even though I was a collared sub before, I am very much aware that that iS mostly not done that way and so please correct me should I be mistaken. In my last D/s relationship I was given a safe word and while it ws there,I nver at anytime needed to ue it ,but to say I can not have one is certainly going to make me tihink I can not feel safe. If anything choose a safe word and take it back if we are comfortable in doing s.
I am talking to a couple of people who I am interested in and maybe one day I will find the Dom who is right for m :) |
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Is it really too much to ask for a Dominant who will not feel the need to keep looking when we have decided to try and work on a relationship??? And for those that talk shit to me because I will not let you text me..preferring a real conversation where I can listen to your voice and not have thing misconstrued...you are probably NOT worth my time anyways..... |
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I really have to ask, why is it that the ones I want I can not have and the ones I do not want will NOT leave me alone??? I have hard limits for a reason and I am not going to go beyond those limits...so forcing me to do so is only going to make me run from you and not want anything to do with you any more...I am a submissive, but I am also a human being...and I will do all I can to make You happy, when I find You... |
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Yes, I am married, but I still can be Your submissive.I was in a long term D/s relationship before and was even collared, yet NO one on my vanilla life never had any idea that I was His little slut and it was so exciting and having that secret was thrilling for me and one day, I WILL find some one with whom I can have that again. Some one said to me that I can not be a true submissive because in order to do so, I must give up my vanilla life and devote my entire life to a Dominant...yet I know it is possible to have a Dominant ans still have a vanilla life.I do not turn off my submissive side when I am not with my Dominant and will always be His whether we are spending time together or not and so many can not understand that. I can wear a collar and I can sign a contract and I can have rules that my Dominant would set forth for me...but he is still not with me and I begin to wonder if He ever will be..and yet I must not give up :) To the right Dom I will be loyal,dedicated and committed to serving Him and those that He chooses, should He choose to share me with others. I crave to be pushed and have my limits tested, but as the same time, I would want to spend some time getting to know Him and getting to know Him and feel safe with Him before i spend time alone with Him..although at the same time, when I met my Dom that I ended my relationship with in 2008, I played with Him on our first meeting and never for one second regretted it...One day I will find Him and will be a happy submissive once again :) |
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I am so tired of being mis-led and lied to....if we are talking and I am sharing things about myself with you and things are going well...why would you need to keep looking? If you do not want to be with me then tell me and I will just keep looking. I am at a very fragile point in my D/s "life" and can only take so much before I decide to walk away and put this side of myself away again.I have been hurt before and I walked away and did some serious thinking and after doing so, I took a chance and came back but really nothing has changed at all and it is sad....
Is it too much to ask for a Dominant who is looking for only one submissive..one who will NOT keep looking for "some-one better" when we are beginning a D/s based relationship. I have talked to a few who say they are looking for one and yet then they say I may need to find another in case you are not good enough.Well, I will say this, I may not be the most beautiful submissive, but you will never have to worry about me cheating on you with another Dom, nor will I lie to you or pretend to be someone I am not just to get to be your submissive.I will be loyal, respectful and will serve You as well as I can with no questions or hesitation.I am in a vanilla relationship, but I know how to make the two lives work together and never have had any problem keeping the two separated and no one in my vanilla life will ever know I have this desire to serve and please a Dominant and whom ever he chooses( should he decide he has a need to share me). While I am not a jealous submissive, I would prefer not to see my Dom with another woman and I know deep inside that I am good enough and will make some one a very happy Dominant of only given the chance. I am very open minded and am not afraid to try new things in the D/s world that I have never tried before...and I know there is a lot for me to learn ...now to find the "One" to train me and make me His :) |
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I can not say this enough and while I know I am surely cutting my chances of finding someone in half by being so selective, I know what I want and am not going to just accept anyone so that I can have a Master again...and so if you live more than 50 miles from me and are over 53 or 54 years old, I am simply not interested and so while I appreciate the attention and the interest, I will not be getting back to you..sorry:( |
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it is now me alone....he said he could not train me...oh well!!! His loss and I should never have gone back in the beginning... |
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