The beginning of yet another venture on the net to see where i fit in here. Too many times we come across people that say they are this and that and only come to find that it is a desire within them but yet discovered in real life or cannot practise any sort of Dominance or submission due to other duties that call.
It saddens me to find how many submissives that need that guiding hand to blossom in their submission are let down due to the net not being real enough. It also saddens me to find that submissives or acting submissives only `play the game`when it so pleases them. It makes it much more difficult for submissives like myself to find a match. Yes I have fallen into the online wannabes and have been let down as many have here. But I will always stand up for myself and continue to move forward in finding the right One for me.
We come a long way in learning of ourselves, getting past fears, insecurities, things we desire, want and need in our lives. With the right One there is so much more to delve into and bring out of a girl or boy for that matter. What makes us tick, what triggers us, what secudes our minds and souls, so many things we need to learn and without the hand to guide us it is a little difficult to find our own way.
Submission to me is serving my Owner, pleasing Him, seeing Him smile, being proud of me so that i will do more and more for Him, trusting or learning to trust, growing together as One, giving up ones control to whatever He wishes to take, feeling that burn inside of you whenever you think of Him or Her, fulfilled in soul and heart, the warmth that never goes away, all of it wrapped up in a world that only two can create together.
In our world of this lifestyle, we are who we are and each one of us have different needs. Its these needs that push us to learn more and experience more in this lifetime. Some are here to experience the physical and some are here for the mental and psychological. All in all we are different and fill our needs the best way we can.
There is nothing wrong from learning from the net for many have learned whom they are through online. But what does happen and only through experience do I know that it grows and grows and the net is no longer feasible and needs to be practised in rl.
One thing I cannot tolerate is dishonesty and hidden agendas. I guess in some ways I am very gullible and believe everyone should be honest and in truth always. But come to find most are not and it makes me very suspicious of others until I am satisfied with answers I get. Yes I am feisty and sassy at times for I love to laugh and tease. I will ask many questions and know that my answers will be what is chosen for me and that is accepted however lies are not.
How many times submissives would give up their life that they live to be with their Owners or close to them? So many of them would and have done so but come to find there are many secrets left unsaid and leave broken hearted. And when they return to their own life again, many distrust or leave the lifestyle.
We are all here to fill something within ourselves, to learn of ourselves, to pass our limits, to serve or be served and that is why I am here to see where I fit these days. Dont expect me to kneel the first moment we speak. You will receive the respect as I have for people whether in this world or the vanilla world. Trust comes with time and that should never be an issue with anyone. You will only see what I show you until I know you. And that should go for anyone.
What am I you may ask? I am very much submissive, some would say a deep submissive with a slaves heart. I am independant, strong, but yet passionate about many things one in which is to serve and please. Pleasing others for me brings me my happiness and joy. And yes sometimes I do need encouragement, reminders of what I am, and yes being put back in my place quickly. I err like any others do but we dont learn through being correct all the time, we learn from mistakes.
Well since it is a day of work for me I will end this blurb of mine and come back when I have the chance to write again.
Thank you for taking your time to read this.
Safe to all
Angel