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I have been Poly my whole life. I am not fond of lies, games, and bullshit. I am sub to him and Dom to females and male. I am looking for females ONLY born females. If you are Poly, sub, and open minded then contact me. Seeking MALE subs at this time as well , MALE subs, your job is service. You REALLY need to know what that is...It is NOT about your DICK , it is NOT about you cumming, It is NOT about you getting off.............It is about SERVICE......... what you will and can do to please a Mistress...... Simple as that..
sub woman.. age, race, and weight is not a factor... Must be Bi,sub and born female.
Please DO NOT mistake my kindness for weakness........ I am a Sadistic Bitch ! just because I sub to my Master does not mean I wont make you cry in pain.... I am a SWITCH after all..
Let me tell you what I am looking for in a female sub slave, one that is open to poly. I do not always have to join- But, I would love to watch you and MASTER play... He is white, 6'1 hazel eyes, and VERY handsome.
If you would like to be a part of a Real poly family message me, lets talk, have dinner and discuss things. It is not always about meeting and beating lol
Its about getting to know a person and finding a connection........
Be ready to meet in person.. I hate online shit and games, we can meet and talk But know this........... WE are not friends, this NOT a hang out session its a INTERVIEW ..... and YES, I am a BORN female.....
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Holy cow... Collar me is back> with a new name ? Damn where have I been ? Glad to see it. So let's get this party started............... I still need a sub GF. lol |
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ok ladies and gents i am back.... so hang on to your husbands girls...lmao... its line from a movie.... good lord..... I have am poly .i do have a sister and yes....I AM STILL A BITCH...LMAO....
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Hum, what do i say today ? Seems i gotta watch what i say ,,,Oh I Know... Ok.... This is my last post.... Seems that i come across as a cold Bitch...... So, See ya it was fun..Those that know me know that i am a nice person. but those that don't think i am a true bitch, Ya i am an can be But i think it best to just get rid of it for now......But that will be tommorrow night so let me leave you with parting words A poem that i like.....
Close Your Eyes |
| by Alison Rotmark |
Close your eyes; what do you see?
Do you see what's really there,
Or do you see what you expect there to be?
It's more than blood and bone we share.
Reveal our heart, our soul, our mind...
We're all the same when you are blind;
Blind to color, beauty, weight and height.
There's more to see than just with sight.
So close your eyes and see what's there;
You see more blind then when you stare.
Close your eyes and open your mind...
We're not so different when you are blind.
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Gezz, i REALLY miss Big Daddy when he's away..............On Lighter Note, Heading to Threshold miss my old friends there, and going to help with the carnival.. Should be fun.....
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Went on my first,,Job. Damn that was Such a Rush...... I know that it sounds crazy ,,, But it was a fuckin awasome..............hunting is a big RUSH....
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Last Night was perfect, No other words to use, I loved every minute, from start to finish..Thank you
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I am Me,.. I am a form of a person in a body of confusion at times. I am a riddle waiting to be solved. Often i am strong, yet some moments make me weak. I know that i do not like most people. Why ? I find that most are selfish and fake. I know that i can be at times, However that is the difference between me and others, i admit that i am selfish. I am not one for telling my feelings or opening up, I hold a lot in and then i explode.. NOT in a violent way just over react.When most people get to know me they can see that i am a real Nice person, I open my soul. and give it freely. However , Let's Not take that as weakness, I can be a cold hearten bitch if i am crossed or see that you are full of Shit... So who am i ...? Well, I have been in this life Since i was 16 i have seen the games the loneliness of a women being with a Man because she can Not find that one she truly seeks, a friend that would most likely give you all i have to see you happy and complete.I am a dark person that try's to see inside your soul, I am good at reading into the Mind Of another... I love the smell of cherry blossoms.. and hate the Sound of a drill..I am Strong. I like part of the song that fits me it Says" I've been traveling on this road to Long, Time to find my way back home,the old me is dead and gone"
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THE DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY,YES,I KNOW I AM WRITING IN CAPS...GIVE ME A BREAK.......
Today, I feel a vast number of emotions for various reasons...I have looked into myself so deep the past day that i have Seen parts of my life that i was at first ..completely sure of ... now, where i am not to sure about most of it.... SOOOOOOOOO, I thought to myself that i was going to take a mental vacation.... take time to look at what i need and want in my life.... what really honestly makes me happy and where i see myself in 5 years from Now...
Sometimes i See myself alone., Other times i see myself with a Owner, In a different life, then i see it poly and as i said Different ways...... I know that as of tomorrow night i will Set this Account on hold and figure out what i need and want... Hell i can die to tomorrow and have to ask myself was i happy ??? was i wanted ? was i complete or just part of a puzzle >? was i just another figure to take up space or was i that one true part of another....I have to think about a few things.... so tata for now..
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ok So most people have a Birthday ? Right, I have a Birthday MONTH.... thats right i take the whole damn month to be treated like a princess...... Nothing any bitch can say will change that....... Master and i have been bonding alot more, Our anniversary is coming not sure what to get for him.... Things are going good these DAYS, less stress less hassles, we both are just living... Any questions... Just ask....
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Master Called me Something the other Night, while in bed,"John's lil whore" DAMN that made me wet...... he has made me feel so "wanted " lately.... He knows that i have been real busy with school and work so he has been really kind about that ..... in a few days i have to remove my pic for work reason...... so if ya want a pic just ask,...see yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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well someone asked if i was the owner of a yahoo group,,,, Yup have been for years. Its Called :
DOMSsubs_slavesinCalifornia/
I started this group Years ago, and i been around almost 9 years Now.I have started a new group from the request of a few switch friends.
BiSwitchesinCalifornia@yahoogroups.com
We will also be starting a 'Bi Switch " Meet group here in Long beach,lakewood area. Let us know if your interested.....
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Gezz, Ppl. to answer a few questions... No dammit, that last post was not about MASTER or anyone,, Its a Song.... geezzz.. get over it...I had been up studying my poly Sci homework, and my brain needed a blank space.. so i just typed the song i was listening to at the time...Fuck Man get a life...So its 1030 right now, and i have a TON of homework to knock out, poly sci,anatomy,History AND Psych,....I am so freakin tired i have no brain for the normal smart ass bullshit comments i always Make here...and to top it off i have another class in san bernardino next week... plus work AND KIDS.... i am so tired... But, a bitch gotta do what a Bitch gotta do....Spent Monday night with My Owner.Good Conversation, Started off rocky but, things are worked out. I'm Happy.Not in a sappy way. But i think i understand alot more now then i did before.....Makes me feel alot more Secure, and yes ,understood....My Life is rollin along alot better these Days, Yes Granted I am alot more busy. and May Not have the time i want with him, Or the kids, Hell with myself for that Matter. But i do know that it will all pay off in the end. If all goes well i will have my own company, by the end of the year,....the world may never know....lmao.... good Night gotta go study...Nik, The Black Bitch from your nightmares..............
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humm,Been Alot places Seen alot of faces, All Hell I've even fucked different races...A white dude his name john,he had a queen bee rulz tatto on his arm, and he asked me if i'd be his date for the prom, he'd buy me a horse, a porsh and a farm,then a Nigga from Down South use to like me spank him and cum in his Mouth, And tony ? He was Italian ,he did'nt give a fuck thats what i liked about,he Ate My P**** from dark to morning called his Girl Up and told her we were bonin',puerto rican papi use to be a deacon, now he just sucks me off on the weekends, then this black dude i call king Kong he had a big as dick and a hurricane Tongue.....Some Men even put me on the grocery list, right next to the whip cream and box of chocolate Designer pussy , my shit comes in flavors,lick it right the first time or ya gotta do it over like its rehearsal for a tootsie commercial .....
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ok so April is Comming, and yes ,my event will be happening..... i love it... Palm springs all ladies, THATS RIGHT dinah shore... 5 long days ladies only, party party party... but i am only going for 2 days, DAM i love it there , thousands of females, and all we do is party...
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Ok....Sooooo.Who Calls me out the blue ,from Iraq ? My Ex.. Now he has been there almost 15 months... and has the nerve to call and tell me has a guy for me.WTF ... do i look like a need a date ? LMAO..I mean get real... I never have a problem finding a Man.if i wanted One...Besides I have one already so WTF MAN..Told him thanks but no thanks.besides Master.. Hates his ass any way , now he might really hate him...lmao.........So brenda ( My ex-g/f) made a bet..... if she lost 20 pounds before me i would let her spank and play with me...( Yea right) and if i win then i get to use , and abuse her with Master watching and she has to lose her ass as well..... So she is like OMG i told her we'll See..... But we all know her fat ass is NOT gonna lose .. she can Never Stop eating... I know her to well....This weekend I made Some Serious Plans for saturday Night... Not gonna say what they are but , This guy is gonna have a wonderful...Awsome time.......oH yea....My friend Sheri...who i might add is a Biker model, and annoys the fuck otta me.... calls and wanted to head to the bar friday....I just might do that I have Plans with someone else to use her....Should i tell her ?LMAO naaaaa,she will go for him on her own just because hes with me..... Yea she is a Bitch,But i knew that already....I Dont mind if your a Bitch... Just hate cut throat bitches.....and she is One.....Me ? what am i ? Hell, I Dont do it behind your Back, Rather Do it to your face so you can See me do it...and look in my eyes......is that Mean??.,No its Not !!!!!!!
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today.... It was pretty Long ,But over all Not a Bad Day.....I have been reading a Book Called the " The Switch' Very Nice, Has A few interesting spots in it i like and let me tell ya....kinda Sexy... I read A Lot... I love to read.... Come to think of it i love a lot of things...ANGELINA JOLIE, betty page, lana turner ,......... these are the women of my dreams..Shirmp, vanilla ice cream. Sushi,the color black,(Yea even if its Not a color) the movies Imitation of life,the notebook and four rooms, pin up girls,big hunk candy,look candy, bollywood movies, laying on the grass in the park,laying on the beach at night hearing the water hit the shore ,girl on girl porno,cold case , Sean connery,writing poems , hand sanitizer ,James dean, the original charlies angels,do wop,classic rock,oldies,67 shelby gt 500, 39 master delux,and 48 fleetlines,harleys,beach cruisers,tattos,piercings,dominate men, snakes, reptiles,dogs,6 in heels, that make me 6'4 yeehaww..how perverted dirty and Nasty i can Be....My Lips, Thats righti said Lips,lmao....philipino egg rolls,Retro clothing..
what do i hate ???? Hummmm, freakin jello..eww,rice pudding,vanilla pudding,Velcro shoes,people touching my forks and spoon....black lickerish, black jelly beans, whats that guys name ? oh yea vin voughn,and that other guy that acts stupid in movies, i forgot his name but i still hate him.....i'll think of his name later.OOHHH yEA Will Ferrell HES F***ING stupid....million dollar man, suckers,liars.,
grils( for teeth),music that makes my head ring when its loud,cats,when your plants die, the gold fish from the fair that dies in a week,fucking barking dogs,I really hate how they have braille for a drive up ATM what the fuck is that About ??? i mean i dont get it.... I hate , people that drive and talk on the phone, yet get mad when you honk at them for comming in your lane with no blinker....i fuckin hate, when a guys wife would call me and tell me i was breaking up thier family..WTF i am not even in thier family thats his family, why blame me.? I hate bullshitters that play games and think everyone is too stupid to know what they are up to, i hate dry ass chicken, fuck man, how does a person fuck up chicken >??? I hate garbanzo beans ewww,,I hate how kids pick on other kids....Kiss Asses, kid cartoons,grape ape cartoon,street king skates,candyland,fucking hello kitty,.NICORETT GUM......AND THE FUC****G PATCH,,EWWWWWWW,
well thats it, Have had a great day,,, Master is Out of town.... and i am heading to Camp pendleton to see the Silent Drill at MCRD..........
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Lately I have found Myself reading the poems that Inspire me to be a Better person, A More Honest and "nicer " Person. I thought i would add a few of my favorite quotes Here. Not because or Anything or any Reason, these are things i feel In my HEART......
Favorite Quotes
D. H Lawrence :
: I never saw a wild thing feel sorry for itself. a Bird will drop dead frozen from a Bough without ever feeling sorry for itself.
Pearl S. Buck
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I
am comforted by life's stability, by earth's changeableness. What has
seemed new and frightening assumes its place in the unfolding of
knowledge. It is good to know our universe. What is new is only new to
us. Theodore Bikel
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All
too often arrogance accompanies strength, and we must never assume that
justice is on the side of the strong. The use of power must always be
accompanied by moral choice. Victor Hugo
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People do not lack strength, they lack will.
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Ok People I HAVE moved. my best friend Passed away. she was like a supoer mentor to me in the lifestyle,.....My Master and i have been spending ALOT more time, so things are going along pretty DAM good. Life is SWEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. feels pretty good to only be 6 miles away from MASTER...
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Well, As per my news years change, i am heading out tonight, Got a couple Of Marines Coming From Pendleton and they wanna go out, So I am gonna take them to a Club. It Should be a Blast.....One or 2 of the guys are a in the lifestyle and i have known them for years, They have always wanted to play with me and hang but i just never gave it the time....So tonight, I am gonna show them a good time..( Get your minds out the gutter ppl) Just gonna party, Until.I get " the word" i am still Owned...Until i get the final word i am still his property.. I may be a His Ho, But i am Not Any Ho.....Come on Now... Oh and for those that have asked i have been with him year and a half.
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I think that Since this is A new year a lot of things in my life are going to change, I am moving for one thing, to long beach.not a place i want to really be but, for now it will be ok, Second, I have not gone to school the last two semesters, Not really sure why, i guess i just did not FEEL like it, Third, I think that it's really time to think of ME, Yea i know selfish , but i never really have done that.I alway think of everyone else in more ways then i should, I have made a few major mistakes helping others, and ya know thats ok cuz its a learning thing in life. But, I Dont think that i am going to settle any more, What i mean is i think that i DESERVE alot more then i allow myself, or then others allow me. I have a head on my shoulders and i am educated, so why should i allow my life to be a constant "as the world turns" soap ?
I am begining to wonder who and what i am in this life, That includes major amount of things, Like Life ,love, hate,pain,selfish,trust,fear,all the things that make a person.
I Sit and ask myself, Do i need this,do i want that.....My Answer ? I will not fight for love, I will not beg for a life,I will not be a number, i Will not be a secret, I Will not play games, I will not take my place in line, I refuse to be a booty call, Nor will i be SIMPLY " A BITCH....I think that if i can Not be a part of the something then why be aprt of anything... Yes, Ofcourse i am venting, however its a new year and my mind is more clear, more awake, More aware....I am Nik,F*** you if you Dont like me, f** u if you are jelous of me,f*** u if you talk about me badly,and f*** u if you ever want to meet, use, or see me, Cause you see, I AM HERE , NOT A MARAGE,NOT A FANTASY,NOT A FIGMENT OF AN IMAGINATION...I AM REAL, HONEST,HARDWORKING,KIND, A BITCH,A VOICE,.... to make it more clear i am ME...YOU MAY NOT LIKE ME YOU MAY NOT LOVE ME...BUT YA KNOW,? YOU WILL RESPECT ME...
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Let's See, venting moment here, I AM not a sub to females, I am Domme to females, THAT is why i am a switch.... I do not take orders Command or BULLSHIT from females.....I am a bitch Yes very true..... If at anytime anyone has a question comment or concern, PLEASE feel free to ask, You may not get the answer you want, HOWEVER you will get an answer...whoever Said calling me a Bitch would hurt my feelings,??? LMAO they lied, those are foreplay words..
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Till' Death do us Part .....
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I want a g/f Someone of My Own. that is one of the main reasons i am here.aND YES I HAVE A WONDERFUL MASTER HERE AS WELL.. But all the chicks i look at are ' Do not" ,I hate, You better not , I said, Fuck Off if, your Not my,This is My,...... They are the Most shit talking, Hard ass Demanding, anti social, loud Mouth Bitches i have every Met... I really like when they said, I am a sub/slave not a door mat....WTF so you would rather act like a BITCH ....... COME ONE GET REAL...
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well, Master is Back in town.. and BOYYYY, did he come back with a hunger. We spent the night talking and had dinner, and the "welcome home Master ' Sex was as always amazing.....I watched him sleep for a Bit, and Ladies you know how when a kid sleeps so sound you go touch and move them ? Well Master did that last night , and found my hands in his face feeling , and i sort of rock him a bit and he whispered whats Wrong baby ? I Said Nothing and i went back to sleep... Of course in the morning he asked again , and i told him and he started to laugh, and says everyone does not move when they are sleep.I know that , but for that breif moment i got scared, of what ? Losing him, him not being there, Him leaving me alone.....I guess when you wake at 3 am things just hit you differently.....Could never see my life without him there..Could Never see myself asleep in anothers mans arms or bed..I look forward to him , when he pats his chest and says come here baby. or when he said it was his job to take care of me.. I am not sure anyone knows what your mind feels and your heart feels when the person you are so in aww over tells you that Nothing could be more perfect to hear.....so far i thought i only owed him 19 more years of my life, he reminded me it was 20....such torture,,,lmao... guess i have to grin abd bare it..poor me...lmao
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Ok, So Master has been Out of Town YET again,,,,nooooooooo, I am not whinning... Ok Yes i Am....I Can't help the fact that i miss Him so Much.Or the fact that whenever he goes away i get lonely and feel so alone without him. I feel like i need to be with and around him all the time.. Did i ever mention he has the most wonderful eyesss......mmmmmmm,I just melt when he looks at me... anyway back to what i was Saying. Yes, i admit i feel so incomplete when he is not around.I feel so alone..IS THAT NORMAL ? i admit that i have never in My Life Ever Loved Anyone before and he is the first person,i have ever craved, and wanted so much.........I did say if he did not hurry home i would run off with the mailman......EWWWWWWWW, you have not seen MY mailman... I am still not sure if its a he or she........But naww... I just want Master HOME..On another Note. I think my p.c is dying a slow death..I have had the screen so long, that everything pink looks blue and every thing red looks black,..You guessed it color is dying,,,ok its dead....Damn ANOTHER new thing i need to buy. And Master has me budgeting myself,..god help me,. Ya think if i went and got a new p.c he'd know?? I mean its just a lil ol screen.yes he would i am sure a flake i would tell....i lie well with other, All he has to do is look at me and i confess..Shhhhhhh,dont tell him that.. i feel so guilty if i lie,maybe i should just ask him.. wadda ya think..
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OMG..........It's been One Year. Wow. What an Amazing year it has Been, Master i Could never ask for a Better Man in my Life, Thank you for making this An amazing year.I look forward to another year and many more to come.....None could make me more proud....Thank you......
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Now here is Something Strange..I have gotten over ,i would Say 25 emails this week from men..... I really do Thank you for Writing and taking the Time. HOWEVER.... when One writes a Person 'knee Bitch' is not a greeting.. and No i am not going 'Let my Lovely Lips suck you C***"wtf MAN..... come on guys i know that you must have Tad bit more personality then that .... I mean get real does that even Work ? Now as you have read Yes, I have a Master, A very Wonderful Master, Whom as of august 17, will have served one year.....I am not seeking to change for, move on too, or explore with anyone else, But again Thank you... If anything i would like much more hearing from females....*big smile* Now, Yes , I do like roaming this Site, and looking at other profiles, Men and women, Master Does Not mind.... I was asked in ONE e-mail that if i have a Master why is his name Not on my profile.... IT DOES NOT HAVE TO BE !!! i have no problem telling you all who he is.....nothing to hide on my part....or his.......have a great day...
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Some of my small thoughts for today........
'Simple mInds and Simple Pleasure, I Somehow Lost, I wasted away Minutes of the Day i Can Never get Back. I found myself Sitting alone in a Room Counting back from 100 and then my eyes closed. I felt numb and weak to my soul, My Core ,My Being. I thought of the things that Could have been, The things that will Never Be, I think that i wanted a lil Bit More.I wonder when My Life will Change and who will be In it.Can you love someone you would never know >? Can you find happiness knowing what you have done to them.,..? I found myself wonder what can and will never be, I left my mind restless of a Soul i Just set free..........."
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well i think that i am way to guarded Sometimes....... It clouds the things i need and want to Say to People, then that builds a wall......Its frustraing and i know its hard on Master too.. .Thats Just my way.. I know i have to change it, I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR HIM ................. i have never really felt this before, what woud i say to him if i could Humm Well : I want to spend forever with you, You mean more to me then any Man i have ever been with,I am so complelely in love with you i have feelings that i have never had surface, I enjoy just stand/sitting and looking at you. I feel safe with you, I feel protected, I feel Wanted, I feeel needed, I feel like a lil girl in your arms... whatelse not sure, but i know i will think of something....
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__Thoughts for today____
For the most part people are full of Shit ! I mean. I am not talking about One thing per say, Just the fact that. If you give everything to another person. then they Don't do anything for you. Is'nt that the same as being used ? or is it mainly ,Something your doing out of love, Or because you want too ? How much do you give till you SAY, ok thats it. Time to move on ? I have known D/s couples and seen how the whole relationship works. I Have seen poly couples and how that relationship works as well. Question is this : As a slave/sub...I mean a real slave/sub, not this weekend warrior bullshit that a few ppl i know are into., But the real deal D/s relationship that you give your heart, mind and soul.....Where do YOU feel complete ? Do you ever feel left out ? cheated ? Is feeling complete to whole relationship in knowing that you give your All to him/her( which ever ) ? is complete knowing that for the most part you will most likely be alone alot more then you care to be >? Is complete not wanting anything from him /her and thier heart ? Just being complete by being ? Somewhere along the line i think i lost myself. I am not sure what part or even how much.But, I know i have lost a part of me. I am not sure where to look or even if i should. Let me tell you guys something : Ok rememeber as a kid , there was always the house you hated to pass,? the one everyone said was either Hanted or a witch lived there ? We all had one of those houes Someplace and time in our lives, As we got older we relized that it was some lil old Lady that Hated Most kids cuz we walked on her grass or made to much noise or whatever the case was. She was still just a lil ol lady...I have always had this thought that ,That was going to be Me.,I'll have 110 cat, 65 birds, 74 dogs, 20 thousand rats, a dead goldfish, a 6 feet snake and a hamster..and i'll live with trash all over and a kid will deliver my food( cause mine just left and forgot about me), and never see me, he'll leave it on the porch, and when they find me dead it will be around 2 ton of news paper.. IS THAT MORBID OR WHAT ??? I guess it all boils down to this : I have had a million( ok not that many , but you get the point) Men in my life,and yes i have like anyone loved and lost..But, for Some strange reason i feel as if i will be alone, die alone...I wonder why i think that way? perhaps cause i do not trust most men > you think ? Maybe because as much as they want to love then can Not give it ? Maybe because i get tired( Yes, slaves/subs get tired too) of giving so much. Maybe because I want to feel complete . ....................THESE ARE ONLY MY THOUGHTS FOR TODAY. please dont write and say ' then your not a real sub/slave, you do not know me and you only know what i write here. So play nicely,lol if you cant says anything nice , then fuck off..lmao....... Cause remember this " Fuck what you think, only God can Judge me"
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well, I have no idea ,how to explain the love i have for Master, I have never Really Loved a Person as Much as i do Him. I sleep at home alone and seems i have the most restless Nights, But when i am with him, My whole world stops and i relax like i have never done before. I feel the Safest then i have ever felt when i am with him. I feel the Most complete i have ever felt with anyone. I feel so much pain when he is hurt or upset,and when he is SICK oh man, I want nothing more then to take what he has so that he could be Better. I know that i would give my life to him. I know that this is the person that i want to Spend my life serving.I know that he is often unsure of me, I know that. Well that is Something that i have brought On myself,I admit i am Guarded sometimes. He has become everything that i want to serve in life. There is Nothing that i will not so to make him know that i want to Take all His Pain away,and stand beside him through thick and thin.Yes, He may Have others,I know this, Am i happy about it ? Well as His Slave i have to be,However, He knows as well as I do that None will love him ,care for him,give to him, serve him, Baby him, or want him as much as this slave.
He is My Master..till death ,Do us part......
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Well, Master has been super busy with work, and we have not had any time..I admit i am lonely and sad for him, But i know that he has to take care of work things first....i wonder if he knows how lonely i have been.? I need a girlfriend....anyone out there >?
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Nothing new to report, life is moving along and all is well( I think) lmao
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This Site trips me out.... I am real, Master is real,... and yet the women here are not sure if they want a Master, or just fuck around.. I am tired of this Yes i am involvedi n r/t but sometimes i just wanna stay home and look too....Master is On this site as well if you wanna see him just ask me and you have our pics right there , Question are there REAL poly BI SUBS OUT THERE ????
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Master Said, It is time to tatto and BRAND me soooooooo, i ASK YOU ALL THIS , what should the tatto say ? See Master , has left it up to me to find some things and he ofcourse will pick what he likes... I feel so complete with Master , I am not sure how to explain it. BUT he is the perfect MASTER FOR ME !!!!! he tells me that i bring out the 'perv" in him... thats a good thing. we were together last night and the day before and the more i am away the more i want to be closer to him. I have never ever in my life felt so wanted ,needed ,protected, and cared for by anyone as i do him.....My Life is complete( ok he said when i move closer it will be ) but other then that his life is mine and my life is totally his" I guess i really am his blackpearl.lol last night he used a few new words while he used me Yes " the n***** WORD" AND omg ........... HE SAID HE FELT MY PUSSY TIGHTEN AROUND HIM it was such a freakin turn on to him him use those words DAM THAT WAS HOT..........
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wow,Its been a while. Since i have posted here. Master and i are going to Palm Springs on the 1-3 of february is a clothig oprional resort for ppl 18 and over... I ma so excited about this.. I CAN HARDLY WAIT......
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Master is out of town for the hoildays with His friends/family.I ofcourse have to work as always... I fell really Lonely.But i am patient and make due.... things will pass and we will be fine. Ladies if we rush Our Masters to get what makes us happy are we really doing him a service or causing head aches for himmm?? be patient... |
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Well, The carnival was fun, and let me tell you loads of Ppl. I did get asked by loads of ppl to have my pic taken with them It was fun..... I went with friends.. Someone asked me do i go out alot alone ..Yes i do Master works alot. I am fine with it.... |
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I am going to the west hollywood carnival... and i am going as my other Side... Yes the Domme side of me.... Any slave/subs want to be on my lease for the night ??? I am sure Master wont mind.... Let me know if your interested |
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Master has been out of town lately. I Think that since i am so use to being guarded with my feelings i never noticed that i miss him so Much. As i stated once i have never been in love. So i would not know it if it happened, But i know that i want to be with him more and more every day and while he is away seems that a part of me is missing that i feel lonely for.... I cant wait till he gets home.... Damn I MISS HIM SO MUCH.. |
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Just got Home from Masters House. I SWEAR every part of my body Hurts. My Legs are sore, My p**** tingles and hurts all at the same time. He used me harder than he ever has. OMG. it was amazing. The more time i spend the more closer i feel to him. The more i see his needs and try to fill them .I see the pleasure in his eyes, when he looks at me. I feel the complete faith and trust in him when i am there with him I asked Him about something, and the answer was I am not afraid of anything. I do not think that you Masters/Mistress understand those words when your sub/slave/switch hears them.. It sits there and totally makes you feel COMPLETE TRUST ......I am going to serve this man the rest of my Life. I already know that...Nothing more for me to want ..He is it. |
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Is it really that hard fo find women intersted in Poly ?>? are there no honest women left ? Most only want a Single relationship...sounds vanilla to me... But hey whatever,I mean hey they are making it hard for me to bring home a toy for my Master......gezzz ppl......No wonder i perfer events to online sh** |
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spent the Night at Masters Last night,....How can i tell you how wonderful it was in words>? Have you ever felt so so complete with a person and did not know how , to keep still, ? Have you ever thought of a person and just become jello, and you Body just tingles...? that is how i feel when he is around me, Like a lil kid, so happy and giggly, i want so much to just please him in every way, give him the world and take away every stressor, and upsetting moment in his life... I feel complete,.BTW, i am starting to loveeeee anal ,lol |
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My Mood, Is a bit dry today. I am not in the best of One. I feel,.....Lonely today Not sure why. But i do..I worked today and came home. did my registration for school. and all, then played afew dominos online...thats it... Guess today is Not one of my best DAYS.... |
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Well, I finally Did it..I had Anal , It hurt at first but it was Not so bad, Master was Gentle.I felt so complete giving him all of me. Now,As he says there is Only One thing more to give.I and He know what that is.......*smiles* Oneday i will. It seems so easy to be able to. Funny How Complete i feel with him, I feel Pretty and Beautiful,and Sexy, Some of the things that i did not feel before.With anyone. Alot has Happen to me in my Life.But Master is accepting of it all and he understands my needs, and is able to Fill his needs with me,as his slave. I never felt the loneliness before that i do when i am Not with him.I never felt the desire to hear him, Or want a person so Much.He once asked me if i had ever loved .I admited that i never have. Maybe oneday I'll know love.but for Now, I feel admiration, complete service,undertood, needed and even wanted.I could never tell a person How this feels But, I know that i am Enjoying all of it...I have the brused breast to prove it,,,lol |
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Just the thought of worshiping My owner Makes me WET.Strange I know, But seems he Only has to speak and i become everything slutty and kinky he needs me to be. Something inside me wants to Pure everthing that i am into serving Him.As if i have been wating to serve Him all My Life, Like i have known him forever. I know this seems odd ,but its Simply How i feel.i hope that HE is pleased with me as Much as i am With Him.Because for now, All i want to do it is Serve Him.Give to him all of me that he needs. |
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