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| "Simply to kneel at His feet, my head in His lap, His hand wiping my tear stained cheek, whispering in my ear "you've done well, My good girl"...is sheer and utter bliss"
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This is a quest for both parties involved. This is no game or task to be taken lightly. This is the search to possess a creature's heart, soul and flesh. Make sure that creature is worthy of You and You of it. i am aware of the strength, courage and great pride it takes to own such a creature...i desperately seek it. But every gear has a proper cog to fit it perfectly. my gear exists, He only need to find me amongst the sea of ill-fitting cogs. He will come and mold me to His perfection, giving me purpose and i solely driven to see content in His eyes.
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My absence was not intentional accidents will happen... Recovery takes time and healing comes eventually... Almost at full strength. Thank you all for Your concern |
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Returned from an enlightening journey of the motherland Erin. Spending many years of enriching my soul for Others... Reconnecting with solitude, darkness and the unknown has brought both many answers and questions. Knowing ones purpose is a great advantage but discovering how to exist among the world is a task. Guidance and purpose are a necessity to one so driven to gain the perfection of One! So as for my current status, i am unleashed and discovering many new paths. i do not check this site often as real life is so stimulating. i shall do my best to respond to Those that peak my interest... As we all make a conscious choice to give in and to take hold!
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All the wonderful and intense inquiries are always a pleasure to read..if i to any of Your's dismay i do not respond in a timely fashion or at all entirely. Do not take offense...as although i am completely submissive to One..that One is a quest in itself, daunting for all but discovering is the greatest reward of all.
i respond to what draws me...i am a creature of innate behavior and go with my gut! i trust it to aid me in finding the One to lead me!
Thank You |
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As if September 10th it is no longer owned property...good luck gentlemen!! It's a great piece ;) |
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it had been on reprieve in Ireland for 6 weeks. it returns on the 1st to be released of sevice |
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I am submitting it's journal today because as it's words are so inviting, it only seems to fall prey to Those who have not a glimpse as to what I have created. it cannot choose One for itself. it is weak and unable to see it is only meat. it truly believes the words You tell it, it has faith and hope still...weak!
Until further adjustments to it are made, it is only available to Those I chose.
Much luck...
~Master B |
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i must distribute my most gracious and humble appreciations to all who have inquired of my status with such tactful intent. As a courteous update i currently am doing all that is wished of me for Master, but i will admit i have come to the conclusion that He may be at a point in life itself that has caused disinterest in many things, including my progress for Him.
Yes it is discouraging, but this life is LIFE, at the heart of all this is one having the sincerest desire and drive to be all that Another wants...in that path it is He who i must follow, no matter how uncertain the path may seem. It is called trust. The platform for any of this to succeed is trust. Trustin in Master's ability to guide, nature and mold. Trusting His natural instincts to know what it best for you. Trust in the end His words and His hands are strong and sure enough to take you through this life His way.
Until He is certain of my future....i am not |
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Very surreal conversation with Master last night, quite unxpected. i, as many of us subs are, am confused. He has not had need of my services for some time now and recently granted me the ability to seek elsewhere...with His approval of course.
He was disappointed with some of the choices i had recommended for myself...what is to become of me? i obviously am of no use to Him and am incapable of choosing One for myself..where does this leave me?
i suppose i will my fate in His hands as usual and am confident He has a direction for me.
Thank Y/you all for Y/your much apprecited show of interest...i have hopes One will discover my potential and make damn good use of it! |
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Just a quick side note...um submission, like trust & respect are EARNED!!! one who submits to just any Who demands is not such a rewarding conquest.
i'm getting some deserved lashings for this one.... |
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Been so long since i've adorned this journal with insights and observations..recently i have received messages from some interesting and intriguing Possibilities.
First, i must thank all of Y/you for te show of interest. Yes, i amcurrently seeking new ventures and am occasionally available for interviews and trials. In the end, current Master will choose my next journey, so please understand it is not just me that will be up for review.
i have been under the Thumb of some wonderful Masters and am certainly not about to release this flesh to One who is incapable of forwarding my journey.
Thank Y/you...good luck |
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i first must thank E/everyone for their wonderful messages. i do so apologize, with the greatest dismay, that my current once a month check-in does not permit be to view these lovely messages sooner. But thank Y/you all very much.
Now ,as for my current status, which seems to have so many questioning... Master is not prepared to release me from service as of yet and has informed me that my training,as far as His abilities, is complete. So where does that leave a starved, direction-less, full of drive little slave...only Master knows.
i must say that when the day comes for my release i know i will miss many many things...but a handful i will pain for eons without..
The aftercare, oh my this is every slave's Eden...i know i truly cherish it and will painstakingly crave it until i am under Another once more. Aftercare is probably similar to what "vanilla's" consider that "walk on the beach" scenerio. It is the time when Master & slave bond & build trust, it is where He gives reason for my flesh to heal in His hands. It makes the scars the most wonderful gifts a girl could ever have.
i know when out of service i will miss the structure, the definate purpose to my breathe, the rewards of a job well done. Master and Those before Him have all put Their time and effort into making me, for that point in Their life, what They need me to e for Them...i was taught I am only limited to Master's ability and foresight.
i only hope oneday One may discover me and see the potential to bring me out from beyond my flesh and show me His ways to perfection.
"In all forms of relationships there is a point of contentment...not stagnant but content...just each of us have rougher romps to achive it" |
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so this week i have been given some extra "rope" to venture on here (thank You Master). He is in the process of training several others over a period of time and has prepared me for my future neglecting.
i sometimes wonder the fate of a slave/sub...i have been "let go" 3 times in my journey. my first Master passed away, which left me very lost and vulnerable, my second Master was more of a "weekend warrior" type, it was very difficult to be so dedicated to someone who wasn't dedicated Himself. my third Master was just too young in mind and years, He tried so hard to the point where He no longer knew the lines between discipline and abuse...that my friends takes a journey and exploration of self which is essential before taking on the daunting task of a slave.
my current Master is wonderful, He has put such efforts into me and i surely give just cause for His head held high, but alas what is to become of me now that He has no further guidance or sees no further improvements needed?
Surely i am not perfect, far from it, nurturing and guidence should be an eternal quest. What if this is as far as He wants to lead me? What if He no longer sees more potential?
Just curious as to the fate of my kind..in the end W/we all move forward or get left behind |
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i have been a contracted slave for over 12 years now and am registered to my Owner currently. i was taken under the wing of One of the greatest Masters i have ever had the pleasure of serving. But lately i have found so many just looking for the surface pleasure, the game, not the truth of it all.
It breaks my slave heart to see so many deproving T/themselves of a truly empowering/enslaving experience. It is beyond whips n chains ,beyond commands and obedience. It is in the end about nurturing yourself and caring enough to nurture S/someone else.
My Master tends to me because He saw potential in my ability to become His perfection. He takes time and effort on me so that i put forth the same time and effort for Him. The pains and tests are a physical and mental breakdown/ rebuild tactic, used to create stronger, more driven, more perfected creatures. Someone who takes the time to train and mold another deserves to have His perfect creation without question.
It is about trust and respect, about a commited journey outside Y/your flesh and mindless taboos..what Y/you gain is beyond fleshly pleasure, it is a heightened understanding and mutual bond that can only be acheived through pain, strife and struggle.
To see the unbridled will of a slave must be a great acheivement for Master, His efforts are put forth to the world with my abilty to do all for Him.
Remember, our painful memories leave scars for a reason..pain is the greatest tool for remembering. Pains leave scars, scars are constant reminders of why we endured them and what it is we will do with them now. My scars truly are my badges of service to my Master...for each has their meaning and purpose and i am proud to adorn them for Him.
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