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Pan Female Dominant, 56,  Silver Valley, Idaho
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kateindenverwensly23bear1707TracyxxxPreopTS BiDomWoman

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It takes too long to update profiles. Buttons are missing so you cant manage your profile. I cant access my journal. And I cant reply to any emails sent to me while my profile is under review.
Unfortunately, I have been too disappointed with the way the site has become.

Peace Out.

UPDATE Obviously my profile didnt get deleted as I wanted. Also a little interesting fact I just found, if you try to make a profile on here it takes you to another site, which BTW is a PAY site.

Another update Profile is still waiting to be reviewed and I have been waiting for that to happen for a month or so. With the way they are directing new members to that other site that happens to be a pay site, makes me wonder if they arent going to just shut this one down.












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 Dominant Female

 Silver Valley 


 5' 1"

 239 lbs



 Not Listed



Actively Seeking:

Submissive Female

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Journal Entries:
4/21/2018 5:08:26 PM
A new whore uses vaseline and an old whore uses poli-grip..


4/20/2018 7:01:48 PM
I don't write much on my journal entries it seems. I'm ok with that though.

So, here is my next entry....


What is the difference between a new whore and an old whore?

11/20/2016 5:28:27 PM
This person emailed me while I wasn't on here and hadn't really been on the site to do much for awhile.
I am posting it here as an example to the ones out there that like to write these types of emails to others when they don't get their way. Also, said user blocked me since they couldn't handle the truth.

Email to me:

may i ask the dominant if she may acct a trans oral joy toy that is for females only and no men and yes i am looking to be put in life long chastity belt and used as a lesbian oral joy toy and be in old used bras panties or a bikini please let me know some thing, thank you.

My Reply:

Sorry not interested

Their Reply:

just one of the fucking game playing bitchs on this site  is all.  do fuck a dog dick

My Reply:

Oh, the joys of your true colors.

10/11/2016 8:37:05 AM
So as you all can learn from this person's mistake, this is NOT how you approach someone you don't know.


10/10/16 11:07 AM  

  The  first thing  you must  do  is    DROP atleast  150  pounds       sasha

My reply was not quite nice, but then you get what you give..

HiddenLove on 10/11/16 at 8:34 AM:

I must not do anything, but be me and worry about myself as you should.

The email was uncalled for and rude. I wonder, is this how you talk to everyone or just strangers you don't know?

Not only did you not ask why I am the weight I am but you just assumed that it is that easy to drop 150 lbs. Next time try asking what the situation is before going off and emailing strangers your trivial bullying techniques.


9/17/2016 10:41:57 AM
Ok, the first day back and I feel like chatting but the chat rooms aren't working...

9/17/2016 10:11:04 AM

Real life exists and takes precedence over online,ALWAYS. I gave been dealt some blows here lately with family tragedies and the flu, so I am not in the mood for people to email me and then get pissy if I don't answer right away.

Get over yourselves and get a life!

8/27/2016 2:16:51 PM
I am still here searching for the one for me..

Be it male or female, I won't accept anything less than wifey material.

8/12/2016 12:17:21 PM

Here I go again. Have a slave that can't follow simple rules. She lives down the street but is always late and can't bother to show up half the time. I think it is time to end it and search for one deserving of my attention..

6/30/2016 10:36:41 AM
I am quite curious about something I noticed today on here. How is it possible to have people on your friends list you have never heard of?

1/6/2016 9:55:50 PM
Wow,I can't believe it has been that long since my last journal entry. So much has happened since then. I found out I had a 37 1/2 pound tumor growing inside of me. I had that and a complete hysterectomy and my appendix removed. I lost almost 100 pounds that day. I have a flap of skin that is to be removed soon. Then a new knee! Yay! In the meantime my life is strictly vanilla and when the time is right, then I will see where life leads.

6/7/2013 12:21:13 PM

Just the other day, I went into the doctor for a ct scan on my stomach to see why I have such a bulge. The results came back but not with the news I expected.
Well not exactly, not all the results were in yet, but the ones that were are a big surprise.
It seems I have a large growth on my ovaries. So now they are doing blood tests, ultra sound,mammogram,and a chest x-ray.
Everyone is worried and scared about it but me.
I am scared of the tests, but not of the results. I have had a full life and am not afraid of dying. I know it is a fact of life. Some people times come sooner than others.
I will mourn the time that I won't have with my slave/girl/significant other. I will mourn the loss of time with family and friends, but of death, I have no fear. I will welcome him with open arms just as I did life.

Now that being said, I also want anyone that knows me in real life to not fret or cry over me if this is what is in store for me. I want them to smile fondly and remember when...

This is how I want to be remembered, with laughter and joy for all that I am,have been and still will be.

This is written because no one wants to hear what is on my mind nor in my heart. I have always felt this way about dying and have no qualms any more of letting others know.

I know some won't understand, but the ones that know me best, will.


3/3/2013 10:02:27 AM

Interesting how some find the way of re-wording Financial Domination. The 'new' terminology is Wallet Rape.

Still sounds like Whoring yourself out to me.

2/16/2013 9:18:47 PM

Here is a funny joke for you all.

A cock shot doesn't make you Dominate, but to Dominant someone you have to have more than that to offer.

If you get the joke send an email lol.

2/16/2013 7:33:26 AM

An interesting post in a yahoo group I belong to.

NOTE: I did not write this found on the web years ago.

This is an issue which tends to raise tempers, I mean lets admit it most people
just don't want to be told what to do, others feel that there is not a need to
conform to someone's else's protocol. This is the main reason you will not find
books about leather protocol and in case anyone hasn't noticed you don't really
find it discussed on websites either. I myself have gone through the great
debate of whether or not to write something for our own website. No one wants to
have to hear "Who are you to tell me how to behave?"

Although some may view protocol as strict rules of behavior others may view it
as simple guidelines and still others view it as a hierarchy structure which
they do not wish to conform to. Still others believe that protocol is nothing
more that something used by gay men coming back from the war as a way of
distinguishing themselves. There are many facets to protocol and many reasons to
adhere to the guidelines and many reasons for avoiding them. There are enormous
misconceptions of what it is and there are teachers of protocol that know little
about what they speak.

There seems to be more use of protocol in the gay male and female circles due to
(personal opinion here) the tradition of handing down the knowledge. From my own
teacher learning protocols was just as important if not more so than learning to
throw a flogger. Mind you this was many many years ago when our leather family
lived in secret.

Times have changed, it really isn't necessary to hide your interest in S/M
anymore. Society continues to grow more accepting of our lifestyle and to be
honest it seems that "leather" grows more popular everyday. Entering the leather
society is no longer difficult, just hop on down to your local dungeon. Please
don't misunderstand me, I think this is great, however what seems to be left
behind is the protocol. We deal with protocols in every aspect of our lives but
for some entering the leather community means they wish to leave common rules of
behavior behind.

The misconceptions concerning protocol create another element of interest. I
know I personally have heard over and over again that although Sub A "refuses to
conform to protocols they would always use their manners when dealing with
anyone in the scene." So what's the misconception. Well, protocol is manners!
From not touching another submissive's collar to not entering someone else's
scene space, this is protocol.

Many believe that protocol was invented by Old Guard Leather, for my own
personal opinion I do not believe this to be true. The BDSM lifestyle contrary
to popular belief was not invented by men returning from the war. They were
perhaps the first publicly formed groups however they did not invent S/M. The
men of the Old Guard had strict protocols for behavior and treatment not only
for themselves but for outsiders as well. This in an of itself creates much of
the conflict we see today.

One of the things that has changed immensely from my beginnings is how we meet
people. There used to be very strict protocols on meeting others. This was
established for a number of reasons, safety being one of them. We must keep in
mind that there used to be a great fear that outsiders would learn you were
involved in the leather lifestyle.

With the growing popularity of the internet things have changed. We spend hours
talking to people online before ever meeting them in person. This in and of
itself completely changes the complexities that used to be involved in meeting
another person be they top or bottom.

This has created a situation where protocols must adapt to new environments.
Protocol in its strictness form dictated that you simply did not introduce
yourselves to others. If there was someone you wanted to meet you would request
someone you knew to introduce you. This was based on the premise that one never
knew who was owned property and who wasn't. This was created not only for the
bottoms protection but for the Tops as well. Many a rouge bottom enjoyed
creating jealousy from their owner by being seen talking to another Top. Another
aspect involved with this in mind was the person introducing you took some
responsibility concerning who you were and that your behavior was deserving of
the introduction.

For many of us now this protocol seems archaic, what we have to remember is it
was created when there was no online world. Communication between members of
this society was strictly by word of mouth. Thus your reputation meant
everything to you. If you were viewed as an unsafe, dishonorable player it was
next to impossible to ingrain yourself with the leather community. Information
passed quickly and quietly. It was next to impossible to enter the community and
pass yourself off as a Master when the only thing you'd ever done was read a
book. Your experience and teaching was watched by others who had also been
watched as they were taught. Thus when someone referred to you as Master there
was little doubt that it was true and all courtesy's and respects regarding the
title were afforded to you.

This is of course a protocol that simply is not completely practical anymore and
must find a way to adapt. Online communication allows us to develop friendships
with people we have never met in real, how then are we to allow this protocol to
grow and change with our environment? I wish I knew.

What protocol is not:
Protocol is not a way of meeting people in an underground community
Protocol is not permission for every dominant on earth to top a submissive
Protocol does not define the relationship between a dominant and submissive
Protocol does not define the relationship between friends
Protocol is not definitions of behavior a dominant has proscribed for a
Protocol is not a way for dominants to feel superior
Protocol is not a way for submissives to feel subservient
Protocol does not mandate that everyone must *respect* each other
Protocol is not just between a dominant and submissive
Protocol is not a rigid adherence to the rules
Protocol does not define the way people play

What protocol is:
Protocol is what is deemed by a group of individuals as acceptable behavior
within their circle. This will vary from group to group. If you are unsure. ASK!
Protocol is mostly the basic manners your mother taught you.


2/6/2013 7:38:54 PM


          A way of whoring 

             yourself out

1/18/2013 12:08:12 AM

Well it has been awhile again. I keep leaving this site and coming back. Nothing changes here.

I am no longer interested in the lifestyle. I have learned the hard way that even though people say they aren't the jealous type or that they are poly usually means the opposite.

Most of my toys are going in the trash and getting rid of most of the rest. No need for them any more.



Walks away

10/2/2012 8:11:32 PM

Wow, looking at my last entry, I didn't realize how long it has been since I have been on here and .

My apologies to my friends and to others on here for disappearing. Between the knee surgery and having a lot of physical therapy, having issues with it and then losing my Mother, it has been a long long haul.

I am still trying to heal from the loss of her,but I am much better and think I am ready to play again and enjoy life.


What have I missed?

6/14/2012 3:07:35 AM

I am in NuttyCee's, vulcan!

6/14/2012 2:53:22 AM

YAY surgery is over and time to heal and have some real fun!

Welcome back BiDomWoman and thanx for Oping for me

6/12/2012 7:16:41 PM

Well, tomorrow is the day. no play for awhile. Nothing..

Having knees surgery again sucks but has to be done. Well here is to tomorrow and hopefully I come out better than the last time lol.

6/5/2012 9:47:23 PM

Truck Stop Hussy Slut

On slanted heels, well worn,barely making out the word 'Slut' on them, I watched as she walked across the parking lot. She was looking hot for being well used and worn out from working the truckers for endless hours of the day and night.

Knocking one door after another,quoting her price of one dollar for a blow job. I hear laughter coming over the cb as truckers are talking about her. Laughing and chuckling about what she has had to tell each one of them.

She is trying her hardest not to cry, face beet red, almost in tears as she walks by. Struggling in the heels she was made to wear out on this hot and sultry night.

One after another, truck door after truck door, with fits of laughter she is turned down.

I feel sorry for the gal. It doesn't seem like something she wants to do. I pick up my microphone to my cb, telling the guys to give her a break. Soon truckers are opening their doors inviting her in.

I sit up high in my seat as I watch her go from truck to truck. Soon she has a fist full of money and a smile on her face. Sitting there curious, I roll down my window and whistle for her to come over.

Timidly she walks over and looks up at me. I ask her what she is doing about in a place like this grungy, dirty truck stop parking lot.

With a nod of her head, and a timid grin, she asks if she can join me, for it is a long story and she would like to rest her feet.

I gesture towards the passenger door and tell her to climb in.

Gratefully she climbs up and takes a seat. With a long drawn out sigh, she lets the words flow from her red luscious lips …

A few months ago I was in a chat room. It was an adult site and I wasn't really sure what I was looking for.

There was a woman in there and she was new to that chat room but not the site itself.

I was talking to a man in there and he was giving me a tough time about going to the doctor.

Out of nowhere, this woman joined the conversation. She took control by a few simple words and had me promising her that I would go the very next day.

In the mean time, I sat there hour after hour chatting with her. Finding myself drawn to her more and more as we talked. Her laughter was contagious and she had me giggling constantly. She wasn't what I was expecting from a Domme.

I look at her puzzled at the word Domme. She smiles at me, radiantly in her obvious love for this woman and stops to explain that the woman was a female dominant and she was in the bdsm lifestyle just as she was.

From the moment I met her, I wanted to learn more about her. This went on day after day. Slowly I found myself enslaved with her words and the way she handled herself.

Continuing with her story, she explains that she is what they call a brat. Though she also professed to be a good little Catholic girl. As she stated being a Catholic girl, her face turns beet red and it goes down into her neckline.

Soon she and I had started building a D/s relationship that suited us both. There were many things that she has had me do. I find though, that when I hear her voice of think of her, I don't want to disobey. I submit freely to her.

From time to time, I didn't like how evil her mind works. I love every minute of it,don't get me wrong.

So a few months ago,as usual I am being my bratty self and my Mistress comes up with this evil idea of sending me to a truck stop. At the truck stop, I must walk around and wait for men to approach me or knock on doors of the trucks. Each contact I make, I have to ask them to let me give them a blow job for one dollar each. In doing so, I must earn a total of thirty dollars before I can return home.

With that said, I have been here since the beginning of dawn and have been trying so hard to over come my fear and embarrassment of my situation.

You see, I also identify with being a slut, but only if I am told to do things that make me slutty.

So I have been here all day and now it is midnight and my task she set before me is done. I know in my heart I made her proud and that she will be happy with me. For I crave her appreciation of a job well done.

Smiling timidly, she asks me if I want one to go for free....

6/2/2012 5:06:59 PM

I was just on another site and it couldn't have been said any better than this:

When approaching a Mistress for the first time, your opening comments are your first impression and if you blow it, don't expect a reply. I can't speak for other Dommes but can I tell you that I do not enjoy reading "Hello Mistress, can I be your Sub" over and over from time wasters.

I realize that many of you are just here (and everywhere) to get attention wherever you can, that just getting a reply is enough to make your little dick happy. However, if you are even remotely serious about finding the One, the Mistress that fits you perfectly, try to think before you speak.

Begin with a very short but descriptive bio of yourself, what you're searching for, and ask politely if she is interested in a conversation with you.

Do not sent a picture unless she asks.

If you are asked what you like, do not reply "to be dominated". That can mean 100's of different things. If you can't take the time to be descriptive in your questions and answer, don't expect me or anyone else to take the time to reply

5/30/2012 12:23:04 AM

To everyone that has been wondering what happened to my room:

I cannot get onto mIRc. I have a paid subscription to it but it is telling me I have to register again. Sorry I am not paying for it again.

I am looking for a new room to hang out in, but for now you will just have to email me here.

If however, there is someone that is willing to help keep the room open, I would appreciate an email as well. You must have mIRc and able to keep computer on 24/7.



4/12/2012 2:49:16 PM

is a well written site and is full of useful information for FREE!

4/12/2012 2:45:59 PM

Hmmm some scams are still around...

4/11/2012 9:53:01 PM

I have to write this down because it is funny but yet so scary. I just made up a fake profile to torment my girl with and in less than twenty minutes I had 5 Doms contact me and one insisted I keep everything private.

Less than 20 minutes on this site, no picture,nothing written. The only thing that was on there was looking for friends.

Which leads me to the rest.

IF I am only here as a joke, I feel for the women that are submissive on here. The guys come out of the woodwork in nothing flat. It's like they smell fresh meat or something.

That doesn't speak highly of the people here nor the site....

Think about it ladies and gentlemen.

3/10/2012 11:15:15 AM

Well, I am having no luck as of yet in finding someone local that wants to be room mates. I hate that I may have to compromise myself and find a vanilla person to share my living space.

I wish there was someone that is at least lifestyle friendly or aware so I wouldn't have to hide my toys and keep things behind the bedroom door.

~Sighs~ Well I will have to keep searching...

2/19/2012 9:58:27 PM

Interesting profile. Self explanatory about the relationship status,if it were true. Another lesson learned in the ways of collarme players.





2/7/2012 7:18:49 AM

Well,another day and another entry.

I have found all that I seek,unless there is a local girl out there that is willing to get to know each other and meet.

Otherwise, I am free to chat in NuttyCee'sPlayPen.

2/2/2012 12:23:40 AM

Long night ahead of me. In chat room trying to keep it going and trying to make it a place where people feel free to get to know each other,have a good time, meet people on here and possible real life. Scene if that is your thing,chat if it's not.  I would like it to be a bit different than most chat rooms on here.


A place for people to remember they are people first and foremost. A place to learn, and not be afraid of asking questions. A place to be free to be yourself and talk about your kink.

But above all else....No games, No drama, just a place to be....

2/1/2012 4:03:13 PM

Well, today I have learned some new things about chat rooms and the running of them. It is work and hard work at that. You go without sleep. Have to make hard choices on some things that you don't want too. And just be a bitch at times, ok more so than usual.

lmao, I can't wait to see how I do at it!

1/27/2012 3:05:57 PM

“I just found out that the fetish clothing store <a href=””></a> is stealing images from other designers, and is using corrupt business practices.  Nobody should buy items from them - you are likely to lose your money”

1/26/2012 11:57:40 AM

LMAO I try to find humor in the most unlikely places and today I have not only done that but made a new phone friend lol.

Let me explain...

This morning I was trying to reach a slave that is local to me. He had called my cell phone so I was going through my numbers that I didn't recognize and found the first one, (later finding this out). A man's voice answered so I asked for who I was calling for. This man that answered proceeded to not only tell me who I was looking for was not at that number, but proceeded to flip be shit.

Now being who I am, I flipped it right back lol. Thus the call went,until he asked if I was married,(not married btw) lol. I told him no and he proceeded to ask me if I knew how to cook pork chops with out burning them and mashed potatoes and gravy,(home-made). Of course I do being one of the simpler things I know how to cook.

Thus in turn, came into play if he was single and ages. Not only that, he wants a woman to drink a beer with him now and then. Well that leaves me out, I don't drink beer lol.

But then he explains that he would look better to me if I was drunk. LMAO the entire time of this conversation, I inform him that he would look good to me over coffee.

Now this is before I found out he is in his 70's lol and I am only 48. But I keep my word and I have a standing date with a much older gentleman and I can't wait.

Now how funny is that? (falls over laughing)

1/26/2012 11:47:07 AM

Wow back only a few days and have met some wonderful people on here already. Granted not in real life yet, but I do hope so in the future.

Whoregirl gave me a such a warm welcome into a chat room I just happened upon. 

Then I was introduced to joyofpain, another lovely young woman. 

Then of all things, I not only met another lovely young woman by the name of soulawakening but also a man that is called humblebard. 

Humblebard is such a sweet sounding man on the phone and real pleasure to chat with. I find myself drawn to him more and more. He is of a quiet nature it seems and a natural submissive. I enjoy hearing him blush and smile through his voice. It will be a provocativeness time spent with him this Summer. I am looking forward to getting to know him better and see where this leads. IF only friendship, what a person to be friends with! But then again, that is my opinion.

1/19/2012 3:29:06 AM

Wow I cannot believe it has been really this long since I have put any thing here!

It's a bad winter here,though there are places that it is worse, I miss being able to travel back and forth to Spokane and Couer d' Alane.

Not being able to get out and travel really slows the pace for play and every thing else for that matter.

I have some one with in 40 minutes that I adore,but with the pass being the way it is,I won't have him travel to me and I won't travel either. It's not good,but I know we are both safe this way. I miss him and can't wait till this snow stops and the roads clear up again.

I have another one that lives far away and wishes to play every day if he could but with the distance and of course the economy,that isn't feasible either. I can't wait though until he can come visit. I am hoping if all goes well,I will be able to travel to him as well.

Come on Summer! LOL

Not much else going on here, lifestyle on hold, every thing on hold for now,dam snow. LOL

Living in such a small town really does hurt a social life.

Enough said this time. Drop me an email and I will chat with you.

Peace Out

6/15/2011 8:02:10 AM

Well,after pondering an issue that has been bothering me for a few months now,I have come to a decision.

I used to believe that when a slave or sub that is collared by me wished to end the relationship if they wanted to,though I refused to ask for a collar back. I am now at the point that I find I must do just that.

I have realized that I have had no desire to work with him for months.

It has been bothering me and I had to search within myself to find the answer. Now I know why.

We are just too different. Our personalities clash and won't survive a relationship. I am in a situation that isn't good for either of us,but with him not having a place to go or the means to do so,here he stays.

I will wish him the best when he leaves,but leave he shall. I cannot handle the situation much longer and hope he finds his way to where he needs to be.

6/15/2011 7:52:39 AM

6/14/2011 4:38:23 PM




6/1/2011 6:07:49 PM

^5 petmeDaddy 

You rock! Love the last entry!!!

5/30/2011 10:34:25 PM

Deep Within

Here within

Deep inside me

Lays latent fires,smoldering

wait,wanting and needing you

Down this path I wish you to follow

Finding that deep within all your desires

All that lies there within your dreams

wanting only to feel free at last

aching to be held and led

towards me and mine

the ones you seek

are with reach

follow us


5/30/2011 5:12:40 PM


I go looking at profiles for several reasons. Don't automatically take it for anything that what it is. Viewing!

If I have searched for your profile it is because I am a room op on here and have to as part of my responsibilities.

If it pops up that I have viewed you  that is why,or that I have noticed you viewing me. Another thing that happens alot is that your profile may be the one that pops up when I sign in.

If I send you a message saying, nice pic,it is because I think it is. 

I have no hidden agenda for anything I do on here but to chat and to meet like minded people. 

What I search for is listed on my profile. I do not go into rooms stating what I am seeking,that is why my profile is for.

I hope this clarifies some of the questions I have gotten today in emails.

Thank you for taking to time to ready this.

Have a nice day.


5/28/2011 7:20:39 PM

Bruise me under the rainfall


written with bruiseme and rainefall in mind.both are great boys that join me in chat often.


Not long after I fell asleep, did a nasty noise in the night wake me. Peering around in the darkness I see a dark hovering figure near my bedroom door.Gasping with fright, I lay there paralyzed,huddling under the blankets,afraid for my life!My ears I believe are deceiving me for I hear a giggle of delight come from under neath the cloak.

Slowly dropping the blanket from my eyes,I see the hood of her cloak thrown back and much to my surprise,it is my Mistress, with her loving eyes.

With a laugh,she tosses her hair. Arm raised and hand out,a finger beckoning me to her, I do what I do best,when that stance is present.

I fall out of bed and onto the floor. Kneeling down,head to the floor,I quiver with excitement,waiting for her command.

Come my boy,for we have far to go. Night is demanding and I want so much more.”

I wander what,on this night, what it will bring, Never have I seen my Mistress in such a state.

Dressing quickly as she demanded. I follow her out of my room and out the door.On her bike is her toy box in it's usual place, and then I smile,for it is a pleasant sight.Onto the bike she goes,as do I, holding tightly for I wish to survive.

With glee,as always,she revs the motor and off through the night,we do wander.

Hiding my head behind her back,daring only a glance at long last,I smile with anticipation for the falls I do see. In the distance,coming closer,I hear the mighty roar of the water falling deep down within the lake bed that never ends.

Slowly the bike comes to a halt,off I jump. With toy bag in hand I follow as closely as I can.

Losing sight of her,I smile for we have been here before. There around the bend is the place she much adores.

Coming into sight, I see that she has been waiting for me. Cloak thrown on a boulder,sitting back with a smoke,she smiles evilly at me.

Seeing her with That type of smile sends shivers down my spine. I no longer walk with haste,but hesitant I do become. That smile is a new one on me and though I long to know why, I am not sure it would be wise.

Presenting her with her toy bag,I slowly back away. Knowing my Mistress, I know she can't be in the mind set that I so desire. Relaxing somewhat,knowing her better,I smile with pleasure knowing I am hers.

Walking to me,she tosses my clothes to the side. Nodding with satisfaction, she leads me to the tree.

Cock forward,against the tree,this is where I want to bind you to me.”

Puzzled at her words,I do as she says. Though this is not like her, I like to keep her pleased, to the tree I go with quivering knees,for this is all new to me.

Binding my hands around the bark,hugging thee tree to my chest,my legs bound,spread apart,waiting her pleasure,I stand there thus.

Standing to where I might see, she opens her toy box. Unto my surprise,not what I expected, toys of pain are there instead of the ones for pleasure.

Something tells me I am fine, though I ponder what made her want to cross this line. Ages ago,I have sent silent pleas to be her pain slut and slowly bled.

Though the floggers are familiar the cane is not. Nor is the whip made with leather and wrought. The handle of iron gleams in the night,and I knowing full well I will feel it's delight.

With a shiver and a smile, I peer with glee,my Mistress is making a new joy for her and me.

Feeling her caress,I steadfastly stand, awaiting the flogger and what is at hand.

With one mighty swoop, I feel the flogging begin. Stroke after stroke I feel them fall,like rain upon my skin and a smile on my lips,I still await what is to come.

With steady measure and a ready pace,the welts I feel coming. To the top they rise,but more than anything with great surprise,I feel the heat after all this time.

The heat that I have craved for so long, is finally at hand and I only crave more.

My Mistress is quite the gem,for I did not know, that she has been practicing for what I have in store.

With a whistling sound,I hear the crack of the whip,as she flicks it to test it's bite. Bite it does with the first stroke on my back, making me jump,for it has been so very long.

With and evil smile and a gleam to her skin,( I am sure of this), she lets them fly one onto the other. Possessed by a new strength and vigor, she swings with glee, finally the passion she has withheld from me.

Bruises arise and I scream for more,”Bruise me Mistress,for you I adore!” And with my screams she gave head to all the passion and pain she has withheld.

Finally,knowing no more could I stand,she ceases her onslaught and unties me,falling to the ground.Cuddling together,kisses for each other,we smile in the darkness,for once again we have found one another.

Laying there exhausted, I hold her close, as the rain does fall so does my desire. I have found what I seek and I see she does too. With gentle hands, I cradle her close and enjoy this moment,one of many,the most.



5/27/2011 2:42:49 PM


To those who don't know me,here is a sample of what the hell tickles My funny bone. This was stolen,(Yes I said stolen),from  a group post I belong to on .

Dear Men of Craigslist,

Look, I know you men have it difficult. Women are just about impossible to understand, much less please. In a post-feminist society, you never know exactly what you should be doing. Women are bloody picky, I know we are. It can be scary, too, when women freak out about what appear to be benign issues. And men who do their best to be respectful, female-positive humans, I salute you, I do.

But please, please just fuck me already. Honestly, I appreciate your thoughtfulness. I like that you want to take things slow. I can totally get behind the idea of emotional connection, but dearjesusinheaven, FUCK ME. We've done dinner and drinks. We've gone dancing. We've cuddled and watched a movie. I'm wearing a low cut shirt and you've been staring at my breasts all night. Goodgodalmighty, get to it and fuck me.

When we get hot and heavy, please take charge. Please, please fuck me. Trust me, I'm not going to just lie still - I'll get involved. But don't make me force your hand into my panties. That makes me feel like a rapist. We've been kissing for a half hour and your hand keeps grazing my ass. That's nice, but it's time to move forward. Get on top of me. Don't make me get on top right out of the gate and start bobbing up and down on your cock like I'm practicing some crazy new aerobic yoga because YOU won't go down on me. Roll on top and start dry humping like a good boy should. Don't gently suck my nipples and then pull back when I moan with pleasure. You being coy is totally not what I want. It's not what WE want.

OK, I know it's scary. There are lots of women out there who make fucking really difficult. So, I have compiled some handy tips. Don't think of this as complaining, or as schadenfreude for the Andrea Dworkins of the world. Just some simple tips, for timid men who have forgotten what it means to fuck like men:

1. Taking charge is not bad. Oh, there will be some women who feel that you are pushy. If you are making out with a woman, and she starts to push back, ask nicely if things are moving too fast. If she says yes, say something like "I'm sorry - you just look so fucking delicious. I'll go slower." Otherwise, skillfully move forward. If you start kissing a woman, and she responds well, and before long, you're both on the floor with her skirt pushed up, and you on top of her, it's not the time to roll onto your back and start awkwardly stroking the top of her head. Seriously, grow a goddamn pair. YOU'RE the man. Act like one.

2. Ohmyfuckinggod, please learn to respect the clit. It's different for every woman, so ask what she likes. Do not, I repeat, do not just wiggle your fingers around her pussy like you're trying to tickle her. Do not drum your fingertips against her vulva like you are impatiently waiting at the Sears Tire Center for your receipt. Do not push the clit like it is a doorbell at some house that you need to get inside of. Start by using all four fingers with firm yet gentle pressure against the outside of her pussy. Do not charge in with a single finger and start jabbing at things. And if you really don't know what to do, ask her. Just ask. "How do you like it?". It's a simple question, and most women will answer straight out. If she's being all coy, ask "Do you like pressure? Is it sensitive?" The clitoris is a varied item, indeed. Treat each one as though you have never encountered one before. Forget everything that your last partner liked.

3. Most women like to be fucked, and fucked well. Yes, there are women out there who want to "make love" every time - sweet, gentle, rocking love with lots of eye contact and loving kisses. Those women are not the majority. The majority like to be pounded. The majority like to have their hair pulled. The majority like a good, solid jackhammering. When a woman is bucking wildly against you, it's not because she wants you to pull back and slowly swirl your cock around her vagina like you're mixing a cake batter up there. It's because she wants you to hold down her arms, or grab her hips, or push her legs above her head, and fuck her harder. Don't be too afraid of what this means as far as gender equality goes - I am a raging feminist bitch, but I still want to be penetrated like you are planning on fucking my throat from the inside out.

4. A little roughness is nice. Do not pretend that you had no idea that some women like their hair pulled. Do not act shocked if she wants you to spank her ("Really? Spanking? Won't it hurt?" - yes, it does. That's the fucking point). We know you've read Stuff and Maxim, and that's all those laddie mags talk about in their "How to Please Her" sections. Start with light, full handed smacks to the area of her ass that she sits on. Judge her response and continue on from there. You don't have to bend her over one knee and tell her she's a naughty girl and that Daddy's going to punish her; save that for the fifth date. Women are less delicate than you think, so don't worry about breaking her hip.

5. It's OK for you to make noise. Otherwise, we feel like we are fucking a ninja. Unless you actually are a ninja, and have sneaked into our rooms with vibrating nanuchaku and zippered black pajamas, please, please make some noise. If you're banging a woman, and she's crying out and saying your name and moaning, and you can't even manage a grunt, she's going to feel like an idiot. You don't have to make the sounds she is making, but do SOMETHING. You know how when you are watching porn, and the girl does something great to the guy and the guy kind of goes "Ah!", half grunt, half yell? That's HOT. Do that. Whisper our name (assuming you know it) gruffly. Groan against her neck when you're in missionary position. You don't have to grunt like a mountain gorilla, but if you are totally mute, she's going to get worried.

6. Most women like dirty talk, in addition to the grunting. If you'd like to get some dirty talk going, ask her if she likes the way you fuck her. If she responds well, continue with something like, "I love fucking you. God, you look so fucking hot." Is she still moaning in response? "Your tits are so beautiful." Does that work? If she doesn't respond well to the term "tits", you might have to stop there. If she keep moaning or responding, pass Go and collect $200. Try the following:

"Oh, god. Your pussy is SO tight."
"You're so wet - are you wet because you like the feel of my cock ramming you?"
"I think I'm going to come inside you. I'm going to fill up your little cunt." It doesn't matter that you're wearing a condom; we LOVE hearing this.

If all of those work, you can then progress to things like "sexy little bitch" and "dirty whore". Tread carefully, but please, tread. Do not tiptoe. Do not sit down. Charge.

6. You're not obligated to eat a woman out. In return, she's not obligated to choke on your dick. Don't skip one and expect the other. If you do eat a woman out, the only comment you should make about her pussy is how nice it is. The length of her labia minora, the color of her interior, her waxing job or full bush - you are not John Madden. No time for color commentary.

7. Do not bitch about condoms. Oh, we hate them. Trust us. They hurt us more than they hurt you. But we don't want to be preggers, and you don't want to catch anything, right? Don't whine about condom sex. Do not explain that you can't come with one on. LEARN to come with one on, or if not, help us figure out what to do with you once we're satisfied and it's time for you to let loose your load.

8. We really like it when you come. It's called a money shot for a reason. Watching semen shoot out of you is one of the most gratifying things EVER. However, do not assume that she wants you to jack it off onto her face. She might, but don't assume. Seeing and/or feeling you come is rewarding for us, so there's no need to deprive us of it, but please do consult us before unleashing. "I think I'm going to come - how do you like it?" is a fair question that shouldn't rob you of your testicles.

In recent memory, I've been fucked by a very aggressive, manly guy, and I've been... well, fucked is the wrong term here. I've been penetrated by a total and utter wuss. Who am I going to run back to when I'm ready for my fill? Manly McHardon, that's who. ----------------------------------------------------

New point of clarification - some people have brought up some really great issues in response to this post, so let me say this: I don't mean to imply that all women like to be treated like whores. I do mean to say that most women I know have told me that they like sex rougher than most men give it to them. Rough does NOT equal chains and bondage. And this applies to the bedroom only, and does not mean that she wants you to choose her dinner for her, or treat her like less of a person. *Some women have said that they don't like it rough and what the hell am I thinking? Well, girls, you're in the minority. HOWEVER, all women need to remember that, in addition to be straight forward about your sexual desires, you need to be straight forward about your sexual limits. Don't be afraid to ask for more, but when something feels wrong, say so. Don't ever do something you don't want to do in silence and then blame the guy. Silence is dangerous.

5/24/2011 6:29:03 AM

Yesterday was a remarkable day.

 His slate was clean and waiting to be written upon. The flesh of him was calling for the mark of a toy or two. Begging to be written upon in only the way I know how. Wanting and needing it, he gave to me the slate on which I will write upon, mold and mark as I desire. And yesterday was just the beginning...

5/19/2011 8:07:01 AM

This is a following email I happen to wake up to early this morning. I am going to answer it here as an example on how NOT to give advice and to ask first before offering any. This is written as in My case for I do NOT know what others are like.

Change your nutrition to EXCLUDE flour or anything made with flour, sugar, processed foods and bad fats. Then eat few meals a day. Bad knees are due to being obese. No secret in that. Then take a scale and weigh yourself once a month and for every pound you lose you go buy a bag of sand and weigh the sand and pick up the bag every day to remind you of what you used to carry

Right off this person assumes that the diet I have is at fault. Not true. I do NOT eat alot of high starches. Nor do I eat anything with a lot of additives. I cannot do so for I have other health issues as well,(Acid Reflux). This alone cuts down on what I can eat and tolerate and will stay down all it's own. Also here is another fact this person didn't bother to find out, I prefer vegetables and fruit and cheese before any thing else, thus what I eat most of the time, giving into eating meat when it my body tells me I need it and then only sparing. I don't eat alot of pastas or breads,they won't stay down now either.
Then this person goes on to tell me that I have bad needs because I am obese. Wrong again! I have bad knees due to an accident at work that has left me disabled,(complete knee replacement needed here). I worked 12 hours a day 6-7 days a week and was from the old school, you worked injured or not. I worked that day until i literally could NOT walk, so now tell me when I was at 110#'s of solid muscle at 5'1 how obese I was!
Then there is the sand bags LOL, it would work  IF I didn't have a dam weight limit on me on how much I am allowed to do per doctor's orders.
And as for the reminder of what I used to be and what is, is here everyday to remind me.
Thank you for the interest but as I said be wary of giving advice when all the facts aren't in...

And to make matters worse here is his reply: 

Not interested. I was just trying to help you and if you are so critical to good advise then I feel for you.  I know what you are dealing with 


LOL then you hide your profile?What else are you hiding? I have the email and his name if it is needed,Ladies. 


5/10/2011 8:21:47 AM

I am honestly appalled at some of the people on here even after all this time. I was just contacted by someone and the same photo I have come across numerous times on here listed as their profile picture though the names are all different.

Now that makes me wonder if they think that a. I am stupid b. it is the same person creating different accounts c. they are picture pirates d. a combination of a  and c.

People like that need to take a good look at themselves and ask themselves if they are proud of themselves for being such annoying creatures that are just taking up cyber space and wasting my time.

4/30/2011 8:47:34 PM
Female Submissive, 32,   Idaho



4/30/2011 7:21:52 PM

My personal wish list:



Such lovely toys, I can't wait to buy them all and use them frequently!

4/22/2011 5:13:11 AM

This is what our President it doing now to Us. Please sign the petition and pass on the link to all you know that are A Registered Voter:

Simplicity is the result of being honest in all things.
You don't have to remember what you have told one person to the next. Nor hang your head in shame when you are caught. 
I would rather have my feeling hurt than have found that I have been lied to or misled.
If for some reason there is something you don't want to discuss right off,then please say so. But do expect me to ask you again to explain once we get to know each other better.










4/22/2011 5:04:39 AM

Well it has been awhile and I did not realize this has yet to be updated.

Fortunately for good friends in the lifestyle, I am back home and have been for a few months.

Thank You for the ones that helped and offered moral support. I will never forget the ones that cared.

1/12/2011 12:57:50 PM

Well life sends you for a spin in an instant. Yesterday there was a roof over my head and with one phone call today, I have nothing...

I am stranded in Dale,Indiana and live in Olympia,Washington. There is only a Shell Station and a Denny's close by. There is nothing else for miles.

Today I have a roof over my head,but tomorrow at 10 am I will be considered homeless. I used all the money I had to get a motel room for me and my slave and our dogs and no end in sight.

I can't get a rental truck,over $1000 there. I can't seem to pin any one down on a rental car pricing,which doesn't matter really, for I don't have the money for that either

Life sends you into a spin in an instant and I am living proof of that. Never did I think I would be homeless,yet here I am,homeless.

And the sad part is,I have a place to live in Washington but not here in Indiana nor a way of getting there.

I wish the best for everyone and may they never ever have to go through this.

12/18/2010 8:08:11 AM
                                           The Yes Man/Just Say No

Many years ago there was a term used. It was 'The yes Man'. 

 Though we all know it also as the brown-noser, suck-up or what other term you like to use in it's place. It is a term referring to the one guy/gal in that always agrees. It doesn't matter that they seriously believe as the other person does as long as it gets them where they want to be. 

 There it, (I believe), it bled into society. There seems to be a lack of back bone in many these days to say NO to anyone or anything. 

No means NO. Period. It. doesn't have to be shouted to mean the same thing. It doesn't have to be said in a rude manner with an attitude either. Just say No.

 I am writing this to get a point across. Though it may seem like rambling,but here is the point to be made... 

 I have read alot of posts about this/that demanding person, stalker, ex bf/gf, what have you. This is my reasoning behind this post. 

When someone demands/asks you to do something and you don't want to or don't feel safe, just say NO.

 If you don't have the time nor the inclination to do a friend a favor,just say NO. 

If you aren't interested in someone when they approach you,just say NO. Sure,it might hit a nerve, hurt someone's feelings,still just say NO. 

Why waste time and energy on a situation that you don't want to be in nor feel comfortable with? 

I have yet to figure that one out since the obvious solution would be to just say NO.

 Make sense?

12/7/2010 11:43:43 AM

I have a special interest in truck driving,therefore this posting. My slave is a truck driver and I also have grown up with my father being one and friends being truck drivers as well. I do know also that there are many on here that is truck drivers as well. 

There are many things that most people are not aware of. Though it is a rarity,there are the bad side of truck drivers as well. There is a link at the end of my posting that will you allow you to follow more closely what is here. Though it does happen, the bad that is,it is a rarity and NOT to reflect on ALL truck drivers.

1. A car passes and then quickly cuts in front them, especially in construction zones.

"The truck driver is trying to maintain a safe following distance, and has left a gap between his rig and the vehicle in front of it," says Don Osterberg, senior vice president of safety, security and training for Schneider National of Green Bay, Wis., one of the nation's largest trucking companies. "Cars see the gap and jump into the space because they don't want to be behind the truck. Consequently, the big rig has to slow down to create the gap again, only to see it filled by the next car. Now he's not traveling at a steady speed or a safe distance. Rear-end collisions are a common accident, especially in construction zones." Important facts to know: It takes an average passenger car traveling 55 mph 130 to 140 feet to stop. A loaded truck traveling at the same speed may take more than 400 feet to stop.



2. Car drivers aren't focusing on the road.
"Truck drivers see the effects of distracted driving all the time," Osterberg says. "Cars are weaving or don't maintain a steady speed because the driver is texting, eating, applying makeup or talking on a phone. Truck drivers are concerned with lane-keeping, and when a truck has to back off the throttle for a car that slows down, it loses momentum and then has to accelerate back up to speed, which wastes fuel."

3. Cars tailgate or draft their rigs to save fuel.
"There are some car drivers who are convinced that if they follow a truck closely enough, they will get better fuel mileage," Osterberg says. That's a mistake. The area right behind an 18-wheeler is just one of the blind spots that truckers call "no-drive zones." You want to steer clear of these areas, which include the space behind the truck and areas to the left and right of its cab, which may not be covered by the mirrors. "If you cannot see the driver's mirrors, he cannot see you," Osterberg says. If truck drivers can't see you, they can easily roll over you by accident.

4. A car traps them in the fast lane.
This happens when a truck moves to the left to accommodate merging traffic, for example, and then can't get back into the right lane because cars keep passing the slower-moving 18-wheeler on the right. Not only does this back up traffic behind the trailer, it also frustrates the trucker. Want to be a hero? Slow down in the right lane and give the trucker room to move over in front of you. You can signal that you are giving him the lane by quickly flashing your headlights, or blinking them off and on. After he completes the lane change, the truck driver will often blink the trailer taillights a few times, a signal that means, "Thanks for paying attention."

5. Cars prevent smooth merging.
A truck in the right lane often cannot move to the left for merging traffic at a highway on-ramp because another vehicle is already occupying the left lane. In this case, the truck either needs to speed up, which might not be possible, or slow down, which might not be safe if there is traffic directly behind. Here's another opportunity for car drivers to be aware. If you are about to pass a truck and you see that traffic is coming down the on-ramp, yield the left lane to the big rig and flash your lights to let the driver know the lane is clear. Give the truck a chance to be courteous and ensure a safe merge.

All this information and more can be found at>1=22013.  This is where I found this particular article.

11/14/2010 6:12:11 PM






11/4/2010 6:34:31 PM

A prime example of the watch for so you are not taken to the cleaners.

This is the type of person that I hear so many men complain about. Not even a ProDomme, just someone that wants nothing but money from you. No offer of consideration or ownership. She doesn't want to know who you are or what you like. Nor does she care if you are in good health or not.

With this one,you don't need experience, just the willingness to hand over every thing you own..

That my friends is NOT how this lifestyle works..




Im a spoiled brat & YOUR PRINCESS! I love being the center of attention, I'm narcissistic, greedy, controlling, and demanding...  and I love being in total control of pathetic losers like YOU! I ALWAYS get what I want and if you aren't going to give it to me, then DO NOT FUCKING BOTHER ME!

...Now, if you are realizing how perfect I am and that you desperately want nothing more than to worship me, good maybe your not as fucking retarded as I thought you were (although you probably are) and I might have a place for you , at my feet of course.


Go Figure...

10/26/2010 6:02:49 AM

LMAO I finaly figured out I am only as fake as you want me to be...

10/23/2010 9:06:44 AM

Here is one for you....

I don't want sex from you. I don't want your gifts. 

What I do want is for you to be honest. Can you effectively communicate with me? Do you find that laughter is a great way to relax? Do you come to me offering only yourself and your willingness to submit? Do you long for an actual Long Term Relationship with me? No more searching for a Domme,no more wondering where your place is,is this what you seek?

These questions and more should be running through your mind before approaching me.

10/10/2010 10:20:44 PM
It hurts to have your heart ripped out...

10/6/2010 6:34:48 PM
Wipe your mouth,there is some bullshit on your lips..

10/4/2010 7:01:52 PM will laugh till you cry, I know I did! All hair removal methods have tricked us with their promises of easy, painless removal - The Epilady, scissors, razors, Nair and now...the wax. My night began as any other normal weekday night. Come home fix dinner, played with the kids. I then had the thought that would ring painfully in my mind for the next few hours: Maybe I should pull the wax out of the medicine cabinet. So I headed to the site of my demise; the bathroom. It was one of those cold wax kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you just rub the strips together in your hand and then they get warm and you peel them apart press it to your leg (or wherever else) and hair comes right off. No muss, no fuss. How hard can it be? I mean I'm no girly, girl but I am mechanically inclined enough that I can figure it out. YA THINK!!! So I pull one of the thin strips out. Its two strips facing each other stuck together. Instead of rubbing them together, I get out the hair dryer and heat it to 1000 degrees. Cold wax my rear end (Oh how this phrase haunts me!) I lay the strip across my thigh. Hold the skin around it tight and pull. OK so it wasn't the best feeling, but it wasn't too bad. I can do this! Hair removal no longer eludes me! I am She-ra, fighter of all wayward body hair and smooth skin extraordinaire. With my next wax strip I move north. After checking on the kids I sneak back into the bathroom, for the ultimate hair fighting championship. I drop my panties and place one foot on the toilet. Using the same procedure I apply the strip across the right side of bikini line, covering the right half of my vagina and stretching down to the inside of my butt cheek (Yes, it was a long strip) I inhale deeply and brace myself. RRRRIIIPP P!!!! I'm blind!!! Blinded from pain!!!!....OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! Vision returning, I notice that I've only managed to pull off half of the strip. S&%T*&#@!!!! Another deep breath and RRIIPP. Everything is swirly and spotted. Do I hear crashing drums??? OK, back to normal. I want to see my trophy - a wax covered strip with my hairy pelt, that has caused me so much pain, sticking to it. I want to revel in the glory that is my triumph over body hair. I hold up the strip! There's no hair on it. Where is the hair? WHERE IS THE WAX??? Slowly I ease my head down, foot still perched on the toilet. I see the hair. The hair that should be on the strip. I touch. I am touching wax. S&%T*&#@! I run my fingers over the most sensitive part of my body, which is now covered in cold wax and matted hair. Then I make the next BIG mistake, remember my foot is still propped up on the toilet. I know I need to do something. So I put my foot down. NOOOOO!!!!!!!! I hear the slamming of the cell door. Vagina? Sealed shut. Butt?? Sealed shut. I penguin walk around the bathroom trying to figure out what to do and think to myself "Please don't let me get the urge to poop. My head may pop off" Hot water!! Hot water melts wax!! I'll run the hottest water I can stand into the bathtub, get in, immerse the wax covered bits and the wax should melt and I can gently wipe it off right??? WRONG!!!!!!! I get in the tub - the water is slightly hotter than then that used to torture prisoners of war or sterilize surgical equipment - I sit. Now, the only thing worse than having your nether businesses glued together is having them glued together and then glued to the bottom of the tub. In scalding hot water. Which, by the way, doesn't melt cold wax. So, now I'm stuck to the bottom of the tub!! God bless the man that convinced me I should have a phone in the bathroom!!!!! I call my friend thinking surely she's waxed before and has some secret of how to get me undone. It's a very good conversation starter "So, my butt and who-ha are stuck to the bottom of the tub!" There is a slight pause. She doesn't have a secret trick but does try to hide the laughter from me. She wants to know exactly where the wax is located on bottom "Are we talking cheeks or hole or what?" She's laughing out loud by now...I can hear her. I give her the rundown and she suggests I call the number on the side of the box. YEAH!!!!! Right!! I should be the joke of someone else's night. While we go through various solutions. I resort to scraping the wax off with a razor. Nothing feels better then to have your girlie goodies covered in hot wax, glued shut, stuck to the tub in super hot water and then dry shaving the sticky wax off!! By now the brain is not working, dignity has taken a major hike and I slip into glazed donut land. My friend is still talking with me and my hand reaches towards the saving grace....the lotion they give you to remove the excess wax. What do I really have to lose at this point? I rub some on and OH MY GOD!!!!!!! The scream probably woke the kids, scared the dickens out of my friend, but I really don't care. "IT WORKS!! It works!! I get a hearty congratulation from my friend and she hangs up. I successfully remove the remainder of the wax and then notice to my grief and despair..................................THE HAIR IS STILL THERE.......................ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. So I shaved it off. Heck, I'm numb at this point. Next week I'm going to try hair color...

9/30/2010 10:34:20 AM
This is what our President it doing now to Us. Please sign the petition and pass on the link to all you know that are A Registered Voter:

9/27/2010 6:35:47 PM
Simplicity is the result of being honest in all things. You don't have to remember what you have told one person to the next. Nor hang your head in shame when you are caught. I would rather have my feeling hurt than have found that I have been lied to or misled. If for some reason there is something you don't want to discuss right off,then please say so. But do expect me to ask you again to explain once we get to know each other better.

9/24/2010 10:01:03 AM
Today is a very special person's birthday. Though he is in the hospital,he still deserves some cyber spanking lol. He is in the male-submission room under the name of najt. Please feel free to spank him today. ~H~A~P~P~Y~B~I~R~T~H~D~A~Y~N~A~J~T~

9/19/2010 3:07:10 PM
Here is where you get mIRc: Once you have it downloaded, open it by left clicking the icon on your desktop by using your left mouse button and clicking twice. When that opens, you will see a box that says 'About mIRc' at the top of it. Click continue. The same box will look different then. Click continue again. This will open up another box. This one asks for your Full Name,Email Address,Nick Name and Alternative Nick. For your full name,put in your nick (DO NOT USE YOUR REAL NAME). For your email address use your own or make one up. For your Nick Name and Alternative, use the Nick you normaly use on collarme. Click Ok. Next you will see a blank white box. Type /server Hit enter. Once connected, go to the top of the box and you will see Tools. Click on that. It will give you several options, the one you want is Channels List. Click on it. A box will pop up. Click on Get List ONLY. This is will bring up the collarme rooms. IF for some reason your room is not there, type in the same box as you did the Server Command, /join #nameofroom ie /join #male-submission. Hit enter. This takes you to the room you wish to visit. Good Luck Everyone!

9/19/2010 9:44:19 AM
People often wonder what goes through my mind. Below is some examples of such, but the thing is,one is real and the others are not. Can you guess which one is? _______________________________________ Last night I thought I had a wet dream,but it was just my dog licking my face. _______________________________________ I woke up this morning and felt my face,it felt hairy. I freaked then I realized it was my dog's face I was feeling. _________________________________________ Cheap entertainment for me is watching my dog flop down on his side when I say "Night,night". Cheaper entertainment for me is when I say "Dead Dog" and he jumps up in attack mode. _______________________________________

9/6/2010 6:58:21 AM
As I said and I am true to My word,here is the email you have sent me. I am not saying you are not allowed mistakes,but the one you made was one that being an ex-dom and any submissive will tell you,it is one of the easiest ones to remember yet is also the one most broken. As for this being part of your punishment,it was meant to be a gentle,yet serious reminder that greater expectations are expected of you. For you of all people, cannot claim ignorance. No one is perfect,but perfection is expected and to not expect it from yourself leads to failure of expecting it and receiving it of others. So as follows is the email I said I would post as a learning tool for others that have yet to walk a mile in your shoes.. Miss, as You requested 3 days ago I was told to write an essay on my thoughts. Remembering the days of domination, the days I was using and ordering subs to obey my orders, to face the humiliation and to please and fulfill my desires, make me more humiliated and degraded now. How is it? It?s come the day to do the same, to obey orders to face humiliation and degradation to surrender myself at the power of a dominant. Its weird I know it. It?s the point of the lowest downgrading and having to obey to orders, which is crossing the river to the other side. Having to be at the mercy of a dominant, knowing that what I have just done is what I was demanding from others. The other issue on this is more serious. The mistake issue. What I mean with this? I am not to do mistakes. Cause being a Dom I am not allowed to the point of ignorance or accidentally not knowing what the order is. Forgiveness is not what I should have, because I should of knowing the consequences of my misbehavior. It?s so much more difficult for an ex-Dom and so much more humiliating. Now the question is: why did I put myself in such a shit. It?s what I think is difficult to explain but I will try. I am doing it so I get the completed forms in D/s. To face both sides in this. To see what is more stimulating. What is more arousing. The day I will be in the place kneeling, doing as told whether I like it or not. Following my rules .. the kneeling to be with knees apart to shoulder?s length, hand palms behind neck, eyes downcast, lips slightly opened. Never stare a Dominant at the eyes. When sit to have the knees slightly apart anytime in front of anybody. Never cross legs. Having to keep legs, balls and ass crack, smoothly shaved and fresh. The most degraded is to have the ass always lubed and ready. The other issue is the underwear. As a male I had nice boxers and I hadn?t any idea on how much humiliating is a male wearing fem?s panties. Now its been a while that I have to be in panties. I thought it would be easy but its not. Especially when I have to change in gym?s change room. Trying to be all alone when so and been fast so that I don?t get caught in them. These are my issues. I hope You did enjoyed reading them. I hope I did satisfied Your demands and I made You proud about me. I want by this to make everybody think what the D/s is and what the lust and desire can offer to us all. Thank You

9/1/2010 8:38:07 AM

8/31/2010 10:14:44 AM
Well good news every one! I have now placed donnyobeys under consideration and I couldn't be happier. I still wish to see how things go with subgirltina, though it is looking like it will be friends only. I hope not,but I am fine if that will all it will be with us.

8/26/2010 6:49:46 PM

8/24/2010 5:57:20 AM
Well after a much need break, I am ready to pursue what I have been dreaming of for the last 2-3 years. I have wanted to get a motor home and just travel and meet the ones I call friends from here and other sites. I had a motor home but I didn't care for it much as it wasn't exactly how I wanted it set up,so I sold it. I have,however, found the one that is set up to the way I like and will be discussing the purchase of it with the owner next week end. If all goes well, I will be ready for travel come Spring. Until then, I will be on here through mIRc chatting and getting to know other like minded people. Then I shall sit down a month before leaving and plan the route I wish to take. I will be looking forward to meeting everyone and hope to see you all really soon. Peace Out

8/21/2010 4:30:14 PM
I am now hanging out in male-submission where great minds hang out. Sense a humor is a must if you chat with me...

8/21/2010 1:39:23 PM
Well I am back on this site and others, though I still am not looking at this time. I am however still interested in subgirltina and donnyobeys and frogmeat. They have recently come back into my life and that is acceptable. I wish to see where these three relationships will lead. I know in my heart that it will be tough for I have extremely deep feelings for subgirltina and donnyobeys. Frogmeat is a local boy that is new to the lifestyle and I would enjoy working with him again,though it will be only temporary. I think with the training he needs and the experience he will make someone a wonderful submissive. I will be looking forward to the challenges these three offer and see where this journey leads us all. Peace Out

7/17/2010 10:21:56 AM
Found this site and am taking a look at it.

5/22/2010 2:28:33 AM

I am saying good bye for awhile. It could even be permanently.
There have been too many disappointments with people claiming something that they are not.
I just found recently that as I have always stated that Open and Honest communication is Must in this lifestyle.
These qualifications have failed over and over again.
Then there is the factor of not knowing for sure what you are seeking.
If you are online and fantasize about going real life, keep on fantasizing.
Real life is Very different than online and don't let anyone tell you different.
Real life deals with real people and with real toys. With these people comes real pleasure and real pain.
Online is just a fantasy world for those of you that can't deal with the reality of living the lifestyle as it was meant to be.
Keep your  fantasies to yourself or on here. Don't waste my time or others bringing them to us.
I am tired of the games that people play with my heart and emotions. So here ends my interest in anyone from here but for the true friends I have made.
Good luck to the ones that are truly interested in finding the one you seek and karma will get the ones that only want to play at it.

4/28/2010 2:01:30 PM


4/22/2010 8:16:54 AM
 This is what stops you from finding what you seek.
My boy just sent this to me and I told him I was posting it here.
If this is how you are going about things, Stop It!
We are all people here, we are all approachable.
Be polite and show respect. It is using good manners no matter who you are contacting that will get some one's attention.

ahh cool. You know whats funny is i've seen Your profile a few times when i think about moving to xxxxx ... i always wanted to contact You and just talk but,me being me who i am to afraid to. i never knew when i swould or anything so i never wanted to waist Your time.

4/18/2010 7:41:34 AM
Sometimes, like now, it would pay to read profiles and journals LOL.

Poor chatters that have lost their way.

4/18/2010 6:32:25 AM
To view profiles on collarme with being a mIRc user, there is two ways I know of.
One you can just type or copy and paste (by hitting?Control?C then right clicking and pasting in the name box)? the name of who you want to view through collarme's web page.
Two, you can go to the top of the mIRc box. Click on Tools. Click on Script Editor. Click on Popups.
Find where Slap around with a large trout is. Put cursor at the end of that line and hit Enter.
Copy and Paste:

CollarMe.Profile:{ url -an $+ $$1 }
Search:{ url -an $+ $$1 }

Click Ok.

Go to Nick List for the room you are in.
Right click the name
It will Be called CollarMe.Profile. Click on it and it will bring you to collarme to view the person you want to view.

4/18/2010 6:15:22 AM
All Forums >> [Introductions] >> Introduce yourself >> HI I am here to help with collarme chat

4/17/2010 8:03:19 PM
The Prince and Copper
April 17, 2010

Not long ago there was a little boy named Prince. He was a well adjusted little boy and he often made his parents proud. Fair of hair and dark skin with the palest of blue eyes, he turned heads even as a child.
The years passed quickly for Prince. He grew into a sturdy lad, muscles rippling when he walked. Trim hips to make anyone jealous.
Yet, he often didn't notice the stares he received over his natural good looks and his physique. His nature was gentle and shy and very subservient.
He grew into a man. With the needs of anyone, he decided to try his wings and fly from the nest.
Though life was good to him, he was not quite as happy as he could be. He often felt there was something missing. Not quite sure what it was, but he knew he didn't feel complete.
With so much time on his hands, finding a wonderful job in a bookstore, he proceeded to read everything he could get his hands on.
One day, feeling unsettled, he came across a book called,'The Copper.' There was a picture of a kneeling nude male on the cover. The blurb read,' Mistress the Copper offers you....', he thought,'What is a Mistress the Copper and what could she offer?'
Taking it back to the counter, he begins to read.....

My life as a Mistress began as a child. Ever time I met someone, I was trying to dominate them.

Puzzled, Prince continues reading..

It didn't matter if they were male or female, I was the boss, the One in charge,I always took control.

Prince, shivers in his chair while reading those words. He continues reading in between customers. Finishing the book, he goes to put it aside and notices on the last page, Mistress the Copper had signed it and with her phone number.
Looking up and glancing around, he ponders calling it to find out more of this 'lifestyle' he just read about and wanting more than anything to know about Her.
He decides to keep the book and took it home with him that very night.
As he walked into his home, he sets it down on the table and starts preparing dinner. Continuing on with his evening, he happens to glance over and spots the book.
Picking it up, he thumbs through the pages, rereading certain parts of it. Remembering the phone number in the back of the book, he thinks about calling it once again.
He decides not to, thinking it is just some sort of joke number.
This goes on for a week of him rereading the book and being undecided about the phone number, until he decided to go ahead and call it.
Picking up the phone,hands shaking, he slowly punches in the numbers.
The phone is ringing,he trembles with his nervousness and a silky voice says “Hello this is Copper.”
He almost drops the phone in astonishment! She is real! He thinks, what to say, umm I don't know what to say. He gulps.
The voice on the phone is saying Hello repeatedly, then he hears a click.
Dropping down onto the sofa,he feels drained.
He can't believe She is real and he blew it!

A few days go by and Prince finally gets the courage up again.
He picks up the phone, rubbing his sweaty palm down his pant leg. Dialing the number, he listens to the ringing of the phone.
“Hello, Copper here.”
“My name is Prince and I found your book in the bookstore that I work in,”Prince finally gets out.
“Hello,Prince, I suppose you wish to know more about the lifestyle I described in my book?”
“Yes, I would,please. I am not sure on what all of it means, but I feel as if I have found what has been missing in my life.”
With more discussion, Prince and Copper agree on a meeting place to sit down and talk.
For hours, they talk on. Him growing more and more interested in what he has felt he has been missing and Her for finding such a willing and apt pupil.
The days fly by, weeks pass, going into months, and the interests grows in each of the other.
Soon though, Copper decides it is time to have him used as a proper sub should be. Thus, Prince's journey begins...

4/17/2010 6:11:32 PM
Here is where you get mIRc:

Once you have it downloaded, open it by left clicking the icon on your desktop by using your left mouse button and clicking twice.
When that opens, you will see a box that says 'About mIRc' at the top of it. Click continue. The same box will look different then. Click continue again.
This will open up another box. This one asks for your Full Name,Email Address,Nick Name and Alternative Nick. For your full name,put in your nick (DO NOT USE YOUR REAL NAME). For your email address use your own or make one up. For your Nick Name and Alternative, use the Nick you normaly use on collarme. Click Ok.
Next you will see a blank white box. Type /server Hit enter.
Once connected, go to the top of the box and you will see Tools. Click on that. It will give you several options, the one you want is Channels List. Click on it. A box will pop up. Click on Get List ONLY. This is will bring up the collarme rooms.
IF for some reason your room is not there, type in the same box as you did the Server Command, /join #nameofroom ie /join #male-submission. Hit enter.
This takes you to the room you wish to visit.
Good Luck Everyone!

4/17/2010 12:11:12 PM
Here is where you get mIRc:

Once you have it downloaded, open it by left clicking the icon on your desktop by using your left mouse button and clicking twice.
When that opens, you will see a box that says 'About mIRc' at the top of it. Click continue. The same box will look different then. Click continue again.
This will open up another box. This one asks for your Full Name,Email Address,Nick Name and Alternative Nick. For your full name,put in your nick (DO NOT USE YOUR REAL NAME). For your email address use your own or make one up. For your Nick Name and Alternative, use the Nick you normaly use on collarme. Click Ok.
Next you will see a blank white box. Type /server Hit enter.
Once connected, go to the top of the box and you will see Tools. Click on that. It will give you several options, the one you want is Channels List. Click on it. A box will pop up. Click on Get List ONLY. This is will bring up the collarme rooms.
IF for some reason your room is not there, type in the same box as you did the Server Command, /join #nameofroom ie /join #male-submission. Hit enter.
This takes you to the room you wish to visit.
Good Luck Everyone!

4/17/2010 10:35:06 AM
For the ones that don't know how to use mIRc and don't know where to find it, go to and download it.
For the ones having problems figuring it out, send me a message and I will try to walk you through it, at least getting you into your favorite chat room for now.
For the ones in male-submission and male-slaves, contact me immediately and I will help you if I can,get back into the rooms.

4/16/2010 9:52:28 PM
My Sister
April 1, 2010

Though this was just written tonight on April 16,2010, it remains posted here for one of Life's cruelest jokes ever played out on someone. May You,My sister,Rest In Eternal Peace and may I find some as well.

I lay here with a blanket casually tossed across me....
My mind won't let me truly sleep, nor will it give me peace untill this is written.

In the throes of a nightmare best forgotten.

I dream of you and all that you were
The grief and sorrow are still here
My friends and foes all in one
The tears are there waiting to fall
Left unshed until I dream of you again
My hearts beats but is still broken
My soul cries out for my loss
The tears now fall as words are written here
Cleansing once again for all to see
In this time is when I grieve the most
Of the broken heart I now have
And the love I have lost when you left me
Nightmares have no ending
Though I wish they did
My tears will fall years to come
The grief and sorrow will never fade
I will dream of you again
Yet my heart still beats while broken
And my soul cries out for the loss of you
And I will always mourn the loss of you
When death stepped in and took you from me.

4/15/2010 9:17:45 PM

~Unfullfilled Dream~

Dancing among the stars
Looking down on Earth
Gazing in adoration
Of what you are

The dream unfullfilled
OF slavery and more
Your desire shinging through
Like a lost star floating by

Time is not of essence
Life stands still
Love awaits abundantly
For the treasure you are

Love will bind thee and me
Heart strings strumming once more
One beat at a time
Your heart and Mine


 There is more of my writings to be found here:

Stories Poems and More by C.L.Anderson at

4/14/2010 4:59:41 PM
Though there are many that don't believe in marriage, I however, still do.
I have been married before and due to the extreme circumstances revolving around my marriages, the only option was divorce for me. I still have the same view now that I did then,divorce isn't the answer, but sometimes the only viable solution to circumstances that are unbearable to live with.
But as everyone can see, I am still looking for that one slave for me. The one that compliments my life and I his. The one that knows what being honest in all things means.
The one that can still find laughter past the tears. The one enjoys a smiling, laughing Mistress that is also quite serious when needed. The one that knows that I am there to cherish them and to care for them.
The one that knows I am there to help them grow and expand on their experiences.
Yes, it is a long list to fill, but is it really that hard? The answer is Yes. I expect too much it seems from just one person, or is it that I just don't expect too much afterall?
It makes me wonder, yet here I am still looking for the right one for me. If I find him or her then I shall be blessed. If not, I am still blessed and am at peace that I am willingly spending my time alone, no play and no partner of any sort.
I do not need someone in my life to make me happy, but the one that joins me in my life's journey will always be cherished and loved.

4/9/2010 12:16:58 PM
Here is a new one for everyone to enjoy as I am sure this person enjoyed him/herelf very much.

Players come under many different guises, as you shall read about one such player.

Claims to have 20+ years experience, yet can't follow protocol. ie. Talking to one Domme as Owner/slave, yet accepts another collar from another Domme at the same time.

Claims to be real, honest and trustworthy. Not so given the above.

Is willing to take the time to get to know each other and work towards a long term relationship. Long term to me is NOT 2 weeks or less.

Does not answer your phone calls,instant messages or text messaging.

Spends hours talking and at ease with each other and then goes *poof* and disappears. Thinking they won't get caught in the web of lies and deceit they have built into their self professed reality.

Thinking that the Dommes on here don't contact each other and have contact away from this site.

For this person, I hope you enjoy yourself for as long as it lasts. But you have been outed as a player and you will Never recieved any good references from Me or the other Domme involved in this situation.

You have ruined your own name and reputation not only online but offline as well. There are now Dommes from the East Coast and West Coast that know all about you and what you have done.

I do hope you enjoy the hardship you have brought upon yourself in finding Anyone willing to take you on after this.

Enough said. Any one else on here wish to follow suit, go ahead and contact me and see where it gets you.

4/7/2010 10:31:31 AM
I am finding more and more enjoy the pictures of my toys.
Which is great, except toys are no good without someone to use them on.
So, admire them all you want, just remember though it takes more than toys to make me happy.

3/27/2010 8:07:05 PM
I am on a journey with someone. I am finding out new things each day about him. What I find is, that the attraction is stronger. He is quite something special and I do enjoy his company.
Here's to exploring each other and see where this may lead.

3/25/2010 3:41:06 PM

3/25/2010 11:34:55 AM
I have decided to take a wife. A male wife that is. Someone that is a true slave at heart and knows his place in My household.
There is such a person.
Just where is he?

3/25/2010 10:09:52 AM
I am in male-slaves room.

Not really LOL I am sitting at my dining room table on my laptop typing this. Hey! At least I'm honest LOL.

3/15/2010 4:02:19 PM

3/14/2010 1:45:06 PM
I found this on and was written by a very wise man that happens to be a submissive.

This is what he wrote word for word:

There have been numerous posts from submissives asking how they can find a Dominant. I offer the following as a possible avenue to meeting the largest number of potential Dominants.

From the start, forget all the fantasy stuff you've read or seen and keep your fetishes to yourself. Most Dominants have seen and heard it all and have no problem finding someone to "play" with. What they do have a hard time finding is someone with a genuine desire to be of service to them.. There are an abundance of submissives that come with an agenda and a litany of expectations. A true commodity in the BDSM world is a submissive that serves selflessly and from the heart.

First, research posture, positions and protocol at least to a rudimentary degree. Get a full length mirror so you can see what others see. Practice, practice, practice. Even if you have no personal interest in postions or protocol the knowledge is valuable. Not only for the discipline it instills but also as tangible evidence of the desire to learn.

Get involved in your local scene as much as possible. Contact those hosting a function and offer your service. Volunteer as a "house" submissive at a local BDSM club. Attend every function you can assuming a posture of service. Have no agenda other than to serve and absolutely zero expectations. Volunteer. Be sincere. Expect nothing. You will be noticed.

If you see a situation where you might be useful to someone, offer your service. Get water or blankets after a scene, food or drink in social areas, carry toy bags to cars. Once your service is complete, do not "invite" yourself to linger around whomever you attended. Sincerely thank them for the opportunity to be of service then resume your position and posture.

Be genuine, be sincere, be prepared to have your service refused. Do not hang your head and shuffle away. Walk away with your head high. Even if whom you offered your service to refuses, others will notice your gesture. And how you handled the refusal. If you mope around they will see that. If you resume your position and posture of service they will notice that too.

Some DON'Ts to remember when you are out and about in the public scene.

Don't be a sycophant. Forget all that Goddess of the Universe or Master of the Known World stuff. Don't drop to your knees in front of every Dominant that you serve, many will not appreciate it. Don't offer up meaningless platitudes. Don't say things you do not mean or genuinely feel. While there are a lot of what I call "Popsicle" Dominants (frigid and self-absorbed with a stick up their butt) that eat up all that sycophantic nonsense, the vast majority will not look favorably at being constantly told that the sun rises and sets out of their ass and they fart rainbows.

Don't think that you can only serve those that may have the potential to be "your" Dominant. Don't refuse requests for simple acts of service even if the Dominant doesn't appeal to you. Don't think that you can't serve a Dominant of the "wrong" gender, it is about service not submission. Don't think that every Dominant that accepts your service, compliments your behavior, offers to play with you, or even requests your service, wants to own you.

If you attend as many functions as you can with a consistent, sincere attitude of service and an eagerness to serve with no expectations, not only will you be noticed, your service may be requested by a Dominant. And that is the first step towards ultimately kneeling before the one destined to rule your heart.

As I said a very wise man.

I must add though, I look at your personality as well.
If there is no laughter and no peace then find someone else.

3/11/2010 9:51:53 PM
       The Beginning 

I sit here watching you sleep and think how lovely you are My Pet. I long to play some more with you, but instead I let you sleep. So I make coffee and start writing for you as I said I would. I have had you in my thoughts Pet from the first phone call. Wanting to play with you, spending time with you, listening to your lovely moans that I have come to adore. So this is your first entry, and as I write I want you to see it all over again in your mind and get the sweetest of smiles on your face. I will think you fondly Pet, knowing that you will be reading this often. I as Your Mistress, will writing in it often. Pet, my sweet , I want you to know that story will have no ending, just a wonderful beginning to O/our relationship of Mistress/pet. I wish to have you wear My ‘Collar" Pet, I would make you Mine and wish for no other. IF I were take on more pets, You would be My number one always.


So, with those words to you MY Pet, MY Sweet, let your story unfold






Laying there with here eyes glazed over, after along night with her Mistress, pet lays there thinking back before pet had met Mistress.


I used to be free with my favors and it would usually lead to some form of trouble. Never caring what kind of heart break I caused, The women didn’t know me as pet. They knew nothing of my true nature and what did I care, I got what I wanted.


I met Mistress online and we talked and chatted for what seemed an eternity. I gave Mistress my phone number, hoping she would call. I didn’t think she would after emails back and forth, She saying she did try to call, but the She kept getting a message that said the phone was out of order. I was saddened to think that Mistress was just leading me on about calling. After a few more emails between us,She did call, and we talked for hours. But as friends, a man and woman, not as Mistress and pet that I so very much craved.


I didn’t know if She would call me again, I thought about Her all the next day, hoping She would, but not knowing for sure. What if She didn’t want me for Her use, Her pleasure, to use me as She would want ? What will I do, She doesn’t call me back. I know what would happen and I shudder with the thought, Everything as it was, miserable as a man because I can’t fulfill the needs of the woman in me. My thoughts are racing. Wondering, wishing the phone would ring. All day long, such torture thinking and wondering while I’m at work She has called.


After hours of self mental torture, my work day finally ends and I can start the long drive home. Great just what I don’t need, more time alone with my thoughts. Hoping the whole way home, that yes She did call and I missed it, or no calls from her at all. Then I remember, Her number didn’t show up on Caller ID. Now really frustrated because of all the torment I had put myself through to forget something as that simple.


Finally you see home, you have this dull ache inside. Aching for what She could finally give you, and not knowing if She will call, wanting you as much as you want Her.


The phone rings, " Pet?", I hear. Smiling, I answer You . I open up from the start, so at ease and W/we start talking. I am making You laugh! I please You enough to bring laughter to Your lips, I relax knowing that this isn’t the last I will here from You . Conversation flowing, not paying attention to the time. I feel comfortable enough to tell You how horny I am and I leave it at that. I hear You say,’ Be my guest’, but not knowing for sure I just let it go by. We are talking some more and You tell me again,’Be my guest’. " In fact why don’t you go get a plug and insert in yourself," You say.


I tell You I will be right back and I set the phone down and hurry and grab a plug, hoping that You doesn’t hang up. I get back, pick up the phone and there is only silence. My heart plummets to my stomach thinking You hung up, and I hear You assure me She is still there waiting. Oh how happy I feel, hearing You say that. "Did you get it?" I hear You whisper. "Yes" I answer, listening to the sound of Your voice. "Put it in. Let me hear you. Play with yourself. Make yourself cum," You tell me. I am holding the phone against my ear and trying to get the plug in like You want me to do. I push and moan and I know You can hear me. I hear You whisper, " You have a lovely moan, let me hear it some more. Make yourself cum and I want to hear it."


On the other end of the phone I hear the sweetest of sounds, your moans of pleasure are the prettiest I had ever heard. My nipples grow hard and my pussy goes wet with need. I reach down and start playing with my hard little knob. Rubbing it over and over again, feeling the ache of orgasm building. Not giving into it because I have more self control than that and not wanting to till I have you all to myself.


I hear your moans getting louder and more intense. Moaning I want to cum, I need to cum. And I just listen. Then I tell you to cum for me.


I am sitting here with a plug in place and listening to Your voice. I am pleading with You to cum and You don’t tell me yes or no, so I keep coming closer and closer and yet You don’t let me seek that final release. Finally I hear the sweetest words ever, You telling me to cum. I draw nearer to orgasm and I am moaning so very loud for You, I hear You whispering, but not hearing the words. I cum like have ever cum before. I have cum dripping down my chest, off of my nipples, running down my stomach. What a glorious mess! I have cum so hard that my legs feel useless and I am quivering all over from it. I hear You whispering to me that I was very good and You LOVED my moans.

2/25/2010 2:09:40 AM
This is in regards to what I just wrote on my profile.... yes it may be taken as rude, but I am tired of being nice.
Get over it and move on.

2/17/2010 5:00:08 PM
Something for everyone to keep in mind when reading posts on here and other sites.

Please keep in mind that not all the facts are always posted nor is both sides of a story told.

2/14/2010 9:42:29 PM
Sometimes life throws you a curve and you just have to go with the flow...


There are other times that you can't go with the flow.

I found this out recently.

I loved someone and trusted them, but found out that the trust was broken and what was done to break that trust also broke my heart.

The person I am talking about is someone I thought that knew better  than what they did. Oh, don't get me wrong, this person did apologized, but still did not think the actions that were took were justifiable and they were not.

In a way, I am finding myself in a quandry over it, though I know deep down that this issue between us will never be resolved and the relationship must end.

I don't even know if a friendship is even salvagable at this point in time. Nor do I know if it ever will be.

This person has alot of great qualities, but still I can't forget and I don't know if I can forgive.

I was once the victim of abuse by objects and I refuse to allow that in my life again. Not for me, my family, my friends, nor my animals.

Enough said....

2/12/2010 1:15:01 PM
Well here's to the closing of yet another relationship. Unfortunately things did not work according to plan and I am open to making new friends and maybe more.

Good Luck everyone in what you seek and desire.


2/8/2010 9:07:43 PM

My Pet Peeve

Dominants complaining about their profiles not being read, yet they can't take the time to read profiles themselves to find out if someone is owned or not before any contact is made.

Someone just contacted my girl wanting to pursue a relationship with her.

2/8/2010 12:12:58 PM
Scam #8 - Requests for "tribute"
This scam is typically perpetrated by persons (male or female) claiming to be dominant women. Commonly, the scammer will claim that they are inundated with messages and that you need to send them a "tribute" (money) to prove your sincerity before they will speak with you further. Typically, but not always, they will request that you send the money via an Amazon Gift Certificate. Not uncommonly, once the money is received, the scammer will stop responding to messages or delete their account. So, before sending anyone 'tribute', remember that your only reward may be a lower bank balance.

Need I say more?

2/6/2010 12:39:44 AM

1/29/2010 4:39:19 AM
Well here it is at 5:03 am and I can't sleep.

I think about many things, but the one most on my mind at all times is the ones I have been trying to work with.

They are quite something else, in ways that make me happy and in some that disappoint me.
The one thing I find discerning though is the lack of self-discipline in some aspects.

If I tell them to do something, it is not done in a timely manner or not done at all.

I know that with some of life's issues that it is hard to do what one is asked, but when I have to stand watch over them to make sure what is is to do is done, then something is wrong. And it has to do with me.

It makes me feel as a failure as a Mistress for having to treat them as children at times instead of the adults they are.

A submissive/slave is fine to be and to be owned, but one without the ability to think for themselves makes themselves undesirable to me.

There is one that I know that I am ready to tell them to find someone else. They have been to a Pro-Domme only and refuse to do as told, for they think we Dommes are all the same and we aren't.

There is another one that I was led to believe that they were a submissive and they weren't. Now all he wants is sex and I won't do it.

Yet, another male had the audacity to demand I play with him when he has shown nothing but being someone undesirable to me. Constantly texting me and being demanding is NOT the way to get on my good side and get any where with me. Then to call me names when in a drunken state tells me what kind of person you are and that I sure the hell don't want you.

I have met someone from here and I love her to death, but with the time invested already, I have yet to see some real
improvement. I have given her 2 weeks to shape up, or she will have to find some other Domme to have a BDSM relationship with. The lack of discipline comes into play here. That and her brattiness is becoming quite a chore to deal with, and we have yet to seriously gotten down to play. I have no desire to use one that doesn't work for it. It is a reward for both, as I see it. I feel rewarded when I have a faithful and discipline sumissive to enjoy my toys with and I am sure that it is rewarding to feel needed and wanted when in the process of growing together and being played with. I have have taken it to a level where there is no sexual contact between her and I until I feel she has shown improvement in the areas she knows that needs to be done, ie.. tasks not completed yet. So, yes she is in a form of chasity and it is driving her crazy. I had purchased a collar for her, but I am afraid that may have been a mistake in the long run. We have an unique bond between us,  but that isn't enough for me.

Then there is a female that I have lost contact with, but to her benefit, that is my fault and I know this. Life throws you curves and you deal with them. So with this one, I want to make amends and renew the wonderful friendship we were building.

I do NOT want to be in another vanilla relationship with anyone (shudders at the thought).
but there lays my

These are all local people I speak of and with these choices
before me, I am worried LOL.
I live in the middle of the 'Bible Belt' so there isn't alot of lifestylers that are sumissive/slaves to pick and choose from here.


So for those of you wondering where this leads to.

It leads to this:

These are some of the qualities I am NOT looking for. Be yourself, but seriously look at yourself and the Dominant you are pursuing and vice-ersa.

Are you truly compatible? Do you each have the qualities each seeks? Are you willng to take the steps to be honest with at least yourself and admit to yourself where you need work? Do you have a Brain? Are you willing to use it to not only gain respect from your Dominant/submissive?

Ask these questions and more, not only of yourself but of the one you seek?

There is also the Pro/Con List that is a good tool. Make two lists, Pros and Cons, take into stock what you find desirable and what is not. Which list out-weighs the other? There is the answer you seek....

Enough said

1/15/2010 6:33:04 PM

What really makes one a fake?

Am I considered one because I refuse to many aspects of what I have had offered to me?

Am I a fake because the vanilla world is infringing itself into my kinky world?

Or is it because I do not have the energy or inclanation to do any playing right now?

I am tired to the shreds of my soul. The tears still fall for the loss of my sister. I shudder in regret for being such 'nice' person to so many then being treated with disrespect in return.

This I do not think makes me fake, it makes me human and I live with my regrets and tears, for they are mine, good or bad. I am a person first and then a Domme.

I know of a few that will disagree with my thinking, for I am sure they think they are right and I am wrong. But that is their problem, not mine.

to be continued...

1/12/2010 10:54:30 PM
Well it has been  few days again since I was last on here.

Where to begin...

I have been homesick for my friends back in Spokane and my boys. I have alot happen in the past few months since I have been here and can't wait to get out of Idaho.

On the other hand, I have a few friends I have made here and someone I care about very much, but I don't know where that is heading at this time.

If I was asked a week ago, I would have had a definite answer to everything that has been on my mind. But that was last week.

I feel the gypsy in me coming out and the wanderlust building. I want to see more of the country around me as I did when I was younger, though I have no real desires of doing it alone.

I know that if I stay everyone would be happy, but I am not so sure I would be.

I love to travel and miss it terribly. I know deep down, I am not one to settle in one place long. Though I know I could, be it the right circumstances.

But there is the quandry I find myself in.

1/4/2010 4:27:00 AM

I love cocks. The way the blood flows through them,pulsating, wanting to come. The throbbing of them deep inside of me. The fullness that I feel as the cock fills my tight pussy.

Now that I have your attention...

What I don't enjoy and I am sure there are more than just me that feels this way, is the pictures that are constantly sent of your cocks.

That is fine if I ask for them, but really, guys, more important is the view of  your body and how it would look as a blank canvas that I wish to cover in my art work.

For it is an art to leave the marks I do. The way my toys leave a mental mark on your brain after they have been used on you.

The way your skin feels after a flogging, the lovely marks left behind. The cane as it falls, leaving it's lovely marks on your flesh.

That is what I want to see when pictures are sent. What is there of you to offer me for enjoyment and pleasure?

1/3/2010 10:53:00 AM
Things to do to a Meepit

Dental Floss
Hair Bondage
Snowballs (real snow)
Oysters (jk)
Rubber Bands
Coffee Table

Need I go on. "giggling hysterically, knowing she is going to read it and wonder what the hell I am up to"!

1/1/2010 10:30:47 PM
Well, the new year has arrived and I am wondering what life has to bring this year.

I am looking forward to getting moved into the house I found and starting my workouts.

I have always loved the water and soon will start swimming again, in the winter even, ( yeah for me).

I know how Meepit has been severly going through withdrawls on play, the holidays do get in the way of some things. :-(

I know I am looking forward to using her sweet little body for my own delectable pleasures and placing a proper collar around her neck.

I also look forward to renewing old frienships and gaining new ones.

I think all in all this year is to be a good one, though I must admit it seems to be getting off to a slow start.

May everyone have a great year of spanks n such and to owning the ones you desire.

12/28/2009 8:33:23 AM
Well one holiday down and another one just aa few days away.

My New Year's Resolution is too start working out and do some major swimming at ISU. Per Doctor's orders, God I love him LOL.

Good Luck Everyone on yours and I wish you the Safest and Happiest Holidays.

12/23/2009 8:59:17 PM
Well, I tried writing earlier about reading my profile and that didn't work.

I still have gotten emails from those that have absolutely nothing in common with me.


I have removed my pictures and now there is nothing to do but read.

LOL wonder if this will work.

BTW I still only want to hear from those that use ' you think' as an opening in their emails. It will show that you have been reading and paying attention.

12/23/2009 10:50:11 AM
I have written here and on my profile how to go about contacting me.

Is it really that hard to read about someone before contacting them?

I know this comes across as a rant and right now I  really do not care.

I have repeatedly stressed that in order to get someone's attention, take time to read their profiles at least, that is what they are there for.

Collarme members do not sit down and fill them out to waste time. It is a way of finding if you are compatible on at least some levels.

For example, mine states I am into anal play, yet so many that aren't continue to contact me. It is one of my enjoyments, if you do not enjoy it, then why try to connect with me?

I see alot of the same complaints on here about no one taking the time to read. All they see is a name,pictures and Dominant or submissive.

We are people on here, or has everyone forgotten that as well?

There is another person on the other end that reads (sometimes) the words that are written to them. Though they shouldn't, the words do hurt and are taken to heart by some.

This is a wonderful site, if allowed to be. It is a community of like minded people and should be treated as such.

It should be a positive place and a tool to find the one that you can connect to in real life, not just here.

I am so tired of  people spreading their negativity into my small part of the internet and doing something that is so quite simple as to read about me, find out what I am about, and then contact me.

I do not like being one of those that just deletes messages without reading them, or putting up journal entries that make me seem to be an uncaring person.

I love this site and others like it, otherwise some of my very good friends and submissive/slaves I have played with in the past would not have been met.

To my friends, hugs, licks, spanks n such. I miss you dearly and cannot wait to hear from you again. xoxoxoxoxo

12/22/2009 2:08:12 AM
Well, here I am. Meepit is sleeping upstairs after a long day and a longer one to come.

I can't sleep, then pain won't let me right now. So here I sit.

I was reading profiles and came across one, that I just wanted to talk to the person. Nothing else, just chat.

It saddens me to find the internet is out friend, but still an enemy.

Too many people lie and pretend to be something they are not. Lie about their feelings. Just disappear for no reason.

That then makes people wary of just chatting. I don't blame them.

Though I really must admit, if I disappear on you, it is nothing pesonal. It just means I have a life and don't have time to be on here all the time.

I enjoy talking to others, especially from other areas of the country or even the world.

I enjoy learning about the differences between where I live and where you live.

Is your grass green? Who knows, it could be my favorite color.

I mean really, there is blue grass, easter grass, crab grass, so why not other than green?

I know this has nothing to to with anything,  but more so the better.

Happy Holidays to everyone and Safe travels around.

12/21/2009 4:20:52 PM

Read Profiles and Journals and you will have a better chance of actually meeting the one you seek.

I am Not your Mistress, I prefer to be adressed as Ma'am or Miss or by name. To do so otherwise will be a quick way to be ignored.

I am all female.
I am not a Switch.
I am happy with who I am, be happy with that.
I love to laugh and have fun.
My sense of humor is not quite like others you may meet.
It is far different and I like that about myself as well.
I am not seriously  into any one thing but into many.
I am a bit sadistic and have no qualms with cbt.
Though I can be quite loving and kind hearted, I also can be very stern and heavy handed when needed.
I have completed the move to Pocatello. I am looking to meet like minded people on here to get to know. I am a fun loving, easy going Domme. I love to laugh and have fun. I love many different aspects of bdsm, but I don't fit into any 'mold' out there.
I am me and what you see is what you get. I refuse to pretend to be something I am not. I do not care for others that do and I do not enjoy games.
IF you are serious, then contact me. I will expect a meeting in person not too long afterwards. I am quite open to some of my family and most of my friends know about me as well.

My Ideal Person:
The one I truly seek is the one that can steal my heart. But I think most on here are looking for that.
In the meantime, I want someone that IS submissve, not claiming to be but truly is.
You must be local or willing to travel. You must be open and honest with me at all times.
A sense of humor is a Must.
I don't want a self centered individual.
No uptight people please, I am laid back and prefer the ones I play with to be the same.
Transvestite(s) would be great,or trans-gendered.
Non hairy is a must. No hairy backs or genitals or arm pits.
Must be employed, I am not here to support you or you me.
Must be willing to work towards a LTR if we are compatible.
No Lies. No games,No married men!
See JOURNAL for more Info

For those that do take the time to read this and wish to email me, then please start your email with ' You think?'

12/15/2009 6:04:20 AM
MMM coffee and a sleeping Meepit. What more could someone ask for first thing in the morning.
I thought while sitting here I would write some more in my journal and just let the words flow.
I am looking at Meepit's Treasure Box, knowing she desires what lies within more than anything. It is her collar I recently purchased and modified to make it wearable to work.
I have yet decided when and if I am going to give it to her.
I think that with all that has happened lately, that it might not be any time soon.
Though I must admit, this is the first collar I have bought and offered to anyone.
I had offered to collar previous boys, but it never worked out. So she has made it further than most.
I think is is quite beautiful and the way her eyes shined when she saw it was such a beautiful thing.
I do know however, things need to change quickly, for I want her collared before I go further with her. She is the lifetime relationship I think I have been looking for, but time will tell.
I think when she gets up this morning, I will have pictures taken of it and have her post them on her profile (as an incentive) lol.
Evil aren't I...
I hope everyone has a great morning as I am having.

12/9/2009 3:47:48 AM
I sit here in the peacefulness of Meepit's home debating on whether to have a cup of coffee and all I can think of is how she is sleeping peacefully upstairs.

Last night was very special to me and I was pleasantly tired afterwards. For it had been a good eight months since I have played. With the move to another state and my sister's passing, I didn't feel up to anything but surviving one day at a time.

Thanks to some very good friends with their advice and with Meepit being who she is, has brought me to where I felt the desire to Dominate someone flow through my veins again and gave me the willingness to pick up my floggers and other toys to wield them once again against willing flesh.

The sound they made was a familar and friendly one and I hadn't relaized how badly I missed it.

I have found myself once again and the boys that I have been talking to localy better watch out, for I am back and ready to take you to task.

<smiling with the memories of the sound of a flogger connecting with skin>
And I can't wait!

12/8/2009 9:50:20 PM
Two days ago, I released my girl to go her own way. After further thought I have taken her back and she has started working on making amends for her actions.

She has been put through the ringer with me and survived LOL.

You can view what took place this evening by viewing her profile as sexylilkitten.

I am sure you will be just as amused as I was with her.

Also I would like to add that amazingly she was able to take almost all of my fist on the first try.

Good Going Meepit!

Another day comes lurking my way (grinning evily) and I am so looking forward to it.

12/8/2009 6:49:32 AM

12/8/2009 6:10:57 AM
The tears have fallen

Down like rain

Not stopping

Nor slowing

I gave you

My love


Away it went

Tossed aside

Like an old rag

Used and unwanted

My love never mattered

Not today, or yesterdays gone by

12/2/2009 4:20:41 AM
I just posted but there is something that I think should be clarified and hopefully others will learn from this.

I recently did a major move to another state. I left everything I had known to move here to be with my one sister.

Not even 2 months had gone by and she passed away.

There are some that confuse the healing process for 'too vanilla'.

Don't fall into this category. It takes time to heal, especially when you are very close to the person that passes away.

I am still healing, but slowly, I am in the last month finally coming around to giving into my needs again.

I think without Meepit in my life, it would have been much harder to find solace in knowing my sister is in a better place and in no more pain.

For Meepit, I am thankful she found the courage to not only contact me, but stick out this last month of getting to know each other, though vanilla it was.

As in my previous post though, it still stands, today is her first actual training day.

I wish her the best, for now she will need it LOL.

Be well and appreciate what you have and not want you want.

12/2/2009 4:10:24 AM
Well time flies when getting to know someone.
My girl and I have been together over a month now and things are going well.
Though not as well as I would hope, there is always room for improvement on everything.

I have spent the last month getting to know her as a person and it has been a remarkable journey in the vanilla side of things.

Today is her official first day of training and I can't wait lol.

She is upstairs sleeping peacefully while I am downstairs writing this.

Today will be the first test on following direct orders.

She will have another 2-3 months to prove herself and I to her, for it is a relationship like no other that I wish to have.

Thus far though, we have gained mutual respect for the other. The communication levels need improvement on both our parts. 

Yes, I admit that I  too fall short in that department at times. We are all human and no one is perfect, though I know some claim to be, they aren't.

But all in all, things are looking promising for our relationship to bloom into something beautiful.

peace and good luck everyone in finding what you seek..

11/1/2009 7:18:30 PM
I have proudly claimed sexylilkitten as My own. She  is quite the gem, raw and ready to mold into what I desire. Once polished into the lovely slave that lives deep within her heart, she will go far.
I am looking forward to where this journey takes Me and her as well and the process she must go through to earn her collar.

10/29/2009 11:15:04 AM
These Boots Were Made For Walking
by Nancy Sinatra

You keep saying
you got something for me
something you call love
but confess
you've been a 'messin'
where you shouldn't 've
been a 'messin'
and now someone else
is getting all your best

these boots are made for walking
and that's just what they'll do
one of these days these boots
are gonna walk all over you

you keep lyin'
when you oughta be truthin'
you keep losing
when you oughta not bet
you keep samin'
when you oughta be a 'changin'
what's right is right
but you ain't been right yet

you keep playing
where you shouldn't be playing
and you keep thinking
that you'll never get burnt
well, I've just found me
a brand new box of matches
and what he knows
you ain't had time to learn

10/29/2009 9:21:34 AM
GROWLING @ CM for NOT getting information right.

My profile states clearly that I live in Idaho, yet people from Seattle,Wa are only 93 miles away. WTF?

10/29/2009 8:12:54 AM
This pertains to emails:
I have set My email options to anyone with NO profile filled out, NOT in this country, Out of state,couples,older than 55 and younger than 28, goes directly to BULK.
I may read all My emails, but if you do NOT recieve an answer, there is a reason for it.
Have you read My profile and journal instead of just browsing?
Have you made contact to just be used online?
Have you tried to force what you desire on Me?

10/29/2009 7:55:07 AM
I live the lifestyle how I can fit it into my life. But there is some things that are NOT acceptable with me.

Showing DISRESPECT to ME and the One that owns/collars/considers you Their property.
For example: Contacting Me with the intent to get to know Me better in the hopes of forming a relationship of any sort WITHOUT the One that owns/collars/considers you Their property permission.

Disrespeting Me by Lying to Me.

Disrespcting Me by Wasting My time.
For example: NOT reading My profile and Journal completely before any contact is made. There is NO excuse for laziness.

By showing Disrespect to Me and the One that owns/collars/considers you Their property on here or elswhere, I will not only contact the One that owns/collars/considers you Their property, but also copy and paste to them any and all correspondance sent to Me, when asked for it.


10/15/2009 7:00:05 AM
I want someone that IS submissve or IS a slave, not claiming to be but truly is.
You must be
local or willing to travel. The first few contacts and play will be done in a motel room. I will not bring you to My home until trust has been established,You must be open and honest with me at all times.
A sense of humor is a Must.
I don't want a self centered individual.
No uptight people please, I am laid back and prefer the ones I play with to be the same.
Transvestite(s) would be great,or trans-gendered.
Non hairy is a must. No hairy backs or genitals or arm pits.
Must be employed or seeking employment before or directly after relocating, I am not here to support you or you me.
Must be willing to work towards a LTR if we are compatible.
No Lies.No games,No married men!

10/13/2009 11:39:22 PM
Ok I know this isn't a pic of Me or anyone I know. But I was just emailed with it as their profile pic and just about died laughing. It is the last one on My profile.


10/12/2009 11:29:37 PM
There seems to be some confusion between my profile and to straighten it out here goes.
I was living in Spokane,Wa. I had 6 males and 1 female to use as I saw fit.
My sister was ill, so plans to relocate here to Pocatello,Idaho were put into affect. That meant everyone needed a new Mistress or was released previously for not obeying my rules.
I was  in love with one of my subs, but  since I relocated, he has moved on.
I have only been here in Pocatello since  July 4,2009 and my sister passed away on September 1,2009. She was my best friend and is dearly missed by me and the rest of the family and community.
I am not telling this for sympathy, but for understanding of why I am here now and hopefully some of the questions will stop.
I am r/t only and have made a connection to a male and female submissive. We are all working together to gain trust in each other and to go from there.
As of yet, I have not played with anyone here and won't until that trust is in place.
So if you are just looking to have your fantasy/kink fullfilled, then you need to seek elswhere.
With that said, best of luck to all in what you seek and let karma lead the way.


10/12/2009 5:55:33 PM
Ok I know each to their own, but in this case it gives Us Dommes a bad name.
Asking for money is like prostitution and is illegal in Idaho and Washington.  I know this for I have lived in both states.
I can now understand the emails I have been getting about being a prostitute, though I don't charge anything to torment anyone. I am just lumped into the same category with the ones that do 'ask' for 'tribute' and this really makes me angry.
Just a thought....

10/12/2009 7:09:43 AM

Make no mistake, this is copied from the previous mentioned sub, he still has not removed the first part of his profile. Just another game to be played on CM, I suppose.
I have to admit though, this is an original one one me. I have never placed anyone under consideration and then  have them post how they are being used by other Mistress' .
If he is not being honest with me, then I wonder if they know he  was under consideration.
As I suspect, just another game with a new twist.
With that said, here is one last word that I know will get him in the end.....KARMA

*UPDATED 6/21/2009*

I have been talking with a Mistress, and she has decided to take me under consideration, so I am no longer looking.  I willl also be posting daily journal with things that I have learned along my way

8/9/2009 11:11:58 AM:
I had my first chance to be able to serve as a submissive at a party, with a couple of other submissive males. I showed up at the party, and was told to show up wearing something nice, so I showed up wearing a nice pair of slacks and a nice shirt. When I arrived, not all the Mistress's had gotten there yet, so it gave me a chance to meet some of them. Once they had all arrived, each submissive was to go into the room, and was to then disrobe in front of them all. Each submissive had been told to wear something special underneath their clothes, and I was no different. When my turn came to present myself, I did so without hesitation, striping down to nothing more then just a pair of women's panties. I then got on my knees and thanked the Mistress's for allowing me to serve at their party, and if there was anything that I could get for them. I then dismissed myself, and went into the other room, to wait for the rest of the males to present themselves. After all the males had been presented, we were then allowed to serve the Mistress's, and catering to their whims. I had one Mistress remove my panties and take me over her knee, giving me several good spankings with the palm of her hand, and then she used a paddle of a few more swats, leaving my ass nice and red. She then fondled my cock and balls, and gave my balls a couple of swats with her hand. She then had me get up and put my panties back on, then had me turn around, and she rubbed my ass, and asked me if I liked it. And I must say that I did like it. It was such a wonderful experience, and I was able to learn more about what it is like to be a submissive, and hopefully can get the chance to serve at other parties.

I would love to hear any comments that anyone might have!

10/12/2009 6:58:48 AM
*Does The Happy Domme Dance*

I forgot about the email options on here, now if you aren't what I am seeking, you just go to bulk. I will read them there and the ones that are from Dominants and the polite ones just wanting friendship, will be answered. Otherwise, Delete!
Yeah for CM ! ! !

10/7/2009 7:38:12 AM
Dear  (your name here)

I am sure just as most that you are a very nice guy, unfortunately I see that as all the rest, you did not read my profile or latest journal entry.
Since you couldn't take time to do so, here it is:

0/6/2009 9:24:16 AM
IF you are married do NOT contact me.
IF you are not local do NOT contact me.
IF you are just here to play games, do NOT contact me.
IF you are seeking online play, do NOT contact me.

With regards,

An unhappy Mistress

10/6/2009 8:24:16 AM
IF you are married do NOT contact me.
IF you are not local do NOT contact me.
IF you are just here to play games, do NOT contact me.
IF you are seeking online play, do NOT contact me.

10/5/2009 9:49:47 PM
As I was sitting here tonight, I jumped online and decided to come on here to see what was new (if anything).
I started thinking about the few I had agreed to work with,placing them under consideration, then of course as most do, disappear.
Needless to say, I decided to clean up some of me emails and found many I had sent to a 'local' sub that had deleted my messages with out reading them.
He was under my consideration and needs to remove it from his profile and my name from his friend's list.
I do not play games and I do NOT care for  the ones that do.
I will not post names here, but I do know a few that aren't what they claim to be *met them in real life* and one for certain that is dangerous to anyone the come to meet, especially female.
That is all I have to say for now.

9/26/2009 12:55:10 AM
I have been gone for sometime and I have not yet answered any of my emails but for the ones that are from friends, there is a reason for this.
In July, I relocated to Pocatello,Idaho to be nearer to a very special family member.
On the 1st  of this month she passed away and I am having a hard time dealing with her passing.
I am sorry for not answering emails.
Thank you my friends for your moral support and well wishes.
I miss you all and will be back for  talking to my friends, but for the rest, I have no heart for it right now.

8/12/2009 11:13:49 AM
Today, I just noticed a journal entry posted at 11:55 am that has a pic that was taken from .
Why do people do this? Where does it get you?

8/12/2009 4:23:47 AM

This is for everyone on this site that wonders why I view profiles and an answer I just gave a Dom:

Hmmmm, Because I can, The profiles on here are made for viewing, it does not matter whether you are Dominant or submissive, If this seems to be a problem for you, then please feel free to hide it.

If by chance this bothers you, then it leads me to believe that there is something that isn't quite right with your profile, which to me is a red flag. <grinning> Besides some of the ones I have viewed have also been mentioned in someone else's journal entry warning others about said person.
You learn alot from people's journal entries.


8/11/2009 1:16:15 PM
Today I got a pleasant surprise, cdboy69 has joined the site. WooT! He is such a pleasure to play with Ladies and as Nikki, much more to be offered.
Hugs n Kisses Nikki.


8/11/2009 8:57:57 AM
you are a Transvestite and wish make-up through a friendly dealer, email me and I will give you the site to go to. You can order online only if you are not local to me. It is only available in the US except for Alaska.

 you wish to chat, you can find me in the male-slaves room if I am on collarme.

8/7/2009 10:00:47 PM

Lately I have been thinking of all that I can be and yet to achieve.
I know deep within my heart that I have quite the sadistic side. But the deeper I dig, I also find that I am also quite sentimental. If it had not been for my future 'wife' making this known to me, I don't think I would have ever acknowledged it.
My 'wife' to be is very insightful and very special to me. Such a wonderful special male, though much more female than most <giggles>. I will be looking forward to our relationship grow ing in to something wonderful and magical and he earns his engagement gift from me...his collar.
He understands this is a life collaring, one that is not to be returned and he will wear until life is gone from me or him.
It is a big desicion for us both and I cannot hide the excitement of a new begining for the both of us.
He is a extremely rare gem, some one I have been searching for, not afraid of his transformation, for it has already begun. He is all that I have wanted from a man/woman, for he is both, now and forever.
My dear sweet Jaimie, a precious gem to be adored and cherished. I will be awaiting your arms and your smiles every morning.
Life through me for a loop, but then, there you were. Thank you sweetheart for just being you.

8/6/2009 10:06:40 AM
Well, I have found someone that interests me to the point I would consider him as wife/cuckold material.
There are 2 more I am interested in and given  few more days they will have their applications.
Thank you for your interest.


8/5/2009 2:52:25 PM

Due to family emergency, I have not been able to  answer my emails as quickly as  would have liked to. I hope this finds you well and having a wonderful day.

The ones that have emailed me, I know I have read them, but like I said due to a family emergency, I have not been online long enough to answer them. To the ones that are waiting for an application, I will be sending that to you in a few days. Please be patient.

8/1/2009 7:50:12 PM
Well today was a lost cause. I went to interview a local sub. It was a disaster. Then he emails me saying I am not his type. LMAO ! That is because I refused him as a sex slave, but was going to meet him again tomorrow to see if he could be used other ways.  But obviously he was only there for the sex and nothing else.
Oh well, they come, they go, Next.....

7/28/2009 9:10:09 AM
I haven't been online much recently, so it is time for an update.

Many of my friends have asked me why I am not on collarme any more. I am here,sometimes, but due to great disappoinntments on some of the 'submissives' here, I find I don't have the heart to interview,get to know, nor play right now.
If people would be honest and upfront about being married,not really willing to relocate, instead of playing games and wasting my time, I would be more open and apt to continue my search. But right now, why bother.....

6/23/2009 10:34:25 PM
This directed sarcasticaly in retort to what a certain racist Dom posted about Us Dommes.
(tongue in cheek), I think it is about time you little wankers that call yourself men take a good look at your pathetic lives and realize you are nothing, you are lower than the dirt beneath OUR feet. While you are at it, make sure you understand that FEMALE SUPREMACY rules and not you males.
Pathetic isn't it? How does that make you feel? Like it? Just a taste of your own medicine....

6/23/2009 9:34:42 AM
Here seems a problem on this site I have noticed. If you check the Will Relocate box, Please clarify how far in your profile. It sure would help.



6/22/2009 12:31:07 AM
I wonder why people slander other people on here? You enter something derogatory in your profiles about someone, yet do you consider that someone like me would be curious on what's it about and compare profiles of both.
Case in point: Male Dominant slandering a submissive, yet her profile states clearly she is owned by Him,has only one friend (Him), and has nothing derogatory on her profile. Now if this submissive does have several owners (of which she is accused) do you not think that she wouldn't post openly that she is owned by so-and-so?
Just something I just came across and as usual I got very curious...

6/21/2009 8:57:29 PM
Well Good News. I was ready to walk away from the lifestyle, but instead I met a remarkable young man on here. After many conversations in chat, on yahoo and over the phone, I have agreed to place him under_consideration.
Congradulations AssPenny, you have shown me some of what qualities in a submissive I have been seeking and I am looking forward to Oour exploration and adventure together.

6/21/2009 1:47:35 PM

I just read several profiles of Dominants requesting that their submissives ( laughing ) be open minded!
rofl I thought we were open minded to be in this lifestyle!

6/20/2009 11:01:04 AM
Today,I laughed....

Driving around town,I pulled up next to this elderly gentleman and his wife. Unfortunately for him, I can read lips fairly well, he was telling his wife,"Those dam kids and their dam music."
Giggling to myself, for him thinking I was a kid and car just kept on 'thumping'.
Hmmmmm, I laugh at being a kid now. What will I be when I get to his age? LOL

6/10/2009 5:06:12 AM
you are a Transvestite and wish make-up through a friendly dealer, email me and I will give you the site to go to. You can order online only if you are not local to me. It is only available in the US except for Alaska.

 you wish to chat, you can find me in the male-slaves room if I am on collarme.

6/4/2009 4:03:14 PM

Well, here I am again but today my writing will be quite different.
When contacting me for the first time, please don't be rude or demanding. It is a big turn-off for me.
I wrote my zip code in the place of city for a good reason, of you are trully interested in a r/t meeting and relationship, you will take the time to find out where that zip code is.
I try not to waste other people's time on here, so Please don't waste mine.
Thank You

5/20/2009 1:38:33 PM

Today,I find the need to write.
Right the wrongs of yesterday.
Giving balance to today
My presence in this world is yet to discover.
Some know from the begining.
Some know at the end.
I still do not know.
But search I shall.
Seek till I find.
My life's answers.
Some thoughts roll from my mind.
No thought,No reason.
I let them flow, meandering their way out.
Down the length of my arm,to my hand.
Meeting pencil to paper, writing here for all to read.
Through laughter, I have found healing.
Giggles brings tears of joy.
Frowns are just smiles upside down.
A smile is brighter than a sunshine filled day.
I find that karma is here to stay.
Let the bad go away and begin another day.

Enough rambling for now, write more later...............

5/13/2009 3:59:09 PM

Today begins anew, dawn brings a fresh day,erasing yesterday and bringing in today.Today slips aways to bring in tomorrow. All filled with smiles and laughter. Realisticaly knowing that some will try to bring me down with their negatives thoughts,attitudes and feelings and yet I still smile knowing this I will not allow and continue on my way through my life's journey.

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