"ignorance isnt bliss. omniscience is bliss. ignorance is just sitting in a poopy diaper and thinking its nice and warm" -Me

Best Quote ever:

Everyone knows you should have spontaneous chemistry in the back of a leatherbar and retire to a more public area, say, the restroom, to continue your getting to know process - Bootpig

I like sadism. I like dominance and powerplay and kittens and sushi and la la la la la.

was that helpful? thought not.

Either read my posts (b.com) or come take me out for a drink sometime. we can talk. I'll make you laugh at yourself. you need to unscrunch. everyone needs to unscrunch.

so unscrunch already.

Favourite poem [because Im a bit like that, see...]

Robert Frost : Stopping by woods on a snowy evening.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

...

Ive thought for a long time Ive been born at the wrong time. I dont fit well into society, and I took that personally, without ever really bothering to assimilate the point that I dont fit in because I choose not to.

I am not normal. I choose not to be.

This choice is important, and it colours everything afterwards. you cant choose to be abnormal and then just go about the rest of your day. you willingly place yourself outside of the rules, which sounds all hot and rebellious until you get it shoved down your neck that being outside the rules often means not being sheltered by them, too.

when you realise that your head, and all your descicions are firmly outside of the box, where do you go from there? Im here. Im sat here, a guy who will cheerfully do what normal society would probably lock me away for.

I cant say, and I wont say that they are wrong to believe this.

They make their choices, I make mine. its always a choice, and a consequence, right down at the core of everything. People keep telling me its more complex than that, but it isnt, really. you can be unwilling to shed the baggage which holds you back, but that's your problem, it has nothing to do with the objective reality of the situation.

everyday you make decisions that shape the rest of your life. everytime you choose the lift rather than the stairs you get fatter. everytime you jog rather than walk you get thinner. everytime you watch that same old film again rather than something new you seal yourself off from another level of experience.

I walk, and I run. I take lifts and stairs. sometimes its nice to watch a familiar movie with a friend. sometimes it isnt.

I might die tomorrow. Im an afterlife-denier. when Im gone, Im gone. I cant take anything with me, I can only leave stuff behind.

So what matters? what decisions do you take, to make something that matters to you, to increase your stake and score in life?