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This profile has been created to document and detail the training and relationship between SadisticHawk and Hawk_Gypsy. Together they are embarking on a journey to test physical limits, mental strength and breaking points. Gypsy will post her assignments and writings here, along with her thoughts feelings and experiences. Together we are planning a very intense week long session and we will post details and updates here. We ask however that no one try to offer suggestions to the activities planned or our agreed upon actions. This is a very intimate thing that we have decided to share with . This is not a social outlet, but an information forum. Anyone that wishes to follow is welcome to send a friend request here or on , but please note that Hawk is controlling this page.

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5/31/2013 10:29:16 AM
Hawk and I have a couple of hurdles to overcome such as our distance, my vanilla relationship, the fact that he is not *my* dom (and thus has quite little say in my day to day activities.) and the fact that I am resistant/prideful as fuck. ? Despite our "complications" (if you can even call them that... Maybe "intricacies"? ), I do try to keep him appraised as he can't read my mind. It is up to me to tell him what is going on in my life as well as any expectations I have of an upcoming scene or how to interpret my behavior. ?This is especially true because our play times are so infrequent but fervemt and I tend to become non verbal the further into play we get. That isn't to say he doesn't share the responsibility in asking the right questions or otherwise making sure we understand each other. To be drastic, our lives depend on the transparency and trust we share. We are both responsible for maintaining that. As I touched briefly before, Hawk does not have much control over me due to our circumstances. I feel this is a good thing because it makes our scenes that much "more". When I cross his threshold, I am completely and utterly his until the end of the session. Somehow that fact allows us both to slip into our respective roles more completely. I don't think we would get as ?much out of our sessions otherwise and honestly, I could not "be" in the role of "slave" on a consistent basis. Gypsy

5/22/2013 2:09:42 PM
What to Expect Journal Entry | about 21 hours ago gypsy and I have quite a history going back a few years now. we have experienced extreme highs and fought lows together. A lot of people have asked about this scene and what I plan on doing to her and what to expect. She has expressed concerns about the emotional impact this will have on me, and I respect her for that. If we had not had such a background I would NEVER attempt this type of scene with anyone, but I know I what to expect and how to read her, even when she is non responsive. So basically I trust her and and she trusts me. So what to Expect. Sadly (but not without an added bonus) Gypsy now lives quite a distance from me so I will have to fly her to visit. This is convenient for me and will allow me the first opportunity to make her a bit uncomfortable. I will send her a notice the night before she leaves that will specify her wardrobe for the trip. It will be professional with a skirt (although very short) stockings, 6" Heels and a low cut blouse. She will also be advised that she will not be allowed any additional clothing or personal effects as she will not be allowed clothing and I will tend to her needs while she is here. it will also make her travels a bit easier. Although one can no longer meet a traveler at the gate, I will meet her by the exit where she will be lead to the remote parking garage where the vehicle will wait to transport her. Heavy chains, Manacles, Shackles and a cage await in the cargo area. She will be restrained, placed in the cage and then her journey will begin...............................

5/22/2013 2:04:35 PM
Why this kind of scene? Journal Entry | 2 days ago I have always wanted to do a really intense scene. I picked Hawk because I have known him for six years and have played with him enough to know I can trust him. Why something so intense? Because that's how I like it. I love the challenge. I love the release accompanied by being forced to release your ego. It is mostly mental, really. I'm not a masochist, so this is not going to be a particularly pleasant experience for me. But it will be cathartic and it will bring me closer to Hawk. I can't lose! I need someone to push me as far as I can go, someone who can outlast my resolve. I'm not looking to be beaten within an inch of my life, but I want to be challenged. I want to be bright to a point where I am genuinely begging Hawk and that is where this will end. I do worry about this backfiring. I understand that I can walk away from this damaged and broken. The goal of this profile is to talk and negotiate until we're sure we've minimized this risk as much as we can. I worry that I won't be able to handle it, but then I remember the last time Hawk and I played and I don't worry about it as much. I also worry about what people are going to think of me for doing this. I don't think everybody is going to get it, because I really can't explain why I want to with out delving nf into my life story but I hope nobody thinks too poorly of me. I don't worry about how this will affect Hawk but I do wonder what this experience will be like for him. I expect this will be cathartic for both of us in our own way... I think at the end of this, I will be a stronger woman. Gypsydelight

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princessmandy
 
 Age: 30
 San Diego, California