On the subject of obedience????.

Sometimes it is so hard to be a slave?like when someone really pushes your buttons, really makes you see red, when all the fight in you is at the surface, and you are really letting someone have it, and your Master tells you to stop fighting with them or WORSE (gasp!) tells you that you must apologize! This one lowly kajira wishes to share just a word or two from her own perspective if she may?.

It isn?t about you????..or even that infuriating jerk that you are yelling at.

You are a slave, a property, and everything you do reflects back on your Master. When Master tells you do something, and you refuse; in front of other people?what does that say about your training, your attitude, your commitment; which are all reflections on Himself as your Master. What have you just told a roomful of people about Master?s authority, on His ability to lead, about the very essence of what makes Him a Man? You have just castrated the One you profess to love for all of Gor to witness. You may be so totally in the right of the argument, (often when anat finds herself in this position; and omg do I so often find myself here) it may even be in defense of Himself?.. but the moment you disobey His words you have done more damage than your adversary ever could. Every time you do not heed His command, you shame the honor of One you love and you make Him look like a fool. For if He cannot manage His own House, how can He be a Master at all?

How do you talk about, and to the Free? Some of them can be REALLY abrasive, or completely obtuse?but what does it say about your Master?s House when His slave is sarcastic or even openly rude, or passive-aggressive?

Or when He tells you to do something that you find difficult, and you do not even try. Do you simply refuse? What sort of message does that send? This is the One whom you handed your very life when He put a collar around your neck, do you trust Him or do you not? It is one thing to disagree respectfully in private, to beg to be excused from a task, to discuss, but one must not ever do it before the prying eyes of a room?. Do you trust your Master enough to assume He knows best? And if you don?t, what in the world are you doing in His collar?

Let us all take a page from the books and heed the cautionary tales of the loveslave, let us not let His affection for us be the cause of our Master?s shame. One knows you would never intend to cause harm to the One?s you love, to make Him lose face or look weak . I just don?t think we even realize that that is the effect our behavior has?..and no matter how angry some stupid slut makes her, this one would never, EVER, want anyone to think badly of her Master because of something His girl did. She is sure you all feel the same.

anat, First Girl in the House of Graywolf_TX