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I'm active on another site, more popular site (FL = not Florida! LOL), same handle, rarely on here as a result.
Active in local community, in Coffee and Espresso programs with my wife.
Feel free to contact me on AIM or YIM if you'd like. |
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Many things have happened since last entry . . .shows how much I update here if it's been 2 years . . . lol
Working with our "Coffee and Whatever" and our "Espresso" programs. Ways to come out, just folks for coffee and / or dinner, not group affiliated, and ask whatever questions you have about the lifestyle with 2 ladies who have been part of the Greenville Community for a while. Both of us have been on community boards, and are still active in an independent sense.
Just email me if you would like details. Great for the new, the ones not involved with groups for whatever reason, and those who want the enjoyment of the lifestyle again!
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Had the KEY Explorations night last night. Was a great turn out. A Great way for new people to come, ask any question, and get some 1 on 1 mentoring on any topic!
I encourage those in the Greenville Area, who are new to the lifestyle, contact me and I'll send you details on it! There's many seasoned people willing to help provide answers for those seeking it.
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Well this weekend it was announced to friends and to those who came to the KEY Pool Party. Foxglovelady (Shell) and I are engaged.
No date set, no rush, but we have rings that show our commitment to each other. We've been through so much together, that we know this was made to last.
When you don't look for it, when you just savor the moment, it will happen . . .
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Have dealt with some struggles, have made it through the other side, and see the light all around. Have met some new friends, have focused on KEY, and have fortified myself for the future, to be better to anyone . . .
How do you eat an elephant or move the desert? You do it one piece at a time . . . with a hand shovel, with the palm of a hand, you do it one piece at a time . . .
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Had a wonderful time this weekend, turing a potiential depression into a glorious once in a lifetime event in Atlanta. Met old friends, made new ones, found sponsors for MOTT, even met C. Gross. Went to Cocacola museum, shops, stores, went with dear friends, and was grateful for the window that opened when a door was closed . . . for that window gave me more opportunites then the door would have!
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Moving ahead with KEY, with an upcoming "Meeting of the Tribes" in Feb of 2009 . . . Got events every month, some educational, some vanilla, some kinky. . .
Have gotten overwhelming support and reassurance from the local community. I know who my friends truly are, and I'm blessed by them.
Trying day by day to treat others the way I would want to be treated . . .
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Today is my birthday, but I'm not looking for gifts, not looking for presents or even a party . . .
I've gotten that everyday this last year, as I have a home, I have grown, and I have wonderful friends . . .
Sometimes, folks need to reflect on what they have rather then what they dont . . .
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Another great party, great costumes with it being a Masquerade Party, and energy coming for KEY left and right . . .
It's good to feel that you're doing a good thing and reaching out to those others miss.
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Why is it when you let others in the surrounding areas know of the local groups, for you youself had a hard time finding them, do some people go ballistic and act like I'm trying to come after them? If anything, I try help educate, and safetly show ways to learn, for let's be honest . . .there is no established BDSM school to go enroll in to learn from...
Some people . . .so paranoid, and yet so not active in the greater scenes out of fear . . .
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Alot of changes with KEY lately . . .new board member, another possible leaving . . .new directions to head . . .
A lunch time munch turns into a 12 hour bit with friends and board to work things out . . .
Starting to feel the pinch as I need to have R&R this whole weekend . . . |
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Rang in the New Year with a KEY event, that was a blast . . .great food, great socializing, great times . . .had a struggle to find the place, but when we did, was awesome from then on.
Found out how grateful I am for KEY and for what the group is doing. 4 folks who came was their first time to any group function in the area, and everyone felt at home. Thank you those who came who made it wonderful . . . |
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Have decided to just keep one online journal and that's my LJ one. While this one is nice, my LJ one is more me, more in depth . . .
Just got back from a wonderful camp out, and feeling a bit renewed . . . |
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Today was a good day.
I had to work Sunday night until 11, and then turn around and do 7-4 Monday morning. That was tiring, but good things came of it when I got to have time to do Neopets, talk with Cassie, and have the KEY munch at 7pm.
The munch was great. In a crowded resturant, but 9 showed, and that’s a growth from the 4 from the first, and the 6 from the 2nd munches. 4 newbies showed, and even someone’s mother who was curious to the lifestyle. Growth happened, stories told, and future dreams expressed for the next event and munch . . .the group is starting to have a pulse of it’s own now, and I’m grateful for that . . .
Tonight I’m in reflection over the day, over the individuals that I need to write and the joyful news of the campout coming up. Today is a good day . . . (That, and the other epie blade I got from the lady in TLE . . .LOL) |
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Had a munch yesterday which was good . . .about 18 or 20 showed, got to talk with friends, and got to talk about the uncoming KEY munch, the KEY party being planned, etc . . . great to see others who have passion being a part of a team effort . . . Even wished someone who isn't speaking to me that she got better because of illness she has had . . . hope with time, fences can be mended
Saw my girl being able to talk, and color with another girl she admires . . .it's wonderful to see her happy, see her content, and to be able to sing (althought badly) to her as we drive back to her house . . . .
Life is good . . . |
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Came back from a play camp out today . . .33, smaller then many years . . .was good, was able to have my "Jennifer side" done by a girly girl . . . Was played with briefly twice, and saw some things . . .hungered for my girl to be there, to be a part of it . . . Was with her the Friday beforehand and that was more touching to my heart, to be honest . . . |
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Had a Meet in the Middle Munch last night, smallest turn out in 3+ years . . .16 or so . . .spread among 3 tables . . . heard about another munch stopping until the summer is over because of low turn out . . .makes you wonder . . .
At least have this Friday coming up to be with my girl, to go to a camp out, and to enjoy myself . . .possibly will be going to another event in August on electrity play . . .Might be what'll give me that sparkling personality LOL
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Lately I have been happy . . . I have my wonderful and willing sub who makes me smile daily . . .my opportunites with my group to see new things, and even to possibly see good resolutions to old wounds heal. I see doors opening, and light coming in . . .
Thank you, those who have seen me lately for the gifts you've given, even if you haven't spoke to me . . . for you have not only changed one for the better, but have helped to pave the way . . .
May all have happiness and love in their lives . . . |
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On Tuesday, 3 / 28, I formally have put a trainning collar on Jovial Kytten to not only train her on the lifestyle, but in how to be a better person, how to present herself, and how to be as I see her as being, the caring, bright, warm, and loving person she is. She is mine until such time that it is decreed that it's best to help her find another. On that day, she has made me proud, honored, and passionate about one who I am protect to protect, to teach, to punish, and to train . . . |
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Last night, went to the 2nd of a new munch. Saw some regulars, even 2 who haven't been back in a loooonnnnggg time, and got to be introduced to a fellow person from collarme who decided to come to it. After reassuring some fears of the new, the evening was great . . .friendship, bonding, and even protecting from a potientially bad situation. More and more, the new munch is offering more and more opportunities . . . even a chance for those formerly at odds, to chat and to be friends again . . . |
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Last night had a munch, small number, only 18, but was fun and enjoyable to talk more with others of the area. In seeing others views and their personalities, it's rewarding to see that kind of mischief can occur LOL . . .
Today is the start of a 4 day off weekend for me, so, R&R is just what the Dr ordered . . LOL |
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Sunday, the 26th of Feb was my birthday, and I thought it would slide in and slide out with only a whisper . . . but 2 people made it worth having . . .
A Domme in the community remembered my birthday out of nowhere, and the e-card I got from her was beautiful. More and more, I get to where I have more appreciate and admiration for her . . .
A old high school friend who I now work with also pulled a rabbit out of her hat. At work, she got many folks I work with to sign a card, and got a large part of the store to sing to me, even pulled the surprise off without me knowing anything about it (a hard task indeed). Thank you for that, and for your heart which can't be beaten . . .
Thank you again for these 2, for without them, the 26th would have just been another day . . . |
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Yesterday 2/16, was the start of a good beginning . . .
Not only was a former stained friendship started to get patched, not only was I at an event to be able to Meet your Match within the lifestyle, but opportunities were offered to me that I was in awe of the gesture.
Friends that I have known for some time offered to help me in areas of my life in ways that I was looked for. They offered for that, for play, for things that are missing or needing development and I am starstruck by the kind and generous offer.
My faith in the people of the lifestyle has been renewed, and doors are open to me . . . Personal growth and wisdom can only come from this . . . :) |
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A new day, a new set of options . . . Time to go back to the tired and true way for me and treat people the way I want to be treated, with respect, with care, and with friendship. Old wounds may heal, opinions may change, and good impacts will be made. Time to lean a helping hand . . . |
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I've noticed several profiles that say that they are friendly, talkative, etc Here's the question in my mind - by what standard? Some who claim to be friendly will write you off at the first thing, others will only talk to their selected group and go out of their way to just say what is needed to those outside that group.
I guess such is life and such is the way that people view things. To one, a statement might be taken as a compliment, and to another an insult. Similar to the terms of "sub" "slave" "Master", etc within the lifestyle, we all have our own views and angles on that. It just helps whenever we find those of a similar wavelength as ourselves . . . |
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Went to the Meet in the Middle, got to see a former "bel" of mine and see that she's doing fairly well (althought she needs to rest . . . ) Saw 2 former friends that things were civil with. (Maybe one day, time can heal the wounds of the past). Even saw a "kitten" and hers that were civilly as well. With time, things might get back to normal.
In looking back, maybe I was wrong on some things, some reactions of shock, of being stunned, etc. Maybe instead of defending myself, I need to take a minute and breath before charging to the rescue or defending what is right to me. Maybe in going through less then ideal times, maturity and experience has taught me more then if I aced it the first time . . .
Oh well, the day we stop learning is the day we die, so at least I'm not dead yet :) |
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This weekend, I had a chance to meet Sir Dale and Lady D . . . I'm honored and in awe that I got that chance, and chance to talk and build a relationship with Lady D. Not only in having things in common, but in having a friendly connection in Altanta to be able to get together more. This weekend, was a good, and wonderful weekend . . . Thank you to whoever made it happen . . . |
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Today was a good day . . . had a luncheon with those that there was uneasyness with, that went well . . .I hope and pray that's a sign of peace down the road, but one day at a time . . .
Thank you person from Wade Hampton, and person from Easley for being civil as I know it was hard on you as well today . . . One day at a time, and with peace, maybe scars can heal . . . for I am truly sorry for things . . .
Thank you for a good day |
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After trying to mend fences, it seems that others would rather burn bridges . . . and to try to mend that would seem pointless . . .
Time to take each day, one day at a time, give ti the best I have, make the positive difference, and do what my heart leads me to . . .
To any and all I've upset or ever offended, I do apologize, and hope to earn your forgiveness one day . . . at my core, i'm not one to hurt, only one to heal . . . |
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First of the year, time to make a new way, and a new beginning . . . time to let walls and barriers down, time to forget old wounds, and to open possiblities again in hopes of new friendships.
For those that I was guarded and protective of myself against, I apologize from the heart, and from the soul.
I hope to earn your trust to be let into the friendships that were offered.
To those that I used to be so close to that have drifted so far away, as a friend, my door is open to you . . . one day, possibly, we could laugh together again . . .
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A new day, a new time and new friends to start a way . . . things are getting better . . .day by day |
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Recently, I've heard about changes that have happened in since my departure . . .some good, some shocking, some uncertain . . . then it hit me . . .like in Ferris Bueller, the thought of "Life's too fast, if you don't stop to look around once in a while, you could miss it" came to me . . . Starting first of the year, new attitudes and new dynamics will change for me. Last year at this time, I was told of a position I earned that I held dear. This year, let's see what good I can do when I put my mind to it, rather then react on good natured instinct . . .
Also, to my dear friend that I visited this weekend in Altanta . . . thanks . . .for just being you. We might disagree, we might not be right for each other, but we do make great friends . . . |
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Today I am missing an important Camp Out that I love so dear out of trying to do the right thing. Have been told by others I should be a part, should take my place of helping as I always have, but a vow and honor prevent me from doing that. Next year maybe things will change, maybe Camelot can exist in a different way with a different group. For now, things aren't as sunny . . . |
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It amazes me daily the amount of people that think that total servitude is giving just because of a "Lady, Mistress, Domme, etc" in front of a name. Thank goodness I was taught by the groups, but the elders of the local community in showing respect, giving respect and being able to weed out those that act from those that are. While for some, the acting is all they seek, for many true to the lifestyle, the whole package is much more attractive, much more owed respect for just their precense and character, and much more down to earth people who understand the need for questions in the beginning of any dynamic. |
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Rebuilding slowly, finding friends I didn't know I had, and others that I thoguht were friend to not say a word to me. Finding truth that I wasn't shown before, and how quickly the common place can be gone in an instant. Still looking for the right Domme, the one to give all I have for, the one to dream about and the one to be lost without. Anxious to meet those that I have contacted, those of character, and those of a kind heart. |
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Now that the chaos has silenced, the wounds are healing, and I'm trying to rebuild after former best friends rip everything away from me, I can move on with a different view. A little more careful of trusting, a little less naive, and a little more informed. What I built now, no one will be able to take from me.
As a result though, people came to my aid who I never thought would, asked me to be part of what I truly enjoyed again, and truth was told about those that I knew so well. While I may not be part of the groups longer, the friendships I have made, and the ones that came to my aid, truly are the ones worth keeping. Maybe next time, those I would gladly give my life for would be truly noble enough to understand the loyality, honor and faith placed in that . . . |
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Recently, my world was turned upside down . . . Groups I was a part of, I didn't feel okay going to, and friendships that I valued didn't seem to value mine in the same way . . . however, my faith in everything being okay was renewed . . .
Whenever a door closes, a window opens. I had a former Domme come back in my life, we talked, started to give it another go ahead, then she wanted to stay friends. 2 days later, the former love of my life came back, we've talked, and when I can, I'll be moving to the Phoneix or Baton Rogue area to be with her. I lost friendships that I valued, but found a relationship that was based on unbounded love . . .
Throughout the dark times, the bad times, the not-quite-what-you-would-like times, always remember: Good things will happen to you if you just wait for it. |
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Why is it that in course of being honorable, of trying to fix a hurt, in even trying to make things right, do people get lied to and told "What I said eariler, I mean the 180 of it"? Those that know ethics, that know compassion get used by those in need, and then tossed away when the need is over. Friends who say that they are there for you through thick and thin, brush off concerns you have, and tell you degrading remarks . . . where are all the honorable, noble, and dignified people in the world, or has the majority just become so self centered, that chivary and code of conducts have died with the dinosaurs? |
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Endings are never wanted, but are needed. Endings stop a current path and start a new way. Whenever somethign ends, the old is remembered, cherished, even loved. The new is created, kicking and screaming, and while the old is missed, the new starts to grow, starts to branch out, starts to mold. After a while, the the new is welcomed, accepted and embraced . . . Like all things, the cycle begins again . . . |
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Here's a thought provoking question of the day . . . Do you go after things in your heart, at the risk of losing those you hold dear, or do you embrace those you hold dear, and always long in your heart? Either way, you find things to get you through the day, but you're still missing a need that others don't want to touch on . . . . |
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| Age: 40 |
| Roseville,
California |
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