To those of you interested, yes, I am still under the control of Missy. She is the most perfect domme I can imagine. She is beautiful, demanding and severe. I want nothing more than to be owned by her for the rest of my life.

I do receive a lot of abusive messages. Male doms laugh at my silly penis and tell me I deserve whatever I get. Female dommes tell me I am weak and pathetic. Even other slaves will warn me that I am losing control and I am being exploited.

I accept the abuse because on the most part its true. I know I am quite inferior and Missy will almost certainly take everything and then reject me. If this is my destiny, so be it. I have low self esteem and as as Missy explains, there is nothing wrong with that as it reflects the reality of my life.

To those thinking I am a stupid loser and those laughing at my foolish predicament, please message me. I deserve the abuse and it amuses Missy (she has my password and regularly reviews my inbox).

To those subs and slaves considering financial service, I say do it! Accept it as your destiny and offer your money to one of the many beautiful financial dommes here on CollarMe. Admit you are inadequate and recognise the only value in your pants is your wallet. Dont think about the future, just get out your cards and spoil her. You dont deserve your money and you know she does. Let yourself go and experience the ultimate in submission.

This site has many awesome dommes (and trans-dommes) and i have spoken with several who could easily enslave a loser like me. Some have asked if i am still under the control of the beautiful young Missy. i am, very much so. At our last meeting in Sydney, Missy arranged for a shemale mistress to use me while She watched and, to my horror, took a number of photographs. She also set-up my laptop for teamviewer. i was a willing and grateful slave but also vulnerable.

i am now required to tribute each payday and Missy forwards all her bills for my attention. i have a strict orgasm routine but She encourages me to continue using this site and others to share my experience (and keep me frustrated).

Last week She forwarded Her boyfriends electricity bill to me. i had no choice but to deal with it without complaint.

This is intense, scary and pretty much exactly what i asked for. Anyone interested in my situation is welcome to contact me or you can just laugh at me for being such a pin-dicked loser.

Will tomorrow never come. i have resisted the urge to masturbate all week as Missy ordered. She has teased me constantly; emailing me porn links, sending me text messages at work and giving me hints as to the activities planned starting tomorrow. She has me by the balls and she knows it!

Three more sleeps until i get to see Missy again. i have given Her the money to cover expenses. i dont know what She has planned but i know it will be special.

To those who write telling me i am a pathetic loser - you are correct. But please dont criticise Missy. Sure she is greedy, bossy, self-centred and demanding but she is a Goddess and deserves to have everything she desires. If she chooses to exploit me so be it. If i can accept her absolute superiority, please try to do the same.

Missy has summoned me to visit Her next weekend. i am so excited that in eight days i will be in Her divine presence once again. She has ordered me to cease masturbating until i see Her again. We agreed a financial penalty should i fail. It will be a difficult week but i want to do my best for this perfect young Goddess.

Missy Asiana is the perfect Goddess.

For me, financial domination represents a genuine power exchange that cannot be achieved through submission alone. It starts with gifting and tributes but to be truly fulfilling to both the Mistress and Her slave, it needs to progress further. A defined tithing ritual is important - every pay check is an opportunity to give more. Some enjoy blackmail to ensure continued service but in my case it is about recognition of status and superiority. i think that ultimately, the Mistress should assume total control of a slaves finances. The risk for the slave is financial ruin - quite an incentive to serve with enthusiasm. Critics say financial domination is nothing more than greedy exploitation of the vulnerable - so what, i believe in evolution and survival of the fitest. Who am i to rebel against desitiny.

Missy has ordered me to make a journal entry to explain my fetish for financial domination and to reveal my darkest fantasies. i cannot refuse her instruction but i am fearful she will use it to increase her control over me. If you are interested, watch this space!

A few so-called subs have asked me how much it cost for my time with Missy and what I got from it. Some people just dont get it. i didnt "hire" Missy for a service. i didnt have any say in what we did and i certainly didnt have any sexual pleasure. i consider it a great honour to be in the company of one so beautiful and dominant.

After a couple of weeks of online communication (and a rather significant tribute) i think i have met the perfect Mistress. Missy is a beautiful and very dominant young lady. She was kind enough to visit Melbourne on Saturday. i met her at the airport in a luxury hire car and took her to her suite at Crown. Missy is an expert shopper and although my visa card took a serious hit, it was a great honour to follow her around and carry her shopping bags. Clothes, shoes, perfume, lingerie - all top of the line. She wants to take a weekend on the Goldcoast soon. i will be footing the bill (of course) but she has not yet decided if i get to join her.