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| When I was 10, I was in a car accident that caused damage to the part of my brain that controls movement. While I can walk some, I appear very awkward and struggle to go very far. I use a wheelchair to go any great distance. The coordination required for speaking is difficult for me. Those around me a lot have learned to recognize certain sounds, but most people that don't know me well just think I am making sounds. I have often been treated as mentally challenged because of my awkwardness and the difficulty understanding me. It's amazing how people talk slow and loud to you when they think you can't understand. It's amazing how they speak to those with you about you as if you wouldn't know what they are saying. I tell you all of this so there will be no surprises down the road.
While my body is a prison of it's own making, I have discovered there are some who actually find the struggle erotic, and who enjoy creating situations based on the struggle for their amusement. Oddly enough, I find it erotic to know they are taking delight in the struggle. I would love to find someone that appreciates me as I am, and what I am capable of (as well as enjoying the struggle of what I'm not capable of). I know how wrong some people think it is, and yet I have needs just like anyone else, and I find joy in surrender. If you understand and appreciate that, and can see past the shell - or better yet, enjoy it's built in limitations - I would love to get to know you.
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